Kisses
- Jacob -
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Just when we are about to head home, I ask for her number discreetly. With her father nearby, I don’t want to be open about it. I really behaved like an idiot at the dinner table. She must be thinking, I am some awkward dork or something. Technically, I am in many aspects. I just don’t want her to know about it. Not yet.
I couldn’t be happier when she obliged and entered her number into my phone. My smile widens when I see the contact name she entered ‘Dull-Mean-Happening-Girl. Too long but works.
She is a tease and I like that... Her dating life probably isn’t as clean as a slate like mine. I hope I can leave an impression good enough to convince her to date.
After Mom’s lecture about my tone, my room, and my ungrateful attitude in general, I am ready for bed. My fingers are itching to text her.
I give myself several excuses like ‘she doesn’t have my number yet’ or ‘ We need to figure out a weekend study session schedule‘.
I ignore it’s only Tuesday, and we have plenty of time. I also ignore that we came back from her home barely an hour ago.
‘Had a great time with you tonight’
I delete the text immediately. It was a family dinner. Get a grip, Boy!
‘Dinner was really great’
Deleted again. I said it many times to Mrs. Relish.
‘Hey Jacob here save this number’
By the time I finally send the message, my heart is thumping like a drum. She doesn’t answer me. Of course, she doesn’t answer me. She isn’t desperate like me. Although I sent the text barely two minutes ago. I have a stupid crush on her, after all. First crush of my life, for christ’s sake.
I reread the text again and start to recall all the embarrassing things I did tonight. I wonder if she noticed all of these? Did she notice how I spilled some soup while serving and that comment I made? Oh My God! Her father hates me already. Did she notice how I was constantly staring at her in the living room? Her soft lips. Stray hair on her face. Green eyes. I had to try so hard to focus on tv.
I can see myself behaving like my friends did when they were 13-14. and it’s pathetic.
The thought itself sobers me up. The last thing I want from her is to avoid me because I am a creep. Because I really feel guilty about tricking mom into getting this dinner arranged. I switch off the phone and toss it across the bed and try to sleep.
It takes longer, but finally I slumber.
Then something happens that has never happened before. I dream and I dream about her.
Natalie walks toward me wearing a white silk dress. I could tear it apart with a single hand. Her nipples poke through the thin cloth.
“Is your cock as big as you, Jacob?”
“What do you think?” I ask.
“I would never know unless I see it.” She says, wetting her lips and my cock goes hard as a rock.
“Why don’t you touch it?” I ask.
She shakes her head and says, “I would rather feel it.”
Then she pushes me down onto the bed as I unbutton myself. I raise my hips so she can pull my jeans and boxers away with her slender fingers. Then she gets on the bed and picks her dress up so I can see her lean legs and her bare bottom. My heart thumps with excitement. Then she slowly and steadily takes me in. She rides me sensually and I bask in the heavenly pleasure of her slick and wet cunt. When she squeezes her pussy, I groan and climax with intense pleasure. I wake up to see my cock in my hand and cum all over my clothes.
Fuck.
I chuckle.
I should be embarrassed. Instead, I feel a strange sense of contentment. It feels like a milestone I thought would never happen.
… …
I wake up in the morning to constant scratching and whining sounds… and random low bark. Coco is trying to wake me up. I wish she would just let me sleep till noon. It’s Wednesday and sleeping till noon won’t happen anyway, so I sigh and get out of bed. She needs to freshen up. I change for a walk and look in the general direction where I threw my phone last night. Out of all the comments my Mom made, I do agree I need to clean up my room. This is why I cannot find my phone and Coco starts whining. It’s an emergency. I need to hurry up.
“Ok Ok! I will get my phone later! Let’s go for your walk...”
“Just don’t poop!” I tell her. As if she will listen to me. Drawbacks of having a dog!
They poop and you gotta pick it up. And you gotta wake up early... And their fur! So much Goddamn Fur!
If I ask mom though, I am sure she will add another ten drawbacks to the list. She is right, though. Once I go to college, she cannot take care of Coco.
