I think bound has bound Nathaniel and I to be together. Even when we're in the music club, we still chat intimately."Kinain mo ba yung cake" I asked."Kinain ko naman… Medyo masarap." He answered with his usual deadpan face."I don't think that's delicious.""Umm. I think that's delicious."Huh? What?"Bakit bigla yatang nagbago ang ihip ng hangin, bumabait ka na, ha.”That's right... We're not the same as before. It's different from the first time we talked to each other in this music room. Hindi mo na ako sinusungitan masyado."Yeah, I think so.""So, how do we deal with this kind of strange something between us?""No need to do anything. Staying like this is good right now."Nathaniel and I sat cross-legged in a truly tragic position, very hopeless, because we're separated by Adrian. He sat between us and tried to squeeze us three together. I don't know what this is, and I really want to disappear from here."Can you please let go of my arm? Or Do you want me to kick you to make y
At night, my phone rang while I was happily playing a game. Curiosity rose little bylittle when one of my 'Female Leads', Kath, called. This is weird because usually, she won't call at this time because she only talks to her boyfriend every night.I didn't want to think that much so I picked up the phone and listened."What's up? Looks like..." Before I could finish my sentence, she immediately cut me.[O MY GOD, DENISE!]"Kat, Anong problema mo? Bakit parang naiiyak ka riyan?" I asked worriedly but he did not say anything. All I can hear are sobs from the other line. I have to wait for her to calm down before asking more questions. As a friend, I will support her and won't care about the phone bill."Hoy, Kath? Ano ngang problema?"[Denise, I'm so brokenhearted.]"Shit. Talaga ba?"[Everything is over. Damn! I caught him with that asshole.]"Kumalma ka lang muna, Kath. Maybe you just misunderstood."[What did I misunderstood? I asked him and he told me that the asshole is his new gi
I moved myself with difficulty while moaning under my breath. This kind of weather makes people not want to wake up, including me. So I pulled a pillow over my face to escape the morning sunlight. Kagabi, ako'y nagkaruon ako ng napakagandang panaginip. Napanaginipan kong nakikinig ako sa kanta ni Taylor Swift at pagkatapos ay nag-uusap kami ni Nathaniel tungkol sa isang bagay. Hindi ko alam kung kailan at paano ako nakatulog.Then suddenly..."Uhhh, umhmm..." Someone's moan reached my eardrum, but I did not care where that came from.The only thing I want to do right now is sleep. So I buried my head in the pillow and continued to sleep as if my life depends on it." Ummm...""Kath, stop moaning. It's annoying." I said without moving my body."Ang sakit.""...""Move, Stupid girl."I paused for a moment. The word 'stupid girl' kept ringing in my head. The only person who used that word is... Nathaniel! As soon as I thought of that popular man, I immediately opened my eyes."Stupid gir
Si Yvonne, hindi siya pumasok sa lahat ng klase ngayon. Si Kath naman ay sinusubukan daw niyang ayusin ang mga bagay-bagay sa kanyang ex dahil talagang ayaw niya itong mawala sa kanya. Nakaramdam ako ng inis sa pagiging martyr niya sa lalaking ‘yon.One chance? Two chance? Third chance? ‘wag mong bibigyan ng bala ang isang taong paulit-ulit ka nang binabaril.Pagkatapos ng klase, wala akong oras para makasama ang aking barkada. Diretso akong pumunta sa music room para maghintay kay Nathaniel."Mag-practice tayo." I spoke after arguing with him for about thirty minutes on which song to play. We have different opinions so the best way to solve the problem is...Bato-bato pick.Ang talino talaga."Bakit ba kailangan nating mag-practice?""So it will run smoothly when we record it. ‘di tayo masyado magkakamali.”"...""Hello. I'm Denise the cool girl, and this is...."“I’m Denise’s Jowa.""Sasampalin na yata kita. Maging serious ka naman.""I'm serious.""Okay. One more time.""Hello. I'm
