Ashley POVJayden had already picked up his shirt and folded it on the nightstand to the left by the time I reached the door. For a moment, I let myself admire his muscular body, illuminated by the city lights. His bare arms and back arched and relaxed as he moved. His dark brown hair fell into his eyes, covering his forehead and eyebrows, and he flicked his head slightly to the side to keep his fringe from showing. His mouth was barely open as he focused on his task.And then he glanced over his shoulder, staring at me.Oh, shoot! I gasped. I hadn't meant to stare at him for long enough to get caught. Even worse, I had no clue what kind of expression I was wearing right now. Was I looking at him with awe? Sexual lust?Or even worse - affection?“I don't know how to lower the curtain,” he told me casually.“It's not that hard,” I said and pressed a button on top of the light switch, which caused a low buzz. The gray screen hidden in the wall slowly inched across the two panoramic wind
Ashley POVI finished my oatmeal quietly. Jayden didn't speak again, albeit he finally started eating his own breakfast. I got to my feet to put the bowls in the sink and pour some juice for both of us when he broke the silence.“What should I try to figure out today?”He had caught himself, his expression now neutral. I downed my juice and placed the glass in front of him. “I have no idea,” I admitted. “Since we only need a charger for your phone, which probably has a lot of information we can use...” I looked at him straight on. “I guess I could let you torture yourself some more by letting you watch YouTube.”Jayden sighed. “I guess so. I should take a look,” he told me. “I should try and see if I recognize myself.”I swallowed my first response, the one that would accuse him of being a complete idiot. But I understood him. I wouldn't want to just sit around and do nothing if I were the one with amnesia.“I'm going to wash the dishes,” I said shortly. “I might be back a little late
Ashley POV"Mother...""Oh, my gosh," I exclaimed. Is it possible that his parents decided to call just as we managed to access his cell phone?"What—" Jayden started to say as I handed him his phone. He was forced to get closer due to the length of the charging cord, and our thighs and hips were touching.He looked at me in bewilderment, and I rolled my eyes. "Answer it," I urged.Jayden touched the screen and put it to his ear. "Hello?""Jayden Ronan Keller? Show me your face, will you?"It was a video call. Still in a dazed state, I told him to hold his phone in front of him. His mother's round face appeared on the screen, initially with a concerned expression. However, once his mother saw us together in the small frame in the upper right corner, she looked relieved."There you are," she said with a smile. I couldn't see much of the background, but I figured I saw a large white headboard behind her, typical of an inn. "And apparently you're with Ashley." Her smile widened as her fo
Ashley POVMost of the messages were from various private chats and groups with six familiar names and a few male names I didn't recognize. Some were from his mother. None were from his father. I noticed there were five messages Blair had sent, one of which she had just sent.I'm not going to read anything. I'm just going to check and see if my predictions are right and if the hunch in the back of my mind is true.I could feel my heartbeat getting faster as I kept scouting. Careful not to get into their chat room, I found Jayden's contact list in the app and tapped on Blair's name. Her main profile picture was a selfie taken somewhere sunny and blue, probably the Maldives or the Philippines, where she was smiling broadly, wearing a feminine blouse and shorts.But my attention was quickly distracted. Something else, much more important, had caught my eye.The short profile description below her photo and name made me feel as if the world would end before midnight.A red heart, followed
Ashley POVThere were two things I quickly realized when the high-pitched sound that was the alarm woke me up. First, after I reached for my phone to drown out the noise, I realized that I had slept about half an hour longer than usual. That meant someone had returned to my room every ten minutes to reset the snooze time, three times. Secondly, I realized that the empty extra bed I'd made yesterday was a mess, the wool blanket thrown over my bed.So, the idiot was back.I'm not sure what I'm feeling. Or well, tired, for one. But when I looked back at Jayden's attitude yesterday... it didn't really sit well with me. Not only because he had been an asshole to me, but also because he could have risked everything by recklessly storming out of the house. He could have revealed where he was staying, and thus also my involvement in hiding him.But then again, either way, I couldn't help but feel sympathetic. Of course, he was mad at his parents. He must have felt, and probably still feels, a
Ashley POVJayden looked taken aback by my words, but he soon gathered himself. He stepped closer to me and started to reach for my shoulder. But remembering the resolution I made the night before, I unintentionally stiffened, which he immediately realized.His hand froze in mid-air. Before I could say anything, maybe make excuses or just blurt out the truth that I was feeling all kinds of emotions as soon as he touched me. Jayden withdrew his hand and walked past me as if nothing had happened. His eyes are expressionless.What have I done now?"Since when did we become so close that you could expect me to actually keep a promise?" he asked stiffly over his shoulder.I felt relief flow through my body. "Since your manager called me in the middle of the night and told me that you got hit in an accident," I said, hoping to break the tense atmosphere. "You silly street puppy."Jayden snorted, but his tone became softer. "Right. And thank you, Ash."I turned around and looked suspiciously