I glance at the clock before going out of the house. It’s 5:55. I gotta be back in 30 minutes to be on time for school.
Once out, Coco does her business and we start walking toward the lake. I think I remember my way there. Hopefully, I can go and get back on time. I should have grabbed my watch. Mom also pointed out I am clumsy. She is probably right.
It’s really beautiful on this side of the city. Still, I miss the dingy apartments and less-than-perfect roads near our old house. I only have 6 months left of school but at least June will get a better environment.
On my way to the lake, I take a few wrong turns, but I eventually find my way to the right path. I am late and should head back, but the scenery in front of me is breathtaking and I want to sit here to soak all the beauty in. I immerse myself in the incredible feeling of wind playing with my hair. I sit there mesmerized by Lotus floating and beautiful ripples in the water here and there when a voice startles me.
“I wasn’t expecting to see her this soon.”
The delightful morning suddenly becomes memorable with the brunette hair green-eyed neighbor in my sight. The very neighbor I had dinner with last night. Family dinner I know… I don’t care anymore if I get late for school now.
My well-trained Coco doesn’t give her a break and starts jumping to hug her, or probably climb on her lap? I don’t know what she wants sometimes.
“Wow! She is super excited isn’t she?” Natalie says, trying to pet her and trying to stay on her feet. It’s difficult with Coco launching herself on her again and again. I am trying to pull her harness, but it isn’t working at all.
Embarrassing…
“Believe me, she behaves sometimes.”
Natalie chuckles and squats. I tame Coco somehow. She sits and starts licking Natalie’s palm. I grimace, thinking about all the things she licked on her way to the lake. While Natalie strokes Coco’s beautiful blond fur, I steal glances at Natalie’s workout attire. Sports bra with leggings. Sweat dripping from the neck towards Ahem.
Stop…
I should stop. I want to stop. But my mind throws me a thousand images of her riding me from my dream last night and my face goes hot.
“What happened to you?” She chuckles and asks.
Just don’t ask!
“Nothing… So, are you a runner?” I ask to distract myself.
“Yea, I participate in races. Morning is a good time for workout and practice”
Last night I wanted to ask her about trophies decorated in their dining room, but got distracted by her reaction after I mentioned hockey. I am cherishing her flawless smile while her palms stroke Coco’s fur. I suddenly notice the time on her wrist and jump to my feet. “It’s 6:45 already?”
After a goodbye handshake and a few more kisses (with Coco…, not me people) We part ways.
I might have claimed I don’t care if I get late to school, turns out I still care. A certain girl doesn’t affect my punctuality and I am pleased with myself.
15. Official girlfriend- Natalie -.I reach my locker and rub the obscenities scribbled over my locker. It’s chalk today. That’s a plus! I had to file a complaint when somebody used spray paint. Dumb people didn’t know about the camera nearby. Things are way better now. Whenever some new topic stirs in school, they usually forget me. Whenever they get back on me for whatever reason, it’s usually the same shit. Leaders of the bully associations will agree, they need to come up with better insults.“Hey”Riley!I turn my head towards the soft voice and nod my head, smiling. The past year was probably the hardest for her (apart from me). Because she doesn’t know what exactly happened to trigger all this mess. She created some distance first, but then tried to rekindle the friendship after a few months. Not sure if she approached me out of pity or if she just missed me? We were good friends, after all. Even before West was in the picture to ruin everything.Despite her efforts, we haven
