I'll have a dance competition today, it's quite a busy morning. I prepared some equipment such as a thin and comfortable shirt that I will use for my underwear when I get dressed up later. I didn't forget to put in some make-up equipment, a comb and a corset. The corset is the most important asset for us as dancers. So that the cloth and kebaya that we use can look neat and comfortable to wear. You can't miss it, you can take off my cloth later.
"Sin, Daddy can't see Sintia appear right, sorry Daddy is not feeling well, and in the office there are some files that Daddy has to work on."
"Yes Dad, it's okay.""But Dad still takes Sintia to school first, okay?"Daddy hurried to get ready, he gave in leaving early so he could take me first to prepare for the grooming for the next stage. While mom chose to go to noon on her motorbike. Because there is still a lot of homework.
At 06.00 sharp, I arrived at school, it was very, very quiet. Only Wiji and Nicky's mother, while the others haven't arrived yet. Not waiting long, Mrs. Wiji immediately helped us with our make-up, using a Lampung filter, a white kebaya, a hair bun and a siger on the head. They also immediately got ready and decorated.
At 6:55 a.m. our pick-up car was ready, we had three dance groups performing three different types of Lampung dance. There is the Sembah dance, the Bedana dance and the Melinting dance. The championship was held in GOR and the participants were quite a lot from all junior high schools in one Metro city.
Our tough rivals, from Middle School 1 and 3, looked very luesy and they danced together and we had to be satisfied enough to be third place. I was really tired today, after the match at 14.00 noon, I could automatically go home, without having to go back to school.
Arriving at home.
So tired, I immediately took a plate of rice. Luckily my mom cooked the vegetables before college, and when I opened the fridge, it seemed that there was fruit ice and porridge with my favorite green beans that were still neatly wrapped. Okay, I'll just choose the porridge, right for the energy of people who are tired of activities.Kring ... kring ....
"Hello, good afternoon.""Yes, how are you, Sin?""Who is this?""Um, can't forget my voice.""What, Miftah, I'm tired after the dance competition.""Miftah?""Eh sorry, who is it?""Are you going out with Miftah?""Hey Agung, how are you, brother?""Good news, are you going out with Miftah? How come you remember her voice.""Ehmmm, just close brother, I usually like to call and sometimes play here."Oh, what do I have to answer, why don't I just say yes, but if I say yes then he won't call me aagain"Yes, it's okay, you just consider you a friend, right?""Gung really said that."Gosh, I'm so clumsy, why don't I feel good, I'm also confused, what my relationship with Agung is. Sometimes he often looks jealous of me.
"Sin, why are you so quiet? Right. We're just friends, it's okay if you have a boyfriend too."
In a somewhat disappointed tone on the line."Anything, the important thing is comfortable, oh yeah, where do you rarely call me?""Find money, to be able to call you at a telephone booth or payphone.""Is, it's too much to joke.""It's true, sometimes when I have my spare time I take the city transportation, right? Not bad for snacks, I play sometime, huh? You're arrogant now you have a boyfriend.""Yes, let me know if you play.""Afraid someone has this apple?""Afraid there are lessons and dance schedules.""Oh, really? Yeah, I've been playing sometime."I could imagine what if Agung had the same feelings as me, especially if he remembered his struggles, maybe he had to save some pocket money to be able to call me. And imagine if what he said was true, he would have to learn to work by pulling public transportation with his uncle.
This is what is not good if you have lots of friends, but intimate, if you mention the wrong name. Their voices are almost the same on the phone. By the way Miftah calls a bit less now, more often and Impin's attention to me. And even more so if at school I and Impin can still have a peek. The class fits right in front of my class. You want to go anywhere you can look at each other.
Two weeks from 17 August 1997, Mr. Yanto and several teachers toured our class. All children were asked to stand. And who will be chosen to participate in the marching competition during the celebration of the independence of the Republic of Indonesia.
It seems that the male team had chosen first. And I saw Impin participate. Right in front of my class, he gave the code for me to participate. Incidentally, all of my friends came along, almost in unity for a team. All right, I hope I can be strong in the marching race. It's quite far, about 10 Km around the city.
We didn't wait for a long time, we left the lesson for a moment, we practiced marching, for two weeks every day there would be material that we left behind, of course. To practice this marching. Never mind, Impin and I still got the theory and subject matter later at the tutoring location. Even though I participated in a myriad of school activities, thank God I still got class rankings at school. At least even though I am well known by the teachers or friends of my ranking organization, I can still take responsibility right!
Daddy always told me, daddy will not give you a lot of inheritance or capital, but in life the most valuable inheritance from parents to children is knowledge. And daddy never limits my associations, hobbies and activities, as long as everything is still in a positive context and doesn't get off track.