Ashley POVI wasn't stupid enough to believe it right away. He might have, due to amnesia, decided to change the status message to nothing. But luckily, WhatsApp saves any edits to one's profile.Quickly, I checked Jayden's profile history but found no recent changes to the description box. Frowning, I read through his entire history. Besides the occasional semi-serious selfie, most of his gallery consisted of photos of different environments. Streets, cathedrals, landscapes. Actually, he had a keen eye for photography.It's just that there are no post-amnesia edits on any of his status messages. And there was not the slightest sign that he was in a romantic relationship. Not at all.Well, to be fair, I don't really take relationship status on social media as a reference for whether or not a couple is happy - together or not - but still, this felt weird. Jayden didn't seem like the type to brag about romantic things, but Blair Anderson was definitely that type. She definitely wouldn't
Ashley POV"What did you find on your laptop?" I tried to ask.His eyes bore into mine. "I didn't have time to check," he admitted. "I was busy looking through my phone and... doing whatever I was doing earlier." He snorted. "WhatsApp is very... interesting, to say the least.""Oh," I said quickly. "So you must have read all the messages?""No, I couldn't bring myself to."I frowned. "Why not?""It feels bad," he said quietly, his gaze falling to the floor. "Like I'm peeking into someone's private business.""But..." I began."I know," he cut in. "I shouldn't feel bad because it's all my personal business." He suddenly turned his whole body towards me, resting his elbows on the back of the couch and resting his cheek against his knuckles. He held his broken arm in his lap. "But that girl... Blair. I couldn't read anything. I couldn't even click on the chat room."I swallowed, then averted my eyes. I should have gotten used to the sharp pain tearing at my heart by now, but it still hur
Ashley POVMonday was chill. I spent the day wandering around the area near my hotel, snapping pictures of the city. Somewhere along the way, I stumbled upon a hobby store packed with all kinds of trinkets and ended up buying some dolls and tiny figurines for Eva before heading back. I also swung by a small shop to grab some snacks.A hot shower melted away my exhaustion, and soon enough, I was lounging on the bed in a ridiculously oversized bathrobe, binge-watching Netflix for hours. I meant to change into my pajamas, but I crashed before I even got the chance.For a moment, I floated in darkness— no real-life drama, no danger, just peace.Then, a buzzing noise across the room yanked me out of my sleep. Still half-asleep, I clumsily rolled out of bed and made my way to the desk where I'd left my phone charging. My eyes fluttered as I tried to shake off the drowsiness. It was bright outside, but I didn’t really stop to think about it.Not until I, still groggy, picked up the call and
Ashley POVIt wasn’t jealousy or some masochistic urge that led me to my newest idea. No, seriously, it wasn’t. Honestly, I just wanted to know more about her, because she was the reason behind everything that happened that night at the stadium back in February. Because I could swear she had planned every single one of those so-called coincidental meetings between me and Jayden, which eventually led to the accident and his amnesia.I mean, I had no solid proof, but judging by the way she acted and spoke… something felt off. My gut just told me so.I didn’t think Blair had planned for Jayden to go on a drunken rampage afterward and get hit by a car— especially judging by how damn annoying she was in the Silvercross Healing Center parking lot— but she sure as hell wasn’t innocent, either. But I also knew she hadn’t known about my engagement to Jayden at the time, which was obvious from Jayden’s own words and what she said to me after he kicked her out of his hospital room.Besides, I st
Ashley POVThe streets weren’t exactly empty, but David had been circling the block for the past half hour, worried about my safety. That’s why he managed to pull up right where he had dropped me off just a few minutes later. Before getting into the car, still a little tipsy, I waved goodbye to the BHB band members— except for Jayden and Jamie, who were still upstairs looking for something they’d left behind.Even though it felt kinda weird leaving without saying goodbye to everyone, maybe it was for the best that I didn’t see Jayden again. At least, not that night.I had to wipe my eyes more than a few times on the way home. Not even the alcohol could numb the sharp ache in my chest.The moment I got back, I collapsed onto my bed and passed out.The next morning, fighting off a pounding headache, I came to the conclusion that my trip to Milan needed to be about more than just Jayden’s concert. I had to make this trip for myself too. And since Eva was too busy to come along and Jared
