When I stood on the pavement, at night, I realized that I had no ride. I didn't want to go back inside and face Natalie and Samantha with tears streaming down my face and smudged mascara. So, I took the only option I had, I started walking while furiously wiping my tears.
At this point, I didn't even know why I was crying. Was it because Harper just stole a kiss from me when I didn't even want it? But that couldn't be the reason, because it had already happened in school today. It wasn't with the same forcefulness, but still.
Was it because he thought it would be okay to kiss another girl before me and he thought I would never know and that I was just another one of his hookups? Was it because the kisses we shared did something to me whereas Harper just thought of me as another girl he could have sex with? I was so confused I don't even know the answer to my questions, right now. And I was not sure I wanted to know.
I heard the sound of a car honking beside me. I ignored it at first and hoped that the person sitting inside it would just take the hint and go their own way. But luck wasn't on my side tonight.
The side window went down and I turned around to see Aiden sitting in the driver's seat with a concerned expression. I honestly didn't know how to feel!
In a way, it was Aiden's fault that I was on the pavement in a dress while trying to walk in these heels. After all, he was the one who had told me where Harper was, and that was when the whole drama started. I knew I was being irrational but my exhausted mind couldn't come up with a better explanation.
Was I expecting Harper to come to me and give me a ride back home?! Be the gentleman I knew he wasn't?!
I sighed and crossed my arms over my chest. "What do you want, Aiden?"
If he saw my raccoon eyes, tear-stained cheeks, and shaking shoulders in the darkness, he didn't say anything and for that I was thankful. I would like to hold onto whatever was left of my pride.
"Zara, are you going to walk back to your house?" He asked me gently.
"I don't see how it's any of your business." I snapped and regretted it immediately. It was not Aiden's fault I was on a road, walking in my heels trying to get away from the party and Harper.
I was not a bitch to random people and I was not going to start now.
If he found my reply offensive, he didn't say anything. “Let me drop you. Your house is on the other side of the town. Please."
He was right. My house was literally on the other side of the town. I didn't even know how I thought I would be able to walk to my home. I didn't even take into account the heels I was wearing and that I didn't carry any money.
Even though I had my phone, I had no intention of calling either of my parents to come and pick me up. It was almost twelve and I wasn't ready for the onslaught of questions I would have to face if they ever saw me like this.
"Why are you even doing this?" I asked in a small voice.
"I wouldn't be able to sleep at night if I let you go like this. Alone and miserable. You don't deserve that. I am just happy to help." He smiled at me.
Releasing a breath, I resigned to my fate and got in the car.
"Thank you, Aiden."
He just smiled at me and nodded.
I wondered why a certain green-eyed boy couldn't be more considerate.
The ride back to my house was filled with silence. A silence that didn't need to be filled. Aiden understood I needed to be alone with my thoughts and take control of my emotions again. He didn't question me or ask me how I was doing, instead just drove silently.
When he parked the car in front of my home, he gave me a small smile. "Take care, Zara."
It didn't go unnoticed by me that he knew the address to my house without me telling him where to go. I was, honestly too drained to question him about his stalker tendencies.
"I will, thank you." I smiled at him, unbuckled my seat belt, and got out of the car.
Giving him a small wave, I unlocked the door to my house and walked in.
I could distinctly hear the sound of the TV in the living room and I knew both of my parents were awake and were watching some night show or something.
I didn't want to face them right now. Not when my makeup was a mess and clear signs were showing that I had been crying not too long ago.
The whole point of riding with Aiden was to evade the questions my parents would ask me if they saw me in such a state.
I planned to silently climb the stairs and make my way to my room. But surprise, surprise that didn't happen because before I even climbed the first step, Dad called out my name.
"Zara, is that you?"
"Um, yeah it's me." After crying, my voice became hoarse and scratchy and my parents knew it too. In a minute, both of my parents were standing under the archway of the living room side by side with worried and concerned expressions.
"Are you okay, Zara?"
"Yeah, mom." I cleared my throat to make it less scratchy. "I will be in my room." I gave them a small smile which felt more like a grimace to me.
Before they could say anything, I ran upstairs, slammed my bedroom door, and heaved a sigh of relief. I was not in the mood to give any explanations.
I walked into my en suite to wipe my makeup and change my clothes. I wanted to take a shower to wash out any remains of the party tonight, but I couldn't find the strength to do that just now. I quickly walked to my queen-sized bed and buried myself under my wine-colored duvet.
After about ten minutes, my door opened and a sliver of light crept into the room. Dad came inside, and with him followed my favorite fragrance: hot chocolate.
