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2022-03-21 03:42:51I sat on the bed motionless, thoughts spinning inside my head. I was forcing the air into my lungs as if I was squeezing it in through a thin straw. An insufficient level of oxygen made my head spin.
"That can't be true. The child isn't his." Those two sentences played on repeat inside my mind, protecting my heart from breaking into pieces.
My mantra worked slowly, soothing my heart rate and loosening my chest. The logical part of my brain restarted.
"I need to call Sariel…" I mumbled to myself.
I stared at the phone for more than a minute before my trembling hand managed to pick his number from my extremely short list of contacts. I made the call. Hearing the waiting signals was tormenting. I was taking long breaths, trying to exhale them slowly, but it didn't ease my anxiety. He didn't answer. A heartbeat later, I called again… and then again. I might have been irrational and too demanding, but I thought that I was going to fall apart if I didn't he
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