5. IS THIS MY FIRST LOVE

  

The next day I went to school, and I saw Iwan was waiting for me in front of the class, Hem embarrassed, I was so nervous, my shoes suddenly felt heavy, even so my footsteps, ouch felt shaking and wanted to turn around if possible. Instead he walked closer to me now. Want to avoid, but it seems impossible, my heart is beating very fast, is this what is called the vibrations of love. Very nervous if you bump into him or meet him, but actually want to meet him.

"Hi Sin, it's nice to see you this morning, means we are going out starting today?"

I can only nod my head, he continues to stare at me. Iwan A good boy, he always pays attention to my schoolwork. He is also a very smart kid, his grades are always good, like Mathematics and English, while I always have mediocre grades. I'm embarrassed to make fun of him, but I just made it my spirit to study diligently every day, because it has become a tradition in schools that those who have bad grades will be punished going to the front of the class, Oops, I hope I don't feel it.

 This afternoon Iwan invited me to have a casual chat in front of the class, while enjoying snacks, and I took out a photo of when we were 3.5 years old from my school shirt pocket. The photo was taken in front of our daddy's office garden some years ago. Mom  used to tell you when I, Iwan, Anggun and Indra were brought to my father's office every day. There are still a lot of pictures of us when we were little, neatly stored in my mom's album, Mom said they were in the collection, it would be funny if the photos were seen after we grew up like this. A childhood friend full of fun, ignorance and remembering until now. Especially about my little story with Habib and Rahman, he is the son of my mother's best friend Aunt Ning, their school and our house are quite close together, and they almost often come to my house, because Aunt Ning ordered her school uniform to my mother who has a convection business, what happened at that time I just bought a hair ornament, the shape is cute, the color is green, I really like to wear it casually, the two siblings grabbed it and damaged it from my head, until it was up and down on the table in my living room, yes they are still as old as Aunt Ning must be bother if you have to keep an eye on their pranks and mischief as a child. I still remember that to this day, and I get upset when they come to my house. I was just traumatized because they were naughty and got back to me But it seems they are more quiet now, even Rahman often bowed embarrassed when he met me, maybe they remembered the childhood times had scared me.

At school, when recess came, now it's my turn to tease Iwan with this childhood photo.

"Wan, remember our previous photo or not?"

"Ah, your lie, look here?"

"Uh yes, really old photo Sin, hem You are still runny, still in pigtails 2 and holding ice in plastic, Hahaha ...."

"But funny, right? You're not still geeky and runny!"

"Hahahahhaa, yayaya cute Sin."

"I just want to stick it in this Diary, so the photos won't be lost later."

"That's right, Sin, it's a memory, you can see it when you get old."

"Continue to tease."

"How? Have you started to like English lessons?"

"Yes, I'm serious about studying here."

"If you're still slow, just burn the dictionary, Sin, keep making coffee, keep drinking."

"Ehmmm watch out, be slow too. You like Wan, right?"

 He ran away because he was embarrassed by my teasing, hahaha, just a little revenge.

He still does childhood pranks often until now, whatever it is makes my day more exciting and meaningful. Even though it often makes me annoyed, sad and cries with jokes that sometimes feel too much.

I don't feel like I've been dating Iwan for three months, my heart is very happy. He often calls me every time he comes home from school in the afternoon, the point is that if we are both free to call, what's more if mom and dad go to college like this, it's right on time. Almost every time we spend together other than school, yes, by telephone. For me now, besides being a friend, Iwan is my girlfriend and study partner every day, whether at school or at home, it's nice to feel like having an older sister. Our closeness from childhood made this first love of mine very sweet and meaningful. Sitting close together, caring for one another, opening lunches and snacks together either from home or during snacks together in the school canteen, sharing stories as a child and studying together with friends makes dating stories more complete, it turns out this is how love feels first that. Maybe we'll always remember it until we get old, until grandmother.

However, for the past few days, it felt very strange. As if someone was following me and watching all my movements from a distance while in the school environment. And while I was cleaning the classroom this afternoon, I received a love letter from my classmate, he entrusted it to a classmate who was on the same picket duty with me.

"A letter from whom?"

"Letter from  Masril."

"Masril who is it? I don't know him at all the name Masril?"

"Brother in class 2 B, handsome, sweet."

"Ehmmm, start teasing and teasing me."

"Seriously, whoever wants to read a love letter, smile yourself, start."

"Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up!"

After I read it, it turned out that it was again a love letter. But I already have a girlfriend, right? yes I just ignore it.

 It turned out that Masril was the one who always followed Iwan and I when I came home from school, this afternoon I heard him asking Iwan to fight in the school field to fight over me. Like a doll is being fought over, when I'm embarrassed and in public again. Oh, it really feels like my heart. And their agreement is, if you lose the fight then you have to stay away from me. Be it Iwan or Masril, the loser must resign. It felt good, when I heard about it and I immediately caught up with them in the field, to the place where they were fighting, it's just that I was late, they were finished and had been separated from each other by other friends who watched their fight. As a result, Iwan lost his fight, as a result he suddenly walked away from me as they agreed instantly without saying any more to me. Really didn't greet me at all, shut up and avoided. There were several bruises on her cheeks. I wanted to feel like treating and helping him but he did not heed the attention I gave and then just hurried away. Upset, I cried because I was sad.

For weeks I tried to greet him, but he always ignored me again, just looked away, kept quiet and walked away from me. And this morning I heard from friends that Iwan was going out with Eni, my classmate, a grade 1 F student, it was sad to hear all that. How come it is this easy and fast to make a decision, is it breaking up? Or disappear without a word like this.

