CHAPTER 16JAMES POVDealing with her and its complications, and that was because she always finds a way of getting under my skin.Marcus once said to me recently that if I treated everyone the way I treated Irene or rather if I look at them the same way I look at Irene the world would be a safer place.It was the absolute truth, it got me wondering if I was that weak when it came to her, vulnerable to the extent that one could read every emotion out of my face.I should treat her the same way I treat the other women that have been in my life. I should treat her with disdain but no matter how much I tried there was something about her that kept getting to me.It was like an absurd situation and I was caught right there in the middle of it all.Slowly, I was starting to make bad ideas when it came down to her. I had been alone —all alone in my room after coming out of the shower when my phone buzzed.After ending the call and texting Marcus In a funny way I decided to tease her and so
CHAPTER 17IRENE'S POVI might not have had a good reason to dislike James in the beginning, rather than the fact that he was cocky and proud but after meeting with this morning, after he had knocked on my door to tell me how the contract had gone down the drain , I now had a substantial motive to immensely dislike him.He was the last person I expected to see that morning, and seeing at my door while I was just getting up from my bed was a turn off.James looked like he was running, as it turned out to be, it was something he does on a regular basis and as I have noticed, it was his way of getting thoughts out of his mind.All this had happened twenty minutes ago, it was then I had heard right from the horse's mouth that I was stuck with him and from what I learned he had not expected it to happen.I didn't know how to feel about the news, even more with the way he said it.Apparently, he had volunteered to be the one to tell me the news as I was certain that was what he and my co
CHAPTER 18JAMES POV.Red and yellow lights from the street blurred through the car windows as I made my way through, I was driving at an incredibly fast speed and all I could think about was her.Irene— That woman was certainly a huge case I had gotten myself into.If there was anything she was so good at doing it was getting under my skin and the truth was, she does it so well.She does in a way that looked like there was nothing I could do to stop her from saying whatever she wanted to say.Call her a bitch or whatever you wanted to , buy it didn't take one fact away and that was the fact that she was so good at what she does.She looked like someone brought up properly with normal etiquettes, at some point I thought j was being played in a game by Marcus but then I was quick to take that thought away from my mind.I blinked at the clock that read one p.m. and then rolled my eyes. I had been driving for a good straight hour without stopping.The thought of going back to her s
CHAPTER 19.JAMES POVShe was definitely the last person I expected to see at this place.I stood there perplexed, unable to move away from where I was as I stared into the eyes of my onec past love and companion Addie.If there was any term to describe my dark toxic past it definitely had a lot to do with her and I was speaking about not just the toxic part of it but everything in general.She was one person that had walked right into my life and changed the whole Outlook of it.We both had dated for quite a while till it turned out that I had wanted more and so after making love to her one certain morning I had walked out and the rest was history..Addie was no saint as well, she looked to be an addict at whatever she did and forever I was talking about the sex, drugs and the list was endless.Seeing here right there again, standing right at that spot I didn't know whether to feel excited or not.The reference to our past sex life inspired a mix of emotions— embarrassment, anger,
CHAPTER 20IRENE'S POV.The door shut behind me as I made my way to the room, this was far from boring for me as I was not into nature and his absence made it more difficult.I had loved his presence around each time he had come around, even if it turned out that I was always taunting him most of the time or even if the reverse was the case.The more thought of him sent shivers through my nerves.I was convinced I was the worst person in the world at that moment, the fact I knew nothing about him to the extent that I had no idea about his mother was frustrating .I’d assumed she had died or most probably he was let alone to be on his own due to his frustrating attitude, but as it turned out to be she had not died of cancer or some other illness, but now all I could picture was a six year's old James being left all by himself.That had explained why he had turned out to be dark yet the fact that he had risen from that deepest hollow show how reliable and steady he and had been over
CHAPTER 21JAMES POVI looked at my wife and all I could think about was how Addie's lips had felt over mine.She kissed me, and for the first time in a long time I found a kiss from another woman distasteful.Though Addie had apologized after everything I could tell it was something she would want to do over and over again.Addie didn't look to be the but worried that she kissed me, hardly was she even convinced that was married and she was going to let go.She wanted me, that was the sum of everything she had been trying to say and If she had been speaking to a different James Fraser five months ago, she would've been fucked.The last thing I would want was having her scent all over me so I had to make sure to get rid of everything Addie.She had quite a unique cologne and though I still find it alluring even after many years, I hoped to myself that I didn't by any way carry a part of her.Irene watched me as I walked into the room and we couldn't help wondering if it was that obvi
