CHAPTER 9IRENE'S POVHe would have asked for anything at that moment and in a way I would have done everything, done everything and the truth was I don't know why?Perhaps, it had to do with the life I was born into, in a way it was dark, so dark but at the same time it was transparent.I knew his world was darkness, I had seen it underneath his eyes as soon as I had signed the contract.In a way he made me aware of the fact that even something so good has its shadows.It took just a few seconds between drowning in his words and floating again and this time as I did I found myself walking…just waking like someone hypnotized.His words were compelling, and without even wanting to or even knowing it, I found myself walking toward him slowly.I should hate this man, I really should…in a way, I felt the need to stay detached from this man, as indifferent as I possibly could, but as the words got to me, I couldn't do anything to stop myself.In a way I could not even recognize the pers
CHAPTER 10IRENE'S POVFear. Panic. Anxiety.Name it.I felt all at once, in one giant rush down my nerves.His warm hands around my neck made me…Absolutely inexpressive of my emotions.I didn't know how to react to any of the emotion's budding up in me like a flame, blooming into something passionate.The good thing about all of this was that something deep down in a part of me was screaming in whispers that I shouldn't react to him this way, but the crazy side of it all was that I wanted to think with this side— I wasn't thinking with my brains at this moment but another organ entirely.I was thinking about an organ with a pulse.Maybe I shouldn't have it with him?Yet I knew this was going to happen anyways…“No one-” The rest of his words came in rasps.Rasps breathed again my neck, down the nape.I looked into his eyes, fully aware that he could easily be as dangerous as he looked.He watched me with that same darkened look as he leaned against me, pulling me closer by my ne
CHAPTER 11.JAMES POVLooking at her, all I could think about was how I was going to deal with the whole situation of having he there right where I wanted.She was the most crude of all I had met and in a way, I felt the need to refine her.The hatred in her eyes was glaring, I had seen the intensity in them even before she caught me earlier in the day with Kathy.Deep down, I felt a kind of remorse that she might be feeling the pain — probably jealousy from seeing me with another woman, I wouldn't ignore the fact that she actually slapped me.It had come to me when I least expected it, and roused not only the demon from my past, but every dark emotion I had in myself at the moment.Her eyes widened as she saw the strap in my hands, the grin upon my face anticipating what was to come.In a way, I felt the need to devour her, there was a need to take her in many ways and any way I wanted.I was going to make love to his woman if she consented or not.She tried wriggling free as I reach
CHAPTER 12IRENE'S POVIt was pretty fastThe manner by which the change in attitude came, One moment he was all cool and well collected and the next he was like a demon ripping every layer out of me shred by shred, regardless I felt the need to stay away from him as much as I could.I could as well tell Marcus everything but reverted to doing that as I wanted to deal with him totally on my own.It was kind of comical the way he switched emotions pretty fast.One moment he didn't want to have anything to do with me as I was forced to another bedroom on his request,seconds later he is all jealous and tries to take advantage of me.At moments like this, I wondered to myself if I was dealing with the same person as it turned out to be, he was certainly someone with a dual personality.I thought back to that blissful night that came before the contract was signed— it was certainly the first time I had seen him smile or ever acted all kindly— Was that all a facade?Was this a fate I had s
CHAPTER 13IRENE'S POVI FELT dirty after everything, the fact that I climaxed to the memories of a man I claimed to hate was itself very complicated…I dragged myself out of bed and walked to the bathroom brushing and flossing quickly before heading under the faucet for a warm bath.Deep down in my soul I wished the warm water cold wash away his touch from my nerves and soul.I ran the comb through my hair as I rang the phone downstairs telling the maid what I wanted for breakfast.My plan for the day was easy—I was going to avoid anything to do with James.Soon, I heard on my my door and opened to find there-It was Seven o’clock in the morning as I sat on the couch in my room with only an oversized one as I ate a bowl of cereal while scrolling through my phone.My phone buzzed in my hands as a message popped in. I choked on my food …Apparently James must have been intending to send it to someone else because it was deleted not even ten seconds after I had seen it.My eyes widened
CHAPTER 14JAMES POV.She in her ways and any more ways I couldn't quite figure out never ceased to amuse me.Irene—The thought of that name alone leaves me guessing.There was something about her I couldn't quite get out of my mind despite my general rule when it came to women and I couldn't quite figure it out, the truth was dealing with her was freakishly overwhelming.It was like she had a hold over me, almost as if I was right there in her book.To make matters more complicated for myself, I couldn't quite stay away.Perhaps, this whole thing was a bad idea after all I couldn't help thinking.It was two ways when it came down to my mindset about her:In the instance, we were two people forced together by fate having conflict within ourselves and in the other instance, we were not trying to stay away from each other.Yet, there were these unexplainable situations that kept bringing us together just like this.I was right here standing in her room, looking so tenderly into her eye
