I opened my heavy eyelids deliberately to adjust the brightness of the room. I let my wandering eyes in search of the faces I knew. Not really, I searched for the particular person who occupied my mind a lot lately, Ian.
I can't find him, not only him but anyone. Who am I kidding, a guy who met me just thrice will wait beside my bed for me to wake up. I let out a soft scoff. Suddenly the door opened wide and walked in David. Once his gaze met mine. He smiled warmly.I returned his gesture. He rushed to me, grabbed my hand, and said "I was scared, chérie. What happened? You were out for three days."My eyes went wide with a gasp when I heard David's words. I wonder why I would be out for three days. David shook my shoulders gently. I snap back to reality. He creased my cheeck gently and said, "I will notify Dr.Ben. Hmm?" I nodded my head and he left the room.I was thinking about the possibilities like why is this happening so often and intense nowadays. After a minute John strolled in with an annoyed face to pull me out of my thought train. He sat next to me, hugged me tight, and said "Thank God you are safe." Then he parted from me and said with a deep frown, "But you know what, I hate you. Cockblocker bitch".I chuckled at his words. I know what he means. The day I fainted is when John is supposed to be with Adam in his mansion. I leaned to John's ear and asked " Where is Ian?". He was about to answer me but David returned with Dr. Ben.He checked my pulse, vitals, BP, and other necessary checkups. He is the doctor who attending to me since I was admitted for the first time I fainted three years ago, he knows every single medical history of mine in and out. He was also there when I got plastic surgery and skin whitening in case something went wrong. Caisy my psychiatrist followed in.Ben asked, "How do you feel now Stef?" I just hummed and answered "Fine". Then Caisy voiced "Stef I.." Before she continued I said, "I don't want to Caisy". She sighed and said, " I know. Then don't appear in front of us for a while". I chuckled and said, "ok".Once my doctors left, David walked down to the office to settle the payments while John was with me packing all things to deport. The nurse helped me to get rid of the IV unit. When we are about to wrap up. John voiced "Ian flew back to New York. He is the one who called me and admitted you to the hospital".By hearing John I don't know what to think or say. He narrowed his brows and asked, "May I know why he was in our apartment in that late hours and how the fuck he knows your phone password?" I gasped and turned to him and asked, "He what?"John nodded his head and said, "He called me from your phone" I was taken aback by this new info before we persisted this talk, David returned to get back to us. He took care of me for a few days with care. I felt so bad about what I was about to do to him so I decided to drop out all thoughts of that stranger Ian.Soon everything went to its place. I drowned myself in our new project to distract myself from Ian. Even when I decided to forget him, he was the one who always occupied my mind no matter what. I do feel guilty thinking about another man while I am engaged to another. David was busy with business extensions in foreign countries.After Three Months.I almost forgot the guy who messed up with my mind and heart. My new project was a huge success, that made an uproar in the technology world. David was so happy. His shares went high, which means to peak. He became the top ten billionaires in our country.It's been almost two months since we both met, we two were so busy with our work. He was returning from Switzerland tomorrow. I want to surprise him, cause so far I never initiated anything with him like gifts, open talk, kiss even physical touch but now he is my fiance and soon going to be my husband so I feel like I should try.We didn't even go on a proper date after we got engaged. I felt so guilty for getting attracted to another guy. I want to do something special for David and I decided to arrange a candle night dinner with an open theater in the garden of David's mansion.I was mentally prepared to give myself to him. It's not the first time we had sex, we had a handful of times but I never engaged myself deeply, this time I gonna initiate it and enjoy the feeling of love I deserve to feel with my fiance and I know he waited patiently for me so long too.I was so excited about my date with David tomorrow. I needed help to make myself good for the surprise so here I was in the spa with my bestie. We both were lying on the spa bed, two wonder female staff massaging our backs. John moaned and voiced, "So, you forgot that hottie?"I groaned and replied, "Will you ever drop that bitch. It's just a phase nothing else" he huffed and said, "If you say so" Then we continue it with the sauna, manicure, pedicure, haircut, face treatment, etc.We had lunch and went shopping. John dragged me first to Victoria's Secret, he insisted me get some sexy lingerie to spice things up. Then we went to get some new dresses, I