CHAPTER 104JAMESAt what would be the most romantic gesture ever I stood under the downpour, she looked down from her window and I could tell what was racing in her mind.Somewhere her guard dogs were barking but it was all crazy because I was drunk and not thinking as aIl I wanted that minute to reconcile.Depp down the part of me that still held back was still there but I had lived with guilt all this long years— Guilt that i had wronged her and this felt like the right time to fix those wrong .As she looked down on me, it was difficult to tell if she was going to forgive me or not heart was racing at the very thought of what was in her mind.The headlights from my convertible provided the only source of light as I stood right there, the cold wind blowing through my lips clattering against each other.I had seen this work so many times bye she just watched me like I was—It was hard telling what she felt at the moment as her face and gaze held nothing."What are you doing down
CHAPTER 105IRENE.It took a lot for me to stand there at the doorway , all night I battled within myself .It was easy to say that he was there on purpose, I had seen the look in his eyes enough to make me come to the conclusion, there was a drastic change in the atmosphere of the whole apartment …I walked back to my room after letting him in and all I thought about was his face and the gesture he had made that night.It must have really meant a lot to him coming down from his high horse to speak to me, at that moment all I wanted to do was hear him out . I felt the need to.When the maid walked back in and stated that she had given him the towel, I nodded slightly and leaned back, resting my forearms on the sofa where I was.It still breezed in with the icily cold wind from time to time and all I wondered was how he was able to pull it off standing under the cold rain —It was crazy really, crazy!“Is everything okay, Ma'am?” The maid asked, it was only then that I realized that I h
CHAPTER 106IRENEI looked like I was about to make a mistake but this mistake looked like one I wouldn't mind making over and over again.He wasn't relenting, I had walked right into something I should have ran away from and he was looking to take full advantage of the whole situation.At the back of mind. was the heavy thought of what was about.This doesn't seem right, he is your ex…Every synapses in my brain no was screaming out but at that moment I was filled with lust .I ran my hands underneath the robe he had been wearing and the sound of the moab that escaped from his lips in pleasure sent a seductive echo through the room and a shudder through my nerves.He was leaning on the table now, he rested his elbow on the edge and watched me through his eyes that were well relaxed.I hesitated. I knew I couldn’t do this with perfection— It was wrong, he was with another woman all my common sense was screaming!The hell I could.He certainly knew what he was doing by coming to my
CHAPTER 107JAMESIt was all done and what filled me after then was how we are going to react to the fact that we just had unprotected sex.Not that I regretted it, as a matter of fact I enjoyed every moment of the sex we hadthe truth was I wanted more of it as I had never desired anyone the way I desired her after all these long years.By this time I was very much wide awake, I could sense every bit of the nerves in me being lifted up with all my synapses still firing.Turning on the bed and seeing her still asleep like a baby, I looked at her for minute wondering how beautiful she had remained despite the years.Throwing the covers back, I slid out of bed and dragged my feet out of the room.The room still had the scent of sex and the alcohol in my sweat—It was obvious what was going to happen during the day's break and I wasn't in the mood to let her do it to me the second time.It was obvious all this that happened was a mistake and the better I saved her the pressure of having
CHAPTER 108JAMESCaught unaware and filled with anxiety, I stopped at that moment and looked round to see her face looking at me.For a minute I regretted the fact I had been lured by her, it had just been a moment of pleasure after being angry yet it had left me with so many regrets.At that moment I wished I could take back the hands of time, if only I could do that,It would have been the most beautiful thing.Running a hand across the last bit of edge in the Staircase I thought carefully what my answer would be.I could hear her footsteps as she made her way down towards where I was, suddenly feeling closer to her."You left here last night, why are you only coming back now?"The question was heavy in my heart when I thought about it, I couldn't think of any definite answer to give to her at the moment.Peering back into her eyes, I could see the deep concern that was deep down in it.She had been worried yet there wasn't any bit of remorse in mine as all I did waslickmy lips.A
CHAPTER 109IRENE.Soon after he left I went back to my phone, I switched it back on and stared hard at the screen not believing how many times he had called .In a way I felt bad for him, felt bad that I wouldn't be able to love him just the way he wanted.Just the previous night I had been busy making love to the same man I wanted to stay away from, the same man I wanted revenge over.It was obvious he Wanted me back but thinking back at the whole situation, I had something entirely different at the back of my mind.The fact remained that I couldn't hate him, no matter how I tried to, there was this intriguing part of him that made it hard for me to hate him.Thinking back at the whole situation I thought about what could possibly be running through his mind at the moment.Was he with her again?In some way I found myself being jealous, I didn't know why but it was right there , it was jealous of Addie.The More I thought about the fact that my Ex husband was with another woman the
