I hate parties, I am not much of a social butterfly so I am left alone in the corner, holding a flute glass of champagne and sipping slowly. My mind raced back to the moment when Ian made me crazy a few minutes ago, even thinking of that my heart was pounding.
If this continues I swear I gonna faint any minute. My thoughts got snapped when I felt a sharp pain in my anklet, it's getting hurt cause of these damn heels.My attention turned to the podium when the host voiced, "Welcome Ladies and gentlemen Let's begin this wonderful party with dance". With that, all lights were turned dim, a romantic melody playing in the background. Even so, no one got on the dance floor.My wandering eyes got blind when the spotlight fell on me. I raised my hand to block the bright light. Before I got used to its brightness, I heard Adam's voice "Can I have a dance Stef?". I don't know why Adam asked me for a dance instead of John but I didn't want to be rude so I gave in my hand to his extended hand.Adam placed my hand on his shoulder, he took my left hand in his right hand, placed his free hand on my back and we moved slowly along with the melody. He smiled warmly. In a minute. Many couples joined. John came to us, then he asked for my hand, and Adam gave me to him. Then we both danced. I was so happy to dance with John.Before we stopped, Akin swayed me in his arms I danced with him, then continued with Ares, he moved very elegantly I was not a match for him somewhat managed to dance with him.Then in a minute, Ho Sung pulled me for the dance, he was only just a little higher than me while all other men who were six feet and above were there so I felt comfortable with him.Then Mosu picked my hand for a dance and in a few moments, Rohit danced with me. Then Lei placed his hands on my shoulder we danced something different. Igot tired so I walked to bar counter to get a drink, a small smile crept on my red-painted lips at the thought, 'After all a party is not that bad'. I felt someone tapped my shoulder.I turned, and once my gaze fell on Ian my heart picked up its speed, I felt so nervous, my palms were getting wet from so much sweating, and my legs getting weak and chilly. At this point, I think I will lose my grip. Before anything clumsy happened Ian voiced with his extended tattooed hand, "Can I?".Here goes my heart, literally felt like it stopped. I licked my lips, nodded my head stiffly, and gave in my hand. He gently grabbed it and pulled me close by my waist. I felt I was electrified, I literally could feel sparks when my front pressed on his hard chest.Again his scent drove me nuts. I felt it was very familiar to me. Before my mind went way blank, he took my free hand placed on his shoulder, then intertwined our fingers, it fits exactly like a missed puzzle. My spine tingled with this exotic feeling.Ian placed his free hand on my back, not like everyone but on a very lower part, just a few mear inches above my ass bump. When he pressed our bodies together, I shuddered which made his lips curl into ugly smirk.I didn't like the way he eyeing me but when he moved our pressed bodies to dance floor, I felt my body temperature rise to two degrees. He swayed our bodies together. Yep, I totally lost all control over my body.He is the one carrying me by holding tight to my waist. When he chins down, I chin up to meet his eyes like a instinct. He had a pair of dark charcoal orbs that I wanted to disappear in but it didn't show as much emotion as I wished, his pierced left brow was raised like he was asking what I wanted. So far, I have crossed many handsome men, today I have met the world's famous models, actors, and business tycoons who are hot and handsome, and David is so hot and much more bluff than Ian but why would I feel this much pull towards this stranger who just I met only a few times.My thought train halted when Ian was leaning and closing the gap between us slowly by dancing together. He stopped when there were only inches between us. I feel his breath which smells of wine and mint fanning my parted lips.Here goes my heart again trying to kill me. I can't take this anymore so I closed my eyes expecting his wonderful slender coral pink pierced lips on my plump one but none. After a brief moment, I opened my eyes to meet his empty eyes eyeing me with an emotion that I couldn't decipher.Our trance snapped when the music was stopped. The spotlight too went off. Reality slapped my face and he rejected me now. I felt so embarrassed. Ian pulled back and walked away. I regret closing my eyes. Before I drown into self pity party I heard the piano playing in the background.I snapped my neck in search of the source, the spotlight was on someone who showing his back at the exit. I