picked a red, knee-length, frill, sleeveless dress for the date. John picked me a black crop top and a white plaid skirt with black thigh stockings for my special night with David.He got something for him too then when we were about to depart, he dragged me to the corner shop. I walked in without seeing the name of the shop but I gasped when I eyed sex toys. I felt my cheeck blare, John chuckled and said, "Chill dude, we came just to get you a chocker"I gave a curt nod so he walked in, I waited for a minute but he didn't return so I strolled in and eyed different types of dildos, vibrates, massagers, and all.I crossed that aisle and turned, my heart stopped when my gaze fell on a mannequin with a black leather corset and a see-through lace bra, it had black fishnet stockings and see-through black lace panties. A black blinder, furry handcuffs, a chocker with a ring in center.My stomach did some flips, not because I was aroused but feeling of nostalgia. I am sure I didn't even know a thing about BDSM but how could I have such a feeling? Wait a damn minute! Did I have a BDSM relationship before my accident? The back of my head felt a sharp pain. I hissed before I fainted John yelled, "Stef" so I turned to see him running towards me.Once he reached me he asked, "Where have you gone?" I shrugged my shoulders and said, "Just eyeing" he smirked and asked, "Why? Wanna get something" I scoffed and said, "You bet" With that, we paid for that choker and walked out. Later that night we had take-out food and closed our day.Next morning before I got up John left for his cruise date with Adam. I did my morning routines, put on the red dress, and a little makeup, and went to the office. I know he will visit the office first whenever he returns from a foreign country.Today is Sunday so there is no one here, I have keys and know every password for this building so entering David's office is never been a big deal for me. Once I walked in, I hid behind the curtain. I heard the door opening sound. I was about to reveal myself but stopped when I heard a girl's voice."So baby where are we flying next time?" I heard David's reply, "Shall we explore Asian countries?". The girl giggled and answered, "Of course baby". She continued "Baby how long that bitch gonna stick around?". David sighed, and I slightly peeked out. I saw David pulling a tan-skinned, blonde, curvy, long legs, sexy girl onto his lap. She perfectly fixed herself on his crochet like a missed puzzle.David voiced "Baby, we live this luxury because of her. If we let her slip, we will be the ones suffering. So endure it. She is just a money-making machine". The girl pecked a kiss on his lips and said "I know baby but that costs me to live in shadows and that sucks cause I miss you so much. I don't want to be away from you even for a minute."David kissed her passionately and then said, "Don't worry baby she might be a public show off but you are the one I love and you know that."That girl sighed softly and said, "I know baby but. I am worried about you." David frowned and asked, "Why is that?" she pout and said, "About how you bearing with that basic bitch. That ugly shit doesn't look better even after the surgery."David laughed at the girl's words like she said some brilliant stuff and said, "Don't underestimate her baby. You know Akin the fashion world monster. He asked her to join with him in his modeling team". That girl's eyes bulged out, and she gasped and yelled "WHAT!!?? I can't believe Akin asked her to join his team. I tried twenty auditions for joining his team. What did he see in that bitch? I am sure she tried to open her legs for him"David hugged her tight and said, "It's okay baby I will do anything in my power to help you. By the way, It's getting late so I gonna meet Stef. You better go and take a rest. Next week we gonna explore Asian countries. Hmm?". That girl squealed, "Ok baby." She kissed David got up from his lap, and was about to leave.I felt so suffocating that I couldn't breathe, my world almost stopped, and I froze up there. I don't know what to think. I felt numb. My body doesn't react to anything. I forgot everything around me. I walked forward, I felt something stopping me from moving forward. I heard faint voices, and my vision got blurry. I can't take another step. I heard a loud beep in my ear.Finally, I heard David's voice, STEFANA!! I snapped back and turned around, my heart was pounding fast and ached like it was torn up from me. I felt betrayed but that's not the problem, the whole situation looked so familiar to me.I took a deep breath and pulled my arm from his grip. He was taken aback by my action. I stood straight wiped my tears roughly and said in a stern cold tone, "Mr.David Carter, I resigned from your company, and Dav I broke up with you. It's all over so don't you ever show up in my life anymore. Goodbye". With that, I removed my engagement ring and threw it at his face.He was speechless by me. Even I didn't expect I would talk to him like this. I walked out of his company where I worked my ass