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Chapter 157: Unspoken Fears (Katelyn's POV)
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As I finished taking the tests, I headed out of the bathroom, carefully setting them all out on the bed as Ryder watched me. I tried not to look at the results just yet, not wanting to get myself into a state when I knew there was a possibility that what they reflected now may not be the actual result. I needed to exercise patience and allow them the necessary time to provide the most accurate results possible, which, under the circumstances, was no easy feat."We have to wait a few minutes," I said, glancing up at Ryder.My heart was pounding so furiously that I worried I might have a heart attack. Ryder watched me with concern as I paced back and forth in the room, my anxiety reaching its peak. This was it. My answers were sitting right there on the bed. All I had to do was wait a few more seconds, then I would allow myself to look and then I could deal with whatever the results were.The alarm I had set on my phone went off, jolting me out of my anxious reverie.I hurried back ove
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Ryder and I remained on my bed, both sitting quietly, feeling the awkwardness growing between us. I couldn't stand it anymore, so I got up and began clearing the used pregnancy tests.Ryder watched me, looking like he wanted to say something else, but he never did.When I was done throwing the tests in the trash, I turned to him. "Do you want a cup of coffee or something?" I offered.He hesitated for a moment, then nodded. "Coffee sounds good."We headed to the kitchen together, still not saying much to one another. I told him I would make the coffee, so he said thanks and went and took a seat on the other side of the kitchen island, watching me.When the coffee was ready, I went over and handed him his mug, then I leaned against the counter beside him, sipping my own."After the morning I've had, it feels like this coffee needs a little something extra," I joked, attempting to lighten the mood.Ryder chuckled. "I was thinking the same thing."The awkwardness was still there, but we w
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I hesitated. I wanted answers, but the experience was jarring every single time and left me feeling uncomfortable."Don't you want to know what it's all about?" Ryder went on, the hint of a challenge in his voice."Obviously I do... but... I dunno, it makes me feel weird," I explained."Yeah, that's no lie, but I think it's kinda worth it. This is pretty amazing. I wonder how it works?" he asked himself out loud.I took a deep breath and nodded. "Okay... I guess," I replied unenthusiastically. "Can we sit on the floor though? Maybe that will help with the falling feeling. It makes me feel kinda sick," I suggested hopefully. It reminded me of that sinking feeling you get in your stomach when something bad happens."Sure," Ryder agreed with an excited smile. "Let's go to the lounge then."We abandoned our coffee mugs, the drinks now all but cold and forgotten, and headed to the lounge. Ryder led the way, his eagerness and enthusiasm not lost on me.Taking a seat on the floor between th
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The sensation was different this time. Instead of feeling like I was falling backward through the floor, it felt like I was being sucked through a black hole. It was a tug that seemed to emanate from my chest and pulled me forward violently through space and time. It felt similar to the way the tide seemed to pull at me when Tyler and I stood on the shore, allowing the waves to ebb and flow over our feet, only about a million times more powerful.Suddenly, I found myself in what appeared to be Ryder's bedroom, but the vision was blurry this time, not clear like the others had been. Ryder stood at my side, his image the only thing that was clear and crisp as his hand clutched mine while his chest heaved slightly. Clearly the slip had taken a physical toll on him too."Why's it so blurry?" he asked, looking around the room with confusion.It was kind of like everything was covered by a veil of some sort, or there was a weird layer of frosted glass that separated us from our surroundings
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"I think I... I think I'm going to lie down for a bit," I said, still feeling the aftereffects of the vision.I needed to put some distance between myself and Ryder. Everything was happening so fast, and I wasn't ready for it. I still needed time to process. I wasn't even sure that things between him and me could ever be the same again, but to be thrown into situation after situation where it felt like everything was okay, but I knew it wasn't, was confusing and disorienting.Ryder took the hint and said, "I've got work to do anyway, but call me if you need anything."He headed back to his studio, leaving me alone with my thoughts. Once he was gone, I groaned and knocked my head against the bathroom wall behind me. I felt so torn and confused.It was one thing when the visions were of memories, but visions of the future were something else entirely. It gave me that weird uncanny feeling, like I was seeing something I wasn't supposed to.Still, I wasn't sure why this was happening. I s
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Tyler and I headed to the kitchen to make dinner. He asked me what I felt like eating and I shrugged. "Anything, I'm starving," I admitted. "I nearly lost my breakfast after the earlier visions and felt so nauseous afterward that I skipped lunch."Tyler nodded and gave me a pitiful look. "Okay, let's make something quick and easy so that we can get you fed and then we can get started on our research."I agreed, eager to find answers, but also to eat.We settled on a quick and easy mac and cheese made from a box. It wasn't the most wholesome meal, but it checked all the boxes.Tyler was stirring a pot on the stove when I leaned against the counter beside him and asked, "So, let's think about this... What do we know so far?"Tyler began, "Well, I guess we know that the visions seem to include at least one of the people involved, so it would appear that it's, like, projecting the memories of one of the participants at any given time."I nodded in agreement. "Except for when they aren't me
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Tyler shook his head. "I wanna do some research on the internet first, see if we can find anything else there before we take on another practical experiment," he explained.I shrugged, figuring that wasn't the worst idea. "Suppose that's fair," I agreed.I wasn't ready to chance another vision like the one Ryder and I had shared, and I also wasn't particularly keen to watch Ryder and Tyler staring into one another's eyes for hours waiting for something to happen. A bit of research sounded like a far more productive option."Well, in that case, I'm gonna leave you guys to it," Ryder announced, standing up and collecting our empty plates. "Can't say I've ever been any good at that type of stuff. I've got some work to finish anyway, but let me know if there's anything I can do to help," he finished loading the plates dishwasher.After Ryder had vacated the room, I turned to look at Tyler. He was taking a sip of his drink with that same sour expression on his face that I had seen earlier.
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The next day, Tyler had classes even though it was a Saturday, but fortunately, he would be finishing reasonably early. I kissed him goodbye and then headed to the kitchen in search of coffee.As I sat at the kitchen island, sipping on my coffee and scrolling through my phone, Ryder wandered in, half asleep. We greeted each other, both sounding tired and groggy as Ryder began to make himself a cup of coffee.He took a seat beside me and asked, "Did you guys find anything last night?"I shook my head. "Not really. We found some stuff, but nothing that seemed to link to our specific experiences."I went on to explain the findings about shared consciousness and possible future visions, though none of it gave us the concrete answers we were searching for.Ryder nodded thoughtfully, taking a sip of his coffee. "Do you want to try again?" he asked after a moment of silence.I hesitated, feeling the weight of our previous attempt. But considering there were no other avenues of theoretical re
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