Ang "Hell Friday" ay dumating nang mas maaga kaysa sa inaasahan ko. Ngayon, kailangan naming mag-cheer ang mga Law students para sa aming unang football match laban sa mga White Lions ng Political Science faculty. Ang mga kaibigan ko ay may dala nang mga snacks habang papunta sa grandstand. Sila'y nag-eenjoy sa pag-scope ng mga boys mula sa ibang mga faculty.Sa kaso ko, ako ‘yong babae na hindi maaaring mag-moved... Dahil kailangan kong itaas ang mga kamay ko at panatilihin itong nakatayo. Ito ay isang posisyon sa cheerleading na tinatawag nilang 'Standing Zone'. Ginagawa namin ito habang naghihintay na pumasok sa field ang mga manlalaro. Hindi maganda ang buhay ng isang cheerleader kagaya ng iniisip mo. Noong unang beses na hiningan ako ng mga senior na maging cheerleader, hindi ako tumanggi dahil akala ko mas magiging sikat ako kung ako ay magiging cheerleader. Pero ngayon, alam ko kung gaano kasalungat ang aking desisyon.Pagkatapos ay tumingin ako kay Nathaniel. Napagtanto ko, hi
"Denise Merculio! How was your Friday night?""Tigilan mo na nga pagbibiro mo, Yvonne." I answered gloomily after dragging my lazy body to the classroom at eight in the morning with every pair of eyes fixed on me.The girls looked at me as if they wanted to bury me alive. Don't let me see Nathaniel because what I will do to him will make everyone in here scream in fear. Crime will be then the talk of the town."I'm being serious right now.""Serious? With that voice? It doesn't sound serious for me.""Really? Is it that bad?"This is the first conversation I had in my misty Monday morning. Hindi ito dahil sa atmospera na nagpaparamdam ng lungkot, kundi dahil kay Nathaniel at sa kanyang mga kaibigan na ginawa akong sentro ng atensyob sa buong campus, kahit pa ang opening ng University's Sports Day. Akala ko, puno ng kasiyahan ang linggong ito, but it turned out to be a day full of questions."What is your relationship with Nathaniel?"Ano ba ito?! Sinira ng mga kaibigan niya ang tahimi
Sa ngayon, sobrang tahimik at malungkot sa music club. Ngayon, natapos nang maaga ang klase ko, kaya't narito ako para mag-practice ng gitara at maghintay sa iba. Pero bago ako makapasok sa music room, bigla akong huminto dahil nakita kong nag-uusap sina Adrian at Nathaniel sa loob ng music room. Maganda nga iyon! Dahil ang posibilidad na maging kami ni Adrian ay zero percent, baka mas okay kung kay Nathaniel niya mismo malaman ang lahat. Natawa ako nang bigla ko ‘yon naisip. ito'y iniisip ko lang sa sarili ko. Hindi pa ako pumasok sa silid dahil ayaw kong guluhin sila. Kaya't naririnig ko na lang ang kanilang usapan mula sa labas. "There's no one here." "Umm..." "And also Denise." See? My name is in their conversation. "Umm." "How close are you guys? Are you really close?" "Very close." Good job! Nathaniel’s answer makes me feel so pleased. "So, is Denise’s type like me or not?" "No." "Then what does Denise like?" "Big dicks." "What's his favorite food?" "I won't tell you
"Akin ka lang, Denise.""So don't flirt with anyone."Iyan lang ang mga salitang laging nagpe-play sa utak ko nang paulit-ulit. Patuloy na nagfa-flash ang mukha niya sa isipan ko. Lahat ng bagay tungkol sa kanya, nagpapagulo at nagpapalabo sa akin.Gusto kong murahin siya, pero hindi ko magawang magsalita. But for some reason, something inside of me won't trigger such emotion.Honestly, I am really surprised. Damn! He pressed his dry lips against my soft lips, then made me unable to do anything. I don't know what to do next. I was just blinking in daze for a long time, until Nathaniel placed his hand on my shoulder."Denise, buhay ka pa ba?"My heart...Right now, I am just gathering all the energy in my body to scold him as much as I can."What the fuck? Nathaniel! You son of a bitch! Why did you kiss me? Am I a joke to you? What are you doing to me? Damn! I'm so confused. What's wrong with me? Shit!"Right after that sentence, my heart started to lose control. I questioned myself an
The song ended with applause from the crowd. As for me, the emotions welled up in my chest suddenly flowed. Nathaniel smiled at me. We just smiled at each other before he stepped out of the stage. Just looking at him from the beginning to the end is worth it. We understood each other just by looking at each other's eyes.Not long after that, the famous band that the university hired performed. I went out to escape the stifling atmosphere of the crowd and headed straight behind the stage. Nathaniel waited there with his calm face. Sweat rolled down on his face, but still dared to tease me."You looked at me without blinking so I purposely played it wrong.""But that was a great song!""Love each other! If one day they will leave you, just trust each other. Because if you are meant to be together, you will always be together!"After that, Taylor Swift's song came out. They are the last group to play in event. Nathaniel is on my side and we just dance until we're exhausted. The song th