out for the last three years. I didn't know where I was going, I let my legs take me to wander along the busy street of Paris. And I felt this was not the first I was like this.It's been a month since I found out the savior of my life, whom I trusted the most just used me as a money-making machine. I felt betrayed. All I do for the last four weeks is just get drunk and knock out. My heart hurt not because I broke up with him but the feeling that I was fooled by him and allowed him to use me. I hate myself for being this dumb. As usual, I take my favorite tequila shots in broad daylight. My thoughts were snapped by the sound of my door slamming. I chin up, my hazy eyes meet my bestie who is always right about David. He sat next to me and stared at me skeptically. I scoffed, "What?" John sighed, "That's what I am asking, WHAT?". I sharply took a deep breath, "You know John". He shook his head in disbelief and asked "Can I ask you something?" I just hummed so he continued "But.. You should be honest with your answer" I just nodded my head. He shooted, "Do you love David?"I made a pause, and after two minutes of deep silence I replied, "NO but I trusted him b
At the airport, I am waiting for the announcement of my flight. There came my bestie, John and Adam. They both hugged me, I was engulfed in two giant men. Then David came with my colleagues. All gave warm hugs and wishes. Still, John can't digest I forgave David. I waved bye to them and entered the departure lounge. After a long tiring flight travel, I arrived at the Airport. I walked to the exit. I just wore blue faded jeans, a white v-neck sleeve top a leather jacket with sunglasses in my white leather golden chained cluster. I was too exhausted so I walked towards the exit expecting someone to collect me. As expected there was a cute girl, just 5 feet, and chubby compared to me not fat though, holding my nameplate and checking her wristwatch.She was wearing a white button-up shirt unearned in a black blazer with a black pencil skirt and her hair in a low bun. I walked toward her, and once she realized I walked towards her, she smiled warmly making my heart ease. I tried to smile
We reached the group of three hot men. Once they saw me they stood straight from their seats and smiled warmly. Cindy pointed to a young man who was looking with a little attitude as well as charm and introduced "Stef this is Mr. Bryan Vachirawit". He extended his hand and said "Nice to meet you, Miss. Joshua" I shook his hand gently and said, "Me too Mr. Vachirawit". Then Cindy pointed to the guy next to him who was also tall, and fairer, with a bright smile that his small eyes disappeared into his cheekbones and introduced "This is Mr. Wade Metawin".He too extended his hand, shook gently, and said "It's good to meet you, Miss Joshua". I smiled and said, "It's very wonderful to know you Mr. Metawin". Then Cindy pointed to the last person who was tallest and bulky with definite jawlines and said "This is Mr. Joss Wayar". He extended his hand and shook my hands firmly. I like his confidence. He said, " Nice to meet you, Miss. Joshua". I smiled and said, "Pleasure is mine Mr. Wayar".
I was so happy that I came here, all the employees stuck with me well. I was enjoying these new settings in my life. I befriended all. I even became close with four male models when I went to confirm the dates for the photoshoot with them. Glen texted me daily as he has known me for ages, I like that. I thought I got another John here. By the way, it's hard to explain Mr. Alexis's case he generally ignored me. When I called him for date confirmation his manager answered the call and said he was busy, and he was also the one who confirmed the date for him. I brushed off the thought of him and continued my work with the public relations(PR) department. When I returned to my office Cindy was waiting for me.Once I saw her, I smiled warmly, she smiled and asked "Shall we go for lunch Stef?" I went closer to her ear and asked "Are you asking me for a date Chubby?" By wiggling my brows. She stepped back in a second her face flushed, she smiled awkwardly and said "No". I smiled at her red
It's again a beautiful morning with blissful coffee. I am eyeing how the mix of orange and yellow sun rays painted the Eiffel Tower golden. With deep breaths, as usual, my mind ran a series of questions like Where am I from? Who am I? What's my name? Still no answers. It's my daily routine to think about myself why? Cause I can't remember anything. Yep, Anterograde amnesia. I always wonder what kind of life I lived before. It's not like I am not happy with my current life, I have everything I want around me like a job, friends, a lover, and all but I always have this hole in my heart like it wanted to be filled. I don't know what am I searching for. I have many good people who love me here but what's the question is they love the real me or the person whom they see or we say the person I portray them to see me as? The truth is, even I don't know the real me. The moment I recovered from a coma four years ago, all I feel is blank, numb, and hollow in my soul. Later, I got to know I w