CHAPTER 15IRENE'S POVWhat does he want?It was merely a question shadowing what I had in my mind to say.If there was anything I would blame, anything I found fault with among all of this, it certainly had to be his attractiveness.His attractiveness was the same reason why I was here at this moment, why most of the words was left buried deep in me unsaid.His attractiveness was why I had to deal with his bullshit.From the look in his eyes, I saw that glint of-uncertainty, despite the fact that what I felt for him was something absurd, something between hate and as a sense of attraction that I found humoring, his eyes still held me captive.His gaze was captivating and for a second I couldn't just look away, yet at the same time it was complicating, more complicating than the whole entanglement we were in.He closed his eyes, a smile crawling up the creek of his face.It was a question I was certain,he wouldn't be able answer, one that-His eyes opened and the gaze of his amble ey
CHAPTER 16JAMES POVDealing with her and its complications, and that was because she always finds a way of getting under my skin.Marcus once said to me recently that if I treated everyone the way I treated Irene or rather if I look at them the same way I look at Irene the world would be a safer place.It was the absolute truth, it got me wondering if I was that weak when it came to her, vulnerable to the extent that one could read every emotion out of my face.I should treat her the same way I treat the other women that have been in my life. I should treat her with disdain but no matter how much I tried there was something about her that kept getting to me.It was like an absurd situation and I was caught right there in the middle of it all.Slowly, I was starting to make bad ideas when it came down to her. I had been alone —all alone in my room after coming out of the shower when my phone buzzed.After ending the call and texting Marcus In a funny way I decided to tease her and so
CHAPTER 135JAMES.I wouldn't have been this worried if I didn't get her text that looked to be in distress, it was hardly twenty minutes that she walked out when suddenly I got a notification on my phone beeping in an emergency.She had been complaining about having weird calls and texts and it was Marcus' idea that we set the safety app up, so we would be able to track ourselves.I was still on the phone talking to Marcus and telling him about the sudden appearance of my mother when the notification came in.As I made my way down the stairs, as fast as I could an awful squeak cut through theair and somehow settled under my skin.I made my way out and saw that she was nowhere around the garage.My phone beeped again with a live location this time, slowly I could see the red round indicator moving away and hitting the main road.At first I thought she might have been going with my mother to heaven knows where,but looking around I saw her purse laying in the ground. My heart skipped ma
CHAPTER 134JAMESIt was still hard for me to believe everything that was happening, well that doesn't matter. I was prepared to make sure she spent the rest of her years behind bars for how she acted out toward me.I couldn't believe that I had been dragged into all of this and was naive all along.It was only two months since I got out of my accident and things had been almost perfect between us.It looked as though we've come to a mutual understanding in fixing anything that was going on between us.We just had to fight it — We just had to fight the fact that we were two people not willing to give into admitting flaws.It was hard to ignore her. Whenever she was near, an invisible string pulled me toward her in a way that we couldn't resist. Gradually we were building back what looked to be broken. It was the only sane thing at that moment as it was impossible for us to just get ourselves back immediately.The feel of having do close left a vibrating feeling behind with the promis
CHAPTER 133JAMESThe first thing I noticed when I fluttered my eyes open was the fact that I was in an empty room which I did not seem to recognise. I winced at the harsh light coming through the window and instantly closed my eyes back up.For some reason I couldn’t turn my head an inch. Even the thought of doing that made me wince in pain. A frustrated grumble escaped my throat at the fact that I was clearly clueless and oblivious of my surroundings and there was nothing I could do to change that except to wait for aid which didn't seem to be coming.Judging by the stiffness of the bed I laid on and the feeling of Iv on my hand, I came to the conclusion that I was in a hospital bed. If that didn’t confirm it then the terrible headache I was having and the pain I felt all over my body definitely did.“For how many hours have I been laying down here” I wondered in silence. Giving up on all attempts to get myself up and waiting for anyone to walk into the room. Judging by the light co