CHAPTER 110IRENEI was distracted, all I had to do at this moment was reflect on everything I was about to do and at this moment it looked as though I was just left with minutes to do that.Sitting at the exclusive section of the restaurant, I glanced at my watch while waiting for my lawyer.It was the first plan in having my revenge, already I had sketched what I was about to do in my mind and it was clear and direct.I was pouring a finger of whiskey neat when she came up beside me.I eyed her as she grabbed her seat, she was the best I could get around and despite not being present my PA had done a good business."I am hoping, I am in the right seat?" She looked around here and clearly saw that there was nobody else around, at least not in the exclusive section."Amanda spoke to you right?" I asked and she shook her head."What would you like to drink?" I asked, jingling the bell on the table."Something light, I love to keep my head light at work."She glanced at me, and look
CHAPTER 111JAMES “We can’t go further into this conversation if you keep on acting like this.” A member of the representative committee said, looking directly at me.Noticing his lips were moving but I wasn't listening to what he was saying, I decided to shut my mind away from what I was thinking.I was not concentrating no matter how I tried, having an inner battle with myself was just so annoying especially when you are in a meeting like this. I was so exhausted and just wanted to go home.This was the least of what I was thinking, and they were not serious anyways.“What’s that?” I asked jolting back to reality. I was lost in thoughts that I hadn’t been listening to all that they have been saying till they called my name loudly. “I wondered what impression they would have of me,” I thought embarrassed already. Quickly masking my embarrassment, I turned to where the voice came from.“You’re Not even listening to us.” Another member said, roaring out in anger. Putting on my stoic
CHAPTER 135JAMES.I wouldn't have been this worried if I didn't get her text that looked to be in distress, it was hardly twenty minutes that she walked out when suddenly I got a notification on my phone beeping in an emergency.She had been complaining about having weird calls and texts and it was Marcus' idea that we set the safety app up, so we would be able to track ourselves.I was still on the phone talking to Marcus and telling him about the sudden appearance of my mother when the notification came in.As I made my way down the stairs, as fast as I could an awful squeak cut through theair and somehow settled under my skin.I made my way out and saw that she was nowhere around the garage.My phone beeped again with a live location this time, slowly I could see the red round indicator moving away and hitting the main road.At first I thought she might have been going with my mother to heaven knows where,but looking around I saw her purse laying in the ground. My heart skipped ma
CHAPTER 134JAMESIt was still hard for me to believe everything that was happening, well that doesn't matter. I was prepared to make sure she spent the rest of her years behind bars for how she acted out toward me.I couldn't believe that I had been dragged into all of this and was naive all along.It was only two months since I got out of my accident and things had been almost perfect between us.It looked as though we've come to a mutual understanding in fixing anything that was going on between us.We just had to fight it — We just had to fight the fact that we were two people not willing to give into admitting flaws.It was hard to ignore her. Whenever she was near, an invisible string pulled me toward her in a way that we couldn't resist. Gradually we were building back what looked to be broken. It was the only sane thing at that moment as it was impossible for us to just get ourselves back immediately.The feel of having do close left a vibrating feeling behind with the promis
CHAPTER 133JAMESThe first thing I noticed when I fluttered my eyes open was the fact that I was in an empty room which I did not seem to recognise. I winced at the harsh light coming through the window and instantly closed my eyes back up.For some reason I couldn’t turn my head an inch. Even the thought of doing that made me wince in pain. A frustrated grumble escaped my throat at the fact that I was clearly clueless and oblivious of my surroundings and there was nothing I could do to change that except to wait for aid which didn't seem to be coming.Judging by the stiffness of the bed I laid on and the feeling of Iv on my hand, I came to the conclusion that I was in a hospital bed. If that didn’t confirm it then the terrible headache I was having and the pain I felt all over my body definitely did.“For how many hours have I been laying down here” I wondered in silence. Giving up on all attempts to get myself up and waiting for anyone to walk into the room. Judging by the light co
