Quarter to 2 am nang matapos namin ang movie, Elijah insists na dito nalang din matulog sina Riz and Jemi but they both refused dahil may mga lakad pa daw sila early in the morning kaya naman wala na rin nagawa si Eli kundi ang pumayag. Eli offered na ihatid sila kahit hanggang sa parking lot lang at ako naman ay nag umpisa nang magligpit ng mga kalat sa living room.After cleaning the living room I strolled to Elijah's room and make my way through the bathroom to brush my teeth. I heard Elijah's footsteps entering his room as well and it's not late before he swung his head to the doorstep of the bathroom as he stood there without his shirt on and just his black cotton shorts while watching me through our reflection in the mirror. He stared at me for a minute as he crossed his arms against his broad chest while leaning to the door frame before he decided to open his mouth to talk.. "Carlo invited me to his party next week," he started, voice deep and low.Carlo? Oh, Amber's boy b
"First of all, who says friends can't fuck each other?" The way my jaw-dropped to the floor upon hearing his words was beyond madness. Baliw ba siya? Oh my god!Is this what break up can do to him?! Damn, I will kill Amber for what he did to my bestfriend!! "Naririnig mo ba yung sarili mo Elijah Zachery?!" mahina ngunit may diin kong tanong sa kanya habang kinakalma ang sarili ko. "Antoinette--" "Do I sound desperate to you?" I asked dangerously slow before I settled my gaze to him. "No!" mabilis niyang sagot kasunod ng mabilis na pag-iling. I pursed my lips as I stare at him. "Listen, Antoinette. I'm the one who proposed it, don't think of it that way!" he added. Nanatili akong nakatayo doon at tinititigan siya, both of my hands were on my hips as I stood there and watching him gets nervous. He sighed. "What I'm really trying to say is.. the fact that you're considering to look for a fuck buddy why can't you just do it with me?" I didn't respond right away as I wait for h
Magkahawak-kamay kaming naglalakad ni Elijah habang papasok sa nasabing club, the one who rented by the birthday boy Carlo. It's been a week since Elijah and I talked about the proposal and right now I'm glad that Eli was respecting my decision about giving a time to think about it thoroughly. Alam kong hindi rin biro sa part niya yung mag-suggest ng ganoon especially if tungkol sa aming dalawa at sa pagkakaibigan namin ang nakataya. In my part, though I find his idea and suggestions odd and unusual I honestly appreciate his effort. I don't think he's taking an advantage of my situation, he was compromising and it is something that I always admired about him. He was just giving out ideas while trying to help me out on my issues without me being offended or embarrassed, and knowing Elijah I knew he would do anything just to help me. I also understand his point of view in this matter, he respects me so much just as I respect him as well. I know he's just trying to make me see the possib
"What the hell is that supposed to mean Antoinette?!" frustrated na reklamo ni Elijah sa akin nang makapasok kami sa apartment ko. Mabilis lang din kaming nagpaalam matapos ang nakagugulantang na anunsyo ko kanina. By the look of my bestfriend I knew he wasn't pleased at what I did. But he can't blame me, ayaw kong makitang kinakaawaan siya ng mga taong iyon! I walked through my bedroom, ignoring his whines and I heard his heavy footsteps following me behind, basta ko nalang inihagis ang clutch bag ko sa aking kama saka siya binalingan."Stop acting like it's fucking big deal, Elijah." walang gana kong sagot habang isa-isang hinuhubad ang mga jewelry at accessories na suot ko at ipinatong sa console table. "Of course it is a big deal, Antoinette! You just told them that we're dating!" frustrated niyang sabi habang sinusundan ng tingin ang bawat kilos ko. Pasalampak naman akong naupo sa dulo ng aking kama habang hinuhubad ang high heels ko. I know, I know the impact of what
