45. Missing her - Jacob - . This week was better than my first one at school. I underestimated how much I would miss Coco. Bought me a huge side pillow. No use. There is no warmth! Coco’s farewell bought me and Natalie back on talking terms, But I can see she still avoids me. Or maybe I am reading too much into the situation. This is the reason I need to keep myself busy. So I would just stop thinking about her. I should get out of the house tonight. It’s Friday night after all. West & team is having another get-together, but I don’t want to meet David & Sam outside our practice matches yet. At school, I am spending my time around West, Norris & girls. But I am irking Norris company a little. David’s words from that night come to my mind whenever I meet him. ‘What? That is a fact! Ask Norris.’ Natalie is right. Not talking to each other at school is a good decision overall. She & West aren’t on good terms. Norris probably spread rumors against her. The team often made demea
47. His first kiss- Jacob -.“Soo... Who is she?” Hanna asks me once the team leaves us alone.“uhmmm... Someone who’s probably not gonna happen...” I sigh and take a gulp of my drink.Hanna scoffs and belittles me again. “Thank God! Humanity’s procreation is not on your shoulders, Jacob... We would have gone extinct in no time.”I look at her with my eyebrows squinted. Where does she find those insults?“Seriously, are you interested in her? Is she your first crush or something?”I nod and say ruefully, “But I am not in the mood to talk about her...”Her mouth goes slack.“Noooo you don’t get to say that. Fuck! you didn’t tell me, Jacob...” She smacks my arm.“Not now!”She shrugs and pulls her phone out. “I am staying for the night at your place.”“I am not gonna gossip about her with you!”“I know I know. There are things I need to tell you.”Okay... Works fine by me.We dance and play games for a while, then we finally head home once I am feeling sober enough to drive.“Guess who
48. Night Out- Natalie -.I want to get out of the house tonight. I avoided Jacob this week, thinking it would mellow down my thoughts about him. But Ira dropped her two cents this evening.“More you avoid him, the more you will yearn for him. We want things we can’t have.”Ok… She may be right.I guess it’s high time to stop torturing myself and get out of the house. I glance out of the window, thinking if I should visit Jacob’s place. Then I see him. Ready for some party and hopping in the car with a girl.Sigh!What was I thinking? Normal people have plans for Friday evenings. If I want to spend time with him, I have to ask first. Book his slot. I am sure I ain’t the only one to fancy him. It’s a miracle how he is still single. He has been at school for two weeks. I gasp with realization.Is he seeing that girl?No wonder she looked gorgeous. Just like him.Crap!My shoulder slump with hopelessness. I won’t let this stop me from getting out of the house. I am sure I have many peo
49. Shhh…- Jacob -.I park my car in front of the location shared by Natalie. I am restless and uptight, if it was a good idea to ask her to drive. She sounded fairly shocked and frantic. She had told me she wasn’t feeling safe and location of the party was too far from my house. I didn’t want her to wait alone in the car for an hour.I see a car enter the driveway and I exhale a breath of relief.She gets out of the car and says, “I am sorry Jacob... I called Ira but she didn’t-”“Relax…” I tell her, “Don’t ever hesitate to call me if you ever feel unsafe or something…”She blinks and nods.“How is he?” I ask, opening the back door.“Kind of out… Barely conscious.”We bolster him by the shoulder and take him towards the house. Natalie finds the keys in his pocket and unlocks the door. I don’t like it when she slips her hands in his pocket. But it’s fucking unreasonable thought so I try to ignore it.“Do you know anybody we could call?” I ask as we enter the house. We cannot leave h
51. Sex Saga - Natalie -.I wake up around eight in the morning when mom knocks on my door to wake me up. Ira has blasted my phone with missed calls and messages.Ira calling…I sigh and pick up the phone.“Natalie!! You alright? Tell me you are alright…”“No, Ira! I died last night.”“Not funny! What happened? Why did you call me so many times?”“You know what happens when I go out… I don’t know why I don’t give up and stay in my house forever…”She is quiet for a while, then asks again. I tell her everything that happened.She sighs. “I am sorry Girl... I am sure it’s just some terrible phase going on… It won’t last.”“I fucking hope so,” I reply with indifference.“That was really nice of Jacob to come.”I glance at the clock and say, “Yeah... I gotta meet him at 9. I better take a bath… ”“Listen…”“Yeah?”“There wasn’t any foul play on Nico’s behalf. Right?”I don’t think so, but… I am not sure anymore.“I hope not.”After having my breakfast, I leave for Jacob’s house with som
53. Rejection Stings - Natalie - . “I really enjoy your company, Natalie… I was wondering if you’d like to go out with me?” I think I gaped at him for at least a minute. Or maybe more... Or maybe time stopped. I am not even sure what happened. “You want to date me?” I ask in shock. “Yes..” Is this really happening? I fancy him. I like him. But do I want to date him? He is asking me for a date. If he had asked me this question a few months ago. I would probably have said yes. I wanted to be in a relationship then. But now… I am not sure anymore. We are leaving for college in five months. Different cities. I don’t even remember where he is going… But it’s certainly a different city. I don’t have any experience with long-distance things but people say it’s pain, misery, and eventual death of a relationship. Five months are not enough to know each other. I knew West and Jake for more than 7-8 months. Still, they kicked me out of their lives so easily. Getting into a relations
55. Win Natalie- Jacob -.By Monday I feel better. It’s not the end of my life. Hanna and June added me into a group chat and kept texting me the world’s absurdist plans to ‘Win Natalie’.Most of them were to fuck with me.They named the group ‘Help Jacob Win Natalie Group’ and gave it a stupid long description: ‘We have gathered here for a humble cause of providing help and assistance to Jacob with his troubles with the only woman of his life. The Natalie Relish.’
57. Mocktail- Natalie -.As I wake up in the morning and glance at the clock. I grin. I still have a half-hour to sleep. It’s been a few days since I have been going to school with Jacob. I panicked every morning when I looked at the watch, thinking I missed my bus. Took me a moment to recall that Jacob is giving me a lift to school nowadays.No longer, the first words out of my mouth in the morning are ‘Oh shit’ and I love it. With Jacob, I don’t have to get ready more than an hour ago to catch the bus on time. I don’t end up in school half-hour early. We leave for school barely twenty minutes befor