CHAPTER 132IRENEThere was just one wish in my heart and at the tip of my tongue. That all these was a dream and I will wake up back in my apartment but I knew it wasn’t. This was real, this was my reality and I will have to face it no matter how cruel it might seem.I sighed for the umpteenth time watching as the nurses did their job. I had been sitting here for the past hours, waiting for some form of miracle to happen and James to wake up, I just refused to let the fact that he was going to die into my heart. I just refused to agree that I am going to lose him forever.“No! Absolutely not!” I chanted to myself, shaking my head vigorously in the process. James is strong, he is going to survive this. There is no way in hell he was going to die after all he had gone through. It just wasn’t meant to be like this. James is not supposed to die. NoI stared down at his face, his calm and peaceful face and I realized just how much I missed him. How much I missed looking into his eyes and
CHAPTER 131IRENEMarcus stared at me intensely from his side of the table, swirling his spoon around the plate of food in front of him. His gaze seemed to be directed at me but in reality he was deep in thought with his hand supporting his chin.I was still a bit sick but it was not as severe as it used to be so I had no trouble just sitting down and watching him think, waiting for him to spit out whatever was taking up most of our time together.After a long moment of silence, he sighed heavily, dropping the spoon from his hand and turning to face me completely now. “Irene?” He called.I did not honor that with a reply, instead I just looked at him to tell him I was present and listening to whatever he had to say.“How are you doing?” He inquired. It might sound like it was just a normal question but I could feel all the underlying questions from just looking into his eyes. The unspoken question was actually “how are you dealing with everything? How is your sanity now that James is
CHAPTER 130IRENE“I’m tired of everything, I want James back and I can’t leave without him and I feel like I’m dying.” I said almost choking on my own tears.Marcus was so comforting as he was quiet as he let me rant all I want in his embrace. It’s been so long since I had someone to hug like this and now that I got someone I didn’t want to let go.“I want him back, I can’t let Addie have him forever because I won’t be able to live without him.” I said crying deeply as gently wiped off the tears from my eyes.I finally released myself from my self bondage grip and it was then I remembered the blood of Marcus' body.He looked at me worriedly which made me shiver as I had a very unusual feeling inside of me.“W…what happened to you? Why are you covered up in blood?” I asked, looking at his hands which were covered in blood. His white shirt was also covered in blood but I couldn’t spot any injury on his body.“It’s not me, something happened to.” He said calmly holding my two hands like
CHAPTER 129IRENEI felt like screaming my lungs out to ease the intense pain I was currently feeling in my head but looking at it logically, screaming might only increase the pain so I refrained from doing so.Instead, I squirted my eyes to reduce the amount of light entering into it which in some weird way is only adding to my pain. My heart kept pounding in a way it had never done before, at least not when I am fine.I clutched onto my duvet for dear life, still shivering and gritting my teeth despite the fact that I was under layers of bed coverings. My throat felt so dry and the thought of passing anything through it at the moment made me gagged, but considering the fact that I had vomited more than I could count during this short period nothing came out but air.Overall I felt terrible and after a long moment of denial and thinking it was probably stress which would be gone if I just rested, I finally reached the conclusion that I was sick and I would need to see a doctor in or
CHAPTER 128IRENEI looked around lazily and picked up my phone to check the time. It was already evening and I groaned wishing I woke up the next morning.Now I had to Dave the burden of actually being in this life which was enough of a burden on its own. Everyday I wished it was the next because I wanted to get over everything.By now James would have been engaged and my heart ached as I thought about it. I sniffled hard because I didn’t want to start crying again.The love of my life was getting engaged to someone and it wasn’t me, he was the only one I wanted and now he belonged to someone else and there was nothing I could do.It became hard for me to stop myself from crying so I undressed and went into the shower.I turned on the warm water and gently scrubbed my body like there was no life left in me again.Everything felt so slow and I felt there was no use for anything again, it was all useless now.I got out of the shower and got dressed into a big top and walked out of the
CHAPTER 127JAMESI looked around and the sight of everyone cheering all in my name was so disgusting to me, especially since I didn’t want any of this to begin with.Everyone who walked past me would wave at me but Ignored most of them anyway as I was trying my best not to flare up because I was very upset.My sister noticed this from across the room and our eyes met, I looked away but I knew she was still going to come over anyways.She smiled at me and walked gently approaching me.“Why aren’t you putting on a smile? It’s your happy day. You should be happier than anyone here.” My sister said gently patting my suit like she was about to dust something off it.I looked around the crowd in the area and now the whole hall was jeering with noises from each corner of the hall.“When is this going to end?” I scoffed with a big frown pasted on my face.I didn’t even care about all of these arrangements and all the guests here because I was not happy with any of it.“Look over at your beau