Humiliated

Tara POV

You know the saying “the pain you're feeling can't compare to the joy that's coming!” yeah that’s a lie , my joy never comes and i don’t think it ever will.

I hate coming to school and being treated like a rag doll just being thrown around for everyone to step on.I can’t remember the last time i was genuinely happy ,whenever i come to school i’m just a punching bag and a laughing stock.

Nobody helps they are fearful of being the next target. It’s happened before a new boy tried to stand up for me against kai , and he became a victim of bullying.

And because of that incident people treat me like a plague , they just walk away or laugh at my pain, leaving me feeling weak and pathetic like they always say i am.

Maybe they right , maybe i am a plague. Maybe i just deserve to fucking die and only then i’ll find the peace and happiness i couldn’t get on this fucked up earth. They doing it right now ,laughing like i’m a joke.

I’m in the cafeteria at my favourite table , they call it the loser table . Iconic right? Nobody sits here but me and i enjoy it very much that was until kai and lexi walked in and he threw my freaking food on the floor

“aren’t you already fat? Are you trying to blow up like a fucking balloon?!” he had a sinister smirk on his face that i wanted to wipe off with my fist.

“what i do with my body shouldn’t concern you kai ,you had no right to throw my food on the floor”

“so you talk back now?”

“no! I just don’t understand why you pick on me”

Lexi laughed and the whole cafeteria erupted in laughter i felt so stupid. I moved my seat back and stood up to leave but kai grabbed my arm painfully i winced.

“where do you think you going?” he asked me through gritted teeth.

“please can i leave kai, i’m going back to class”. I was on the verge of tears and i did not want to cry in-front of him.

“get on your knees and eat your food”

I looked at him in horror but he was serious.

“didn’t you hear what he said nerd, get on your knees and eat your food like a good dog” lexi spoke so venomously i always wondered what i done to make her treat me so vile.

Kai released my arm, i could feel everyone staring and waiting for me to degrade myself further. I bit back a sob and got on my knees , i closed my eyes and took deep breaths.

I opened my eyes and rested my hands on the floor as i began eating off the dirty floor. Loud gasps echoed in the cafeteria soon followed by laughter. I couldn’t contain my tears anymore every bite was like bile wanting to come back up.

“enough” kai shouted and everyone went silent he crouched down and looked at me with such hatred

“next time you think of talking back to me, i’ll make you lick these floors. Do you understand?”

I nodded unable to speak cause i feared i would vomit on him.I stood up and ran out of the cafeteria straight to the girls bathroom. I vomited everything out with tears in my eyes. That was so humiliating he is truly a descendant of the devil.

I sat flat on my ass with my head against the bathroom stall. I have two months left of school then i graduate and i’m out of this hell hole i kept reminding myself. I won’t ever have to see these people’s faces again, they will forget me but i won’t forget the trauma they inflicted on me. Just then the bell rang.

“great” i mumbled to myself, i stood up and flushed the toilet gagging when i saw the contents in the toilet. I left the bathroom and started walking back to class. As soon as i entered the classroom whispers started to erupt, i rolled my eyes and sat at my desk.

“alright students take out your history books and turn to page 197” mr isaac spoke with a high pitched voice.I took out my history book and opened 197 , mr isaac spoke for what felt like hours , but i completely zoned out while playing with my pen and my other hand rested on my chin.

As luck would have it the bell finally rang and i was the first one to jump up from my seat and pack my belongings in my bag before leaving the classroom.

Loud chatter and laughter bursted in the hallway i kept my head low and made my way to the exit. I ran down the stairs and started walking out the school gate’s not paying attention to where i was going i bumped into someone and fell hard on my butt . I felt a cold liquid on my legs i looked up to see a very annoyed kai and oh shit he had soda on his face and shirt . He looked angry

“can’t you watch where you walking you foolish girl”

I stood up immediately with worry and fear written all over my features.

“ i’m so sorry” i responded in such panic

“you sorry ? Do you fucking know how much this shirt cost”

“i’m sorry i can pay for the shirt , please forgive me”

He grabbed me by my hair painfully a painful sob escaped my throat and i held on to his arm , which only irritated him further he threw me on the ground and i put my hands down before my face could connect with the pavement. I got up slowly cause i grazed my knee.