frowned and in a second that person turned my eyes went wide cause it was David. I wonder what he is doing here. He was holding a red rose bouquet, walking towards me. I smiled at him.Once he reached me, suddenly he knelt before me. My eyes went wide with his action. I didn't expect this. I can't utter a word, my feet were glued to the floor. Then he voiced "Chérie. Please it's been a long time since we started dating. I believe I did my best to be your boyfriend. If you agree to be mine I will do my best of best to cherish you for the rest of my life. Will, you marry me?".I don't know what to say. He did and doing his best but I don't know whether I deserve him or not. And one important thing is I didn't feel the spark and pull with David that I felt with Ian.But who am I kidding I met Ian only twice and know nothing about him but David gave me a new life, been with me all the hard times I went through if I rejected him, it would be unfair. So I nodded my head slowly and got the bouquet from him.David stood on his feet, pulled my shoulders, leaned forward to my face, and voiced with a smile, "Finally you are mine". With that, he placed his lips on mine. I didn't feel my heart racing or the anxiety I felt with Ian's presence.It was a peck at first then he nibbled my upper lips, I didn't return his kiss so in a few seconds, he pulled away. We heard lots of applause around us. Again the melody began to play, David knelt and asked for my hand, I gave in, he kissed my knuckles, and we danced together.In the end, he kissed me, again I couldn't get into the kiss so it ended soon. When the lights turned bright. I let my eyes wander around in search of Ian but he is nowhere in sight.David, voiced, "Let's move Cherie" With that we walked to the podium where the cake was ready. Adam cut the cake we wished him and all wished us to be engaged. We had dinner together. Still, I can't get a glimpse of Ian.My heart is longing for his presence and it aches I don't know why. While I was killing my food with a fork. David asked, "Chérie something wrong? You look bothered". I faked a smile and replied, "Nothing Dav I am fine."He smiled and kissed my template. Two minutes later David's phone buzzed, he fished out his phone from his jacket's inner pocket and once he eyed the display his eyes went wide. He turned to me and said, "Chérie I am sorry it's time to leave for me. Our new client from China is landing so I gonna receive them. Do you mind?"I shook my head no and said "It's ok Dav I am fine." He smiled warmly and said, "Thanks, Chérie. I will pick up you tomorrow morning. Hmm?". I nodded my head, he pecked on my lips and left.After dinner, I went to the garden which is also decorated with sparkling fairy lights. I sat on the bench where we usually spend evening time wherever we visit here and removed my heels it's hurt so much with all dancing. I bent half to massage my own feet and I hissed in pain.My eyes met a dresser shoe so I chin up to know the owner. It's him, Ian. He was holding a comfy white canvas in his index and forefinger. He gave me a tight lip smile. My heart raced again when he knelt before me without minding the dirty floor and placed the canvas beside him.This time I felt like my heart gonna jump out of me. He grabbed my left anklet gently. I flinched when his warm palm touched my foot. I tried to pull off my leg but he tightened his grip. I frowned, he placed my foot on his thick thigh and massaged it with his long thick fingers and warm palm.It felt so good. I threw my head back slightly and caged my lips in between my teeth to bite back a moan which tried to escape but I moaned when he pressed his fingers behind my ankelt.He suddenly stopped, I guess by hearing me so I opened my eyes to meet his but he hunged his head down so I didn't know what he thinking or feeling. I again try to pull back my feet. He refused to let it go and continued massaging for another minute.Then he put the comfy canvas on my feet. He slowly grabbed my other foot and did the same. The shoes fit me perfectly. I swung my feet and said, " It fits me perfectly". He smiled sadly and said, "I guess it returned to its home". I was confused by his words so I voiced "Huh?".He shook his head slowly, stood on his feet, sat beside me at a safe distance, sighed softly, and said "Congratulations Miss. Joshua". I don't know why my heart felt heavy. without a word again I dissolved into his onyx orbs again like I was searching something in them. Ian snapped me out by saying, "You look so beautiful."I smiled bitterly and said, "I am not as beautiful as you see Mr. Alexis". He smiled and said, "No need to be formal. Just use my name". I smiled at him and said, "Of course, your name sticks into