CHAPTER 132IRENEThere was just one wish in my heart and at the tip of my tongue. That all these was a dream and I will wake up back in my apartment but I knew it wasn’t. This was real, this was my reality and I will have to face it no matter how cruel it might seem.I sighed for the umpteenth time watching as the nurses did their job. I had been sitting here for the past hours, waiting for some form of miracle to happen and James to wake up, I just refused to let the fact that he was going to die into my heart. I just refused to agree that I am going to lose him forever.“No! Absolutely not!” I chanted to myself, shaking my head vigorously in the process. James is strong, he is going to survive this. There is no way in hell he was going to die after all he had gone through. It just wasn’t meant to be like this. James is not supposed to die. NoI stared down at his face, his calm and peaceful face and I realized just how much I missed him. How much I missed looking into his eyes and
CHAPTER 131IRENEMarcus stared at me intensely from his side of the table, swirling his spoon around the plate of food in front of him. His gaze seemed to be directed at me but in reality he was deep in thought with his hand supporting his chin.I was still a bit sick but it was not as severe as it used to be so I had no trouble just sitting down and watching him think, waiting for him to spit out whatever was taking up most of our time together.After a long moment of silence, he sighed heavily, dropping the spoon from his hand and turning to face me completely now. “Irene?” He called.I did not honor that with a reply, instead I just looked at him to tell him I was present and listening to whatever he had to say.“How are you doing?” He inquired. It might sound like it was just a normal question but I could feel all the underlying questions from just looking into his eyes. The unspoken question was actually “how are you dealing with everything? How is your sanity now that James is
CHAPTER 130IRENE“I’m tired of everything, I want James back and I can’t leave without him and I feel like I’m dying.” I said almost choking on my own tears.Marcus was so comforting as he was quiet as he let me rant all I want in his embrace. It’s been so long since I had someone to hug like this and now that I got someone I didn’t want to let go.“I want him back, I can’t let Addie have him forever because I won’t be able to live without him.” I said crying deeply as gently wiped off the tears from my eyes.I finally released myself from my self bondage grip and it was then I remembered the blood of Marcus' body.He looked at me worriedly which made me shiver as I had a very unusual feeling inside of me.“W…what happened to you? Why are you covered up in blood?” I asked, looking at his hands which were covered in blood. His white shirt was also covered in blood but I couldn’t spot any injury on his body.“It’s not me, something happened to.” He said calmly holding my two hands like
CHAPTER 129IRENEI felt like screaming my lungs out to ease the intense pain I was currently feeling in my head but looking at it logically, screaming might only increase the pain so I refrained from doing so.Instead, I squirted my eyes to reduce the amount of light entering into it which in some weird way is only adding to my pain. My heart kept pounding in a way it had never done before, at least not when I am fine.I clutched onto my duvet for dear life, still shivering and gritting my teeth despite the fact that I was under layers of bed coverings. My throat felt so dry and the thought of passing anything through it at the moment made me gagged, but considering the fact that I had vomited more than I could count during this short period nothing came out but air.Overall I felt terrible and after a long moment of denial and thinking it was probably stress which would be gone if I just rested, I finally reached the conclusion that I was sick and I would need to see a doctor in or
CHAPTER 128IRENEI looked around lazily and picked up my phone to check the time. It was already evening and I groaned wishing I woke up the next morning.Now I had to Dave the burden of actually being in this life which was enough of a burden on its own. Everyday I wished it was the next because I wanted to get over everything.By now James would have been engaged and my heart ached as I thought about it. I sniffled hard because I didn’t want to start crying again.The love of my life was getting engaged to someone and it wasn’t me, he was the only one I wanted and now he belonged to someone else and there was nothing I could do.It became hard for me to stop myself from crying so I undressed and went into the shower.I turned on the warm water and gently scrubbed my body like there was no life left in me again.Everything felt so slow and I felt there was no use for anything again, it was all useless now.I got out of the shower and got dressed into a big top and walked out of the
CHAPTER 127JAMESI looked around and the sight of everyone cheering all in my name was so disgusting to me, especially since I didn’t want any of this to begin with.Everyone who walked past me would wave at me but Ignored most of them anyway as I was trying my best not to flare up because I was very upset.My sister noticed this from across the room and our eyes met, I looked away but I knew she was still going to come over anyways.She smiled at me and walked gently approaching me.“Why aren’t you putting on a smile? It’s your happy day. You should be happier than anyone here.” My sister said gently patting my suit like she was about to dust something off it.I looked around the crowd in the area and now the whole hall was jeering with noises from each corner of the hall.“When is this going to end?” I scoffed with a big frown pasted on my face.I didn’t even care about all of these arrangements and all the guests here because I was not happy with any of it.“Look over at your beau