He usually knocks before entering my room but when he knows I am upset, he just walks in. He knows whenever I feel down, I am fully dressed and moping in my bed and won't open the door.
He swiftly crossed the room in calculated steps and reached my bed. My dad was a tall man, so much so that he had to pay extra money if he wanted a comfortable seat while traveling on a plane. Mom never fails to tease him whenever that happens.
I sat up on the bed, ready to drink the hot chocolate he made for me. He makes the best hot chocolates in the world. Whenever any of us had a bad day or got upset, he always made us hot chocolate. He is thoughtful that way.
My mom had other ways of coping with hormonal and distressed family members. She hugs them and listens to them patiently, before taking us out for our favorite treat.
My family is great that way.
I took the mug from his hands. He chuckled at my eagerness.
"Are you ok, Zara?"
I wondered how they decided which one of my parents would come and talk to me. The last time something like this happened, they played a game of rock, paper, and scissors. The thought brought a small smile to my face.
The best thing about my dad is that he knows exactly when to give space and what questions to ask. His soft blue looked at me with concern. The blue eyes I get from him.
I gave him another small smile and nodded my head.
"You know we are here for you, right? Whatever happens, you can always come and talk to your mother and me. We won't ever judge you."
"I know." I smiled brightly at the man who has been my hero ever since I could remember.
"Was it a boy?"
I hesitated before answering and looked down at the mug in my hands. I could never lie to him. He always had the uncanny ability to know whenever any of us lied.
He sighed. "I won't dictate your life, Zara. But I do trust that you will make the right decisions for yourself."
I nodded my head and gave him another smile. "You can trust me."
"I know, Zara. I know." He smiled back and kissed my forehead. "Good night, kiddo. Don't let these boys get to your head. They aren't worth it."
With that, he ruffled my hair and laughed at my annoyed expression. Giving me another kiss on the forehead, he walked out of my room.
What can I say, I am a daddy's girl!
***
The next day at school was pretty boring if I say so myself. I had bravely battled through three periods, keeping my head high and warding off any signs of sleep.
The downside with the last period before lunch was that I didn't have either of my friends in it. So, it had just changed from boring to super boring.
And the teacher, who I was pretty sure, was going through a mid-life crisis, was droning on and on about algebraic equations, which no one gives two shits about. Remind me why I thought taking AP English for my final year would be nice. Right, extra credit, of course!
I groaned.
Loudly.
Quite loudly.
So much so that the teacher stopped talking, the class was silent and everyone was looking directly at me.
Kill. Me. Now.
My cheeks burned from embarrassment at the sudden attention and I even heard a few snickers coming from the slackers seated in the back. I so wanted to glare at them but I refrained from doing so because I knew Mr. Andrews had something to say about the disruption. Great.
"Miss Hemming, is everything ok?" Mr. Andrews arched an eyebrow. If he was trying to look intimidating then I must say, he failed. A middle-aged man wearing khaki trousers with a pot belly could hardly look intimidating with a raised eyebrow.
Instead of telling him exactly that, I smiled inwardly as a plan began to form in my head.
I groaned again and clutched my stomach as if I was going to puke my guts out any second. "No, sir." Add a little stutter to make it a little more believable- stomach cramps."
He flushed in embarrassment. What is with guys evading the topic of us females bleeding?
But the sad part in me was enjoying his discomfort. He cleared his throat before speaking again. "Would you like to go to the nurse's office or perhaps the washroom, Ms. Hemming?"
"Yes, sir. Thank you, sir."
With that, I quickly gathered all my stuff, swung my bag on my shoulder, and walked briskly out of the classroom.
I lifted my hands in the air as a form of victory against boring classes, when the door of the classroom closed behind me.
I am an evil genius. Cue an evil laugh!
I roamed around the school hallways, carefully avoiding the hall monitor of the school.
The halls were pretty much deserted because all the students were in their respective classes and didn't have the right motivation to bunk them.
I headed to my locker, dumping my books and taking whatever I would need for lunch and the period after that.
In a way, it was soothing to find the hallways empty, when usually all one could see was people bustling and elbowing their way in a desperate attempt to get to their classes.
Taking note that I still had some time left, I walked slowly towards the girl's washroom. I could touch up my very basic makeup and check my messages while I was there.
I occupied one of the stalls and did my business.
Suddenly, the doors to the washroom opened and someone walked in. I couldn't hear the click-clack sound of heels, so I was pretty sure it was not some diva girl who would eat my brains about some new fashion trend she read somewhere in a magazine. Girls in my school were weird that way.
I opened the door of the stall and walked out, ready for some quiet time knowing the girl outside, most probably clad in sneakers or flat bellies, wouldn't trouble me with mindless chatter.
