I blinked as the sunshine dazzled my eyes. Oh God, I really don't want to wake up because all parts of my body feel so sore like I just ran a marathon last night and also my head is really sore and dizzy like I've just been hit by ten bricks.
Groaning, without opening my eyes, I pulled the blanket to cover my naked body which was exposed to the cold air. Coiled by my side, I began to sink my consciousness back into the dream. But.....
Wait.
Naked?
Sunshine?
First—naked, I never sleep naked. I always wear a thick hoodie, and knee-length pants and then curl up comfortably under my blanket which is neither too thin nor too thick, which has accompanied me since my Junior High School days. And of course I can't possibly take off my regular bedtime clothes just because it's hot at night because I've never been hot.
Second—sunshine. My room is a room full of walls and two wide glass windows which I always close with thick curtains so that the morning sun will not enter and disturb the sound sleep I have.
Then, what is this?
I raised my half body, opened my eyes that were still tightly attached.
The scene in front of me was a strange thing.
Really weird.
A large white king size bed, a wide glass wall in front that reveals the snow that has fallen on Seattle, and some of the luxury items that fill this place.
I gaped, sat up, pulled the blanket under my armpits and scanned the room quickly.
My heart was beating hard, my dizzy head was getting dizzy, especially when I saw how I looked now. A sense of shock overtook me, before the hot and inappropriate memories I never thought I'd feel, invade my recovered senses.
'"You didn't disappoint me."'
'"Oh, you're a virgin?"'
'"Give it to me, and you won't regret it,"'
'"It will hurt for a while, then you will feel good, kitten."'
'"Narrow,"'
"Shit uh."
I screamed when sound of the cursed voice from a handsome and beautiful man playing sweetly in my head, spinning around like the voice of a porn star which is very, very disgusting at this time.
Then, what did I do last night? I'm no different from a porn star, I'm even like an obedient and thirsty bitch for a pleasures that I've never tasted.
Shit.
Holy...
Fuck.
I put my hands on the sides of my head, looked down, then cried like I was a child when I found caterpillars in my hair.
I fucked up.
Well, it's not that I'm a believer with no-sex before marriage. In the past, I wanted sex, a first experience, with my ex. But before that happened I was already distant and scared. That's what makes every boy leave me and prefer other women. They say I'm a sucker and a coward.
I have no problem with that and choose to give up my virginity later with a man that I love and give a beautiful first experience for me. And, now....
Damn it.
I fucked up.
That Princess imagination was fucked up, because I didn't sleep with the man of my dreams or the man that I want, but with a man I didn't recognize.
It's even worse because I'm drunk.
That handsome, hot and beautiful man.
Even in an unconscious state, I can still see how beautiful he is, how hot he is, how handsome he is, and how the hardness of his body makes me scream with a pleasure.
Nothing was soft last night. However, it was hot and passionate like us devouring each other. Erotic as well as rude so it affects me until now. There was something wet there, but the memory of the sudden taste faded to be replaced by a feeling of dread which made my stomach hurt.
What if he was a gigolo? Don't they have to look so handsome in order to satisfy women's eyes? What if he's a predator who intentionally puts anything in my drink to knock me out and then takes advantage?
Worse yet, what if he has HIV/AIDS and transmits it to me?
I shook my head, erasing it. I have to meet him and talk about last night. I worry if what I fear is the truth.
I shuffled to the edge of the bed and found my phone on the nightstand, I took it, but something on the sofa table, not far from the bed, caught my attention.
A goody bag that says a famous and most expensive clothing brand in the world is here. I wrapped myself in the blanket and then got out of bed. Grimacing as the sting between my thighs felt, I limped towards it.
Raising an eyebrow, I gaped when not only the most expensive brand of clothing was here, but there was also a check lying beside it.
The thing that struck me next was that this check was worth a million dollars.
On behalf of R.M
I blinked many times and saw the value on the check because I thought that my two beautiful eyes had started to get myopic and damaged but in fact they weren't.