my heart well so it's easy".With that, we both smiled wide. His smile made his beautiful eyes disappear into his cheekbones and showed his front teeth a little high. I was mesmerized again, gradually our smiles were wiped out, and we stared at one another like we were the only two in this world.I was hypnotized by his charm. He scooted closer and leaned in to fill the gap between us. I knew what was next but I didn't intend to stop like I was waited for this moment for so long. This time I didn't close my eyes.I saw how he placed his wet lips on mine. I shuddered when I felt the tiny cold metal on my hot awaited lips. He slowly nibbled my upper lips, I nibbled his lower lips. It felt so good and familiar to me.In seconds he sucked my lips. I let out a soft moan, he used the opportunity and shoved his tongue into my mouth. I too let mine into his mouth to explore more. He grabbed my waist and placed me in his lap.I snaked my arms around his neck, tugged my fingers in his soft long raven hair, and gripped it like my life depended on it. I move my lips in sync. When he sucked my tongue, I felt so wet. I began to grind like instinct on his lap.He pressed my nape to get closer and held my waist tight with another freehand to stop my movement. Once we were out of breath we parted from one another to catch oxygen to fill our empty lungs so we both were panting.I was still in a daze so I was sitting in his lap. I felt safe and secure in his arms. I rested my head on the crook of his neck and inhaled his addictive smelt. It was really comfortable.Ian too buried his face into my neck, inhaled deep and whispered "I missed this." I chin up with a frown after hearing his words. Before I question anything my phone buzzed so I flipped it to eye the display, it showed David's photo denoting that he was calling.I gasped, reality came back like a truck to crush me to ground. I got up abruptly from Ian's lap and said "Sorry Mr. Alexis. I have to go". Before he spoke, I ran far away from him without taking my heart with me.I drove back to our apartment alone. I knew John would stay back with Adam since it was his birthday. I also didn't mind to inform them of my goodbye. My body and mind both were so exhausted by the thoughts of Ian. It's been only a few hours since I got engaged still I cheated on my fiancee, what cheap character have I evolved? I still can't believe what I did with Ian. But why? I knew him barely and I did something intimate with him. I have known David for years, he has been nothing but a gentleman and the perfect boyfriend to me but I can't even kiss him properly on the day we got engaged. With these thoughts, I reached my apartment and opened the door using code. Once I walked in I removed my shoes, and my mind injected his words 'It returned to its place' I wondered what he meant. I dusted the shoes, stuffed them into a box put them on the top shelf.I strolled to the living room and plopped on the couch. After a while, I dragged my lazy self to my room, discarded the clothes we
I opened my heavy eyelids deliberately to adjust the brightness of the room. I let my wandering eyes in search of the faces I knew. Not really, I searched for the particular person who occupied my mind a lot lately, Ian. I can't find him, not only him but anyone. Who am I kidding, a guy who met me just thrice will wait beside my bed for me to wake up. I let out a soft scoff. Suddenly the door opened wide and walked in David. Once his gaze met mine. He smiled warmly. I returned his gesture. He rushed to me, grabbed my hand, and said "I was scared, chérie. What happened? You were out for three days." My eyes went wide with a gasp when I heard David's words. I wonder why I would be out for three days. David shook my shoulders gently. I snap back to reality. He creased my cheeck gently and said, "I will notify Dr.Ben. Hmm?" I nodded my head and he left the room. I was thinking about the possibilities like why is this happening so often and intense nowadays. After a minute John strolle
It's been a month since I found out the savior of my life, whom I trusted the most just used me as a money-making machine. I felt betrayed. All I do for the last four weeks is just get drunk and knock out. My heart hurt not because I broke up with him but the feeling that I was fooled by him and allowed him to use me. I hate myself for being this dumb. As usual, I take my favorite tequila shots in broad daylight. My thoughts were snapped by the sound of my door slamming. I chin up, my hazy eyes meet my bestie who is always right about David. He sat next to me and stared at me skeptically. I scoffed, "What?" John sighed, "That's what I am asking, WHAT?". I sharply took a deep breath, "You know John". He shook his head in disbelief and asked "Can I ask you something?" I just hummed so he continued "But.. You should be honest with your answer" I just nodded my head. He shooted, "Do you love David?"I made a pause, and after two minutes of deep silence I replied, "NO but I trusted him b
