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My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy come on, my Little fear
Emma I felt a little reluctant to follow Ms. Crawford. What gave me some comfort was knowing that Henry would be back the next day. But I couldn't help feeling out of place in that house. Why does a single family need so much space? My whole old gang could live comfortably in this place. "How do you like it here? "Georgiana Crawford asked as we walked up the stairs. "It's a beautiful place "I commented "but I don't know it well enough to form an opinion. "I'll introduce you to everything "she opened a door "But for now, you can settle in here. Your quarters. "Really? "I looked around. My room at the inn was spacious and simple, but I didn't even know where to begin to describe this place. I walked over to an armchair next to the bed and put my suitcase there. "Perhaps you'd like to change," the young lady suggested. "It's still early, I can introduce you to the house and gardens until dinner time. I felt my face flush at the suggestion. Change your clothes? How can I, if this
Last Updated : 2024-02-23My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come On, My Little Liar
EmmaWe soon reached the room, and Georgie helped me to lie down, then left with the promise that he would be back soon.Well, if Mr. Downey came with Henry, he would certainly take care of everything. He wouldn't let anything go wrong. That thought calmed me down a little.After lunch, Mrs. Crawford came with the dressmaker. She assured me that I would have new dresses soon, until then I could manage with the ones they had made for me.I eagerly awaited Henry's arrival, even though I knew he would probably come with the reverend, but when we finished dinner and he didn't show up, I began to understand that he wasn't coming. I kept the family company in the living room after dinner. Mr. Crawford asked Georgie to play the piano while I pretended to read a book. "Ms. Ferguson "Hill surprised me by approaching me with a note on a tray "This arrived for you.I accepted it, feeling everyone's eyes on me as I unfolded it."Ms. FergusonI'm sorry I didn't keep my promise to visit you toda
Last Updated : 2024-02-24My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy come on, my little custom
Emma"I don't want to be alone here," I sighed as I walked to the door. "Georgie is nice, but she doesn't understand me.""I promise to be more present, Miss Ferguson. I'm sorry for my absence," he assured, opening the door.I followed him out of the room, feeling Georgie's gaze immediately assessing us."Can we go?" she questioned, alternating her gaze between the two of us."Let's go," he led us to the door.The church wasn't far, so we walked there peacefully. Our small group attracted attention as we walked. Upon arriving, Georgie located her family, sitting with them. Henry guided me to a bench in front, where the reverend's wife was seated.I felt all eyes on me as we settled, George soon taking his place beside me, facing the other with a serious expression."I hope you're well, Miss Ferguson," he smiled friendly at me."I am, thank you, Mr. Thorpe," I frowned, strange by the interaction of the two friends."Dashwood, I believe this wasn't what we agreed upon," he whispered as
Last Updated : 2024-02-25My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come on, my Little discovery
HenryTwo weeks had passed since I first took Emma to church, and by mutual agreement, George and I began attending Dyrham Park regularly. The Burkharts were hosting a ball in a few days, and Emma needed to prepare for the event. George suggested that it would be appropriate to host small gatherings at our homes so that we could train her properly.My family would be returning soon, and Kitty was eager to meet Emma, but Aunt Margaret convinced her to wait for the planned return date, in ten days.Emma still hadn't seen Casterly Park, and I continually wondered what she would think of the place. I found myself growing closer to the young gypsy; when I wasn't at Dyrham Park, I would send her notes.I loved every part of my days with Emma. She was fun, intelligent, and was gradually getting used to our lifestyle. Despite still noticing that pain deep in her eyes, I saw a significant improvement in the young woman.I wanted to protect her, take care of her every moment, be by her side. As
Last Updated : 2024-02-25My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come on, my little Friendship
Henry"Mr. Dashwood, wait a moment," she rushed, blocking my way out. "Did she really go through all of that?""As I said, we had to hide her in our carriage to prevent the men from finding her. Can you imagine what they would do to her? Besides killing her?""My God," she blinked, letting a few tears escape. "Why would they do that? I need to talk to her.""No, I'll talk to her first," I stopped her from advancing."I won't say anything to anyone," Georgiana assured. "I'll help her however I can.""Thank you," I sighed. I knew once she understood the situation, she would help her friend. "Can you take me to her?"She silently led me through some corridors until we approached a closed door. She knocked, waiting for a response that didn't come."Emma, open the door, we need to talk about this," she requested.Did Emma tell her? How did she find out?"Emma, come on..."I approached, taking control of the situation."Emma, open the door," I asked. "I'm here now."For a moment, I thought
Last Updated : 2024-02-26My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come on, my little Catch
Emma" What did you think of yesterday's dinner? " Georgie asked as we were in the garden, enjoying the pleasant early October weather for some sketching.The temperature would start dropping soon, and the Crawfords had already arranged some winter dresses for me.The ball was in three days, making me increasingly anxious. It had been a month since I met Henry, and I felt more and more comfortable in this situation. Since Georgie revealed my issue with balls, Mrs. Cunningham always managed to arrange some gathering to take us to." It was pleasant; I met some new people " I shrugged, trying to focus on the bird I was struggling to draw." It was a pity Mr. Dashwood had another commitment " She commented, focusing on her own drawing." Yes, it was... " I deflected as I always did when she mentioned him." But I bet he'll show up for dinner tonight " She insisted. " It's the second day we haven't heard from him. I mean, we Crawfords, because I'm sure I saw Hill's nephew handi