CHAPTER 22IRENE'S POV" The deal was back on…"In a way I didn't know if to feel excited about that but of information or not but I felt indifferent toward it.The sound of his voice saying this echoed in my mind after he was gone, one fact remained however and that had to with the fact that he was angry or rather pissed about something I had knowledge of, the fact that I had gotten angry and pissed him offIt turned out that I had pushed him right into another woman's arm.I was not quite sure of my claim but the feminine cologne was so noticable and it filled the air in quite a remarkable manner.He had been with a woman doing heaven knows what and while he had made it clear if his intent not to be loyal I couldn't help but feel a little but jealous.Why wouldn't I?I was quite aware of how he chose to be a bit sweet with other women but not myself, he had shown spark of what James Fraser was when he was romantic and wild and other times, I have had to deal with his dark side.T
CHAPTER 23IRENE'S POVPerhaps, I had been lying about my feelings or he was just a good kisser.I could feel every bit of his lips on me, he kissed me like he was kissing my soul and shockingly enough I kissed him too.I could feel all the synapses if my brain telling me what I was doing was wrong in a way I could sense my last bit of self control telling me that I could still stop this.Yet, I chose not to listen to any but instead allowed my soul to be consumed by the tip of his lips.Was the kiss from pity?Did I feel pity for how the past had treated him or was it just pure lust ?It felt like a question only my soul could understand, because that was exactly what he did—He kissed my body and I could feel it waves going down my nerves right to my soul.A quiet noise crawled up his throat, a mixture of satisfaction and hunger not forgetting that bit of anger from the way I was reacting to him.The thought of that same lips kissing another flashed across my mind, I could almost thr
CHAPTER 135JAMES.I wouldn't have been this worried if I didn't get her text that looked to be in distress, it was hardly twenty minutes that she walked out when suddenly I got a notification on my phone beeping in an emergency.She had been complaining about having weird calls and texts and it was Marcus' idea that we set the safety app up, so we would be able to track ourselves.I was still on the phone talking to Marcus and telling him about the sudden appearance of my mother when the notification came in.As I made my way down the stairs, as fast as I could an awful squeak cut through theair and somehow settled under my skin.I made my way out and saw that she was nowhere around the garage.My phone beeped again with a live location this time, slowly I could see the red round indicator moving away and hitting the main road.At first I thought she might have been going with my mother to heaven knows where,but looking around I saw her purse laying in the ground. My heart skipped ma
CHAPTER 134JAMESIt was still hard for me to believe everything that was happening, well that doesn't matter. I was prepared to make sure she spent the rest of her years behind bars for how she acted out toward me.I couldn't believe that I had been dragged into all of this and was naive all along.It was only two months since I got out of my accident and things had been almost perfect between us.It looked as though we've come to a mutual understanding in fixing anything that was going on between us.We just had to fight it — We just had to fight the fact that we were two people not willing to give into admitting flaws.It was hard to ignore her. Whenever she was near, an invisible string pulled me toward her in a way that we couldn't resist. Gradually we were building back what looked to be broken. It was the only sane thing at that moment as it was impossible for us to just get ourselves back immediately.The feel of having do close left a vibrating feeling behind with the promis
CHAPTER 133JAMESThe first thing I noticed when I fluttered my eyes open was the fact that I was in an empty room which I did not seem to recognise. I winced at the harsh light coming through the window and instantly closed my eyes back up.For some reason I couldn’t turn my head an inch. Even the thought of doing that made me wince in pain. A frustrated grumble escaped my throat at the fact that I was clearly clueless and oblivious of my surroundings and there was nothing I could do to change that except to wait for aid which didn't seem to be coming.Judging by the stiffness of the bed I laid on and the feeling of Iv on my hand, I came to the conclusion that I was in a hospital bed. If that didn’t confirm it then the terrible headache I was having and the pain I felt all over my body definitely did.“For how many hours have I been laying down here” I wondered in silence. Giving up on all attempts to get myself up and waiting for anyone to walk into the room. Judging by the light co
