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Chapter 2 - Rawls
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2024-09-28 10:29:23I was not expecting for Evie to come home again so soon. She is always “taking a break” from her college experience. At this rate, it may take her until she is thirty before she finishes her degree. The degree is still another issue. She has changed majors so many times that I have no idea what kind of degree she will finally receive. I wish I knew where I had gone wrong with her. I had the help of Robert and Mary Edwards, my friends for over twenty years. They had a daughter, Claire, that was the same age as Evie. I had hoped with their help and having Claire to keep her company, things would have turned out better.
Claire and Evie were different as night and day. They have been thick as thieves ever since they were three years old in preschool. After my wife, Fiona, died in a car accident, I was a wreck. I had no idea how to take care of a little girl. If it wasn’t for my best friends, Robert and Mary Edwards, I would not have made it through. Fiona took care of Evie. I was busy trying to make a name for myself in the real estate business. I loved my family but I wanted to be able to provide for them. I had grown up poor without a father in the house and I never wanted that for my daughter. I think I spoiled Evie way too much and that is why she is acting the way she is and not taking anything seriously. She didn’t have responsibilities the same way that Claire did. The Edwards’ were two hard working people but they weren’t rich money wise, but they provided for Claire the best that they could. I took care of Evie, but with money instead of being a parent like I should have been. I had nannies when I had to work late. I had tutors when she did not do well in school. I bailed her out of so many things when she was a teenager, the bail bondsman was on speed dial. Thankfully, I was able to keep all of her indiscretions out of court. I wanted her to get her act together and be a grown up for once. Evie is twenty-two years old and should finally be graduating, but I have this sinking feeling that her unexpected trip home is not good news. Whenever she just pops up, something is going on at school. I can afford to send her to school as long as she wants to go but this is getting ridiculous. Claire finished her social work program in three years and has been interning for a year. She will start her full time work very soon. I am a horrible father and person. I know more about what is going one with my friends daughter than I know about my own. I have seen Claire grow into a beautiful woman and I am having thoughts I should not have for her. I see her sitting in her bedroom window seat when I get home at night. She doesn’t think I can see her. It makes me feel guilty when I happen to have a woman with me. I have my needs. These women mean nothing to me, but I cannot be celibate. It took me a long time after Fiona died, to start seeing women again. It is still only for sex, I have never wanted a serious relationship with any of them. Maybe I am becoming senile as I am getting older. I am having hot and very sexually inappropriate dreams about Claire. She is my Evie’s best friend and the daughter of my best friends. I feel like such a dirty old man. I have seen Claire grow up. She has had sleepovers at my house. I have driven her and Evie to birthday parties. I have attended Claire’s birthday parties. But now, I want to kiss every inch of her beautiful skin. I want to know how she tastes. I want to know what it feels like to kiss her. I wake up every morning and have to jerk myself off to just be able to even get out of bed. I can’t continue this way. Plus, there is no way that I can act on these feelings. I need to find a distraction. I am tired of the random woman hook ups, but that may be the only way to get Claire off of my mind before I do something really stupid.Related chapters
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