The semi-final round of the Music Festival has arrived. Everyone looked very excited even behind the stage. The members of Encapsulation all find ways to calm down and to reduce their nervousness. Only Nathaniel is... sitting down to eat.I've never seen this guy being so stressed out of anything.Miss Khaycee is with Nathaniel. They are sitting, eating skewers leisurely. He also joins the competition with a group called 'Sunshine, Daisy flowers and Ripe Avocado', which consists of seniors and the bastard, Adrian. I am also curious as to where did they get their name from? Probably, one of them is a Harry Potter fan. (Ron Weasley's line in Harry Potter series is "Sunshine, daisies, butter mellow, turn this stupid, fat rat yellow".)Not far away, Benjamin's group was trying out their guitars. This time he didn't send anyone to mess with us or make any threats, so we were somewhat relieved. His group is called 'The Idol'."And now, it is the time for the 2016 Music Festival!" The sound
NATHANIEL'S POVI am speechless.I have to say that I was truly speechless with the sentences she just said from her own mouth. What should I say? It is both pitiful and cute. Her hand still has a cotton ball stuck on it while she is wiping away her tears.He really is a little crazy devil with a small brain.Yesterday, Denise asked me about my first love. I don't want to answer her because I thought that it just came from nowhere. Now, I want to step forward and hug or soothe her to stop crying but because this annoying girl keeps on pushing me away and waving her hand, I can't do anything. I don't want her to cry anymore because she is sick right now."So, are you ready to listen now?" I spoke in a monotone voice then looked back, avoiding to stare at her causing Denise eyes that were looking at me to tremble. Probably, she is afraid of breaking up. But I only want to tease her. I am so sorry for her because I think that I have twisted her mind and broke her heart."Then... Are you
I was taken to the emergency room because of constant vomiting. On the way to the hospital, Nathaniel's car is full of my vomit. I feel bad for the person in the backseat but I don't have time to go back and apologize to people. I looked like a full mess right now. Anyone who has ever seen me as a university cheerleader must now think that I don't belong there. Losing all that image that I built up throughout the year... My heart. My heart. My heart.Doctors and nurses gathered around the bed, measuring blood pressure while asking for symptoms that made me dizzy so I accidentally vomited again into the bag. The nurse then punished me by pricking the blood with revenge. Inject fingers, biceps, arms. Put it all in until my body is full of holes. I want to cry again but it will just make me look more foolish.In addition, the needle was inserted into the back of my hand. The doctor told me that I was given an anti-emetic medicine, but I still didn't feel better. Lying there for nearly tw
I was not in the mood to study. The reason comes from the restlessness last night thinking about Nathaniel's story. Or maybe, this is because of the food we ate yesterday. Now everything is attacking me at once. It made me almost collapse on the lecture table but I still tried to endure until I couldn't stand it. I have to run in the toilet to vomit. What a pathetic form.No one knows how bad I feel right now. I don't want to worry anyone. Yvonne asked, I just replied that it was okay with a forced smile. Besides, I already took medicine. Five in the afternoon is the free time of the Law students. My three buddies intend to take me to relieve stress in a cafe. But because I had to be with Encapsulation to watch them practice music, I refused. Before I went to the training room, I didn't forget to buy snacks, fruit and canned milk for the members including Nathaniel. I don't know if I was dismissed early today or the rest of the group haven't appeared yet. So I waited silently until hi
