73. Hopelessness

106. Hopelessness

- Jacob -

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Almost a month has already passed and my feelings about Natalie have changed from anger to confusion to utter disappointment and finally I am creeping towards anguish. With each day passing, my hope is fading away.

I probably hurt her way too much. This is why she didn’t contact me.

I am confused, If I should give up too?

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That day when I realized I had made a mistake, I went to see her.

“She doesn’t want to see you,” her father had told me.

I didn’t believe him for a second. I knew she must be angry, because I remembered how I had lashed out at her. I felt guilty and ashamed. I ended up doing exactly what Ira had warned me against.

I didn’t trust her and used harsh words.

“Let me talk to her once. There is some misunderstanding….” I plead.

He shaked his head and tried to close the door on my face.

I blocked the door and called her out in desperation, “Natalie!”

I knew her father never liked me, but in that moment I saw how much he hated me. He pushed