At the airport, I am waiting for the announcement of my flight. There came my bestie, John and Adam. They both hugged me, I was engulfed in two giant men. Then David came with my colleagues. All gave warm hugs and wishes. Still, John can't digest I forgave David. I waved bye to them and entered the departure lounge. After a long tiring flight travel, I arrived at the Airport. I walked to the exit. I just wore blue faded jeans, a white v-neck sleeve top a leather jacket with sunglasses in my white leather golden chained cluster. I was too exhausted so I walked towards the exit expecting someone to collect me. As expected there was a cute girl, just 5 feet, and chubby compared to me not fat though, holding my nameplate and checking her wristwatch.She was wearing a white button-up shirt unearned in a black blazer with a black pencil skirt and her hair in a low bun. I walked toward her, and once she realized I walked towards her, she smiled warmly making my heart ease. I tried to smile
We reached the group of three hot men. Once they saw me they stood straight from their seats and smiled warmly. Cindy pointed to a young man who was looking with a little attitude as well as charm and introduced "Stef this is Mr. Bryan Vachirawit". He extended his hand and said "Nice to meet you, Miss. Joshua" I shook his hand gently and said, "Me too Mr. Vachirawit". Then Cindy pointed to the guy next to him who was also tall, and fairer, with a bright smile that his small eyes disappeared into his cheekbones and introduced "This is Mr. Wade Metawin".He too extended his hand, shook gently, and said "It's good to meet you, Miss Joshua". I smiled and said, "It's very wonderful to know you Mr. Metawin". Then Cindy pointed to the last person who was tallest and bulky with definite jawlines and said "This is Mr. Joss Wayar". He extended his hand and shook my hands firmly. I like his confidence. He said, " Nice to meet you, Miss. Joshua". I smiled and said, "Pleasure is mine Mr. Wayar".
I was so happy that I came here, all the employees stuck with me well. I was enjoying these new settings in my life. I befriended all. I even became close with four male models when I went to confirm the dates for the photoshoot with them. Glen texted me daily as he has known me for ages, I like that. I thought I got another John here. By the way, it's hard to explain Mr. Alexis's case he generally ignored me. When I called him for date confirmation his manager answered the call and said he was busy, and he was also the one who confirmed the date for him. I brushed off the thought of him and continued my work with the public relations(PR) department. When I returned to my office Cindy was waiting for me.Once I saw her, I smiled warmly, she smiled and asked "Shall we go for lunch Stef?" I went closer to her ear and asked "Are you asking me for a date Chubby?" By wiggling my brows. She stepped back in a second her face flushed, she smiled awkwardly and said "No". I smiled at her red
It's again a beautiful morning with blissful coffee. I am eyeing how the mix of orange and yellow sun rays painted the Eiffel Tower golden. With deep breaths, as usual, my mind ran a series of questions like Where am I from? Who am I? What's my name? Still no answers. It's my daily routine to think about myself why? Cause I can't remember anything. Yep, Anterograde amnesia. I always wonder what kind of life I lived before. It's not like I am not happy with my current life, I have everything I want around me like a job, friends, a lover, and all but I always have this hole in my heart like it wanted to be filled. I don't know what am I searching for. I have many good people who love me here but what's the question is they love the real me or the person whom they see or we say the person I portray them to see me as? The truth is, even I don't know the real me. The moment I recovered from a coma four years ago, all I feel is blank, numb, and hollow in my soul. Later, I got to know I w