One million dollars.
ONE FUCKING MILLION DOLLARS.
Which, damn it, is a lot of money. And I need to work for seventy years to earn this amount of money. Which means this guy isn't a gigolo, what a gigolo is going to do is steal my wallet and phone.
While he gave me money.
He must be very generous and kind. Maybe he feels guilty? I have to find him and talk about all of this.
Recovering from my shock, I read the note pinned to the goodybag..
Read it with furrowed brows to understand his words because my brain is still not recovering from the drunken state and after sleep.
'Hello, Amanda. Last night's sex was so fun and beautiful, you capable to make me come twice. I really salute you even though you just give me your virginity. And as a respect for your amazing pussy, I present this check and luxury outfit to you.
If you want more checks and fancy stuff, just call me.
With honry
RM'
Fuck.
Swearing came out as anger welled up and heated up in my chest, swirling like disgusting food that I had swallowed.
Does he think I'm the bitch who wants all of this?
Does he think I'm a cheap woman who values my virginity with money?
Does he hink a woman like me wants his money and luxury goods?
Well, I do want all of this, but not in this way. He made me look like a goddamn bitch.
Fuck.
That damn bastard.
Chuckling cynically, picking up the check, I tore it openly with a furious roar escaping my lips.
I'm gonna curse his penis can't hard to anyone, and he will die of his rusty penis so the mourners will laugh instead of mourning over his grave.
I swear if I ever see him again, I'll kick his cocky head with my heels.
Goddams fucker.
Two years later"It's lunch time, Mandy. Take a rest." Jane patted my shoulder lightly as she stood beside my chair.I nodded my head, "In a moment. I'll join you later."Jane sighed. "Okay. I'll order your menu first, sounds good?"I looked up, smiled sweetly and threw a peck in the air, Jane snorted in disgust. "You are the best, my dear. Thank you.""I know. Just hurry up and finish it.""Aye aye madam." I replied, returning to focus on the data I had to input.Actually Gabriel had told me when he leave for a while earlier. He said that I had to stop my work and take a break when it was time because he really knew my work habits to the point of skipping breaks. I just nodded in response, which he replied with a ridiculous threat."If you don't take a rest, I won't give you any more work, Mandy. I'll do everything, and you're not gonna take a dollar from me."That ridiculous threat wouldn't have happened because I knew Gabriel could never even order his coffee without me. But, reall
"Amanda,"The call made me, who was confused, flinch at that sound. Jordan was standing from the lobby couch, waving and smiling handsomely at me. I just walked towards him with the same smile, and when I reached him, I immediately hugged my boyfriend, who was returned, with a tight hug. He hugged me back tightly.We haven't seen each other for two weeks because he has to go to Madrid to meet his family, and then he went to India for do his noble work. I really miss Jordan."Did you wait long?" I asked, pulling my head away from Jordan's chest, looking up to see his handsome face.Jordan shook his head, "No, honey. I've only been here for fifteen minutes."I hit his stomach lightly, "It's the same."Jordan chuckled softly, "Okay. Okay." He smiled and stroked my hair. "Then do you want to have dinner? It's to pay for me who's been waiting here for you for so long?" he asked. I nod.Jordan smiled and kissed the top of my head before we leave my office.I met Jordan a year and a half a
"Did you know that RID Miller would be working with our company?" I asked, flip pancakes on pan.Jordan was sitting on the stool pantry, in front of his laptop and drinking his favorite chocolate milk. The habit that he always did in the morning before breakfast. "What? Are you serious?"I nodded, giving him a glance that showed a surprised face. "Yeah, I'm serious. I heard it from my friend who heard it from the Director.""Strange. It's not unusual for Rhysand to use an IT team from another company.""Why?" I asked as I put the pancakes on the plate. I then took some white bread to make sandwiches."Because he has his own programmers—by the way can I eat them?" Jordan asked, his index finger pointing at the two pancakes.I nodded."Well, as far as I know Rhysand prefers to use his own programmers because he doesn't like to be hassle." He continued while putting honey on top of the two pancakes."Couldn't have he just cooperated, right?"Jordan nodded. "Can be."I frowned, arranged t