But when I came out I saw someone who I would have never talked to anyway and didn't belong. At all. At least not in the girl's bathroom.
I stood there with my hand stretched towards the tap to wash my hands when I looked sideways to find Harper Cain standing in the girl's washroom and looking at me with an unreadable expression.
I have had it with his intense expressions. Snapping out of my daze, I glared at him.
After crying because of him yesterday night, I resolved to revert to my previous self who wouldn't give Harper the time of his day.
"Can I help you?" I could hear the ice in my tone and I was sure he didn't miss it too.
He took a deep breath before opening and closing his mouth several times.
"Look, I don't care for your apologies because-"
"I, Harper Daniel Cain reject you, Zara Sophia Hemming, as my mate." His expression changed to one of immense pain as soon as the words left his mouth and his features distorted into one of utmost despair.
And with that, he barged out of the washroom leaving me behind, with my jaw hanging open.
Naturally, several questions sprang up in my mind.
How did he even know my middle name?
How did he have the nerve to enter a girl's washroom?
What the hell is a mate?
And last but the most important question in my head was, what the fuck just happened?
"Ok, you have stalled long enough. Now you will tell us what happened!" Samantha's voice was determined like her whole personality. Samantha and Natalie sat down across from me on the cafeteria table.I cringed. I had been trying to escape my inquisitive friends since yesterday night. They had no idea why I left them at the party when we were supposed to have fun. They had no idea who dropped me and why I ran away in the first place.I didn't pick up their calls yesterday night, hoping they would think that I had fallen asleep. And in school, I evaded them in the two classes I shared with them.But now I had no choice. I had to tell them. I have never hidden anything from them in all the years we have been friends and the guilt had been weighing me down. Taking a deep breath, I looked up from my plate of spaghetti and meatballs to meet the eyes of my two best friends.They looked at me expectantly and I started telling them everything. About Aiden telling me where to find Harper, to
It has been two weeks since Harper's birthday and everything had returned to the way it used to be.Harper had gone back to his ways of groping and sleeping around, with anything that walks and has a vagina. He has an insatiable appetite, I swear. He has been ignoring me. I had no idea why, though. Before he was just oblivious to my existence, but now, he was avoiding me. He practically ran the other way whenever we happened to be in the same hallway.I didn't miss the way he looked at me when he thought I wasn't aware he was around. Well, whenever his mouth wasn't attached to someone else's.I had realized that Harper was not the man for me. Man-whore is not my type. I think I got upset at his birthday party because he took me for granted and while I was sure he felt nothing during the kisses we shared, I did feel something. The kiss was passionate and the best kiss I had ever had. But I was happy that things were back to the way they were. Uncomplicated and simple. I had started
I took my bag and changed out of my uniform as Stephanie took charge behind the counter. I sent a quick goodbye to Monique and Antony. I thought I would be at Natalie's house for the sleepover by 8 but I was running a little late.I wasn't worried about the fact that I didn't have clothes with me, I would just borrow Natalie's. I got in my car and started driving towards Natalie's house. I had to give my details to the security man posted at the gate of the colony Natalie lived in. The same colony where Harper lives.Why does this colony even need security guards?! It was not as if Arada was full of cutthroats and criminals.I parked in Natalie's driveway.Her house held a modern yet conservative touch to it. With light cream walls and two huge pillars supporting the patio, the house was simply magnificent. The wide garden wrapped around the house and gave it a soothing aura. The house consisted of two floors and many rooms, all brilliantly furnished.I knocked at the door, waiting f
I was floating and falling.Ugh! Not again. I had been having the same dream every other night now and it was becoming a nuisance because in the end, I always woke up in the middle of the night after experiencing a terrible headache and then, I would have trouble going back to sleep again.It was the same every time.Falling and floating.Not being able to feel anything at all.Being surrounded by darkness. No, not darkness. Blackness. Utter and complete blackness.Then, being thrust in a direction.The thrusting ceased and my body lay still.Then came the falling and the fear of crashing down and never waking up again.And then came the soft touch of grass on my bare skin.As I lay on the grass, I waited for the headache to come and split up my skull.But it never came. That's how far the dreams had progressed every time.I gently peeled my eyes open expecting nothing but blackness to greet me.It was dark alright, but not black. I could see for a few meters ahead of me and I could e