CHAPTER 132IRENEThere was just one wish in my heart and at the tip of my tongue. That all these was a dream and I will wake up back in my apartment but I knew it wasn’t. This was real, this was my reality and I will have to face it no matter how cruel it might seem.I sighed for the umpteenth time watching as the nurses did their job. I had been sitting here for the past hours, waiting for some form of miracle to happen and James to wake up, I just refused to let the fact that he was going to die into my heart. I just refused to agree that I am going to lose him forever.“No! Absolutely not!” I chanted to myself, shaking my head vigorously in the process. James is strong, he is going to survive this. There is no way in hell he was going to die after all he had gone through. It just wasn’t meant to be like this. James is not supposed to die. NoI stared down at his face, his calm and peaceful face and I realized just how much I missed him. How much I missed looking into his eyes and
CHAPTER 131IRENEMarcus stared at me intensely from his side of the table, swirling his spoon around the plate of food in front of him. His gaze seemed to be directed at me but in reality he was deep in thought with his hand supporting his chin.I was still a bit sick but it was not as severe as it used to be so I had no trouble just sitting down and watching him think, waiting for him to spit out whatever was taking up most of our time together.After a long moment of silence, he sighed heavily, dropping the spoon from his hand and turning to face me completely now. “Irene?” He called.I did not honor that with a reply, instead I just looked at him to tell him I was present and listening to whatever he had to say.“How are you doing?” He inquired. It might sound like it was just a normal question but I could feel all the underlying questions from just looking into his eyes. The unspoken question was actually “how are you dealing with everything? How is your sanity now that James is
CHAPTER 130IRENE“I’m tired of everything, I want James back and I can’t leave without him and I feel like I’m dying.” I said almost choking on my own tears.Marcus was so comforting as he was quiet as he let me rant all I want in his embrace. It’s been so long since I had someone to hug like this and now that I got someone I didn’t want to let go.“I want him back, I can’t let Addie have him forever because I won’t be able to live without him.” I said crying deeply as gently wiped off the tears from my eyes.I finally released myself from my self bondage grip and it was then I remembered the blood of Marcus' body.He looked at me worriedly which made me shiver as I had a very unusual feeling inside of me.“W…what happened to you? Why are you covered up in blood?” I asked, looking at his hands which were covered in blood. His white shirt was also covered in blood but I couldn’t spot any injury on his body.“It’s not me, something happened to.” He said calmly holding my two hands like
CHAPTER 129IRENEI felt like screaming my lungs out to ease the intense pain I was currently feeling in my head but looking at it logically, screaming might only increase the pain so I refrained from doing so.Instead, I squirted my eyes to reduce the amount of light entering into it which in some weird way is only adding to my pain. My heart kept pounding in a way it had never done before, at least not when I am fine.I clutched onto my duvet for dear life, still shivering and gritting my teeth despite the fact that I was under layers of bed coverings. My throat felt so dry and the thought of passing anything through it at the moment made me gagged, but considering the fact that I had vomited more than I could count during this short period nothing came out but air.Overall I felt terrible and after a long moment of denial and thinking it was probably stress which would be gone if I just rested, I finally reached the conclusion that I was sick and I would need to see a doctor in or
CHAPTER 128IRENEI looked around lazily and picked up my phone to check the time. It was already evening and I groaned wishing I woke up the next morning.Now I had to Dave the burden of actually being in this life which was enough of a burden on its own. Everyday I wished it was the next because I wanted to get over everything.By now James would have been engaged and my heart ached as I thought about it. I sniffled hard because I didn’t want to start crying again.The love of my life was getting engaged to someone and it wasn’t me, he was the only one I wanted and now he belonged to someone else and there was nothing I could do.It became hard for me to stop myself from crying so I undressed and went into the shower.I turned on the warm water and gently scrubbed my body like there was no life left in me again.Everything felt so slow and I felt there was no use for anything again, it was all useless now.I got out of the shower and got dressed into a big top and walked out of the
CHAPTER 127JAMESI looked around and the sight of everyone cheering all in my name was so disgusting to me, especially since I didn’t want any of this to begin with.Everyone who walked past me would wave at me but Ignored most of them anyway as I was trying my best not to flare up because I was very upset.My sister noticed this from across the room and our eyes met, I looked away but I knew she was still going to come over anyways.She smiled at me and walked gently approaching me.“Why aren’t you putting on a smile? It’s your happy day. You should be happier than anyone here.” My sister said gently patting my suit like she was about to dust something off it.I looked around the crowd in the area and now the whole hall was jeering with noises from each corner of the hall.“When is this going to end?” I scoffed with a big frown pasted on my face.I didn’t even care about all of these arrangements and all the guests here because I was not happy with any of it.“Look over at your beau