Indeed, if we can't take care of ourselves, a teenager like me is very vulnerable to drugs, alcohol, cigarettes or other negative things. Junior High School, trial run. Moreover, I, who was both direct and indirect, was very close to the association. But if there are friends who ask me, all I can imagine is daddy and mom, it's a pity if I break up and don't become an accomplished human.
The lesson is, by following this hike, my relationship with Impin is getting closer. And it seems his best friend is starting to know that we have a special relationship. Aw ... aw .... I was happy and I was worried too, afraid of being complained about with Menik.
Every day there are my activities, especially towards this August. August 17th arrived, we had a flag ceremony at school. And tomorrow is the day we are waiting for, - wait for the championships to line up. Because today we went home early without school lessons, we quickly took the time to play.
Take a walk to the market and buy our subscription chicken noodles. There were maybe 10 of us in total, busy but fun. Anto's chicken noodles, cheap, festive, and delicious.
Some of my friends went home, and some of them came with me to go home. There are many reasons for them staying at my house, which must be because of family problems that also ensnared them. So they are more comfortable spending time, even overnight. Often times I saw them cry, and complained to me. But never mind, our names are friends, whatever their difficulties we help each other. Those who are sad are comforted, those who are difficult to help fill each other's day.
When I got home, it so happened that Mom was sorting out our pet tilapia. We are ready to execute fried tilapia fun. Cook in the kitchen jokingly. After finishing helping mom cook, we ate together on the back porch near the pool. Mom and dad also join us. Because almost every day my house is a gathering place, so everyone feels comfortable. Catur, Maria, Ervina, Nicky, Nita, Dedeh and the others used to call mom and babe. Somehow calling babe, maybe because it's still a hit with the film Dul is a schoolgirl. The film is a show for mom and dad every day.
At night, after the evening prayer."Mom, in three months there will be a study tour, maybe to Jogjakarta and in Lampung."
"Which one do you want to come with?""Want to come to Jogjakarta Mom, if possible.""It's still a long time, I'll just think about it. Get over there. You guys take a break, tomorrow you want to join the marching race, right?""Yes, but we are not sleepy yet Mom.""Well, then, I want to go to the room first, do you want a massage and give your Daddy's wind oil.""Yes, Mom."We rushed into the room, even though we hadn't slept and were just joking in the room.
"Sin, let's wake up already midday!""Yes Mom, just a moment yes Mom, still very sleepy.""We'll be late, let's take a shower! mom also wants to go to be a jury."The clock shows 05.00 yes, sure enough, as fast as lightning we have to get ready at 06.30 we have to be at the starting line and ready for the marching race later. Daddy kindly escorted us, although I'm sure it must be very tired and it's still too early for activities. But Daddy was used to getting up at dawn, even though he was sick or not sick, it was the same. Daddy is very obedient in carrying out his 5 daily prayers. Daddy is the perfect figure for me.When Line-Lining.We were almost too late, we arrived five minutes before the game's departure. The other friends were ready to line up neatly, we ran closer to the line. Tidy up hats, clothes and definitely tie shoelaces tightly. So that when the race does not fall and get stuck. Yeni served as team leader, she was already loo
Daddy's health continues to decline, this afternoon while joking with mom there are a few complaints and an implicit message that he tells us. "You're tired, every day you swallow the doctor's medicine, it's already big and there are more and more types!""Daddy , why do you say that? Be patient, Dad.""Yes Mom, it's been sick for decades until everything we have is used up.""Yes, be patient, Dad. Mom also knows that some savings, gold, land, motorbikes, cars have been sold, but all for the sake of Daddy, for the sake of my father's health, Mom asked Daddy to continue to be enthusiastic and fight his illness.""Yes, sorry for Sintia if Daddy dies now Mom.""Daddy, what are you talking about!""If later, Daddy is sick again, don't take him to Imanuel Hospital or Rajawali Bandung anymore Mom, Daddy is resigned, only a necklace is left, a necklace of remembrance of our dowry.""Don't say that Dad, hopefully there will always be sustenance la
Tonight, mom called me to come closer to him mom opened the wallet that was tucked in the closet in her room. "Sin, this is 500,000 for your study tour.""Yes, Mom." I took the money that mom gave, whether I wanted to come along or not to be honest, I wasn't too excited to go, even if only for a moment from mom. Since daddy was not there, I feel sorry for Mom. Tonight I fell asleep, I don't know how many months and nights I was sad to cry over my father's departure. Catur and Maria often spend the night at my house now, sometimes they avoid family fights but more often because they want to be together and comfort my sadness. I decided to cut my long hair with my distinctive style as a Cleopatra, now I choose a short side as my hairstyle, my favorite dress has changed, I choose jeans and a T-shirt or shirt, I feel more like a girl, not just a mom's child and a new big gilr. again. The next day, I wanted to register for a study tour, it's just that a