“don’t you ever fucking touch me with your filthy hands bitch”

“okay” i replied in a depleted tone and walked away with a fucking limb because i hurt my knee. I could feel eyes burning on me , but i didn’t dare to turn around.

I just continued my walk home. I only live ten minutes away from school and my parents usually work till late so they can’t pick me up.

I’m 18 with no car , i don’t have friends besides my neighbour who i hang out with sometimes. My parents are barely home , i go to a private school but i still get picked on . I can make a whole book of how complicated my life is.

I sighed and stopped to catch my breath for a minute. Just then a black jeep came down the road and my heart started pounding. I started picking up my pace but it was useless with my limp.

“why the fuck do i have to keep seeing this devil” i questioned myself like i would get a answer. I’m sure they laughing at me now with the way i’m trying to run with a limp.

The car passed me and i breathed out a deep breath i had no idea i was holding in. My excitement was short lived when the car stopped and reversed. Why does god hate me so much ? The car stopped beside me . I looked only to see kai staring back at me , he was alone.

“get in the car i will drop you off”

“no thanks , i’m almost home i can make it back on my own from here”

“tara get in the fucking car before i drag you in”

What the fuck is wrong with this guy? He just orders me around like i’m one of his freaking servants. And now he probably wants to kidnap me so he can torture me.

“No”

“excuse me? You don’t listen or do you only listen when i’m hitting you?”

The nerve of this guy, i feel very sorry for his future wife cause she’s definitely going to go through hell.

“fine i’m coming”

I gave in not wanting to get beat up in a public road. I limped my way to the car and opened the backseat, i got inside and closed the door.

“where do i go?”

“just keep going straight and take your third right”

The trip was silent, i sat back and wondered why the hell kai watson was giving me a ride home? Did he want to know where i stay so he can come bully me in my neighbourhood now? Like i said he is a descendant of the devil

“why are you giving me a ride kai?”

He looked in the review mirror and back on the road.

“you hurt that’s the only reason, and don’t you dare tell anyone from school about this”

“i wonder how i got hurt in the first place”

“maybe if you watched where you going and kept your hands off me , you wouldn’t be limping now”

“yeah right, i guess i should also blame myself for eating from the floor”

His grip on the steering wheel hardened

I sighed sitting back in my seat , it’s pointless arguing with someone who always thinks that they are right.

“go straight now , and you can stop by the grey house on your left.

“Cool”

I picked up my bag and put it over my shoulder, just then the car came to a stop, i opened the door and got out.

“thanks for the ride”

“i was serious don’t tell anyone about this”

I rolled my eyes and closed the door, i started walking into my yard, who am i supposed to tell anyways? I don’t have no friends because of him, everyone is scared to be near me. I took out my key and opened the door , closing it shut behind me.

“home sweet home at last”

I walked to the couch and threw myself on it, i still couldn’t believe kai gave me a ride home. That was odd but i’m still grateful. I still think his evil though, this doesn’t change anything because tomorrow he will give me hell.

Why the boy hates me?That i definitely know. I remember the first day of school, i was so nervous and my mom kept hyping me up telling me i’m going to be fine , i’m going to do great and i’ll find friends.

Boy do i wish that was true, the first day of school ended up going great. The second day was when i saw kai , and it was like i had just seen a greek god.

I ended up having a big crush on him and my stupidity didn’t allow me to contain it. I should’ve known then that i was the last girl he would look at.

Most of his ex’s are like models and lexi? She is very beautiful with an ugly heart.And i’m a nerd definitely not a model.

I wear oversized clothes or skirts that sit by my ankles, i wear glasses and i’m definitely not skinny but i’m not fat either. My hair is always in a straight back bun.

I pass all my classes with flying colours, i rather read a book then watch tv. I don’t go to house party’s especially after the last one i attended and i’m still a virgin. I’m everything kai didn’t want!

But i still thought i had a chance . After obsessing and fantasising about a life i was going to have with kai, i decided to express my feelings to him in my second year.

I wrote him a love letter and put it in his locker with chocolates. After school he approached me and told me his having a party at his place and i should definitely attend.

When i arrived at the party he kissed my hand and thanked me for coming, he took me to the dj’s booth and asked for a mic. He publicly read out my love letter infront of so many people.

And everyone was laughing, he looked me in my eyes and told me to stop dreaming, he will never date a pathetic and ugly girl like me. And ever since then his made my life a living hell.