17. It’s barely step one - Jacob - . “I thought you were coming to our school today?” West sits next to me in the locker room wearing his shoes after our match practice. “No man... one more week. Next Monday, to be exact.” I frown, “I thought I told you about that chemistry competition on Sunday..” West scoffs, “You indeed are a dork!” and walks out of the locker room. Nerd would be more appropriate. But Ok.. Whatever gets you off West. If someone from Maple High would have teased me, I might have taken offense. But I know West doesn’t mean it like that. He is crude to everyone. His default mode. I like him. He is fun to be around and surprisingly cool for things other boys have embarrassed me about. I am looking forward to attending school with him. I am sure we will have some of the classes together. With Natalie too. She and I can be good friends. Or maybe more. I am eager to meet her in the evening again. She told me she would like to take a walk with Coco. I wonder if s
19. Damn June - Jacob - . “No we don’t.” That's what I told her but she is still hovering around me ever since I came back home. It must be some Useless-School-Gossip. I am not interested... I try to ignore her, but eventually, give up when she enters my room and interrupts my priceless me-time in bed. “What is it?” I snap. It’s exhausting being around everyone all day long. I need a break for God's Sake! “I know you usually don’t like these things… so-called rumors, but...” “Let me stop you right there.” I sit up in my bed. “I am not interested.” “It’s about Natalie.. “she says in a pleading tone. “Jesus! Definitely not interested June!!” “It’s not good Jacob. She isn’t a good person...” “JUNE! What the Fuck.” I practically yell at her. “If she isn’t good, I would like to figure it out myself. You know, these things piss me off.” “Your hockey team isn’t on good terms with her either,” She yells back first, then calms down and adds, “I will shut my mouth now. But I know you
22. Potluck- Natalie -.“I am not going anywhere!” Amy yells and shuts her door so loud, my table trembles with shock. I peek towards my door to see what this drama is all about.“What happened?” I ask Mom as I see her in front of her door.“She is just being…” Mom shrugs and air quotes, “Amy.”I chuckle and Amy opens the door, “Oh really!! Only because I am young doesn’t mean I always have to run errands. Everyone just bosses around me.”I choke at her words. She may or may not be right. I confess I often send her downstairs to bring a thing or two, twice or thrice every day. That doesn’t mean I boss her around. Noo... She is just.. too polite to say no.Amy is either too quiet and shy or angry and yelling. There is no in-between. I understand her meltdown, so I ask mom, ”What is it? Do you need something done?”Mom sighs. ”Yeah, I baked some cake. Just wanted to send it to Rachel’s house while it’s still warm.”“Rachel?”“Jacob’s Mom.”I frown. ”But you sent her cookies yesterday.
23. Not my problem- Jacob -.June scurries around the living room as I throw a few cushions on her way. I chase her behind as she goes upstairs to her room.“Behave like your age, Jacob!” Mom yells from behind.God everyone pampers June so much! I gotta kill her. I don’t think I have ever felt this much embarrassment in my life before!!!I try to push through June’s door as she tries to stop me from entering her room.“I did you a freaking favor!” She glances at me from the door crack.“Let me inside! Or I will push hard… Don’t cry mommy when you fall on your bum.”“Promise we will talk like civilized people.”“Ok..” I stop pushing the door and June locks it.I scoff. ”I knew it. Coward.”“Go pick someone your own size!”“How long are you planning to stay there? You gotta come out sometime.” I warn her and walk away from her door.Wait, what?I go back to her door and knock.“I am not stupid, Jacob!”“What do you mean, you did me a favor?”There is a pause, then she opens her door.
