Three days. Three days after that incident, Elijah refused to talk to me. All of my texts and calls were purposely ignored. Okay, he's not mad pero disappointed siya, and I understand why. When he told me to reflect on my actions, I did all the possible things para ma-justify ko yung action ko but it turns out na parehas kaming tama at parehas din kaming may mali. Tama siya in a way na that was his personal issue and I shouldn't have acted out that way, mali naman siya sa part na hindi siya nagsabi agad kung anong plano niya. And in my case, tama ako in a way na ang tanging motibo ko lang naman ay ang makatulong at mali naman ako sa part na hindi ako nag iisip ng tamang hakbang para gawin ng maayos yung intensyon ko. "So you mean, you just told their entire circle that you both were an item?" Riz asked me while taking out a slice of pizza. Pasalampak naman akong naupo sa couch after ng attempt kong tawagan ulit si Eli, they were here because obviously they wanted to hear what happ
Kinabukasan ay para akong zombie nang pumasok ako sa trabaho. Elijah's still ignoring me, but I already stopped calling him. He needed time and I understand that. Tamad na tamad akong lumabas ng sasakyan ko at naglakad papasok ng building namin. I frowned when I saw Kairus grinning while walking towards me.."So.. I heard from a friend of a friend----" I lifted my index finger to shut him up. "Shut the fuck up, Kai. I'm not in the mood." diretsong sabi ko. Narinig ko naman ang pagsunod niya sa opisina ko. At nasisiguro ko nang hindi niya ako titigilan sa maghapong ito hanggat hindi niya nakukuha ang gusto niya. Tsk."Come on Anjie, just tell me what happen I want to know.." pangungulit niya. I rolled my eyes and placed my things above my table as I turn on my computer.. "There's nothing to know.." maikling sabi ko saka pasalampak na naupo sa swivel chair ko at pagod na tiningnan ang mga nakabinbin kong trabaho. God, I really hate Mondays.Napahawak ako sa sentido ko nang makit
Tahimik kami pareho hanggang sa makarating at makaakyat kami sa unit niya. Pinapakiramdaman ko pa yung sitwasyon, Elijah was cool. He's not mad pero hindi rin siya gaanong nagsasalita. I bet he's just letting the situation goes, I know he wants me to be comfortable first before we dive into our serious talk. Pagpasok sa unit niya ay dumiretso ako sa living room at naupo. Siya naman ay dire-diretso sa kwarto niya para yata magpalit ng damit. Iginala ko ang mata ko sa buong unit niya, his house is clean as usual, Elijah is very keen when it comes to cleanliness, he likes his apartment to be always scrupurously tidy and fragrant. I turned my neck once I heard the bedroom door swung open and revealed the very fresh Elijah in his white shirt and black shorts. His dark doe eyes settled on mine before he licked his lower lip and walked towards my direction. "Do you want to... change first?" he asked silently, eyeing me sharply while I sat here on his long black couch. Sag
"Now let me hear what my little girlfriend has to say.." The moment those words came out of his mouth my mind started to go haywired. I'm suddenly out of words, tila nalunok ko na pati ang basong hawak ko dahil sa sobrang pagkabigla. Actually hindi ko mahinuha yung tono niya noong sinabi niya 'yon. Hindi ko alam kung galit ba siya o masaya ba o nang-iinis ba siya o seryoso siya. Wala! Wala akong maintindihan at feeling ko nabingi ako. Wala na yata akong ibang marinig at parang paulit-ulit na nag e-echo ang mga salitang 'yon sa tainga ko. Pakiramdam ko huminto ang lahat sa paligid ko sa sobrang tahimik, kahit ang sarili kong paghinga ay naririnig ko. Ang malakas na dagundong ng dibdib ko ay nagri-ring sa tainga ko noong mga oras na 'yon. Did he just said.. girlfriend? Is he teasing me? Mocking me? Making fun of me? Or was he trying to make me feel guilty for what I did? Does he want me to beg for his forgiveness? The heck! This idiot is really making me go insane! Why does it f
