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Chapter 26 : Inner Turmoil 2

Author: Fintary
last update Last Updated: 2024-04-05 12:10:48

Ashley POV

I didn't know where to start. Then, remembering the list I had written and the master list Jackson had compiled from working with Boyz Hits Bullets, I took them both out and placed them on the table. "Can you look through these?" I asked.

Jayden glanced at my paper first. "Is this some kind of wish list of yours, or?" he asked as he pointed at it. His gaze turned suspicious as he looked at the master list. "I don't know what the person who wrote this meant. It's just a list of events."

"How do you know this is mine?" I couldn't hold back my astonishment.

"Your handwriting is pretty crappy, Ash."

"Oh my," I muttered. "It's gotten better over the years."

"Apparently not, because... the letters look the same as always."

"It's not a wish list, you know," I said, rolling my eyes at his scorn. "It's a list of things you and I have gone through over the past five years."

For obvious reasons, I had intentionally not written down the day of my engagement with him, and anythi
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