51. Sex Saga - Natalie -.I wake up around eight in the morning when mom knocks on my door to wake me up. Ira has blasted my phone with missed calls and messages.Ira calling…I sigh and pick up the phone.“Natalie!! You alright? Tell me you are alright…”“No, Ira! I died last night.”“Not funny! What happened? Why did you call me so many times?”“You know what happens when I go out… I don’t know why I don’t give up and stay in my house forever…”She is quiet for a while, then asks again. I tell her everything that happened.She sighs. “I am sorry Girl... I am sure it’s just some terrible phase going on… It won’t last.”“I fucking hope so,” I reply with indifference.“That was really nice of Jacob to come.”I glance at the clock and say, “Yeah... I gotta meet him at 9. I better take a bath… ”“Listen…”“Yeah?”“There wasn’t any foul play on Nico’s behalf. Right?”I don’t think so, but… I am not sure anymore.“I hope not.”After having my breakfast, I leave for Jacob’s house with som
53. Rejection Stings - Natalie - . “I really enjoy your company, Natalie… I was wondering if you’d like to go out with me?” I think I gaped at him for at least a minute. Or maybe more... Or maybe time stopped. I am not even sure what happened. “You want to date me?” I ask in shock. “Yes..” Is this really happening? I fancy him. I like him. But do I want to date him? He is asking me for a date. If he had asked me this question a few months ago. I would probably have said yes. I wanted to be in a relationship then. But now… I am not sure anymore. We are leaving for college in five months. Different cities. I don’t even remember where he is going… But it’s certainly a different city. I don’t have any experience with long-distance things but people say it’s pain, misery, and eventual death of a relationship. Five months are not enough to know each other. I knew West and Jake for more than 7-8 months. Still, they kicked me out of their lives so easily. Getting into a relations
55. Win Natalie- Jacob -.By Monday I feel better. It’s not the end of my life. Hanna and June added me into a group chat and kept texting me the world’s absurdist plans to ‘Win Natalie’.Most of them were to fuck with me.They named the group ‘Help Jacob Win Natalie Group’ and gave it a stupid long description: ‘We have gathered here for a humble cause of providing help and assistance to Jacob with his troubles with the only woman of his life. The Natalie Relish.’
57. Mocktail- Natalie -.As I wake up in the morning and glance at the clock. I grin. I still have a half-hour to sleep. It’s been a few days since I have been going to school with Jacob. I panicked every morning when I looked at the watch, thinking I missed my bus. Took me a moment to recall that Jacob is giving me a lift to school nowadays.No longer, the first words out of my mouth in the morning are ‘Oh shit’ and I love it. With Jacob, I don’t have to get ready more than an hour ago to catch the bus on time. I don’t end up in school half-hour early. We leave for school barely twenty minutes befor
59.Horrified- Jacob -.As little as it may be, I enjoy snippets of my time with Natalie. Sometimes we study together or go for a jog. If none of that happens, we will surely come to school together. If there is no hockey practice, I give her a lift on the way back home too.I love listening to her voice and I love to make her laugh. A few days back, while we jog by the lake. I was teasing her. She turned back, grabbed my neck, and lightly strangled me.I haven’t been the same ever since.I crave her touch so much these days. I haven’t had many chances though.I am in class, taking notes and minding my own business, and suddenly I get an urge to look at her. She usually sits back in the class. If I turn, it would be awkward. Then I realize I didn’t see her walking into the class.Isn’t she here?I ignore the awkwardness and glance behind me to notice that she indeed isn’t here. I patiently wait for my chance to use the phone and text her as soon as I get one.Me: ‘You alright? Just n
61. Asleep- Natalie -.“Natalie!”The door pounds, and it wakes me up. I startle at the loud sound and realize I had fallen asleep.“Natalie, are you in there?”Fuck, it’s Dad.I glance at my watch while rushing to the door. The school has been over for two hours. Dad hugs me as soon as I open the door and says, “You gave me a panic attack, Natalie.”Then looks at my face, “Are you ok? What happened?”“I... I fell asleep.”“Kids these days... I have to lock the building, Sir. Would you mind taking this reunion somewhere else? “A man in his 60’s grumbles behind my father. I hadn’t realized he was standing there all along.Fuck, this is so embarrassing.Slept and left behind in school like a 5-year-old. I grab my stuff and walk out of school. Even the parking lot is empty.“Would you tell me what happened?”Jeez Dad, give me some time to think of a better excuse.“Nothing… I just fell asleep.”He stays quiet for a moment, then asks while driving, “Why have you been crying?”I sigh.My
63. Dopamine- Jacob -.It was a mistake to go into my room after Dad belittled me. I wish I had gone out of the house instead. But I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction of knowing our conversation bothered me.I go into my room and try to process everything I just heard from him. His warning. Name-calling. His disdainful tone… laced with disappointment.Instances like this are not common, but when it happens, it widens the crack in our relationship a little more each time. Still, it doesn’t sting any less when I see how differently he treats me.I love June to death. But on days like this, I cannot help but envy her.
- Natalie - . “Let’s start small. Ask me something..” He says, and my heart flutters with hope. But I hesitate for the first question. “Your argument at home. Was it bad?” He sighs. “Yes.. kind of… My turn. Why is your face swollen?” My eyes pop out. Is it still swollen? Fuck. “Ohh…” I wince and mumble,” I kind of cried a little… for some lame reason...” He goes quiet for a while then says, “Well, if it made you upset enough to cry, I am sure it wasn’t lame.” His words are oddly comforting. We ask short but random questions back and forth, without touching the real reason why we ended up here tonight. “Your turn.” He says. I think for a while. I have a million questions, but none seem appropriate. So I settle for the least appropriate one. “Why are you still single?” He raises his eyebrow. “I remember you told me you dated almost a year ago. That stalker girl, right?” He gives me a tight smile and nods. “So, why are you still single?” I repeat myself. He chuckles an