26. Injustice - Natalie - . After an uneventful and surprisingly peaceful day at school, I spend my time watching tv and hearing mom rumble about my college choices. She doesn’t want me to go away. I, on the other hand, want to put as much distance between this town and myself. I glance at my watch, expecting Jacob to turn up anytime. Half an hour passes, then almost an hour. I sigh, thinking about texting him, but remember that boy barely uses his phone. I change my clothes and walk over to his house. If he can come unannounced, it’s only fair if I surprise him too. I am eager to visit him. I want to see Coco, not him… I needlessly correct myself. After all, I didn’t meet her during my morning jog today, or him for that matter. I give myself more excuses. I walk towards his house, cursing myself inwardly. I am probably getting too involved with him. As I knock on his door and patiently wait for it to open. I suck in a breath as I see, Not Jacob, Not his mother, nor any other
29. Hot New Transfer- Natalie -.Bloodsucking Monday is back. I was holed up in my room the whole weekend. I wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone. I feel a little guilty about not replying to Jacob. It is his first day at this school. I am sure it will be great.As I put my stuff in my locker and turn. Millie almost bumps into me, then gives me a smirk.What is that smirk about?She has a locker next to mine. She often passes mean comments or strange questions in my way. Norris has been dating her for the past few months. From what I have heard, she is super possessive of her boyfriend. Norris could do better.Ok, Stop... Not my problem.“I heard that hot new transfer is your neighbor.”WHAT??Has his house address leaked already?“New Transfer?” I am not gonna admit I know him. It will end up with the same signature question.Are you planning to fuck him, too?Not exact words, but something subtle.“Oh, come on! He lives somewhere near the lake. You live there too… Rich people!!”I
32. Ask Norris- Jacob -.After getting home, I lay in my bed and hugged Coco for a long time. I didn’t see Natalie much at school today. It was for the best, but it made me feel miserable. She came in late and left early from the classes we had together. Didn’t notice her anywhere in the cafeteria either. I get it they don’t get along. But was it necessary to shut me out without a word? I probably read it too much when we visited my old place. It meant nothing. That day and our last few interactions were nothing.My phone goes off after some time. I realize I had fallen asleep and Coco was long gone.West calling…“Where are you? I texted you an hour ago.” I rub my eyes and his voice breaks my drowsiness.“What happened?”“Could you bring something to eat? I will bring drinks. Turns out it’s a surprise party… So we gotta arrange everything.”“Oh… Will his parents allow us at his place?”“They ain’t home. I know that for sure.”“You better be... I will see what I can do. How many peo
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- Jacob - . “When are you coming home?” June pouts over the video call that has been going past 15 minutes. I am surprised how she finds so many things to talk about with me nowadays. Turns out Mom and dad have been breathing down her neck ever since I left for college. Now I realize maybe Mom and dad didn't exactly have any special grudge with me. They just needed someone to bicker all the time. I feel bad about June, because I know how overbearing they can be. “June, I cannot come this weekend.” I don’t have money and time! “Why!” “I am busy with studies..” “How come Norris is not busy but you are… he is going home the same weekend I am asking you to come,” she says and I frown. Yea… Sometimes I wish to switch places with Norris. Especially when I feel I am not giving Natalie proper attention. I could really use some free time. Wait a minute…. “How do you know Norris is coming home that week?” She flushers. “Uhmm… I… just know. Gotta go bye!” she says and cuts the call.
Epilogue - II.- Natalie -.“She will probably sprinkle holy water all over in there,” Jacob quips as we walk out of my room. It makes me giggle.He is probably right.I never knew she was so devoted to her religion when I came here for a runner program last year.She is nice.. But too rigid sometimes.I try not to judge her, but she judges me all the damn time.“I wish I could rent an apartment,” I say ruefully. He hums and rubs my back.Jacob has his own Two-room apartment he shares with Norris, whereas I had nobody to share the rent. Ira and Riley wanted to stay on campus as it’s much cheaper and with travel costs in picture there was no point spending money elsewhere.We walk towards the restaurant to meet Ira and Riley for lunch. They are roommates now. I feel jealous as fuck sometimes.”How is Riley doing?”“She is good.. mostly good… She finally started seeing this guy who was following her around for the past two months,” I hope something works out for her. I am glad she is