I groaned a little and opened my heavy eyelids slowly. I felt a sharp pain in my head so I hissed and rubbed my eyes to adjust my vision which was still a little blur. My sight got a glimpse of David resting his head in bed near my torso and holding my hand.The one who gave me a second chance at everything in my life. My whole existence is because of him, if he didn't come to the cafe that day I don't know what I would be doing now. He is the man of all girl's dreams. He is simply hot, handsome, and most importantly my boyfriend. He asked me out even before my plastic surgery, I don't know why and what he sees in me. Whenever I asked him he said he didn't love me for my looks but for my heart. I still feel insecure, maybe inferiority would be the exact word to describe my mindset. Before my surgery, I thought of myself as too low even though I was good at my work. I never thought of being in a relationship or that's what I said to myself. I never showed my face to anyone before su
It's been a week since the hospital incident. I got busy with my new project. As usual, I drown myself in work. David fly to Las Vegas for a new contract. His company has expanded widely within these three years. He won the Best Entrepreneur award last year, he deserves it cause he worked hard for it. John was so excited about his boyfriend's birthday party tonight. I know I promised him to tag along but I prefer home better. If I chicken out now John will tear me apart so no choice left. And what's the most irritating thing is the makeover. I hate that. Even my mind jumbling about the party tonight I was still preparing a report for this week. John sneaks into my cabin. Even when I noticed it, I acted clueless and glued my gaze to screen. He closed my eyes with his palm, I tsked my tongue and removed his hands. He scoffed and voiced in annoyed tone, "It's already late bitch. Come on let's leave. Don't you remember today's party?" I sighed lightly, turned towards him, and asked, "D
I hate parties, I am not much of a social butterfly so I am left alone in the corner, holding a flute glass of champagne and sipping slowly. My mind raced back to the moment when Ian made me crazy a few minutes ago, even thinking of that my heart was pounding. If this continues I swear I gonna faint any minute. My thoughts got snapped when I felt a sharp pain in my anklet, it's getting hurt cause of these damn heels. My attention turned to the podium when the host voiced, "Welcome Ladies and gentlemen Let's begin this wonderful party with dance". With that, all lights were turned dim, a romantic melody playing in the background. Even so, no one got on the dance floor. My wandering eyes got blind when the spotlight fell on me. I raised my hand to block the bright light. Before I got used to its brightness, I heard Adam's voice "Can I have a dance Stef?". I don't know why Adam asked me for a dance instead of John but I didn't want to be rude so I gave in my hand to his extended hand.
I was so happy that I came here, all the employees stuck with me well. I was enjoying these new settings in my life. I befriended all. I even became close with four male models when I went to confirm the dates for the photoshoot with them. Glen texted me daily as he has known me for ages, I like that. I thought I got another John here. By the way, it's hard to explain Mr. Alexis's case he generally ignored me. When I called him for date confirmation his manager answered the call and said he was busy, and he was also the one who confirmed the date for him. I brushed off the thought of him and continued my work with the public relations(PR) department. When I returned to my office Cindy was waiting for me.Once I saw her, I smiled warmly, she smiled and asked "Shall we go for lunch Stef?" I went closer to her ear and asked "Are you asking me for a date Chubby?" By wiggling my brows. She stepped back in a second her face flushed, she smiled awkwardly and said "No". I smiled at her red
We reached the group of three hot men. Once they saw me they stood straight from their seats and smiled warmly. Cindy pointed to a young man who was looking with a little attitude as well as charm and introduced "Stef this is Mr. Bryan Vachirawit". He extended his hand and said "Nice to meet you, Miss. Joshua" I shook his hand gently and said, "Me too Mr. Vachirawit". Then Cindy pointed to the guy next to him who was also tall, and fairer, with a bright smile that his small eyes disappeared into his cheekbones and introduced "This is Mr. Wade Metawin".He too extended his hand, shook gently, and said "It's good to meet you, Miss Joshua". I smiled and said, "It's very wonderful to know you Mr. Metawin". Then Cindy pointed to the last person who was tallest and bulky with definite jawlines and said "This is Mr. Joss Wayar". He extended his hand and shook my hands firmly. I like his confidence. He said, " Nice to meet you, Miss. Joshua". I smiled and said, "Pleasure is mine Mr. Wayar".