Elijah and I were walking together as we enter the club where Carlo and his friends invites us over. I am somehow nervous to this set up, alam kong idea ko 'to at ako ang nagpropose nito kay Eli but I'm kind of nervous because for the second time we were going to face his ex. As much as I wanted to help Eli I can't help not to feel anxious on how will I'm going to act around them, I'm afraid na mag-fail kami sa harap ng ex niya, somehow gusto kong makakita ng progress sa relationship nila after nito. I almost jump after I felt Elijah's large hand tangled with mine when he entwined it with his. His shoulders brushed against mine after he leaned forward to whisper in my ear.."Stop doing that." he whispered.Agad lumipad ang tingin ko sa kanya habang nakataas ang isang kilay ko. "Doing what?" I replied."You keep on jumping whenever I touch you." he whispered again. I rolled my eyes in response. "I'm tensed what am I supposed to do?" I replied as I pursed my lips."Stop it and just
"I think now is the time where I need to find out how that luscious lips would tastes against mine." he concluded before he cupped my cheek and leaned forward to capture my lips.My mind go haywired as I felt his soft lips slowly moving against mine. It was a soft and delicate kiss before he pulled out and stared at me, his forehead resting above mine and we both smile, our nose brushing against each other. "You're so beautiful, Antoinette." he whispered, his lips brushing against mine before he pulled my body tighter towards him and our lips connected again. His kisses were addicting. This time it was deeper and sensual, he sq ueezed my hips that made gasped and he used that opportunity to enter his tounge and explore my mouth as he pulled me tighter, almost lifting me and crushing me against his muscular body. My hands found its way to his nape and I let my fingers sink in the smoothness of his raven hair as we both deepen the kiss, this time the tingling sensation between my leg
Morning came and I felt really tired and yet I smiled after seeing the face of my bestfriend sleeping peacefully beside me, his heavy arm still placed above my tummy. I stared at him for a minute he's too beautiful, remembering all the things he does to me yesterday feels surreal and again the butterflies in my stomach won't stop from getting wild. God, how does Amber manage to break his heart? Tsk. Her lost. Dahan dahan kong inalis ang braso niyang nakapulupot sa akin, I need to get up and prepare some breakfast. I was removing his arm carefully not to wake him up not until.. "Where do you think you're going?" his morning voice deep and bit hoarsed vibrated against my nape, and I shut my eyes firmly because he sounds so hot early in the morning! Damn it. "Eli.. magpe-prepare ako ng breakfast." I told him.But instead of letting me go he pulled me closer to his warm body, my back pressed against his naked chest before he buried his face into the crook of my neck inhaling my scen
"Babe.. long time no see." he muttered in a deep and low voice. Simon.He's here and I don't know how he managed to sneek in here but I don't feel good about it. He's clearly trespassing and invading my personal space. "Simon." I trailed off, mahigpit akong napakapit sa bote ng tubig na hawak ko habang nakatitig sa kanya. Umangat ang kilay niya saka tipid na ngumisi sa akin, nakasandal siya sa pader na naghihiwalay sa open kitchen ko at living room, I travelled my gaze onto his form, he looked like a mess, gone was the neat and good-looking guy that I dated for years, he looked completely different right now. He looked stressed and he lost some weight, his skin was paler than before, the dark circle under his eyes are the evidence that he didn't slept much. "You've been ignoring me for a month now," he started talking, the tone of his voice was serious, and it honestly brings fear inside me.. "I-I was busy.." pagdadahilan ko at hindi siya inaalisan ng tingin. He scoffed a deep c
Our three day vacation at Elijah's family's house comes to an end. Akala ko ay hindi na magiging masaya ang mga huling sandali namin sa kanilang pamamahay matapos ang nakakagulat na anunsyo ni Tito Elias, but I think everyone in their little family already saw it coming, naghihintay na lang siguro sila ng panahon kung kailan ito mangyayari. Sa huli ay sinulit namin ang natitirang oras bago kami bumalik sa Maynila. Ako, Tim, Elijah and Tita Elena, the four of us went on a small escapade, we went shopping and ate in various restaurants downtown. I'm glad that Elijah managed to make his little family happy by spending time with them. At masaya ako na nasasaksihan ko ito. It's his small wins na alam kong hindi niya pinagtutuunan ng pansin dahil para sa kanya parte ito ng obligasyon niya, pero para sa akin na isang outsider sa kanilang pamilya, proud na proud akong makita kung gaano siya karesponsableng anak. "I'm still surprised that you decided to bring along home
