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Chapter 88 : Let Go

Author: Fintary
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-20 15:44:31

Ashley POV

“I'm not being a good friend, am I? Don't answer that,” Jayden added hurriedly with a bitter chuckle. He lowered his head in obvious defeat and snorted. “I'm not a good boyfriend, or a good mate, at all.”

It hurt like hell, seeing him doubt himself like that. Though he did not show the fear and void he had before, the old fear and emptiness, I recognized the shadow in his voice. At the same time, his words shut down the resentment and anger that flared up inside me.

He was not fully healed yet. He still needed me.

My legs started to move closer to him, ready to convince him in whatever way, or almost any way..., but halted when he shook his head, his eyes still downcast. I felt my pants pocket vibrate, signaling a midnight text, but I chose to ignore it.

“I'm too scared to see her.” His voice was like a whisper, like a candle in the middle of a city full of light. His fingers tightened around the edge of his cell phone. “I just... I just don't want to lose whatever it is th
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