Henry
We couldn't get anything else out of Emma, she remained silent throughout the journey to Preston. We attracted a bit of attention when we arrived at the small inn where we would be spending the night.
Emma seemed out of place as I guided her to a private room where we could talk in private.
" Are you hungry? " I asked without getting an answer.
Emma remained standing in the same spot, observing the place with a certain discomfort.
" We're going to spend the night here, Ms. Ferguson " I insisted " Why don't you sit down?
She took a few uncertain steps, sitting down in a chair that was further away than I wanted. I went over to where she was, taking the seat next to her.
" I hope your quarters are to your liking," I said, trying to make conversation.
" I've never been in a room before " she looked into my eyes.
" Where did you sleep? " I took advantage of the little space she had given me.
" In my vardo " she smiled.
" What's a Vardo? " I was interested.
" A kind of carriage, I guess " she replied thoughtfully " it was our home, it had a bed, everything we needed.
" It sounds fascinating " I prodded.
" "My mother was there when they burnt it down -" Her gaze became sombre " "She couldn't get out.
" "I'm sorry for what happened, Ms. Ferguson." I watched all that pain in her eyes.
How could you break in while they were sleeping and kill them all?
" I thank you for your help, Mr. Dashwood " she stood up, wiping away a few tears " But perhaps it's best that I leave.
" You intend to leave? " Mrs. Ferguson, that's a very bad idea.
" "I'm used to living aimlessly, sir." She interrupted me. "That, in fact, is the only life I've known so far.
" But now you're alone " I insisted " You're no longer with everyone else, you have no means of transportation and...
What would they do to her if others like Reverend Gillies found her wandering alone? No, that's unacceptable.
" Forgive me, but you talk as if I had some kind of choice " she exclaimed " This is the only life I know, what do you expect?
" It doesn't have to be like this. You could stay.
" Of course, because I'm easily accepted in your society " she scoffed " How would I do that, Mr. Dashwood?
" Would you be willing to try? " I asked, surprising her. "I can help you with that, get you a place to settle down and...
" And then what? " She replied " What would my life be like? Would I leave everything I am behind?
" What's left of your life now? " I interrupted her " I'm sorry, but you seem to have run out of options, and I'm giving you one right now.
Her eyes filled with tears, and she looked away for a few seconds.
" Why don't you think for a moment before you answer me? " I proposed.
" If I accept... I'm not saying I accept, but if I do, how can I adapt? I don't know how to act, I don't have the right clothes, or the money, I don't know your customs.
" There's no need to think about any of that at the moment " I assured her " I'll ask them to prepare a bath for you and I'll see you at dinner.
" Thank you " she sighed as I stood up.
" It's a pleasure to be able to help you," I assured her before leaving the room.
I went after a maid and asked her to guide Emma to her quarters and take care of all her needs. I remembered the dress I'd bought for Kitty, my younger sister. They both seem to be the same size, so it should fit for now. But I'll need to buy Emma more clothes. She can't live with just one dress.
After handing the dress to the maid and instructing her to help Emma with whatever she needed, I joined George in the restaurant.
" And then Dashwood... What have you discovered? " He asked as soon as I sat down.
" Not much, she has nowhere to go, no one to go with and nothing to do.
" Why do I get the impression that our part in this story isn't over yet? " He took a deep breath.
" We can't leave her here " I stared at him. He's not really considering leaving her, is he?
" "She's a gypsy, Henry," he whispered. "You saw the way they looked at her when we got here!
" She has nowhere to live " I returned his tone.
" "That's the definition of a gypsy." He rolled his eyes. "You're letting yourself be affected by the young woman's beauty.
" Do you expect us to leave her here? Would you keep your conscience clear knowing that she could be the next to be burned alive, like her mother was?
" They burned her mother alive? " Shock rippled across his face.
" What do you think they'll do to her if they find her alone?
" "She's coming with us," he sighed, "but no one must know she's a gypsy.
" I think we'll have problems with that " I noticed Emma entering the place.
Her beauty, as at other times, captured me immediately, Kitty's green flowered dress fitting her perfectly. She kept her black hair loose in waves that reached halfway down her back, making me want to run my fingers through it. Long gold earrings dangled from her ears and several gold bracelets adorned her wrists. Her eyes, however, were unpainted, probably unable to save more than the jewelry.
