6. Isn't it weird?

"First of all, who says friends can't fuck each other?"

The way my jaw-dropped to the floor upon hearing his words was beyond madness.

Baliw ba siya?

Oh my god!

Is this what break up can do to him?! Damn, I will kill Amber for what he did to my bestfriend!!

"Naririnig mo ba yung sarili mo Elijah Zachery?!" mahina ngunit may diin kong tanong sa kanya habang kinakalma ang sarili ko.

"Antoinette--"

"Do I sound desperate to you?" I asked dangerously slow before I settled my gaze to him.

"No!" mabilis niyang sagot kasunod ng mabilis na pag-iling.

I pursed my lips as I stare at him.

"Listen, Antoinette. I'm the one who proposed it, don't think of it that way!" he added.

Nanatili akong nakatayo doon at tinititigan siya, both of my hands were on my hips as I stood there and watching him gets nervous.

He sighed.

"What I'm really trying to say is.. the fact that you're considering to look for a fuck buddy why can't you just do it with me?" I didn't respond right away as I wait for him to continue his words..

"Atleast you're doing it with your most trusted person. It's hard to trust people nowadays Anjie, who knows maybe someone decided to knocked you up and leaves you after?"

I pursed my lips. I know, I get his point.

"I won't get pregnant Elijah. I'm on injectable pill just so you know."

His brows shot up at my response.

"Okay fine. What if you ended up choosing someone who gets you in tape? And maliciously spread it somewhere online when you decided to cut things off? You don't know how someone's mind works, Antoinette." he added, which is he really got a point as well.

"Listen, I'm not saying those things just to make you agree with my proposal. I'm just trying to help you and make you see the possible consequences of your choices. Plus, the mere fact that I'm worried about this, I'm a man too so I quitely knew how those things bound to happen when a man's way of thinking starts to get fucked up."

Right at this moment alam kong sincere si Elijah sa mga sinasabi niya, he was possesive yes pero hindi niya ipagpipilitan ang idea niya kung alam niyang hindi iyon makakabuti para sa akin. And right now he was just talking as a worried bestfriend, he was thinking of my safety and it's just so natural of him. I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt but whenever I think of our friendship it scares me. This whole agreement scares me.

"But your proposal.." I trailed off..

I sighed as I walked towards the bed and sat in front of him, his eyes travelled my face with a worried expression.

"Isn't it too risky, Eli? I mean it's crazy! What if one of us catches feelings while we're on it? I don't want to ruin our friendship." nag aalala kong sabi.

He eyed me and sighed.

"Listen, I don't mean us having sex right away when I told you those words. As much as I want you to trust me on this matter, I don't want you to get uncomfortable so we'll work on it in your most preferred way." he explained and I nodded my head trying to understand his words.

I stared at his eyes..

"Do you..really want it?" I asked whispering..

Too afraid of his answers..

He stared at me before he took my hand and entwined it with his.

"I just wanted to help you, Antoinette. You shouldn't be feeling this way as a woman," he replied sincerely,

"Be honest with me, do you find me attractive then?" I asked again while looking at his eyes.

He sighed.

"You are gorgeous, Antoinette. You're beautiful just the way you are, I don't know if your ex had corrupted your mind with that shitty comments of his but you are not like that. You're far from that, you're not boring and you deserves more." he mumbled while staring at my eyes before he released a soft and most sincerest smile I've seen in my whole years of being friends with him.

"Is that your way to get me into bed?" tanong ko habang pinipigilan ang sariling ngumiti.

Naningkit naman ang mata niya sa akin,

"Of course not! I'm just telling the truth you witch!" sigaw niya at halos matawa ako nang makita ang pamumula ng pisngi at tenga niya.

"Okay fine, but.. won't this agreement get things awkward between us, Eli? Like I said I don't want to ruin our friendship." paalala kong muli at tumango naman siya.

"It won't, I promise. Nothing will change between us just the fact that we're now fucking each other," biro niya at malakas ko naman siyang pinalo sa braso, ako naman ngayon ang pinamulahan ng pisngi sa pagiging straightforward niya.

"Ouch! Alam mo ikaw nagiging mapanakit ka na." reklamo niya na ikinatulis naman ng nguso ko.

"Iniisip ko lang kasi, how this agreement would benefit you as well. You just came out from a heartbreak but you still love Amber, wouldn't it be weird?" pag aalala ko.

His pierced brow quirked at that before he let out a deep sigh,

"Damn girl, what do you think this agreement would possibly do to me? Do you honestly think that I enjoyed jerking off alone under a cold shower?" he asked which made me widen my eyes in shock, his boldness is just.. damn it!

I lift my hand in the air to stop him.

"Eww, stop it! T-That's so gross!" I told him, as flashes of him masturbating under the shower is such a horrible sight to even imagine.

This dork!

He rolled his eyes..

"I'm a free man with needs, Antoinette. And Amber chose to broke up with me weeks ago, though I still love her I don't want you to think that I'm only using you to divert my attention, alright?"

I sighed, atleast we're clear.

"So it's clear? we're just trying to help each other out?" I asked again and he nodded,

"Something like that,"

I sighed again.. still not feeling good about it.

"I don't know, I'm still worried about this, Eli." pag-amin ko.

Again, he took my hand and looked straight to my eyes. His gazes were soft and gentle this time.

"I know and I understand why you're feeling that way, Antoinette. It's the same for me, but I'm putting my trust on you, on us. Sabi ko nga, we're just helping each other out. We can stop it any moment you want me to stop, and we won't do it unless you're the one who asked for it, and you will tell me once you get uncomfortable and we will stop it immediately, is that okay with you?" he asked me lovingly and I nodded my head.

He smiled and throw his arms towards me..0

"Now, let me ask you. Did I offend you with my proposal?" malambing niyang tanong.

I puckered my lips as I think of my answer..

"At first, yes. But you can't blame me, never in my wildest dream that we'll end up doing sex just to meet my stupid desires." I reasoned out but he just chuckled at me before nodding his head.

"I'm sorry, I was just trying to give you options," he breathed out bago niya ako malambing na inakbayan at pinatakan ng halik sa ulo.

I smiled.

"It's alright, ang OA ko lang din mag-react. But can I think about it for the mean time, Eli?" I asked him softly.

Umayos siya ng pagkakaupo sa harapan ko mismo. He cupped my cheeks while he stared at my eyes lovingly, something Elijah does naturally.

"I love you." he trailed off.. "as my bestfriend, and I have no plans of hurting you, disappointing you and even more of leaving you. Got that? So take all the time you needed and just be honest with me." malambing at sinsero niyang sabi bago mariin na hinalikan ang noo ko.

I shut my eyes firmly as I put my hands above his hands on my cheeks.

"I love you too," I answered back with a thump in my heart, "I just don't want to ruin the only valuable thing in my life right now, so please have patience with me." masuyo ko ding sambit saka mahigpit siyang niyakap.

"No big deal, let's sleep for now." he concluded before pulling me to lay beside him.

Again, he let me sleep on his arms before planting a soft kiss on my temple as he wished me a good night after that roller-coaster ride of emotions earlier.