83. Go-to approach- Jacob -.Once I tasted her last night, I couldn’t control myself. It was like a switch flipped inside me. After spending entire night together, I should be sated. But I want more and more of her. Touching her… Making love to her… felt so right, as if every part of her was made to fit in with me.This night was a surprise for me too. It’s like I walked a hundred miles since last evening and I am a changed man. I go downstairs after getting ready and hear Natalie talking on the phone.“Don’t you ever do that again!” She hisses to someone and puts down the phone.“Who is getting your wrath on this lovely morning?”She smiles and says without meeting my eyes. “It was Ira.”“Ok,” I say. But I don’t believe her.Natalie doesn’t realize that she is a terrible liar.It nags me sometimes. On such occasions, I remind myself we barely started dating three weeks ago. With time, we will open up and trust each other better.“See, I can cook too!” She chirps and shows me a sand
84. First Freaking fight- Natalie -.I sneak into the school from back door and rush towards the girls’ room to lock myself in one of the stalls.“Does it mean you would be a bitch to anyone who ignores you? Don’t tell me this is your go-to approach.”It stings, and it stings really badly. I am shaking with anger and embarrassment.It stings because he is right.This is my fucking go-to approach. Not because they ignore me. But because they cross a line.What are you supposed to do when people fucking bully and harass you? You either turn into a bitch or brawl like a baby. Funnily enough, I have done both, depending on how I feel on a certain day.After taking some deep breaths, I finally come out of the stall and wash my face. I am late for my class and I don’t want to see him right now. So I lean on a wall and call Ira.But I am not sure who I should talk to. I cannot let this anger boil within me. It will eat me.She answers after a few rings, “Hey… what happened?”Her voice soun
85. Trust - Jacob -.When She gets out of the car in anger, I don’t stop her. Because I am pissed too. I will talk to her after classes once our head is in the right place. When She doesn’t come to attend any of the classes, I look for her. By the end of school hours, I get anxious wondering why she would skip school.I was at the edge when I confronted her in the car. Now I wish I had held my tongue.I check my previous texts.Me: ‘I guess I said too much. I am sorry.’I had sent this after I didn’t see her in any of the classes.Me: ‘We still need to talk, but you need to pick my call for that!’and this one when she didn’t pick up my call. I sigh and send her one more text.Jacob: ‘I am heading for practice. I hope you are not sleeping in some corner of the school. Although I checked your usual hiding spots to make sure you aren’t left behind like a 5-year-old… See you in the evening?’I put the phone in my pocket, dreading that she will probably not answer this text too.“Jacob
86. Blood on my hands- West -.Looks like somebody had their first fight. I cannot help but wonder if I am the reason behind it. I wanted to listen to her voice when I called. It didn’t take me much to figure out she was at his place late at night.I am not jealous or anything. She can fuck anyone she wants. But the problem is them getting closer would mean she wouldn’t even talk to me or give me any chance.That’s why I sent that text at unsourly hour. It was a long shot.But I think it worked.I must be damn lucky. I snort at the thought.She refused to meet me tonight and said we can talk at my party this weekend. But with Jacob hovering around her, I am not sure how I will do that. I just need to figure out some way to keep Jacob away from her that night.....I pick up a pile of dirty laundry from Alfred’s room to clean up. It fucking stinks. His clothes, and his room in general, stinks real bad. Sometimes I want to burn his stuff. Truth is sometimes I want to burn this house t
87. Don’t you dare!- Jacob -.Once I reach her apartment building, I call Ira a few times. When she doesn’t answer, I text her. Me: ‘I am pressing the buzzer. I don’t care if it wakes up your whole Damn family!’I am not sure who else lives with her. I hope she doesn’t have some big, bulky brother to beat me off in the middle of the night.Ira: ‘I am coming downstairs. We need to fucking talk!’I want to tell her I need to talk to Natalie, not her. But I am not stupid enough to aggravate her. She opens the building door and stomps towards me.If looks could kill, I would have dropped dead at this very moment. Yeah, I get it.I wouldn’t appreciate someone waking me up at 3 am either. I raise my hands in defense and say, “I have been trying to reach her since noon. She hasn’t been answering. I am already feeling pathetic. Please don’t add to my misery.”She glares at me, then says, “Oh well, the solution is simple. Don’t be a dick to her.”I want to defend myself. The real reason I
88. Loopholes- Jacob -.I would have fallen asleep if Natalie would let me.“Does blow job count as sex?” She asks.She has been trying to find loopholes in Ira’s order for the last hour. I am tired and trying to sleep.“uhmm I think the word is - Oral Sex!” I grumble, laying on my stomach while Natalie lies on my back.“Damn!” she says, and I cannot help but chuckle.“Can we please sleep now?” I ask her, yawning.“Such a boring boyfriend you are!” she says.“Yeah??” I mumble.“I wish I could have found someone better…”I turn to throw her off my back, then press her under me. She looks amused.I pin her wrists above her head and say, “I guess I should fuck your pretty mouth just to make a better use of it. It talks too much…”Looks like my hesitation is gone.“Why don’t you shut me up now…” she whispers.It’s hard. Being around her is hard. She doesn’t miss a single chance to tease me. I literally have blue balls right now. She stroked and left me in the middle so many times.She
89. Trouble- Jacob -.As we leave for school, I notice Jacob being quiet and restless.“Are you okay?” I ask..“Hmmm yeah..” he says.“Okk…”Looks like he is not in the mood to talk.How much I am supposed to push if he doesn’t share something with me? I am reluctant to share many things. He doesn’t push me. So I wouldn’t compel him either.He asks after a while. “There is something I meant to ask you, Natalie”I turn and say, “Ok…”Is he still upset that I didn't reply to his messages yesterday?Our morning love making session suggests otherwise, though.God, it was freaking hot. He didn’t make fun of me after hearing about that stupid kink.“Have you been talking to West?“ He asks.I grimace. “No.. Wh… Why do you ask?”“He kinda implied that you guys have been talking…. I don’t mind it to be honest… I will be glad, but I thought you would tell me at least.”I snort and say carelessly, “No, we are not. He is very much mistaken… We are barely at hi and hellos.”I am calm on the surf
90. Complicated- Jacob -.“Mr. Miller, you can leave. It will take her some time.” The receptionist told me when I was about to sit again to wait. I nod and walk out.I really hope I didn't put her in too much trouble.…This morning, When I was about to leave for school this morning, Dad happened to be in the garage.“Where were you last night?” He asked in a strange tone. He never asks me anything unless… Well, unless he is worried about my sexual orientation, I guess.I pondered whether to mention Natalie to him. But before I could respond, he said, “I hope you remember what we discussed last time. I won’t take it lightly… Jacob.”I did not respond and got in my car. If he keeps up this assholish behavior, I would be happy to let him keep guessing in misery.…..As the admin staff told me, Natalie does take too long in the principal’s office. My own meeting was a little strange. As if they were trying to figure something out without asking me directly. As expected, I got reprima