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Bölüm 26: My Worst Nightmare is Here I
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2024-10-29 19:42:56× Dixie ×
No one told me that shifting is going to feel like all of my insides are burning.
First, it is the singing. The chanting is unbearable. The sound seeping into my bones, fueling the pain, making it worse. I want to scream, to tell them to shut up, but I couldn’t find my voice.
I move my gaze to Trix, Alvera, Ryder. They are standing there, watching, their faces mirroring that of anticipation and indifference.
At this moment, I hated them all. Every single one of them. They are the reason I am here, suffering, feeling like my body is being torn apart from the inside.
The pain is relentless, undyi
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