Finally I graduated from Middle School, my body was limp to see that the grades weren't what I expected, it's sad that I felt a little disappointed. My overall exam score averaged only 36.5. Failed my hopes of getting into my favorite Public High School 1. In the school that I dreamed of, the minimum score had to be around 39-40, really the best score. Hopefully you can still enter other Public High Schools in my little town. "Don't be sad, Sin, let's try registering with other Public High Schools, ok?""Yes Mom, it's a shame my grades are not optimal.""Yes, the most important thing is maximum effort.""Yes Mom.""Where are you going in now?""Try first to Public Senior High School 2 and Senior High School 3 Mom." I ventured to register to the two schools. Mom accompanied me to register there. Next week there will be announcements of new admissions simultaneously. Catur and Maria enter Public High School 2, while Fina and Nicky enter Priva
A week laterEvery afternoon it's still the same, Impin still calls me often, still often sharing stories and stories at their respective schools. Still friendly and fun to call me. Looks like I can rely on her feelings and heart. Maybe he's changed, and maybe I'm just his close friend now. Because I heard that my friend Menik, her old lover, has moved out of town to study there. Hopefully our relationship will improve and get better in the future. Tomorrow I, Catur and Maria will gather at my house. Even though we no longer go to school, we will continue to meet and maintain our friendship. Now at school it is also quite comfortable, I already have dozens of new friends, even though they seem more simple, not as funny and hanging out as my junior high school friends, but I realize they are very nice and friendly. We always play, learn and eat together. Sometimes in the school canteen, but more often than not I bring my mother's lunch. Someday I want to go to medi
Oh my God, what the heck, all my friends are in one word with Febri, for the sake of a bowl of soto and silver Queen without asking what my true feelings are to Febri. Febri is a pretty good kid, but he's not really my idol type of girlfriend. I secretly fell in love with the seniors that Ms. Tri introduced to me the other day. Arjuna is handsome, sweet, tall, and kind. He is the son of the owner of the People's Credit Bank in my city, but besides that I really fascinate him, because he is kind and friendly even though he is the son of a rich person. It was really troublesome this time at home, as usual we gathered on the porch of my house, made fruit chips, snacks for various chips, made sweet tea and other snacks. Seriously, they were my friends confidently and without permission inviting Febri and other friends to come to my house. There were Dwi, Rangga, Indra who accompanied them. Sure enough, when he got off his motorbike, Febri brought a basket containing the
He really cares for me, I have been in a relationship with Febri for several months. On the 21st of every month, he always gives me greetings and gifts for our anniversary. Sometimes giving me tarts, dolls or my favorite chocolate. I realized he really, really loves me. Many things are missing from me now, which is definitely freedom, the day I feel very, very confined.Even though it's just for greeting with male friends and friends, just saying hi, Febri is always angry and jealous. It's something I'm always annoyed about, whatever he has to monitor, he has to have permission. Sometimes I think, I just became his girlfriend why do I have to be confined like this. How about getting married later, and the jealousy is getting worse every day. It really makes me tired. It's hard to break up, want to be ambiguous when it's my time to be dual, go home, come home from school or even in the evening he always plays to my house. From the first time to the whole
Febri's aspirations are very high, he wants to become a doctor or civil engineer just like me, he is smart and comes from a rich family. It's a shame if you don't study at the best university on the island of Java. Unlike the case with me, who was the son of a widow and only worked as an ordinary teacher, I could not expect to have high aspirations to leave the city and study at an expensive university. You have to think a lot about the economic situation and the abilities of your parents."Feb, do you want to study in Jogjakarta?""Yes Sin, pray for me, I hope I pass the selection to the university I want.""Yes, I will definitely pray for Febri to study in the best place""Sintia is also enthusiastic, right? Will you continue to study in Bandung or in Lampung, will you study Sin?""I will try everything Feb, Sintia will try her best first according to Sintia's goals.""Remember one thing Sintia, be faithful here for me.""Yes, I hope you can be l
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This morning I received an incoming message on the F******k application, quite a lot of incoming prank messages, and I'm used to deleting them one by one. Another case with this one message, an incoming message from Rahman. I think Rahman is like before, giving threatening messages or cursing because of our past separation.Not the case today, it turns out that he expressed his condolences for the departure of my mother and father. It's quite late, but I'm grateful that he still cares about us."Assalamualaikum Sin, I offer my condolences for the departure of Mom and Daddy, I hope Sintia and her family can be patient and sincere and patient."I replied too."Waalaikum salaam Rahman, thank you."From there Rahman continued to send messages, just asking about my family and my new life now. So bumpy he pleasantries to me with good words and without harsh words. What's wrong if I ask about his new household and family.A little surprised to hear Rahman's news, it turne