" How are we going to do this? " George groaned.
" Good evening, gentlemen," Emma curtsied as we rose to greet her.
" "Miss Ferguson, the dress fits perfectly," George smiled, as I pulled out the chair for her to sit down, this gesture seemed to surprise her, but she just smiled.
" "Thank you, Sir." She alternated her gaze between George and me, and it was only then that I realized that we hadn't introduced ourselves to her.
" Forgive us " I asked " This is George Thorpe and I'm Henry Dashwood.
" "Thank you, Mr. Thorpe," she added, before looking at me, still smiling, while I got her something to eat, "I've never dressed like this, I look like a... Lady?
" You could fix your hair," George suggested nonchalantly.
" Pin it up? " She looked at us confused " Why?
" Maybe wear a little less jewelry " I suggested that too.
" But there are only five bracelets, earrings and a ring " she frowned.
" "What do you say we take these off? " I held her hand, taking the bracelets off one by one and putting them on the table " You know, so as not to attract so much attention.
" The earrings too? " She asked uncertainly.
" That would be great " George agreed as she took them off, looking annoyed.
" So I won't be able to wear jewelry? " She sighed in disappointment.
" You can wear jewelry, you just need to find something more suitable " I explained " something less flashy.
" My father said it was good to attract attention, he gave me jewelry whenever he could " she commented in a sad tone " I couldn't save them all, just these and some nose rings.
" Nose rings? " George's eyes widened.
" "Yes, I used to wear them on special occasions " she ran her finger along the side of her nose " they're little rings. But I think the hole will close up now.
" Yes, no nose rings " I took a deep breath " We'll teach you how to dress up without needing so much jewelry.
" She needs a good hat and a pair of gloves " George watched as the food arrived on the table " Some hair ribbons, young ladies love those.
" How am I going to get all this? " She groaned before starting to eat " And what will I do with my clothes?
" We'll help you " George interrupted her " we have a long trip tomorrow, and we can teach you some simple things.
" Thank you " she mumbled after swallowing " I hope this works out.
We watched the young woman eat in silence. She looked very hungry and wasn't willing to waste any time.
" What's wrong? " She asked, looking puzzled.
" You have a good appetite," George replied, making me want to kick him for it.
" Sorry " she looked away embarrassed " I haven't eaten since yesterday.
" Ohh! " George exclaimed.
Of course she hasn't eaten since yesterday! The camp was attacked while they were sleeping, so she didn't have time for breakfast. I should have been aware of that, she must be starving.
" I'll take care of the details of our trip tomorrow " I stood up.
I felt Emma's gaze follow me as I walked to my room. It wouldn't do for her to stay at my house, my mother and younger sister were visiting Aunt Margareth in Bath, and it wouldn't do for her reputation if she stayed with me living there alone.
Perhaps the Crawfords could take her in, Georgiana and Juliet would certainly be good company for her. Emma could learn a lot from both of them.
I retired to my chambers to write an urgent letter to the Crawfords, hopefully it will arrive before we do.
EmmaI was just finishing getting ready after breakfast. The sun had already risen, and we would soon be leaving for Bibury, so I didn't want to delay my benefactors. They were extremely attentive to me, and their manners were so kind. I think gentlemen are all like that.They must consider me a savage."Why does this have to be so difficult? "I groaned as I tried to follow Mr. Thorpe's advice and fix my hair.The fact that my hand was burnt didn't help either, it was stinging badly, in some places it had blistered, in others it was raw flesh.I stared at the burn for a few moments, thinking about everything that had happened. In a matter of hours everything had been taken away from me, my home, my family, my whole life. The only thing I have left are a few changes of clothes and jewelry that I can't wear. A knock on the door brought me out of my reverie. I opened it, finding the maid who had helped me yesterday, I had never even dreamed of having a maid before. She was a few years o
Emma "Ohhh... I'll go... "Mr. Thorpe looked disconcerted "I'll find a place for your bag."Sorry "I turned away immediately when I heard the door close.Don't forget that you're no longer with your family, Emma."It's all right "he looked away."That was completely inappropriate "I continued "Forgive me."Shall we get a suitcase? "He suggested after a few moments in silence."Yes "I bit my lip, trying to wipe my face as best I could. "We can go."Please "He offered me a tissue.I took it, wiping away my tears, feeling a little disconcerted. None of this was supposed to happen. We were supposed to be heading for the next town, all my family, all together. But here I am, heading for a life that I can't even imagine."Come on "he led me to the door "let's get you some things.I followed him in silence, holding his handkerchief. I'd have to give it back at some point. But if only I could keep it.We left the inn and walked side by side towards the town. His handkerchief was still in my