It has been five days and I have had the same dream, about the woman in white, asking me to stop Harper from 'making the mistake of his life by marking another female'. I felt like I was watching a video play, again and again.It was Thursday today and the dream had plagued all my waking thoughts, the image of the white woman practically begging me to stop Harper.At first, I simply thought that it was just a dream but as the days passed and I saw the same dream every night, my gut told me that I had to follow the white lady's instructions. Something in my being wanted to follow her directions. I didn't have a reasonable explanation for this feeling but it has created a dominating presence in my life these days.Ironically, it seemed Harper was too close and yet too far.He had gone back to making out with girls in full force. Whenever I saw him, he had a girl on his arm and was thus unapproachable.I was quite hesitant about approaching him in the first place. I didn't want him to th
I hadn't even taken three steps toward the cash register when a hand latched around my elbow, preventing me from taking another step.I didn't need to know who the hand belonged to; I knew it was Harper. Though, how did he digest whatever I told him so soon, was beyond me. How did he react so soon and even get up to grab my arm? Stupid football players and their reflexes."What did you just say?" Harper hissed in my ear, too low for anyone else to hear. There was nobody in the bakery. The teen couple who had been sitting had long gone after leaving a generous tip, Stephanie still hadn't come out from the back and Monique and Antony rarely came out in the front. I was at his mercy now. Great! Just my luck!"I know you heard me, Harper." My voice was so small and quiet, I didn't even recognize it. Something in Harper right now terrified me and I simply didn't want to anger him.I couldn't even look at him right now, I was just looking towards the doors hoping someone would come in the
I hate Harper because he always brought out a weak side of me, a side I have never been fond of. I have always been proud of the fact that I could school my emotions and stand tall whenever a problem came my way.But with him, all this control somehow goes down the drain. I never considered myself a control freak and I never wanted people to bow down to me, or listen to every word I say. The only thing I wanted was to never appear weak in front of anyone. I never wanted anyone to emotionally exploit me or know what was going on in my head.In short, I never wanted to be vulnerable in front of anyone. People take advantage of you if they come to know about the chinks in your armor and I didn't want that. I wasn't a superhero; I knew I had weaknesses but that doesn't mean I was keen on showing them to anyone. I would much rather prefer to don a carefree and strong mask like everyone else in the world.I rarely cried in front of anyone or because of anyone's actions. Well, except Harper.
He left me there, in the living room, alone, with a thousand unanswered questions of my own. I didn't expect more from him and I was glad that this would be the last encounter we would have with each other.I turned around to see Sam and Nat standing in the doorway of the living room, looking expectantly at me."You were listening through the keyhole, weren't you?" I asked softly, afraid of their answer. Did they hear about the dreams that I had been having? They frantically shook their heads and I smiled at the sight.I sighed and moved towards one of the couches. I sat down and pulled my knees to my chest, waiting for the both of them to sit down.They both walked in and took their seats in front of me."What happened?" Sam asked, concern evident in her voice."Honestly, I don't know." There were too many unanswered questions and theories for me to comprehend. "What did he tell you when he came here?"They looked at each other and shifted uncomfortably in their seats."It's a littl
Bonus Chapter: Natalie's POVI knew something was wrong when I didn't get my period for two months. I never had a smooth cycle so I wasn't troubled when they didn't happen the first time but their absence in the second consecutive month got me worried. My body had undergone certain changes I knew weren't normal and I was worrying myself to death, thinking about some kind of deadly disease that would kill me in a few months. Even though I knew that my immunity system was way better than a normal human's, I couldn't help but entertain such thoughts. I didn't tell anyone of my concerns as I didn't want anyone to worry because of my baseless concerns. Nonetheless, I booked the first possible appointment with the pack gynaecologist. I had prepared myself for everything, a tumour in my ovary, internal hemorrhaging of my uterus that would result in an immediate hysterectomy, or even breast cancer which would again lead to a complete mammectomy. But as I sat in front of the doctor and she ex
Bonus Chapter: Ethan's POVWhen you grow up as a werewolf, all you ever hear is the word 'mate', because people around you can't stop talking about them. Some elders talk about mates with a dazed but happy look in their eyes and you can easily tell how much they love their mates. When young people talked to mates, you could practically feel their longing and the love they had for their mates. When teenagers talk about mates, you can feel their desperation to find their mates and be one with them. Rejections in my pack were extremely rare and every werewolf lived happily ever after with their fated mates. There were no doubts, no questions asked because your mate could be the exact fit of your soul, your second half, and the one who you are supposed to live as long as you live. Growing up and watching my parents and pack members, this is all I had watched and learned, that a mate was for you to love, hold and protect till the end of your days. When you're brought up like that, the ide
