NALANI It was as if I had been struck by a tidal wave. It seemed like there was a laser torturing my eyelids that instead of opening my eyes, I just closed it tightly because of the glary light from the bulb. The softness of the bed was unfamiliar to me—I immediately understood that I was not in my own bed. I buried my face in the pillow and suddenly someone tapped my butt and Esther's voice dominated, "I don't want to wish you good morning because I'm mad. So get up, the food is ready."My head lifted automatically and I felt the free touched of air on my skin inside the blanket, for me to realize that I wasn't wearing anything. I slowly looked at myself inside and yeah, I'm naked. But I'm not drunk enough to not remember everything that happened. But Ross is not here, where is he?But my cousin said coldly, "I'll wait for you outside." She was upset, maybe because she knew that I gave myself to Ross? I winced, but when my memory returned to what we did; how he kissed me, how he moa
NALANII don't know what they mean. It's obvious that they are talking about something that only they know, and even if I strain my brain to understand the conversation, it's still useless. Esther also seems to have recovered immediately from whatever kind of magic this witch did to her. It's obvious from her actions that she doesn't underestimate the ability of this woman she called Dollera. Especially with every step she took slowly closer to us while Esther pushes me backwards, she's so scary—my stomach keep crunching."I didn't intend to hurt your mate, Esther, but it's not my fault if he's the cousin of the Alpha who killed my sister." She's really referring to Travis and if she was the one who provided the clock for him, Alpha Liam should know this. But why did she mentioning the mate? Does she mean that Travis is Esther's mate? It seems that I have found another confusing thing. New day, new decipher. But Esther hisses and bravely retorted, "You know, that his cousin wasn't t
NALANIStaring at his Hazel nut eyes that seemed to be gradually losing their hue, the spark between us cools, and it is replaced by pain, but even so, I'm still hoping to receive a yes but unfortunately, he said, "No."My heart bleeds painfully. In front of him my tears rolled down my cheeks. I looked down, trying to accept the rejection even though of all the rejections, I received the worst—I got fucked before being rejected— but he explained, "The situation is too complicated. I have many reasons why no. First, you are not safe to be near me. I'm losing my abilities, there is an issue in my situation, and I can't protect you. Secondly, you didn't remember anything, I don't know what you wanted to do for me. And another thing, what if, you're planning to kill me, and you'll regret of loving me that'll lead you to hate yourself?"I looked up at him and hurriedly shook my head to get rid those wrong conclusions in his mind but he ignored my gesture and went on, "I don't want you to b
NALANI Because of the never-ending topic about the issue and everyone is obviously tired, Ross and Travis decide to meditate together—they haven't talked about it but they both seem to need it and are right in the middle of an awkward situation. It's like, they're having a hard time restoring their old friendship that was broken caused by the resentment that they finally chose to put aside; I can see that they are trying to get used to each other's presence. They both sat at each end of the couch left and right. Both were looking at their hands with the same gesture resting on the arm panel of the couch; tap, dash, tap, dash. Not sure if they were like this before but from what I noticed, it seems that they were having a conversation through those gestures. Weird. I just approached the round table and took the kit on it while they stayed in that position but their index fingers were still doing the same thing. I just took a deep breath and shook my head. Heading to the divider that
NALANI I was filled with excitement when he asked me for a date but when he said at Lily's night party; birthday party and initiation, that excitement diminished a bit. But, it's okay, at least for that night, I was his partner. Lily didn't seem to know that there was a big surprise for her tonight. Everyone kept it a secret from her to maybe make that moment more memorable. I still haven't fulfilled my promise to her. I don't know if I still know how to paint an image but Ross is right, I can try again. Everyone is buckled down to their priorities today. I also thought of Alpha Liam dealing with multi-tasking especially since he has something to take care of with Elphaba and I'm sure he won't set Lily's birthday party aside. About Travis and Esther, they let me to be with Ross alone for the reason that they have something to take care of. I think they have someone to meet, that only they know. I was also hearing something in their conversation where the words, 'it's her,' 'let me
NALANI He was just joking, I know. I waited for him to say 'kidding' but after a few seconds of hugging him, I didn't hear anything. I was forced to distance myself and let my feet touch the floor. Looking into his eyes, it was far from before; I don't see any sadness, or anger, it was filled with, desires, pleasure and love.He seemed to want to take advantage of what I said. His eyes flickered on my lips, whilst I was memorizing every corner of his face; from the perfect shape of his brows, hazel nut eyes currently fantasizing my lips as if begging me for the freedom to possess it, even though that chance was already in his hands.It's like he was drawn by an expert artist. It seems that his face has become my favorite view. A feeling of affection radiated throughout me. This caused my vulva to throb, and as it became constant, something was slowly leaking out of it. When he bent down, my desire to possess his lips dominated until he applied them to mine and began to possess it.Th
NALANI I want to say the first question besides the 'are you sure' but I see the way he exhales through his lips, I see fear in his eyes. I already got some clues earlier, all that is needed is the clarification. What dominates me now is conscience for whatever Art did. But I'm also afraid of knowing what Ross did to me back then that I can't remember.What if, he hurt me? What if I was really imprisoned in that cell, full of dust, with chains on my ankles and wrists like an animal? If it is him the one holding that whip, how? He's my mate.I heaved a sigh, afraid that maybe it was him, and the posible grudge I would feel. I love him, and if he did something wrong to me before, that I will definitely be hurt, have hatred towards him, I will find out about it at the right time. It would be better if I remembered everything."Yes, it's your right. I don't want to be selfish anymore." He looked down at the floor. He took a deep breath carrying the fear in his heart. Obviously, he is afr
NALANI If I have learned anything from Esther and that is to not judge on the spot. So I didn't give a final judge on what he did. It's clear that envy prevailed in him and he doesn't want to see me happy with my father despite the mistake my brother made with him. I can't blame him if he became selfish in his mindset. He is not always like that. Especially now that even though it was difficult on his part, he chose to let me know everything. I was the one who interrupted the conversation about that matter. I don't want his heart to be tortured by doing this just because of my right. It's hard to ignore the truth, yes, but I'll set it aside for now, even the things he said makes my heart bleed.Imagine, we have a perfect family based on the story. We used to have a lot of fun. From our parents, the relationship is strong and he and I are mates. Art became his best friend older brother, he was treated as a son by my father as his dad did the same to me. Me and his mother are close to