At the airport, I am waiting for the announcement of my flight. There came my bestie, John and Adam. They both hugged me, I was engulfed in two giant men. Then David came with my colleagues. All gave warm hugs and wishes. Still, John can't digest I forgave David. I waved bye to them and entered the departure lounge. After a long tiring flight travel, I arrived at the Airport. I walked to the exit. I just wore blue faded jeans, a white v-neck sleeve top a leather jacket with sunglasses in my white leather golden chained cluster. I was too exhausted so I walked towards the exit expecting someone to collect me. As expected there was a cute girl, just 5 feet, and chubby compared to me not fat though, holding my nameplate and checking her wristwatch.She was wearing a white button-up shirt unearned in a black blazer with a black pencil skirt and her hair in a low bun. I walked toward her, and once she realized I walked towards her, she smiled warmly making my heart ease. I tried to smile
It's been a month since I found out the savior of my life, whom I trusted the most just used me as a money-making machine. I felt betrayed. All I do for the last four weeks is just get drunk and knock out. My heart hurt not because I broke up with him but the feeling that I was fooled by him and allowed him to use me. I hate myself for being this dumb. As usual, I take my favorite tequila shots in broad daylight. My thoughts were snapped by the sound of my door slamming. I chin up, my hazy eyes meet my bestie who is always right about David. He sat next to me and stared at me skeptically. I scoffed, "What?" John sighed, "That's what I am asking, WHAT?". I sharply took a deep breath, "You know John". He shook his head in disbelief and asked "Can I ask you something?" I just hummed so he continued "But.. You should be honest with your answer" I just nodded my head. He shooted, "Do you love David?"I made a pause, and after two minutes of deep silence I replied, "NO but I trusted him b
I opened my heavy eyelids deliberately to adjust the brightness of the room. I let my wandering eyes in search of the faces I knew. Not really, I searched for the particular person who occupied my mind a lot lately, Ian. I can't find him, not only him but anyone. Who am I kidding, a guy who met me just thrice will wait beside my bed for me to wake up. I let out a soft scoff. Suddenly the door opened wide and walked in David. Once his gaze met mine. He smiled warmly. I returned his gesture. He rushed to me, grabbed my hand, and said "I was scared, chérie. What happened? You were out for three days." My eyes went wide with a gasp when I heard David's words. I wonder why I would be out for three days. David shook my shoulders gently. I snap back to reality. He creased my cheeck gently and said, "I will notify Dr.Ben. Hmm?" I nodded my head and he left the room. I was thinking about the possibilities like why is this happening so often and intense nowadays. After a minute John strolle
I drove back to our apartment alone. I knew John would stay back with Adam since it was his birthday. I also didn't mind to inform them of my goodbye. My body and mind both were so exhausted by the thoughts of Ian. It's been only a few hours since I got engaged still I cheated on my fiancee, what cheap character have I evolved? I still can't believe what I did with Ian. But why? I knew him barely and I did something intimate with him. I have known David for years, he has been nothing but a gentleman and the perfect boyfriend to me but I can't even kiss him properly on the day we got engaged. With these thoughts, I reached my apartment and opened the door using code. Once I walked in I removed my shoes, and my mind injected his words 'It returned to its place' I wondered what he meant. I dusted the shoes, stuffed them into a box put them on the top shelf.I strolled to the living room and plopped on the couch. After a while, I dragged my lazy self to my room, discarded the clothes we
I hate parties, I am not much of a social butterfly so I am left alone in the corner, holding a flute glass of champagne and sipping slowly. My mind raced back to the moment when Ian made me crazy a few minutes ago, even thinking of that my heart was pounding. If this continues I swear I gonna faint any minute. My thoughts got snapped when I felt a sharp pain in my anklet, it's getting hurt cause of these damn heels. My attention turned to the podium when the host voiced, "Welcome Ladies and gentlemen Let's begin this wonderful party with dance". With that, all lights were turned dim, a romantic melody playing in the background. Even so, no one got on the dance floor. My wandering eyes got blind when the spotlight fell on me. I raised my hand to block the bright light. Before I got used to its brightness, I heard Adam's voice "Can I have a dance Stef?". I don't know why Adam asked me for a dance instead of John but I didn't want to be rude so I gave in my hand to his extended hand.
It's been a week since the hospital incident. I got busy with my new project. As usual, I drown myself in work. David fly to Las Vegas for a new contract. His company has expanded widely within these three years. He won the Best Entrepreneur award last year, he deserves it cause he worked hard for it. John was so excited about his boyfriend's birthday party tonight. I know I promised him to tag along but I prefer home better. If I chicken out now John will tear me apart so no choice left. And what's the most irritating thing is the makeover. I hate that. Even my mind jumbling about the party tonight I was still preparing a report for this week. John sneaks into my cabin. Even when I noticed it, I acted clueless and glued my gaze to screen. He closed my eyes with his palm, I tsked my tongue and removed his hands. He scoffed and voiced in annoyed tone, "It's already late bitch. Come on let's leave. Don't you remember today's party?" I sighed lightly, turned towards him, and asked, "D
I groaned a little and opened my heavy eyelids slowly. I felt a sharp pain in my head so I hissed and rubbed my eyes to adjust my vision which was still a little blur. My sight got a glimpse of David resting his head in bed near my torso and holding my hand.The one who gave me a second chance at everything in my life. My whole existence is because of him, if he didn't come to the cafe that day I don't know what I would be doing now. He is the man of all girl's dreams. He is simply hot, handsome, and most importantly my boyfriend. He asked me out even before my plastic surgery, I don't know why and what he sees in me. Whenever I asked him he said he didn't love me for my looks but for my heart. I still feel insecure, maybe inferiority would be the exact word to describe my mindset. Before my surgery, I thought of myself as too low even though I was good at my work. I never thought of being in a relationship or that's what I said to myself. I never showed my face to anyone before su