Nakailang ikot na ako sa aking kama ngunit hindi talaga ako dinadalaw ng antok. I checked the time on my phone and saw that it's nearly 2am now. I kept on tapping my arm as I shifted from side to side. Until I decided to stare at the ceiling. I blew out a frustrated sigh as I recalled the scenario in the kitchen earlier. I admit, the unexpected scene which happened tonight really bothers me. Ganun ba kamahal ni Tito Elias si Victoria para tuluyan niyang iwan ang kanyang pamilya dito sa Pilipinas? My heart is really breaking for my best friend. He doesn't deserve this pain. Naiisip ko pa lang ang paghihirap ng kalooban ni Eli sa bagong balitang iyon ay nadudurog na ang puso ko para sa kanya. Alam ko namang wala ng pag-asa pa na magkabalikan muli ang kanyang magulang. Si Tita Elena na mismo ang nagpasya na wakasan ang pagsasama nilang mag-asawa ngunit hindi ko maitanggi na sa puso ko.. meron pa eh. May konti pa. May pag-asa pa akong nakikita. Nararamdaman kong mahal pa nila ang isa't
Kinabukasan ay maaga kaming gumayak ni Eli papuntang Supermarket. Kami ang naatasan mamili ng mga kakailanganin para mamaya sa birthday dinner ni Tita Elena. Kahit antok na antok pa nga ay hindi na ako tumanggi dahil bukod sa nakakahiya ay chance ko na din ito para makapaglibot libot sa lugar. Sa biyahe ay hindi pa din maalis alis ang kakulitan ni Elijah, ayaw niyang tumigil sa pang-aasar sa akin. “Akala yata ni Mama di kita inaalagaan sa bahay,” nakanguso niyang sabi habang nagmamaneho.“Nagsumbong kasi ako sa kanya na kinakawawa mo ‘ko.” pang-aasar ko naman. Tinapunan niya ako ng tingin at saka tumawa.“I know I fuck you too hard pero never kitang kinawawa, Anj.” My mouth formed an “o” shape after that bold answer, malaki din ang mata ko habang di makapaniwalang binalingan siya ng tingin. Mabilis lumipad ang kamay ko sa braso niya para paghahampasin siya pero natatawa niya lang na tinanggap iyon habang nagmamaneho.“Napakabastos mo!” Kahit kailan talaga yung bunganga
Sunod sunod na katok ang nagpagising sa akin. Lumakad ako papuntang pinto habang kusot kusot ang aking mata. Shit, hindi ko namalayang nakatulog ako ah.Pagbukas ko ng pinto ay bumungad sa akin si Elijah. Pinasadahan niya pa muna ako ng tingin mula ulo hanggang paa. “So, I won’t ask you if you did sleep ‘cause it’s obvious.” he chuckled and pushed himself inside the room. Sumimangot naman ako habang hawak pa din ang door knob. Nang lingunin ko siya ay nakahilata na din siya sa aking kama. “Well.. you told me to take a rest,” “And I’m glad you did,” nakangisi niyang sabi.Inirapan ko lang ang sagot niyang iyon. Instead na isara ang pinto ay hinayaang ko lang na nakabukas iyon. I don’t want Tita Elena to think differently knowing her loving son is here with me inside this room. I walked towards the vanity mirror to check myself. My puffy eyes says that I slept really well. “The dinner is ready.” maya maya ay sambit niya.Sasagot na sana ako ngunit nagulat ako nang bigla ay h
I rushed out of the car as soon as we got to his home. My mind was clouded by anger and hurt. "Anjie!" tawag niya at narinig ko din ang malakas na bagsak ng pinto ng sasakyan niya. But I refused to look back at him, I refused to look at him! I was mad, ashamed, and deeply hurt to the point that I can't even look him in the eyes! "Damn it! Anjie!" he yelled again, and I heard his heavy footsteps as I entered his unit. He slammed the door at dire-diretso ako sa kwarto ko para mag impake ng mga gamit at damit ko, buong lakas kong binuhat ang maleta ko at ipinatong ko sa kama ko. I rummage through my closet at walang pakialam ko nalang na inilagay ang mga nakahanger at nakatiklop kong damit. My tears were in the brim of my eyes as I put all my clothes into my luggage."Fuck! Open this damn door, Antoinette!" he yelled again from the outside because I locked my room door, not wanting to see him."Leave me alone!" I yelled back as my chest keeps on rising and falling dahil