HenryI felt bewildered after Emma's short walk around the city. That young woman had affected me more in two days than any of the young women in Bibury or Bath in my entire life.I went back to my room trying to put her out of my mind, but that moment alone only served to make me replay those moments. She seemed rather embarrassed when she found out that I was going to present her with a hat, and as we walked through the city, I constantly admired her as she watched everything with fascination. Emma was convinced that she didn't attract any attention, but I noticed every glance at her, her unique and beautiful features set her apart from other young English women. No, she would never go unnoticed.I opened my suitcase, locating the small tambourine she had dropped the day we met. I should give it back.I put it back, deciding to get out of there to get rid of those thoughts. My only intention is to help her. I need to keep that in mind. I joined George in the living room, absent-mi
HenryIn the end, we decided that Emma had been left in the care of an old, sick lady after losing her family in a fire. She begged us to bring her with us because she wouldn't be able to support her for so long. If they asked for any other details, we could make them up on the spot.We tried to teach Emma everything we could, answering all her questions, and towards the end of the afternoon, we went for another walk around the city. George once again offered his arm as a support for the young woman. The gesture bothered me a little, but I tried to push those feelings aside and concentrate on Emma's way of walking.She had a unique way about her, which helped her stand out from the others. Every step she took was graceful and fluid, it was as if she was all the time in the middle of one of her dance performances, where every movement was calculated to attract everyone's attention.I shouldn't let my attention get caught up in so many details. George is right, I'd better get away and a
Emma I felt a little reluctant to follow Ms. Crawford. What gave me some comfort was knowing that Henry would be back the next day. But I couldn't help feeling out of place in that house. Why does a single family need so much space? My whole old gang could live comfortably in this place. "How do you like it here? "Georgiana Crawford asked as we walked up the stairs. "It's a beautiful place "I commented "but I don't know it well enough to form an opinion. "I'll introduce you to everything "she opened a door "But for now, you can settle in here. Your quarters. "Really? "I looked around. My room at the inn was spacious and simple, but I didn't even know where to begin to describe this place. I walked over to an armchair next to the bed and put my suitcase there. "Perhaps you'd like to change," the young lady suggested. "It's still early, I can introduce you to the house and gardens until dinner time. I felt my face flush at the suggestion. Change your clothes? How can I, if this
EmmaWe soon reached the room, and Georgie helped me to lie down, then left with the promise that he would be back soon.Well, if Mr. Downey came with Henry, he would certainly take care of everything. He wouldn't let anything go wrong. That thought calmed me down a little.After lunch, Mrs. Crawford came with the dressmaker. She assured me that I would have new dresses soon, until then I could manage with the ones they had made for me.I eagerly awaited Henry's arrival, even though I knew he would probably come with the reverend, but when we finished dinner and he didn't show up, I began to understand that he wasn't coming. I kept the family company in the living room after dinner. Mr. Crawford asked Georgie to play the piano while I pretended to read a book. "Ms. Ferguson "Hill surprised me by approaching me with a note on a tray "This arrived for you.I accepted it, feeling everyone's eyes on me as I unfolded it."Ms. FergusonI'm sorry I didn't keep my promise to visit you toda
Emma"I don't want to be alone here," I sighed as I walked to the door. "Georgie is nice, but she doesn't understand me.""I promise to be more present, Miss Ferguson. I'm sorry for my absence," he assured, opening the door.I followed him out of the room, feeling Georgie's gaze immediately assessing us."Can we go?" she questioned, alternating her gaze between the two of us."Let's go," he led us to the door.The church wasn't far, so we walked there peacefully. Our small group attracted attention as we walked. Upon arriving, Georgie located her family, sitting with them. Henry guided me to a bench in front, where the reverend's wife was seated.I felt all eyes on me as we settled, George soon taking his place beside me, facing the other with a serious expression."I hope you're well, Miss Ferguson," he smiled friendly at me."I am, thank you, Mr. Thorpe," I frowned, strange by the interaction of the two friends."Dashwood, I believe this wasn't what we agreed upon," he whispered as