EPILOGUE 3: HARPER'S POV (TEN YEARS LATER)It was three years ago when Mason was first teased by a classmate about the unusual arrangement of his parents. I had always known that as he was growing up, he became especially attuned to the fact that the way his family lived wasn't exactly normal by usual standards. There were so many unusual factors that they were bound to seem different to him and I wasn't exactly prepared for how Mason was coping with how different his family seemed to be from any other family in the pack. As the future alpha, it was essential to be a part of the pack because other people were often intimidated by the power you had and by the power you would have in the future. My father always taught me to be a part of the pack but always remember that you could never essentially be a part of the pack. And this is exactly what I had taught Mason to do; I had asked him to play with all the other wolf kids but always remember that in the future, he will be responsible
Epilogue 2: Zara's POVI could feel everyone's eyes on me, which instantly made me nervous. I hated feeling this way but I wasn't sure I could help it. I hated being the centre of attention and walking down an aisle and standing in front of all the pack members to take part in the Luna ceremony was exactly that, being the centre of attention. Harper had told me that since I was the true luna of the pack, the ceremony would be a little different and I wasn't sure how that would affect me as I hadn't exactly attended Natalie's ceremony. I weakly smiled at all the pack members assembled in the pack grounds and started walking down the aisle towards the raised stage at the front of the pack. I was barefoot to pay homage to the natural aspect of the pack and to respect the raw nature of the wolves. The grass was soft beneath my feet and I immediately compared the softness to the grass in the spirit world where I used to meet the moon goddess. Harper had instructed me to not look around an
Epilogue: Zara's POVA blush immediately coated my cheeks as I slowly woke up from my deep slumber. The bed felt too cosy and I couldn't help but snuggle against Harper's body. His amazing body heat and the tingles that danced all over my skin whenever we touched made me let out a deep, sleepy moan. I felt Harper stir beside me and felt his arm settle on my bare hip, eliciting a heady warmth to settle deep in my belly. His thumb gently caressed my hip bone and I moved closer to him, determined to have as much skin contact as possible and leave no space between us. Harper's scent surrounded me, which brought an involuntary sleepy smile to my face. Even with my eyes closed, I could picture Harper's slightly upturned nose as he slept. It was too hard to resist his adorable expressions so most of the time, I didn't even try. My head rested on his shoulder and my face settled in the crook of his neck. Without needing to open my eyes, I leaned forward and planted an open-mouthed kiss on Ha
I thought about it for so many months, because the act of being marked by Harper seemed final. It felt like a full stop and in a way, it was final, an end. I knew the meaning of being marked even before I had decided to go away when I had learned of Natalie's pregnancy. I had asked him to mark me so many months ago and he had refused. It seemed so long ago, Aiden's birthday party when he found out that Samantha was his mate. So much has happened since then, things that have made me value the most precious things in life, let go of grudges, and the importance of relationships. After all, I have been through, I believe I have grown as a person. Not just me either, I know that all of us, Harper, Natalie, Samantha, and Aiden have grown up and matured in a way that most eighteen-year-olds don't. Well, Natalie is nineteen years old and so is Harper, as of today. So, I want to stress the fact that the decision to mate with Harper wasn't a light one even though I know most people wouldn't s
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~ Harper’s POV~"You do realize that to break the bond between us, either one of us will have to complete the mating process and mark our mates," I remarked and watched as Natalie nodded her head in acknowledgment. We had just gotten back after performing the final rites of the pack warriors who had lost their lives from the battle with the rogues. Needless to say, we needed some time to regain our bearings before we mingled with the rest of the world. I had done it before when my father was fighting for his life and I still found it jarring to my being, to perform the final rites of the werewolves who lose their lives. I couldn't imagine how Natalie must be feeling as it was her first time dealing with this ceremony. And hopefully, the last time. "I know," she said and we didn't speak for a few moments. I sincerely hoped that it would get easier with time, performing this ritual. It certainly hurt more when I knew that the pack members were paying for the mistakes my father committe
When I came to my senses, I immediately knew that Harper wasn't in the bed with me. I had lost consciousness when I was engulfed in his body heat, with his arms wrapped around me. The loss of his presence was so pronounced that I didn't want to open my eyes. It felt like he was the only reason I wasn't emotionally breaking down right now. A very big part of me wanted to be near him right now and the fact that he wasn't here with me disappointed me a lot. Even in my dreams, I had expected him to be here with me, helping me get over my loss. I wanted to never open my eyes and I was glad the room was shrouded in darkness. My neck prickled in awareness and I became aware of someone sitting in the room and even though, the threat of the rogues was over, I suddenly felt unsafe. "I know you are awake, Zara." I recognized that voice and the fear immediately abated. I opened my eyes and got up in a seating position. I leaned against the headboard and regarded the figure of the soft figure of