Elijah is standing there with Amber. Buhat buhat niya ang isang box habang ang isang kamay naman ni Amber ay nakapatong sa braso niya. Para bang galing sila sa masayang pag-uusap ngunit nahinto dahil dumating ako. “Babe,” alanganing tawag ni Eli sa akin. Ang mga mata niya ay gulat na nakatitig sa akin. Hindi naman nakatakas sa paningin ko ang mumunting ngisi sa labi ni Amber. So, kailan pa sila okay? Mabilis na bumitaw si Amber sa braso ni Elijah at humarap sa akin. “Hi, Anjie!” bati niya. Hindi ako timang para hindi mapansin ang peke at nakakalokong ngisi ni Amber sa akin. She’s too obvious. Since when did she become friendly to me? Tsk. Pero imbes na ipakita ang inis ko ay peke ko din siyang nginitian. “Hello, Amber.” bati ko pabalik saka mabilis na lumipat ang tingin ko kay Eli na ngayon ay papalit palit ang tingin sa amin ni Amber. Mabilis naman siyang kumilos para ipagpatuloy ang paglipat ng mga box papunta sa trunk ng pulang sasakyan ni Amber. I eyed the boxes left in
On the way to the mall, Eli hadn’t stopped and kept on teasing me about this-so-called “our thing”. At ako naman ay hindi pa rin humuhupa ang kahihiyan sa nangyari. He told me there’s nothing to worry about after I told him that I’m quite worried. However, even after he told me it was him who should worry, I kept on thinking that it might affect our friendship sooner. I kept on telling myself that it was an accident and we never meant it to end up that way. But Elijah told me that it was bound to happen anyway whether we’re drunk or not. Remembering what happened way back on the Boudoir photoshoot, there’s no doubt that we’d actually cross lines last night regardless of our friendship. Elijah wasn’t really trying hard to hide his body’s obvious lust calling and my attraction towards him did a great push as well to make everything happen. I know I shouldn’t be surprised about it but still, it worries me. I’d like to think that the lack of sexual action of the both of us from
My lips keep on twitching as I keep shifting on my seat every now and then. Elijah and I were both silent ever since we started eating lunch.Deep sighs were also heard between me and him. Alam kong pareho kaming may malalim na iniisip ngunit tila hindi kami pareho ng iniisip. Obviously, I am in deep discomfort while Elijah seems to be happy and relaxed. Nanatiling nakababa ang ulo ko at tahimik na nagfofocus sa tanghalian na niluto niya. I can’t seem to have the courage to look back at him despite the stares thrown at me by none other than Elijah himself. Hanggang ngayon ramdam ko pa din ang pag-iinit ng mukha ko at naiinis na din ako dahil tila ayaw humupa sa pamumula ang aking pisngi. I’m gulping hard down the food para lamang matapos na ako kaagad sa pagkain at makaalis na sa harapan ni Elijah. But then mukhang hindi pa siya tapos sa pang-aasar sa akin. I heard the clinking sound of his spoon against his plate followed by his loud huff. “Hey, stop ignoring me.” he demanded. A
With big and curious eyes, I watched Elijah stand up from his seat and walk into the corner. He pulled out his phone from his pocket and scribbled something on it with his brows slightly furrowed. Seconds after, a soft melodic sound started playing in the entire place. Constant by Jesse Barrera and Jeremy Passion played in the background. Agad kumalabog ang dibdib ko sa hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan habang pinapanood si Elijah na lumuhod sa harapan ko para hingiin ang aking kamay. “Can I have this dance?” he asked while smiling softly. I watched how the fairy lights shone and reflected through his doe eyes as he stared at me so fondly.I gave my hand as I stood up from my seat. We walked to the center part of the set-up. He placed his other hand at my back tightly pulling my body towards him. My right hand was placed on his shoulder. His other hand was perfectly tangled with my other hand. And we both danced in silence. Tanging ang malamyos lamang na musika ang naririnig sa pali