HenryTwo weeks had passed since I first took Emma to church, and by mutual agreement, George and I began attending Dyrham Park regularly. The Burkharts were hosting a ball in a few days, and Emma needed to prepare for the event. George suggested that it would be appropriate to host small gatherings at our homes so that we could train her properly.My family would be returning soon, and Kitty was eager to meet Emma, but Aunt Margaret convinced her to wait for the planned return date, in ten days.Emma still hadn't seen Casterly Park, and I continually wondered what she would think of the place. I found myself growing closer to the young gypsy; when I wasn't at Dyrham Park, I would send her notes.I loved every part of my days with Emma. She was fun, intelligent, and was gradually getting used to our lifestyle. Despite still noticing that pain deep in her eyes, I saw a significant improvement in the young woman.I wanted to protect her, take care of her every moment, be by her side. As
Henry I was trying to concentrate on the letter I was answering while I waited for Mr. Martin, one of the local farmers who had arranged a meeting with me, but my mind kept returning to Emma. I should have insisted on accompanying her, even if I had to take Christopher and Kitty with us.I gave up what I was doing and started pacing back and forth in my living room. Why am I so bothered by this? Emma's right, Dyrham Park isn't far away, she must be with Georgiana by now.Perhaps I should go there, just to make sure everything is all right. Mr. Martin arrived for our meeting, forcing me to take my mind off Emma and devote my attention to the man in front of me. I tried my best to listen to his plans for expanding his farm, but I couldn't concentrate.As soon as he leaves here, I'll go to Dyrham Park, I won't let you go back to Casterly Park alone. I don't understand what's going on, but I feel something is wrong.A knock on the door echoed through the room, before Christopher opened
EmmaI took a few shaky steps back.He was dead, what's going on?" Emma " He held my arms, assessing me " It's really you!" No... You're dead! " I exclaimed, trying to get free." I'm not dead. I managed to escape " he gasped " I wasn't the only one." What? " I repeated, blinking dazedly " Others survived?" What happened to you? " “We've been following you since Melrose. Lash saw you get into a carriage, but it took us a while to find out where you ended up.I couldn't answer. I continued to stare at him in confusion and disbelief. Was Lash alive too? How many survived?" Why are you dressed like that? " He grimaced." I live here now " I recovered my voice " Two gentlemen helped me escape and sheltered me." Sheltered you? " He growled " Are you living among the Gadjikanes¹?" I'm alive,” I retorted." “Good, then you can come with me,” he replied in a dangerous tone.Go away? Go back to being a gypsy, he meant? Could I do that? And Henry, would I leave him behind?" I can't " I
EmmaWe left the house, walking through the gardens until we reached a secluded spot at the back of the property. When she saw that we were indeed alone, she sat down on a bench, urging me to do the same.I waited for her to say something, feeling a little anxious." Ms. Ferguson, we need..." I'm sorry " I interrupted her." “Wait for me to say what I want before you apologize, Emma.” She held back a smile." Yes, ma'am. " I bit my lip." You must have realized by now that Henry told me everything. " She took a deep breath " What you did was very serious and irresponsible!" Yes, I know..." You could have lost everything, Mrs. Ferguson " she continued, causing me to laugh nervously. Lost everything? As if I had much to lose. " Did I say something funny?" I have nothing left to lose, Mrs. Dashwood " I looked away " I have no family, no fortune, and that's the least damage to my reputation if they find out where I came from. " “I'm aware of your situation, Emma,” she assured me, “bu
EmmaI did what Henry asked and managed to get to my room without attracting anyone's attention, despite my pounding heart. It had been like this since Henry woke me up, and I was sure he had used me and was kicking me out of his life for good, but after his brief explanation, I calmed down a bit, as much as possible.I carefully cleaned up all that blood, then got dressed. A feeling of guilt began to consume me. How will I face everyone knowing what I did? What will my conversation with Henry be like? What is he thinking about all this?I hope he was telling the truth when he said he loved me, because I certainly was sincere.I was considering whether or not to leave the room when a knock on the door startled me. Who could it be? Henry? I don't think the conversation would happen in my room. Did he ask someone to call me?I went to the door nervously, finding Katherine Dashwood standing there, holding what looked like some sheets."Mrs. Dashwood, what...""I don't have time right now