Three days. Three days after that incident, Elijah refused to talk to me. All of my texts and calls were purposely ignored. Okay, he's not mad pero disappointed siya, and I understand why. When he told me to reflect on my actions, I did all the possible things para ma-justify ko yung action ko but it turns out na parehas kaming tama at parehas din kaming may mali. Tama siya in a way na that was his personal issue and I shouldn't have acted out that way, mali naman siya sa part na hindi siya nagsabi agad kung anong plano niya. And in my case, tama ako in a way na ang tanging motibo ko lang naman ay ang makatulong at mali naman ako sa part na hindi ako nag iisip ng tamang hakbang para gawin ng maayos yung intensyon ko. "So you mean, you just told their entire circle that you both were an item?" Riz asked me while taking out a slice of pizza. Pasalampak naman akong naupo sa couch after ng attempt kong tawagan ulit si Eli, they were here because obviously they wanted to hear what happ
Kinabukasan ay para akong zombie nang pumasok ako sa trabaho. Elijah's still ignoring me, but I already stopped calling him. He needed time and I understand that. Tamad na tamad akong lumabas ng sasakyan ko at naglakad papasok ng building namin. I frowned when I saw Kairus grinning while walking towards me.."So.. I heard from a friend of a friend----" I lifted my index finger to shut him up. "Shut the fuck up, Kai. I'm not in the mood." diretsong sabi ko. Narinig ko naman ang pagsunod niya sa opisina ko. At nasisiguro ko nang hindi niya ako titigilan sa maghapong ito hanggat hindi niya nakukuha ang gusto niya. Tsk."Come on Anjie, just tell me what happen I want to know.." pangungulit niya. I rolled my eyes and placed my things above my table as I turn on my computer.. "There's nothing to know.." maikling sabi ko saka pasalampak na naupo sa swivel chair ko at pagod na tiningnan ang mga nakabinbin kong trabaho. God, I really hate Mondays.Napahawak ako sa sentido ko nang makit
Tahimik kami pareho hanggang sa makarating at makaakyat kami sa unit niya. Pinapakiramdaman ko pa yung sitwasyon, Elijah was cool. He's not mad pero hindi rin siya gaanong nagsasalita. I bet he's just letting the situation goes, I know he wants me to be comfortable first before we dive into our serious talk. Pagpasok sa unit niya ay dumiretso ako sa living room at naupo. Siya naman ay dire-diretso sa kwarto niya para yata magpalit ng damit. Iginala ko ang mata ko sa buong unit niya, his house is clean as usual, Elijah is very keen when it comes to cleanliness, he likes his apartment to be always scrupurously tidy and fragrant. I turned my neck once I heard the bedroom door swung open and revealed the very fresh Elijah in his white shirt and black shorts. His dark doe eyes settled on mine before he licked his lower lip and walked towards my direction. "Do you want to... change first?" he asked silently, eyeing me sharply while I sat here on his long black couch. Sag
"Now let me hear what my little girlfriend has to say.." The moment those words came out of his mouth my mind started to go haywired. I'm suddenly out of words, tila nalunok ko na pati ang basong hawak ko dahil sa sobrang pagkabigla. Actually hindi ko mahinuha yung tono niya noong sinabi niya 'yon. Hindi ko alam kung galit ba siya o masaya ba o nang-iinis ba siya o seryoso siya. Wala! Wala akong maintindihan at feeling ko nabingi ako. Wala na yata akong ibang marinig at parang paulit-ulit na nag e-echo ang mga salitang 'yon sa tainga ko. Pakiramdam ko huminto ang lahat sa paligid ko sa sobrang tahimik, kahit ang sarili kong paghinga ay naririnig ko. Ang malakas na dagundong ng dibdib ko ay nagri-ring sa tainga ko noong mga oras na 'yon. Did he just said.. girlfriend? Is he teasing me? Mocking me? Making fun of me? Or was he trying to make me feel guilty for what I did? Does he want me to beg for his forgiveness? The heck! This idiot is really making me go insane! Why does it f
Our three day vacation at Elijah's family's house comes to an end. Akala ko ay hindi na magiging masaya ang mga huling sandali namin sa kanilang pamamahay matapos ang nakakagulat na anunsyo ni Tito Elias, but I think everyone in their little family already saw it coming, naghihintay na lang siguro sila ng panahon kung kailan ito mangyayari. Sa huli ay sinulit namin ang natitirang oras bago kami bumalik sa Maynila. Ako, Tim, Elijah and Tita Elena, the four of us went on a small escapade, we went shopping and ate in various restaurants downtown. I'm glad that Elijah managed to make his little family happy by spending time with them. At masaya ako na nasasaksihan ko ito. It's his small wins na alam kong hindi niya pinagtutuunan ng pansin dahil para sa kanya parte ito ng obligasyon niya, pero para sa akin na isang outsider sa kanilang pamilya, proud na proud akong makita kung gaano siya karesponsableng anak. "I'm still surprised that you decided to bring along home