117. Epilogue—A Year Later—- Jacob -.My phone pings for the third time, and I roll my eyes. Jeez.. Have patience, girl! I pull out my phone and check it anyway. Just to be sure she doesn't have some surprising news at the last minute. My-Impatient-Girlfriend: ‘Where the hell are you?’Me: ‘Almost there… your building’s security guard is slow.’Damn Slow…I am here to see her and right now we are on a timer. According to Natalie, we only have 20 minutes left. I hate being on a timer, but I am desperate too. As soon as the guard lets me into the building, I make a run for her dorm-room.18 minutes…I have raced through this building many times. But this time I am too late. Two more minutes to see her. Time is too short today.“Oh wow! Hey Jacob…”I wince at hearing her voice. I turn and wave at Ira.“I… will see you at lunch! Bye!” I say without stopping for her.She laughs and yells at me, “I don’t think you will make it this time. "Yeah, mock me. I turn and smirk. “Oh I will, I a
116. When she went missing - Trigger Warning - Implied Rape- West -.Everything is dark and blurry…Pungent smell of blood and urine is all over the place. I can hear someone sobbing. I blink repeatedly, trying to focus. Dread sets in my heart when I realize it’s Riley.How? What happened?I know it’s her.I am trying to think and turn my head to look for her. I heard her scream.Fuck!They got hold of her… My head is throbbing as I conclude the obvious
115. Make it work - Jacob - . We both lay on the floor in my closet, our limbs tangled in each other. “We should go to bed… “I say, sighing heavily. “No..” She whines. “I don’t want a sore back again, Natalie.. “ We have been laying here for the past hour. She hugs me tight with determination so I cannot get up. “This is not fair! “ I grumble. “You got a nice little mattress called Jacob… What about me?” She giggles and gets up. “I have news..” she says while grabbing my T-shirt to wear. I look at her, and she drops the bombshell. “Dad asked you to join us for breakfast.” Ahh fuck… “I knew this was coming…” I sigh. I cannot keep sleeping with his daughter while avoiding him altogether. “Don’t worry…” she says in a fake sympathetic voice, “I told him not to push you around this time.” That makes me laugh, and she grins back at me. “It’s not a pleasant experience to fall on your bum.” I tell her while getting back into the room. “How would you feel if my family aske
–Present Day–- Natalie -.Nowadays, I spend my time with Riley as much as I can. Sometimes we style each other’s hair while watching movies. Sometimes we paint. I suck at it.Sometimes we bake. She sucks at it. I can see her mood improving a little every day. I have been convincing her to go to prom with us.“Norris would love to take you as his date.” I tell her as I realize that she is thinking about the date, or maybe West.She isn’t angry with him. Maybe she had been telling the truth all along. There was no sexual assault. It doesn’t make sense though.She shrugs. “Okay!”“Really!” My eyes widen.She laughs. “Yeah why not..”I have to make sure Norris isn’t taking anybody else.Sh*t Sh*t Sh*t!Once we exhaust all our options to pass our time, we go out cycling. I take her to the campsite by the lake, where I spent that night with Jacob. We sit there for hours and I tell her stories of college campus. I tell her about my hot coach and how Jacob was green with envy when he met
114. That Day – Three weeks ago – - West - . When I reach home, I stiffen to realize someone is inside. Alfred is usually out at this time and doesn’t come back until late at night. I open the door carefully and see Riley sitting by the kitchen counter doing her schoolwork. She still has the keys. “You are late,” she says. I blink at her. She turns and raises her brow, expecting an answer from me. It makes me smile. “I didn’t want to come back to an empty house.” I admit. That damn call from Spain has messed up my head today. I am not sure how I am feeling exactly. “What are you doing here?” I ask as I notice a cake box, some flowers and a tiny gift sitting on the counter next to her bag. Considering the way she snapped at me in the parking lot, I am sure it’s not for me. “Bought these for Mom’s birthday… “ She says then asks after a pause, “Do you remember who else’s birthday it is today?” I sigh. She is here to pick up a fight. That day when she saw the pics… She was t
113. Confused - West - . It’s for the first time I have ever been alone for this long. Single is the word, I guess. I tried to convince Riley, and I tried hard. But then I realized she can be God damn stubborn when she wants to be. In the next few days, a few things happened… Subtle, but enough to put me on edge and I felt it was better to leave her alone. “What happened to your girlfriend?” Caleb had asked. “None of your business!” He chuckled. “I know you guys broke up.” He shoves my personal information in my face to show me he keeps tabs on me. His tactics are getting old and have little effect on me. His requests to keep his precious packages secured in my house have increased. I have an inkling he is trying to set up a business for himself. I just hope he doesn’t drag me in his mess. “You must miss her in bed.” “Don’t push me Caleb.” I warned him. He shrugged. “If you are not dating her, I guess it’s an open pass for me-” I punched his face before he could complete his