The hoodie was no longer snug on his head, but of course I could still recognize that he was the man in the cafe before, because the clothes were the same.I was a little surprised looking at his face. What I thought he was handsome like Armie Hammer was different. He was handsome, but much more handsome with black hair, hazel eyes as beautiful as Matthew Daddario, a sharp nose, thick lips and also a body that was one foot taller than me. He is handsome and very beatiful.Sexy and beautiful—which seemed strangely familiar.But..."What are you doing, sir?" I said with a sarcastic call when I came back to my senses.He blinked as well as if he had just woken up, which was the same as me. "Are you Amanda?"I nodded stuttering when I heard his voice which also felt familiar. "Yes. What's wrong? You know me?"That strange man stared at me intently before moving his face forward which made me turn my face back.Disrespectful."If you mean to be rude, remember there are a lot of people here
Jordan hasn't heard from me in a week, and he hasn't replied to my messages at all. I didn't think about continuing to do it, and chose to continue with my life as it should be. I already understood that he was a busy person, and sometimes the cities he visited didn't have a signal. I try to understand that, I also have no right to interfere in his business. I can only pray that he's always protected while doing the noble thing to help the underprivileged. Something that sticks out in my heart is an envy when I see people with their partners, doing normal things and looking happy. I wanted to feel that too, but I realized it was an unreasonable thing to think about. I mean, everyone has their life and happiness. I don't have to envy them, because what God has given me is more than enough. So I stopped complaining and refocused on my work. Jordan would be back, and he had promised to introduce me to his family. He had serious intentions towards me, even though he never touched me.
I paused, staring at him with my heart beating fast. "Sorry, I'm not interested. Thank you." I replied while fighting off the tremors growing in my chest. I started to walk out of the balcony, but his words kept me from doing it. "You remember me, Amanda." It's not a question, it's a statement. Of course he knew that because I was so easy to read. Everyone says the same thing, I'm like an open book in front of anyone. Yes, I'm such a loser. His hazel eyes stared at me intently. A different look from the one Jordan always used when looking at me. He seemed to want to dominate and there was something behind his hazel eyes that made no one want to take their eyes off him. His head tilted like he wanted to strip my mind. I gulped, "Yeah, I remember you. You're an asshole who took my virginity when I was drunk, and so easily left a woman in the morning with a million dollar check, an expensive dress, a note, and treated me like a cheap bitch." I answered at length, unable to cover m
Jordan didn't take me to Madrid like he said before. Apparently. His grandparents had their wedding anniversary party at their home in New York.Thoughts about them not liking me or I am unattractive in their eyes are occupying my brain right now. I could only clench my sweaty hands to vent my anxiety. "Don't be nervous, Amanda. They're good people. I'm sure they'll like you." I gulped and nodded. Choose to gaze at the towering pine trees on both sides of the road.My attention was slightly distracted when I looked at how grand and luxurious this mansion was. This palace is in the upscale BlueStone district of Tarrytown. The number one luxury district in New York. This blue to gray mansion, which is styled like an Urban building in the 20's, caught my interest because it was so beautiful. The grounds were wide and green, dotted with short thick trees and neat lawns, beyond the grounds of this magnificent mansion was the Hudson River shining in the moonlight. I'm guessing that Jord
He can't be Rhysand del Millero. My heart was pounding in my chest, my stomach was churning and I wanted to run now before Bellva called them or Jordan pulled him here. What's in the hell? Why does the universe seem to be pulling him at me by these crazy coincidences? "Hey, are you really okay?" Bellva asked. I blinked consciously, and looked at Bellva. "Can you help me get out of here?" There was a question mark on Bellva's expression but she quickly nodded. We stood up, and then started to walk away from there. "Where do you want to go?" Jordan's question along with their approaching steps made me freeze. Bellva who noticed my movements immediately answered. "I'd like to take her to my room. She wants to see my James Taylor collection." I bit my lip firmly to hold back the turmoil that was in me, and then slowly turned around to face them—Jordan who was standing by his grandfather's side, briefly caught a glimpse of the man behind Jordan who seemed to be holding back his lau