Last Updated : 2024-02-29My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy come on, my little conflict
" Hello... We... we were just... " I tried to come up with an excuse." Miss Ferguson, go pack your bags " Henry requested with a serious expression.Is he really going to send me away?" What? Why? " Georgie widened her eyes." Where am I going? " I stammered." Georgiana, come with me " Mrs. Crawford requested." Mother..." Georgiana, I insist " She gave her daughter a significant look.I watched the two of them walk away before turning to Henry once again, who still had a serious look." Emma..." I got it, I'll pack my bags " I sighed defeatedly " I'll be back soon." I'll wait for you here " He assured.I headed to my room, starting to pack everything I had there. What was happening? Where am I going? Is Henry upset with me?These questions circled my mind as I tried to pack everything as quickly as possible. A knock on the door interrupted me; I opened it, finding Hill standing there." Mr. Dashwood asked you to pack only the essentials to leave and let me take care of the rest
Last Updated : 2024-02-29My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy come on, my little protected one
HenryI left Emma's room feeling disoriented, how could I lose control like that? I tried in vain to forget that kiss, but it was impossible to ignore the feeling of having her in my arms. I was using all the restraint I had left not to return to that room and claim her for myself.I decided to leave the house while I still had some resolve to distance myself from Emma. I walked through the garden for a while, thinking about everything that had been happening in my life since I saw her dancing in that town.I hadn't realized the extent of my feelings until our argument in the carriage; I couldn't even consider the possibility of her being away from me. But what could I do about it?She is under my protection, lives in my house; I am responsible for her and will mold her into an exemplary woman. No one would ever suspect her past, and then I could...I could what?I took a deep breath, resuming my way home. I am exaggerating. As I told George, I admire Emma, that's all. I also desire h
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My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come on, My little premonition
Henry I was trying to concentrate on the letter I was answering while I waited for Mr. Martin, one of the local farmers who had arranged a meeting with me, but my mind kept returning to Emma. I should have insisted on accompanying her, even if I had to take Christopher and Kitty with us.I gave up what I was doing and started pacing back and forth in my living room. Why am I so bothered by this? Emma's right, Dyrham Park isn't far away, she must be with Georgiana by now.Perhaps I should go there, just to make sure everything is all right. Mr. Martin arrived for our meeting, forcing me to take my mind off Emma and devote my attention to the man in front of me. I tried my best to listen to his plans for expanding his farm, but I couldn't concentrate.As soon as he leaves here, I'll go to Dyrham Park, I won't let you go back to Casterly Park alone. I don't understand what's going on, but I feel something is wrong.A knock on the door echoed through the room, before Christopher opened
My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come on, My Little despair
EmmaI took a few shaky steps back.He was dead, what's going on?" Emma " He held my arms, assessing me " It's really you!" No... You're dead! " I exclaimed, trying to get free." I'm not dead. I managed to escape " he gasped " I wasn't the only one." What? " I repeated, blinking dazedly " Others survived?" What happened to you? " “We've been following you since Melrose. Lash saw you get into a carriage, but it took us a while to find out where you ended up.I couldn't answer. I continued to stare at him in confusion and disbelief. Was Lash alive too? How many survived?" Why are you dressed like that? " He grimaced." I live here now " I recovered my voice " Two gentlemen helped me escape and sheltered me." Sheltered you? " He growled " Are you living among the Gadjikanes¹?" I'm alive,” I retorted." “Good, then you can come with me,” he replied in a dangerous tone.Go away? Go back to being a gypsy, he meant? Could I do that? And Henry, would I leave him behind?" I can't " I
My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come on, My little Agreement
EmmaWe left the house, walking through the gardens until we reached a secluded spot at the back of the property. When she saw that we were indeed alone, she sat down on a bench, urging me to do the same.I waited for her to say something, feeling a little anxious." Ms. Ferguson, we need..." I'm sorry " I interrupted her." “Wait for me to say what I want before you apologize, Emma.” She held back a smile." Yes, ma'am. " I bit my lip." You must have realized by now that Henry told me everything. " She took a deep breath " What you did was very serious and irresponsible!" Yes, I know..." You could have lost everything, Mrs. Ferguson " she continued, causing me to laugh nervously. Lost everything? As if I had much to lose. " Did I say something funny?" I have nothing left to lose, Mrs. Dashwood " I looked away " I have no family, no fortune, and that's the least damage to my reputation if they find out where I came from. " “I'm aware of your situation, Emma,” she assured me, “bu
My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come on, My Little Embarrassment