I groaned a little and opened my heavy eyelids slowly. I felt a sharp pain in my head so I hissed and rubbed my eyes to adjust my vision which was still a little blur. My sight got a glimpse of David resting his head in bed near my torso and holding my hand.The one who gave me a second chance at everything in my life. My whole existence is because of him, if he didn't come to the cafe that day I don't know what I would be doing now. He is the man of all girl's dreams. He is simply hot, handsome, and most importantly my boyfriend. He asked me out even before my plastic surgery, I don't know why and what he sees in me. Whenever I asked him he said he didn't love me for my looks but for my heart. I still feel insecure, maybe inferiority would be the exact word to describe my mindset. Before my surgery, I thought of myself as too low even though I was good at my work. I never thought of being in a relationship or that's what I said to myself. I never showed my face to anyone before su
I was so happy that I came here, all the employees stuck with me well. I was enjoying these new settings in my life. I befriended all. I even became close with four male models when I went to confirm the dates for the photoshoot with them. Glen texted me daily as he has known me for ages, I like that. I thought I got another John here. By the way, it's hard to explain Mr. Alexis's case he generally ignored me. When I called him for date confirmation his manager answered the call and said he was busy, and he was also the one who confirmed the date for him. I brushed off the thought of him and continued my work with the public relations(PR) department. When I returned to my office Cindy was waiting for me.Once I saw her, I smiled warmly, she smiled and asked "Shall we go for lunch Stef?" I went closer to her ear and asked "Are you asking me for a date Chubby?" By wiggling my brows. She stepped back in a second her face flushed, she smiled awkwardly and said "No". I smiled at her red
We reached the group of three hot men. Once they saw me they stood straight from their seats and smiled warmly. Cindy pointed to a young man who was looking with a little attitude as well as charm and introduced "Stef this is Mr. Bryan Vachirawit". He extended his hand and said "Nice to meet you, Miss. Joshua" I shook his hand gently and said, "Me too Mr. Vachirawit". Then Cindy pointed to the guy next to him who was also tall, and fairer, with a bright smile that his small eyes disappeared into his cheekbones and introduced "This is Mr. Wade Metawin".He too extended his hand, shook gently, and said "It's good to meet you, Miss Joshua". I smiled and said, "It's very wonderful to know you Mr. Metawin". Then Cindy pointed to the last person who was tallest and bulky with definite jawlines and said "This is Mr. Joss Wayar". He extended his hand and shook my hands firmly. I like his confidence. He said, " Nice to meet you, Miss. Joshua". I smiled and said, "Pleasure is mine Mr. Wayar".
At the airport, I am waiting for the announcement of my flight. There came my bestie, John and Adam. They both hugged me, I was engulfed in two giant men. Then David came with my colleagues. All gave warm hugs and wishes. Still, John can't digest I forgave David. I waved bye to them and entered the departure lounge. After a long tiring flight travel, I arrived at the Airport. I walked to the exit. I just wore blue faded jeans, a white v-neck sleeve top a leather jacket with sunglasses in my white leather golden chained cluster. I was too exhausted so I walked towards the exit expecting someone to collect me. As expected there was a cute girl, just 5 feet, and chubby compared to me not fat though, holding my nameplate and checking her wristwatch.She was wearing a white button-up shirt unearned in a black blazer with a black pencil skirt and her hair in a low bun. I walked toward her, and once she realized I walked towards her, she smiled warmly making my heart ease. I tried to smile
It's been a month since I found out the savior of my life, whom I trusted the most just used me as a money-making machine. I felt betrayed. All I do for the last four weeks is just get drunk and knock out. My heart hurt not because I broke up with him but the feeling that I was fooled by him and allowed him to use me. I hate myself for being this dumb. As usual, I take my favorite tequila shots in broad daylight. My thoughts were snapped by the sound of my door slamming. I chin up, my hazy eyes meet my bestie who is always right about David. He sat next to me and stared at me skeptically. I scoffed, "What?" John sighed, "That's what I am asking, WHAT?". I sharply took a deep breath, "You know John". He shook his head in disbelief and asked "Can I ask you something?" I just hummed so he continued "But.. You should be honest with your answer" I just nodded my head. He shooted, "Do you love David?"I made a pause, and after two minutes of deep silence I replied, "NO but I trusted him b