Nakailang ikot na ako sa aking kama ngunit hindi talaga ako dinadalaw ng antok. I checked the time on my phone and saw that it's nearly 2am now. I kept on tapping my arm as I shifted from side to side. Until I decided to stare at the ceiling. I blew out a frustrated sigh as I recalled the scenario in the kitchen earlier. I admit, the unexpected scene which happened tonight really bothers me. Ganun ba kamahal ni Tito Elias si Victoria para tuluyan niyang iwan ang kanyang pamilya dito sa Pilipinas? My heart is really breaking for my best friend. He doesn't deserve this pain. Naiisip ko pa lang ang paghihirap ng kalooban ni Eli sa bagong balitang iyon ay nadudurog na ang puso ko para sa kanya. Alam ko namang wala ng pag-asa pa na magkabalikan muli ang kanyang magulang. Si Tita Elena na mismo ang nagpasya na wakasan ang pagsasama nilang mag-asawa ngunit hindi ko maitanggi na sa puso ko.. meron pa eh. May konti pa. May pag-asa pa akong nakikita. Nararamdaman kong mahal pa nila ang isa't
Kinabukasan ay maaga kaming gumayak ni Eli papuntang Supermarket. Kami ang naatasan mamili ng mga kakailanganin para mamaya sa birthday dinner ni Tita Elena. Kahit antok na antok pa nga ay hindi na ako tumanggi dahil bukod sa nakakahiya ay chance ko na din ito para makapaglibot libot sa lugar. Sa biyahe ay hindi pa din maalis alis ang kakulitan ni Elijah, ayaw niyang tumigil sa pang-aasar sa akin. “Akala yata ni Mama di kita inaalagaan sa bahay,” nakanguso niyang sabi habang nagmamaneho.“Nagsumbong kasi ako sa kanya na kinakawawa mo ‘ko.” pang-aasar ko naman. Tinapunan niya ako ng tingin at saka tumawa.“I know I fuck you too hard pero never kitang kinawawa, Anj.” My mouth formed an “o” shape after that bold answer, malaki din ang mata ko habang di makapaniwalang binalingan siya ng tingin. Mabilis lumipad ang kamay ko sa braso niya para paghahampasin siya pero natatawa niya lang na tinanggap iyon habang nagmamaneho.“Napakabastos mo!” Kahit kailan talaga yung bunganga
Sunod sunod na katok ang nagpagising sa akin. Lumakad ako papuntang pinto habang kusot kusot ang aking mata. Shit, hindi ko namalayang nakatulog ako ah.Pagbukas ko ng pinto ay bumungad sa akin si Elijah. Pinasadahan niya pa muna ako ng tingin mula ulo hanggang paa. “So, I won’t ask you if you did sleep ‘cause it’s obvious.” he chuckled and pushed himself inside the room. Sumimangot naman ako habang hawak pa din ang door knob. Nang lingunin ko siya ay nakahilata na din siya sa aking kama. “Well.. you told me to take a rest,” “And I’m glad you did,” nakangisi niyang sabi.Inirapan ko lang ang sagot niyang iyon. Instead na isara ang pinto ay hinayaang ko lang na nakabukas iyon. I don’t want Tita Elena to think differently knowing her loving son is here with me inside this room. I walked towards the vanity mirror to check myself. My puffy eyes says that I slept really well. “The dinner is ready.” maya maya ay sambit niya.Sasagot na sana ako ngunit nagulat ako nang bigla ay h
I rushed out of the car as soon as we got to his home. My mind was clouded by anger and hurt. "Anjie!" tawag niya at narinig ko din ang malakas na bagsak ng pinto ng sasakyan niya. But I refused to look back at him, I refused to look at him! I was mad, ashamed, and deeply hurt to the point that I can't even look him in the eyes! "Damn it! Anjie!" he yelled again, and I heard his heavy footsteps as I entered his unit. He slammed the door at dire-diretso ako sa kwarto ko para mag impake ng mga gamit at damit ko, buong lakas kong binuhat ang maleta ko at ipinatong ko sa kama ko. I rummage through my closet at walang pakialam ko nalang na inilagay ang mga nakahanger at nakatiklop kong damit. My tears were in the brim of my eyes as I put all my clothes into my luggage."Fuck! Open this damn door, Antoinette!" he yelled again from the outside because I locked my room door, not wanting to see him."Leave me alone!" I yelled back as my chest keeps on rising and falling dahil