HenryI woke up feeling a little bewildered a few hours later, the room was dark because the candles had been extinguished and the curtains were closed. I sat up in bed, feeling a little cold because I wasn't dressed, before observing Emma asleep next to me.Emma!No, no, no... What have I done?Emma shifted on the bed, turning her face, which displayed a peaceful expression, towards me.How could I have done this to her! The details of the night before began to hit me as I watched her lying on her stomach with part of the skin on her back exposed. I should have waited, we were going to get married, I should have waited! It was my duty!What would happen to her fragile reputation if someone found out what happened here last night? Emma has already had so many problems adjusting. I've ruined everything!I realized that a servant would show up at any moment, she needs to get out of here, no one can know that she spent the night in my room." Emma, wake up " I shook her gently " Come o
HenryEmma left me standing there in the library bewildered, I couldn't think of anything but her, nothing else existed in my mind. But she was right to walk away like that, what I was about to do was unacceptable.I took a deep breath and went to my room, I had to marry her. I need to marry her as soon as possible, it's more than clear that my plan for a long engagement is unfeasible for both of us.I took off my boot and started to undress, trying to extinguish the excitement that had taken over my body, but all the time my mind wandered to Emma, she was only a few meters away, I could easily go to her, no one would know.No one would know.No! What am I thinking? I couldn't do that to Emma. She's the most incredible, strong and dedicated woman I know. I can't disgrace myself with her like that.On the other hand, I want to make her my wife! It's clear that I'm not having fun with her! I'd marry her tomorrow if it were possible!That's it. I gave up thinking, opened the bedroom doo
EmmaAs much as Henry says my essence hasn't changed, that's not how I see it. This dance was proof of that, I had fun! I had fun when I shouldn't have, that tambourine was a part of me that I had been ignoring for a long time, suffocating it day by day.I moved it gently, listening to the sound it made. I missed it, I really did. Taking a deep breath, I closed my eyes, letting my mind wander to the song my mother always sang to me. It wasn't a gypsy song, but I loved the rhythm and even my father learned to play it so we could dance."I hear your voice on the wind. And I hear you call out my nameI began to chant in a tone that resembled a whisper; if I concentrated hard enough, I would hear the melody and my mother's voice soothing me."Listen, my child!' you say to me, I am the Voice of your history, Be not afraid "come follow me, Answer my call and I'll set you free.'I started to move according to my imaginary rhythm, shaking the tambourine with my body, that dress was getting in
As soon as we separated at the end of the melody, I noticed Henry standing watching me from a distance. Didn't he dance with anyone?I planned to go to him, but Georgie intercepted me on the way."Did you really dance with Mr. Kinghley?" She whispered."Unfortunately," I sighed, watching him approach the young woman from earlier."You did well, you're attracting attention," she teased."I don't want to attract attention," I groaned."Has Mr. Dashwood asked you to dance yet?" Georgie prodded."No," I sighed, debating whether or not to tell Georgie about our kisses, giving up the idea immediately. No one could even dream about it. "Mr. Kinghley was quicker.""Do you think he'll ask you?" She smiled."I don't know..."I fell silent when I noticed a red-haired boy approaching, coming directly to us."Miss Crawford," he greeted her, "It's a pleasure to see you again.""Mr. McGregor," Georgie smiled openly as the young man cast an eager look in my direction. "I didn't see you at the ball."
EmmaI was about to respond to that teasing when Henry appeared at the edge of the stairs. I couldn't help but admire his beauty as he patiently waited for us to finish descending the steps."The carriage is waiting for us," he announced with a slight bow."Henry, you must praise us immediately," Kitty scolded."You two don't need my praise to know that you look beautiful," he assured. "Although I...""Miss Ferguson," Christopher interrupted as he emerged from one of the rooms, taking my hand in a swift motion and bringing it to his lips. "You look divinely charming.""It's very kind of you, Mr. Kingsley," I returned, trying not to ignore the young man in front of me, while Henry gave his cousin a stern look."You should learn how it's done, brother," I heard Kitty tease him."Allow me to escort you to the carriage," Christopher offered his arm, leaving me unsure how to react.I couldn't refuse and expect Henry to take his place.Kitty linked her brother's free arm while I accepted Mr