Ashley POVIf my brain wasn’t so clouded with exhaustion and alcohol, I might’ve reacted properly to what he just said. But right now, I was way more drunk than I wanted to admit. I pushed aside every thought fighting for space in my head, whether real or not, because his body heat and the scent of white musk, soap, and just him made something inside me shiver with longing. I didn’t trust myself in this state. I didn’t trust myself when my lips were this close to his neck, where his scent was strongest.So instead, I focused on one thing— holding on."Ash, I have a question."He had already reached the second floor, adjusting his grip on me. I glanced at him, curious, urging him to continue. "Shoot.""I was wondering if you’d come to our show at the end of May," he said quietly as he stepped onto the last staircase. "I know it’s around finals, but..." I felt him swallow hard. "I want you to be there. To see us, to see me... perform."I pretended to think about it for a second, but hon
Ashley POVAll the attention from seven pairs of expectant eyes suddenly weighs me down. I rub my palms together, trying to shake off those stares, and then it hits me.I give Jayden a simple smile and bump my head against his. "Something embarrassing from your childhood, Jayden."He narrows his eyes, snorting. "That’s like a double-edged sword you’re playing with, Ash."I shrug. "I’m not the type who can’t tell the difference between fairies and dwarves in the Lord of the Rings trilogy.""Seriously?" Jax asks."Plenty more," I reply."Ash," Jayden says, his tone carrying a warning, yet there's a hint of embarrassment and worry in his caramel-brown eyes."If we drink, we’ll figure it out," Jean says flatly, not at all impressed by my suggestion. "That’s a bad bet, Miles. Don’t even think about it.""Not at all," I replied coolly. "I can handle my drink better than anyone at this table, I promise. So you’re not gonna get something from me that I don’t wanna share.""Sounds almost like
Ashley POV“Hey,” I said as I sat down beside Miles— the seat that had indirectly become my choice simply because it was the closest to where I had been standing near the door. Besides, I felt like I knew him better than anyone else here— except for Jayden, of course.Jayden had just taken a seat across from me when an argument broke out between him and Jean over what to order and how much. Miles set his half-empty drink down on the table and was forced to lean in closer to me just to be heard over their rapidly escalating banter— or rather, a full-blown dispute.“Did something happen on the way here?” he asked.“Just the usual traffic,” I said with a grimace. “For some reason, today felt unbearably long.”“We started without you two.”“Yeah, Jayden already told me. It’s fine.” I rubbed my arm. It wasn’t surprising that Miles smelled faintly of beer and food, but that scent was only temporary, merely clinging to him. This close, I could pick up a mix of coconut, aftershave, and the fr
Ashley POVIn the end, they won the award. I found out about it as I was stealing glances at Eva, who was watching the live broadcast in one of my classes, and almost cried when the winner was announced. She was so overjoyed that even when Jayden called during lunch to update me with the situation there, she was even bold enough to congratulate him, albeit timidly, which amused me. Since he was in a hurry, he hung up as soon as he told me about their victory... Needless to say, I had to mention it though, and as much as it left a bitter taste in my mouth, my mood turned to joy as I recalled Friday.The rest of the week passed by in a blur and before I knew it, it was time for me to meet the band members of Boyz Hits Bullet on May 26th.Four days left until the show began.Four more days until everything I had been putting in would come to fruition.Four more days until my place in Jayden Keller's life would be wiped out.It was between half past seven and eight in the evening, with tr
Ashley POVAfter hearing the sound of the front door key, I nearly snapped the pen in my mouth out of sheer frustration. But I didn’t. Instead, I put the pen down and took a long, deep breath. Pushing the pain in my heart out of my mind— something that felt both easier and harder to do each time.Easier, because I knew I could suppress the pain with sheer willpower, and willpower was something I rarely lacked. Harder, because a part of me, the part buried deep within my wolf, actually wanted the suffering to stay. It was masochistic, purely so, but the act of stitching my shattered heart back together was starting to feel comforting, even satisfying.Anything to fill the void Jayden left when he returned to the apartment he shared with his friends.Days turned into weeks. News about Jayden and Blair’s relationship swept through the entire city and the international world— Hollywood. The night their Instagram post went viral like wildfire. Before long, fans of both pop stars gathered u
Ashley POVFor a while, it was eerily quiet. The weather had changed, from cloudy to sunny, and a gentle breeze caressed my cheeks. As I sat there, I couldn't believe that I had told Eva everything. Nevertheless, an overwhelming sense of relief filled my chest as I reflected on my decision. For two and a half months, I had kept my thoughts and actions to myself with no one to talk to... and now, finally, I had her to share them with.I couldn't help but wonder, would I feel relieved by making a decision with Jayden after everything was over?Out of the blue, Eva got up from the bench, rubbing her back simultaneously. “Get up,” she demanded. “Why don't we grab some lunch?”“We should probably call the professors first and tell them about why we skipped class,” I replied as I looked at the campus building, guilt weighing on my shoulders.“Fine, do that while walking. I'm starving.”As I made the call, she took me to a cheap Chinese restaurant near the university. The restaurant was too