Rhysand. I caressed her face, amazed at how soft her skin was, and how it would still be beautiful even when she fell asleep with her mouth open and her hair messy.I planted a kiss on his forehead, stroking the enlarged belly, containing our two children. Something lit up inside me. Happiness and many more thrilling feelings that make me always kneel in front of her.I kissed her again, kissing her face with light kisses, and biting her cheek which were more chubby than before.Cute.She writhes under me, grunting when her sleep is disturbed. Her hand pushed my face away, I chuckled."Stay away from me, Rhys. I still want to sleep." Her scolding comes back, and butterflies fly in my chest when I feel that this is real. That she was already in my arms and no one would be able to take her away from me. Even her my famlily, and my family.I put my face on her neck, sipping on the skin of her neck, inhaling the scent that will never bore me. "I love you." The words just came out.She sh
Rafaella isn't much different from our dad, I spent the afternoon listening to her talk about how I should divorce him, raise my two kids with them instead of Rhysand, saying that Rhysand was a bad influence on our kids.I never paid any attention to her. Never bothered about her, I never even filled it into my mind. All I did was hear her, and make a face that I didn't care about what she said. She left when she got tired of lecturing me.Rafaella can be a supportive sibling, and so can I, but she can be a bitch sometimes and always brings something up, whatever she does is keep me wrong, and makes me the coward of all. I know that it's in her nature, but now I can't take it anymore. I was just trying to put my real face on, and tell her that I never heard any of the lectures she gave.I never got any support from her, all she did was blame me and say that everything happened because of me. I did feel it was a mistake, that I should have stayed away from Rhysand. But I have never reg
Rhodes, Greece, Two Months Later.Silence.Quiet.Silent.Empty.Empty.I leaned myself on the small green sofa bed on the balcony. Staring at the beautiful scenery in front of me. Beautiful Lindos beach, and some small kayaks that reach almost the middle of the beach. I put my pregnancy book on top of my stomach which was protruding more than it should. I know that because I'm carrying two babies, and Rafaella often looks at my belly in horror. I don't feel bad about it. Pride and happiness seep into my chest. Realizing that I will be a mother soon.On the other hand the emptiness and silence still surrounds my heart. Shadows and hopes for someone to be by my side to be with me, and face this together. I knew that I was too naive, too hopeful that he would come to me, and take me home. That he would do everything for us. But I'm sure he will. I can't deny how crazy he is and how he could do anything for me. I've been in that position before, and I underestimate his love if I dare to
Seven years later.I leaned back in my chair after finishing chatting with business colleagues who happened to stop me and engage me in conversation with so much nonsense.I took a sip of wine, putting my hands in the pockets of my formal trousers, looking at a woman sitting with her family. There were two women with the same face, and I didn't have to bother to tell which was the other and which was the woman I had been obsessed with for the past seven years.Amanda Dimitriou.Yeah, I've fallen that deep for her. There wasn't a day I spent without watching her from afar until I could even recognize her from a hundred meters away. If she only knew what I've done—how many people's blood I've spilled just because of that about her .. would she have run away?Well, of course yes. Do i care? No. The thing Amanda should know is that she can't run away from me when I come to claim her later.I've already made a plan. Did something to her : got her wasted tonight, stole her, and then brought