Elijah is standing there with Amber. Buhat buhat niya ang isang box habang ang isang kamay naman ni Amber ay nakapatong sa braso niya. Para bang galing sila sa masayang pag-uusap ngunit nahinto dahil dumating ako. “Babe,” alanganing tawag ni Eli sa akin. Ang mga mata niya ay gulat na nakatitig sa akin. Hindi naman nakatakas sa paningin ko ang mumunting ngisi sa labi ni Amber. So, kailan pa sila okay? Mabilis na bumitaw si Amber sa braso ni Elijah at humarap sa akin. “Hi, Anjie!” bati niya. Hindi ako timang para hindi mapansin ang peke at nakakalokong ngisi ni Amber sa akin. She’s too obvious. Since when did she become friendly to me? Tsk. Pero imbes na ipakita ang inis ko ay peke ko din siyang nginitian. “Hello, Amber.” bati ko pabalik saka mabilis na lumipat ang tingin ko kay Eli na ngayon ay papalit palit ang tingin sa amin ni Amber. Mabilis naman siyang kumilos para ipagpatuloy ang paglipat ng mga box papunta sa trunk ng pulang sasakyan ni Amber. I eyed the boxes left in
On the way to the mall, Eli hadn’t stopped and kept on teasing me about this-so-called “our thing”. At ako naman ay hindi pa rin humuhupa ang kahihiyan sa nangyari. He told me there’s nothing to worry about after I told him that I’m quite worried. However, even after he told me it was him who should worry, I kept on thinking that it might affect our friendship sooner. I kept on telling myself that it was an accident and we never meant it to end up that way. But Elijah told me that it was bound to happen anyway whether we’re drunk or not. Remembering what happened way back on the Boudoir photoshoot, there’s no doubt that we’d actually cross lines last night regardless of our friendship. Elijah wasn’t really trying hard to hide his body’s obvious lust calling and my attraction towards him did a great push as well to make everything happen. I know I shouldn’t be surprised about it but still, it worries me. I’d like to think that the lack of sexual action of the both of us from
My lips keep on twitching as I keep shifting on my seat every now and then. Elijah and I were both silent ever since we started eating lunch.Deep sighs were also heard between me and him. Alam kong pareho kaming may malalim na iniisip ngunit tila hindi kami pareho ng iniisip. Obviously, I am in deep discomfort while Elijah seems to be happy and relaxed. Nanatiling nakababa ang ulo ko at tahimik na nagfofocus sa tanghalian na niluto niya. I can’t seem to have the courage to look back at him despite the stares thrown at me by none other than Elijah himself. Hanggang ngayon ramdam ko pa din ang pag-iinit ng mukha ko at naiinis na din ako dahil tila ayaw humupa sa pamumula ang aking pisngi. I’m gulping hard down the food para lamang matapos na ako kaagad sa pagkain at makaalis na sa harapan ni Elijah. But then mukhang hindi pa siya tapos sa pang-aasar sa akin. I heard the clinking sound of his spoon against his plate followed by his loud huff. “Hey, stop ignoring me.” he demanded. A
With big and curious eyes, I watched Elijah stand up from his seat and walk into the corner. He pulled out his phone from his pocket and scribbled something on it with his brows slightly furrowed. Seconds after, a soft melodic sound started playing in the entire place. Constant by Jesse Barrera and Jeremy Passion played in the background. Agad kumalabog ang dibdib ko sa hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan habang pinapanood si Elijah na lumuhod sa harapan ko para hingiin ang aking kamay. “Can I have this dance?” he asked while smiling softly. I watched how the fairy lights shone and reflected through his doe eyes as he stared at me so fondly.I gave my hand as I stood up from my seat. We walked to the center part of the set-up. He placed his other hand at my back tightly pulling my body towards him. My right hand was placed on his shoulder. His other hand was perfectly tangled with my other hand. And we both danced in silence. Tanging ang malamyos lamang na musika ang naririnig sa pali