A few days later.

"Hi Sin."

Brother Masril greeted me from behind me.

"I can accompany you home, yes, Sin."

Then he followed me, with his gang friends. Take a ride on the city transportation that I take to the terminal, then wait for the next city transportation to go to my house. Masril is handsome, but that method makes me really annoyed. I was still just ignorant, but after a long time I saw him scolding and annoyed with me.

"Why don't you just shut up, Sin, Sis is ignored like this by Sintia?"

"I'm sorry Sis, I want to go home first, hurry, because Mama has been waiting for me at home and I'm not used to wandering home from school without permission to go to Mom first."

I also answered that he gave an excuse, got into an city transport and went home immediately, he looked sad, but yes I have to do that.

 

So annoyed today, then I slammed my school bag on the bed when I got home and took off my shoes in the room.

"Brugggk."

"What is it, Sin? Make your mom startled."

Mom also asked me.

"It's okay, just a little pissed off, Mom."

"Upset why?"

"It's okay with Sintia's friends at school."

I'm starting to miss, usually Iwan often calls me when the afternoon is like this, but it's already four in the afternoon he doesn't call me either, it's been two weeks I'm so sad. Don't want to pick up my phone, I just warned him he was just silent. If friends say for 2 weeks, your boyfriend does not look away, it means that you really want to break up, avoid and stay away from us. Moreover, I heard that he has already dated and has a new girlfriend. Why is it being like this I'm annoyed, I hope that tomorrow he will not be annoyed and angry with me, but is it possible? It's been a long time since he greeted me. This is how my monkey's love story with Iwan looks like, in just a matter of months. It's sad that I really lost my best friend and first girlfriend at the same time.

I can't help but have a relationship with Masril, even though I only know each other, study together, call each other in my spare time and accompany me to go home together on city transportation. To be precise, being my boyfriend is just a friend, but just as intimate, just think of him as my personal bodyguard, at least I'm safe when I come home from school without being picked up by my mom and dad. Especially in the terminal where it is sometimes quiet, and there are many children who feel like it. At least if there is Masril, he can take care of me.

 

When playing with him Masril always sings me a song while strumming his favorite guitar which he always carries and leaves in our school canteen. What other song besides the song “Mungkinkah” from my favorite band Stinky, and suitably it's a song we both love. Like this afternoon, I had a dance class at school, while he finished having student council activities at school as well. While heading to the house we took a break while drinking a cup of ice, one for two, Hahaha, is this a dirty, economical or romantic story? where sitting on the edge of the grave or grave on the side of the road again which is very clear can be seen from all directions. Duh, Masril is just doing it, I can imagine if mom and dad accidentally passed by and caught him, this could be a mockery.

"Sis, are you sure you want to snack here?"

"Yes? Why, Sin?"

"Are you disgusted, aren't you eating snacks here at your brother?"

"No, but that's a grave right behind Sis .."

"Ehmmm, you don't have to be afraid of crowds, there is Uncle, a cendol (ice cendol) , there are Dimas, Hendrik and Handoko who are also in the corner there, they sit on top of their graves.

He continued to seduce me, not to be afraid of the grave atmosphere, and started playing his guitar and started singing my favorite song.

Tetes air mata basahu pipimu

Disaat kita kan berpisah

Terucapkan janji padamu kasihku

Takkan kulupakan dirimu

Songwriters: Ndank, Stinky

Oops, I was dumbfounded by him, I was amazed besides being quite handsome, eh, he was good at playing the guitar and singing, apparently, beyond what I imagined. Suddenly, the relationship that was initially forced and just the status of having a boyfriend, so that it was not said that was single, turned out to be fun too and Masril was a pretty good person and had many friends.

Almost three months I know him. And he's a cool friend, morning, afternoon and evening I always sincerely send me to school and wait for all my extra curricular with friends, and again I feel comfortable as a close friend. Garuda Square and this public cemetery are our favorite places to relax every day before lessons, or at leisure and the atmosphere of the grave which was initially creepy for me, now becomes a normal thing, during the day there are no ghosts, right? And this place will be a silent witness to the memories of Masril and I in the future. Masril was my second boyfriend in junior high school after Iwan, my status was dating, but for me it was just a love of monkeys to get to know and be close friends with male friends and encouragement during school and tutoring.

Today, or rather this morning, why didn't I see him at school? Where is he, I try to ask Hendrik, Dimas or Nugroho. It turned out that Masril was sick, and his friends invited me to stop by Masril's house after school, okay, I might as well take Catur, Fitri and Nita to take me to his house after school. When we got home from school, we rushed over, we got support to buy fruit for Masril's brother, the one who gave the most support, of course, was me, his girlfriend. Fortunately, I diligently save up the leftovers of my snacks. Arriving at Masril's house, he seemed shocked to see me, he seemed to have a fever, there was his father and younger brother at home, again Hendrik's brother was fun, he introduced me to Masril's father as a girlfriend, it's clear that I immediately became the subject of their ridicule. We didn't stay long to visit him, because we had to go home soon, the point was I was ashamed and scared there.

"Get well soon, Sis?"

"Yes, school tomorrow right?"

"Ehmmm, Masril, who was suddenly healed immediately."

"Hust, yes Sin I'll come in tomorrow anyway."

Rahmat, Masril's younger brother also teased me happily, Rahmat was the same grade 1 as me, except that he was in a different class. And only today I found out that he is Masril's younger brother, I hope I don't complain about my prank and mischievous behavior to his brother.