I opened my heavy eyelids deliberately to adjust the brightness of the room. I let my wandering eyes in search of the faces I knew. Not really, I searched for the particular person who occupied my mind a lot lately, Ian. I can't find him, not only him but anyone. Who am I kidding, a guy who met me just thrice will wait beside my bed for me to wake up. I let out a soft scoff. Suddenly the door opened wide and walked in David. Once his gaze met mine. He smiled warmly. I returned his gesture. He rushed to me, grabbed my hand, and said "I was scared, chérie. What happened? You were out for three days." My eyes went wide with a gasp when I heard David's words. I wonder why I would be out for three days. David shook my shoulders gently. I snap back to reality. He creased my cheeck gently and said, "I will notify Dr.Ben. Hmm?" I nodded my head and he left the room. I was thinking about the possibilities like why is this happening so often and intense nowadays. After a minute John strolle
I drove back to our apartment alone. I knew John would stay back with Adam since it was his birthday. I also didn't mind to inform them of my goodbye. My body and mind both were so exhausted by the thoughts of Ian. It's been only a few hours since I got engaged still I cheated on my fiancee, what cheap character have I evolved? I still can't believe what I did with Ian. But why? I knew him barely and I did something intimate with him. I have known David for years, he has been nothing but a gentleman and the perfect boyfriend to me but I can't even kiss him properly on the day we got engaged. With these thoughts, I reached my apartment and opened the door using code. Once I walked in I removed my shoes, and my mind injected his words 'It returned to its place' I wondered what he meant. I dusted the shoes, stuffed them into a box put them on the top shelf.I strolled to the living room and plopped on the couch. After a while, I dragged my lazy self to my room, discarded the clothes we
I hate parties, I am not much of a social butterfly so I am left alone in the corner, holding a flute glass of champagne and sipping slowly. My mind raced back to the moment when Ian made me crazy a few minutes ago, even thinking of that my heart was pounding. If this continues I swear I gonna faint any minute. My thoughts got snapped when I felt a sharp pain in my anklet, it's getting hurt cause of these damn heels. My attention turned to the podium when the host voiced, "Welcome Ladies and gentlemen Let's begin this wonderful party with dance". With that, all lights were turned dim, a romantic melody playing in the background. Even so, no one got on the dance floor. My wandering eyes got blind when the spotlight fell on me. I raised my hand to block the bright light. Before I got used to its brightness, I heard Adam's voice "Can I have a dance Stef?". I don't know why Adam asked me for a dance instead of John but I didn't want to be rude so I gave in my hand to his extended hand.
It's been a week since the hospital incident. I got busy with my new project. As usual, I drown myself in work. David fly to Las Vegas for a new contract. His company has expanded widely within these three years. He won the Best Entrepreneur award last year, he deserves it cause he worked hard for it. John was so excited about his boyfriend's birthday party tonight. I know I promised him to tag along but I prefer home better. If I chicken out now John will tear me apart so no choice left. And what's the most irritating thing is the makeover. I hate that. Even my mind jumbling about the party tonight I was still preparing a report for this week. John sneaks into my cabin. Even when I noticed it, I acted clueless and glued my gaze to screen. He closed my eyes with his palm, I tsked my tongue and removed his hands. He scoffed and voiced in annoyed tone, "It's already late bitch. Come on let's leave. Don't you remember today's party?" I sighed lightly, turned towards him, and asked, "D
I groaned a little and opened my heavy eyelids slowly. I felt a sharp pain in my head so I hissed and rubbed my eyes to adjust my vision which was still a little blur. My sight got a glimpse of David resting his head in bed near my torso and holding my hand.The one who gave me a second chance at everything in my life. My whole existence is because of him, if he didn't come to the cafe that day I don't know what I would be doing now. He is the man of all girl's dreams. He is simply hot, handsome, and most importantly my boyfriend. He asked me out even before my plastic surgery, I don't know why and what he sees in me. Whenever I asked him he said he didn't love me for my looks but for my heart. I still feel insecure, maybe inferiority would be the exact word to describe my mindset. Before my surgery, I thought of myself as too low even though I was good at my work. I never thought of being in a relationship or that's what I said to myself. I never showed my face to anyone before su