It's all fun, and feels so fast.Feels hazy, and so satisfying until I wake up in the morning. Sitting myself on the bed of a two hundred thousand dollar hotel room, staring at the messy bed room. Someone messed up this room last night, and I know it was me. Well, I was drunk, which I never do anymore. I have a high tolerance for alcohol, and I never want to make myself vulnerable in a crowd. I would choose to get drunk in my own room, and then face a headache the next day.Exception for tonight. It's like I'm back in my early puberty : high on alcohol, and then finding a different woman every weekend sleeping in the same bed as me. Naked, of course. I've rarely done that, at least I've never done it in a high state and then forgot the safeguard I always use. I wouldn't take such a risk while I was having conscientious sex, and relief washed over me to see the ripped condom packaging on the floor.I believe my hangover came from exhaustion after having fun and exploring five countries
I realized that I was twenty-two years old, and I had graduated from a business school in New York.It's really an extraordinary thing, and on the other hand it's so annoying.I wanted to grow up, to be able to do something wild, to have more power for it, to be free and then to die with satisfaction. On the other hand I realized that I would never be free from anything. There is a great responsibility that is tightly tied around my neck, and there are many hopes that rest on my shoulders.My grandfather from my father side, and my grandfather from my mother side—they all expected me to become the successor to the business empire they had worked so hard to build themselves.I always thought that if I deserved it all, I had enough self-confidence to make it. More than that, I love them, cherish them. Well, even though I hate their children, I love the parents who gave birth to them. Those two middle-aged couples replaced the love that Bellva and I should have received from two selfish
I don't trust other people.They are fickle, prone to errors, and don't know what they are doing often.They are useless, tasteless, and should not pollute the air with their breath. The disdain I have for these people has been ingrained in me ever since I grew up from the small child phase and gradually discovered what the world is all about.I don't believe in the chance system either. People don't get two or three chances with me. One mistake and they're out.Forever.Anyone who crossed the line once would do it again if given the chance. It's the forbidden fruit, the gratification deferred, and the glorification sought. If they get one taste, they will be compelled to taste another.Then another. And one more.Until they are reduced to animals pursuing their basic needs.Giving them the chance to get close to the line, let alone cross it, is the personification of stupidity.My zero-tolerance policy might describe me as cold-blooded and heartless, but it was better than being labe
My blood rushed under my skin when I saw him.And those same green eyes as mine are adrift with me.His expression hardened, and he started walking towards me. I froze, not knowing what to do with his sudden presence."Are you all right, Amanda?"I shook my head.My heartbeat slowed down when my older brother had stopped right in front of me. That familiar musk scent came to my nose. His face hardened, and underneath it was the longing he had for me."Maven.""Amanda..." he said harshly. "You have no idea how much we flustered looking for you? How long we waited to meet you.""I'm fine." I said. I looked at Jade who was looking at us in confusion. "We'll talk for a bit. You don't need to worry, he's my brother."I know Jade already knows, but I just wanted to let her know that so there's no understanding at all. Jade nodded, and then left us.Maven catches the eye, and leads me to the other end of the room. Close to the exit."I'm fine. You don't need to worry, Maven." I gulped. "I'm
Husband and wife.I never thought that I would experience it so quickly. I didn't expect that my status had changed in two days. So short, and fast.A mother and a wife.My heart expands with happiness as I pull off this elaborate dress with Jade's help.He walked into the bedroom, and that was it.. it felt different and not different. He sat on the edge of the bed. He looked at me, with heat in his eyes, and a bright light in them. I drew closer to him. Stop, and stand between his legs. He hugged my waist, kissing my stomach that was under his shirt that I was wearing. I love wearing his t-shirt, I love his signature scent that never goes away, and it always makes me feel comfortable."I should take off your dress, Wife." he said.His other calls made me smile. Happiness exploded in my heart. "The dress is quite beautiful, and expensive. I will not let you mess it, husband."He looked up, his smile bright."Are you happy?" I stroked his face.He nodded. "Very happy."I sat astride hi