EmmaI did what Henry asked and managed to get to my room without attracting anyone's attention, despite my pounding heart. It had been like this since Henry woke me up, and I was sure he had used me and was kicking me out of his life for good, but after his brief explanation, I calmed down a bit, as much as possible.I carefully cleaned up all that blood, then got dressed. A feeling of guilt began to consume me. How will I face everyone knowing what I did? What will my conversation with Henry be like? What is he thinking about all this?I hope he was telling the truth when he said he loved me, because I certainly was sincere.I was considering whether or not to leave the room when a knock on the door startled me. Who could it be? Henry? I don't think the conversation would happen in my room. Did he ask someone to call me?I went to the door nervously, finding Katherine Dashwood standing there, holding what looked like some sheets."Mrs. Dashwood, what...""I don't have time right now
My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come On, My Little Consequence
HenryI woke up feeling a little bewildered a few hours later, the room was dark because the candles had been extinguished and the curtains were closed. I sat up in bed, feeling a little cold because I wasn't dressed, before observing Emma asleep next to me.Emma!No, no, no... What have I done?Emma shifted on the bed, turning her face, which displayed a peaceful expression, towards me.How could I have done this to her! The details of the night before began to hit me as I watched her lying on her stomach with part of the skin on her back exposed. I should have waited, we were going to get married, I should have waited! It was my duty!What would happen to her fragile reputation if someone found out what happened here last night? Emma has already had so many problems adjusting. I've ruined everything!I realized that a servant would show up at any moment, she needs to get out of here, no one can know that she spent the night in my room." Emma, wake up " I shook her gently " Come o
My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come On, My Little Ruin
HenryEmma left me standing there in the library bewildered, I couldn't think of anything but her, nothing else existed in my mind. But she was right to walk away like that, what I was about to do was unacceptable.I took a deep breath and went to my room, I had to marry her. I need to marry her as soon as possible, it's more than clear that my plan for a long engagement is unfeasible for both of us.I took off my boot and started to undress, trying to extinguish the excitement that had taken over my body, but all the time my mind wandered to Emma, she was only a few meters away, I could easily go to her, no one would know.No one would know.No! What am I thinking? I couldn't do that to Emma. She's the most incredible, strong and dedicated woman I know. I can't disgrace myself with her like that.On the other hand, I want to make her my wife! It's clear that I'm not having fun with her! I'd marry her tomorrow if it were possible!That's it. I gave up thinking, opened the bedroom doo
My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come on, my little desire
EmmaAs much as Henry says my essence hasn't changed, that's not how I see it. This dance was proof of that, I had fun! I had fun when I shouldn't have, that tambourine was a part of me that I had been ignoring for a long time, suffocating it day by day.I moved it gently, listening to the sound it made. I missed it, I really did. Taking a deep breath, I closed my eyes, letting my mind wander to the song my mother always sang to me. It wasn't a gypsy song, but I loved the rhythm and even my father learned to play it so we could dance."I hear your voice on the wind. And I hear you call out my nameI began to chant in a tone that resembled a whisper; if I concentrated hard enough, I would hear the melody and my mother's voice soothing me."Listen, my child!' you say to me, I am the Voice of your history, Be not afraid "come follow me, Answer my call and I'll set you free.'I started to move according to my imaginary rhythm, shaking the tambourine with my body, that dress was getting in
My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come On, My Little discouragement
As soon as we separated at the end of the melody, I noticed Henry standing watching me from a distance. Didn't he dance with anyone?I planned to go to him, but Georgie intercepted me on the way."Did you really dance with Mr. Kinghley?" She whispered."Unfortunately," I sighed, watching him approach the young woman from earlier."You did well, you're attracting attention," she teased."I don't want to attract attention," I groaned."Has Mr. Dashwood asked you to dance yet?" Georgie prodded."No," I sighed, debating whether or not to tell Georgie about our kisses, giving up the idea immediately. No one could even dream about it. "Mr. Kinghley was quicker.""Do you think he'll ask you?" She smiled."I don't know..."I fell silent when I noticed a red-haired boy approaching, coming directly to us."Miss Crawford," he greeted her, "It's a pleasure to see you again.""Mr. McGregor," Georgie smiled openly as the young man cast an eager look in my direction. "I didn't see you at the ball."
My Little Ruin - Mr. Dashwood's sweet gypsy Come On, my little gallant
EmmaI was about to respond to that teasing when Henry appeared at the edge of the stairs. I couldn't help but admire his beauty as he patiently waited for us to finish descending the steps."The carriage is waiting for us," he announced with a slight bow."Henry, you must praise us immediately," Kitty scolded."You two don't need my praise to know that you look beautiful," he assured. "Although I...""Miss Ferguson," Christopher interrupted as he emerged from one of the rooms, taking my hand in a swift motion and bringing it to his lips. "You look divinely charming.""It's very kind of you, Mr. Kingsley," I returned, trying not to ignore the young man in front of me, while Henry gave his cousin a stern look."You should learn how it's done, brother," I heard Kitty tease him."Allow me to escort you to the carriage," Christopher offered his arm, leaving me unsure how to react.I couldn't refuse and expect Henry to take his place.Kitty linked her brother's free arm while I accepted Mr