At three o'clock, my stomach began to feel bad. Then I remembered Yvonne organized our meal in four different restaurants. Since I can't sleep and nowhere to vent, I slowly take myself out of bed then proceed to the bathroom. I quietly stood in the hand washing area for a long time. When I got back, I saw that the tall man was already waiting. The light from the head of the bed was illuminated enough for me to see the other person's face clearly. "What's wrong?" He asked me in a smooth voice, as always. "I don't know. I want to puke but I can't." "You want antacids?" "..." I shook my head before crawling into the bed. Nathaniel pulled me to move closer. He then hugged me like he was comforting me to relieve my uncomfortable feeling. Since I can't sleep tonight, I choose to break the silence by talking. "I can't sleep." I initiated the conversation. "Because you are only listening to music." "How did you know? Normally, I listen to music when I can't sleep." "What about now?"
I think this girl is something that Nathaniel has been searching for a long time. She studies well, she looks pleasant all the time, and is very caring. He fell in love with her for the first time and after that, he did not date anyone. No matter how it looks, there will be a breakup like other couples. In the end, all we can do is sit and regret that love did not happen the way we hoped for.You will love everything at first because it all looks beautiful. As days go by, the problems will slowly arrive. We then try to conceal that to maintain the image on the first day. We began to emerge from many things. But if things won't work out... then we may have to end it.I never believed in love anymore after breaking up with my first boyfriend. I became that someone who finds breaking up so easy just because I feel bored. I never really loved someone for the reason that I didn't want to be hurt just like in the past. As much as possible, I have to protect myself in every way that I can.A
Today was another chaotic day for our cool lives because Nathaniel just announced to social media that he is in a relationship with me. Therefore, his wives kept on following us to the point that they knew that we were living together.They are obviously true stalkers.Second term has quite a few activities but there is still a big event that is expected to happen. That is the university's music competition. So after my classes, I went to buy a snack and waited in the club room where Nathaniel and his friends from Encapsulation always come to practice."Denise! Why come so early?" The greeting from the lead singer made me immediatelysmile and greet back."I've got nothing to do after my class. I bought snacks for everyone.""Thanks a lot. I actually thought you fled to your room first.""Why?""Nathaniel’s fans started gathering under the Law School building. Afraid that it will bring inconvenience to you." Why don't you call the newspaper from the start. So chaotic. But, It was stil
After returning from school, Theo went straight to the bedroom and slept.Nathaniel and I were busy preparing the food in the kitchen. His phone rang and he answered it."Why?" I feel like something is suspicious when he asks that question."...""Roble is inviting for a drink." Nathaniel looked at me. It seems that this question is especially for me."Where? Ask him." I quickly responded."Same bar as last time.""Okay. But don't come home late.""No. He is inviting us... including your brother." I paused for a while. I mean, even if Roble won't invite me, I would still go. Who will take care of this bastard if he gets drunk? But the sentence included my brother so it made me think for a while."What does he want from my brother?""How can I know?" He refused to answer, then turned to continue talking to the other end for a while before hanging up.Alright. I will invite my brother since he's got nothing to do. Whether he will go or Lion gang has another monkey business? Hmm..."Haha