Chapter 4
Days come by so quickly when I am dreading it, it feels like the past five days flew by in a blur and suddenly I am on the backstage with my bandmate- If we are even considered one.
The songs that we had rehearse for tonight were mainly Kacy Musgraves and Lady Antebellum.Ethan, Brandy, Jack, and Oliver were the only guys that I find myself comfortable with besides Bibi and Mr Young , solely because we were in sort of a band and Mr Young is my landlord. But the stares and the gawking that I've been receiving tonight creeps my skin out, it makes me uneasy and the urge to vomit overwhelmed my senses.
“Are you okay? You look like you just swallowed a watermelon” Jack placed reassuring hands on my shoulder, I jumped a little.
“What!? Watermelon? Have you seen people swallowing a watermelon? That sound weird”
“Exactly, loosened up and whenever you think of puking, imagine me swallowing a watermelon” I laughed a little at the mental image he was providing me.
“Good, now we are ready to go” And the nerves came rushing back in full waves, riding my common sense and almost knocking me over. Before I could comprehend the situation, Ethan dragged me towards the small stage and I tried not to look over the audience that stood before us. My eyes are glued on the floor, I wish the ground could swallow me up.
And then Ethan starts playing the familiar tune of Golden hour and my feet tapped unconsciously, When the slow beats dropped, I let my voice and instinct took over me, my shaky hands grabbed hold of the mic and I closed my hands listening to the lyrics that flow out out of my lips and then the audience disappeared and all I could do was indulge into the song, the music and my mind telling me that - Mom I did this, Dad I am singing right now.
It was so easy to lose myself in music. By the time I was starting to loosen up and dared to look down at the audience,I saw him. Mr Young among the crowd looked as handsome as ever under the faint blinking lights of the club and a smile tugging at his lips. Suddenly, My small flimsy black dress was of no protection under his stare, I felt so naked and opened. He saw me singing and I cared more about what he thought than the fifty other audience members who were watching me. I wanted to sing well and impressed him.
When Jack and Ethan started playing ‘Bartender’ by Lady Antebellum, I did a little spin and walked towards Jack, and danced with him a little, smiling and singing like I had done a hundred times. The audience cheered along with us as the song was upbeat than those previous ones,
🎶Now there's only one thing left for me to do,
Slip on my favourite dress and sky high leather boots
Check the mirror one last time
And kissed the past goodbye
What I’m really needing now
Is a double shot of crown
Chase that disco ball around
‘Til I don't remember
Go until they cut me off
Wanna get a little lost in the noise,in the lights
Hey Bartender pour’em hot tonight
Till the party and the music and the truth collide
Bring it ‘til his memory fades away
Hey Bartender 🎶
*****
“Yay!” We clinked the cups of beers and the biggest grin was spotted on our faces after the whole ordeal of singing on the stage for the first time. My body and senses are high on adrenaline with the way the crowds seemed to love and applaud for our performance, it was terrifying but in a good way.
“Chloe, you were amazing back there. Your voice is angelic” The guys nodded their head at Ethan's compliment. Hearing about my voice was something I found it hard to swallow specifically because I felt naked and so raw, but I smiled and complimented them the same way. It was the first success and we got to share a 200 dollar bill each for the first gig among the members. We were grinning and the notes are safely tucked in our pockets and pouch,
“My God, this is the first money that I earned!” They laughed at my shrieking and I lunged at Ethan, Squeezing his neck a little too tight for his liking.
“Come on, Group hug!” Jack was the one who yelled, before my small body was ambushed by the three other strong boys.
“This is one of my best nights, guys. It's all thanks to you”
“Will you tell your parents?” Jack asked, the smile never wavering from his face. Words got stuck in my throat, they didn't have any knowledge of my parents but it doesn't hurt to say the truth so I just answered him plainly.
“They would be...If they were alive”
There was silence, as if they had never encountered someone without a parent.
“Anyway, Come on, let's take a picture” Seemingly thankful for the change of topic, the conversations continued normally and when the night struck at 10,we called it quits. Ethan dropped me by the front of the building and drove away after he waited for me to enter the building safely.
“Chloe” My feet halted when Mr Young stepped out of his apartment. I turned to look at him, he was in his silk pajamas and his hair fell over his face,covering his honey eye.
“Are you awake? I am sorry, did I wake you up?”
I didn't miss the way his eyes lingered on my dress in a subtle way, my skin burnt under his stare.
“I was waiting for you” Only when he spoke did I realise he was drunk, the smell of whiskey fanned over my nose when he took a step towards me. We were standing so close to each other that I could feel the heat and warmth from his body.
“You were so amazing today,Chloe. You sang like an Angel” I nodded, my heart going off radar from the proximity of our body.
“Thank you for coming”
There was a thud and suddenly Damien was leaning into my body, his face in between the crook of neck, there was a tingling sensation on my skin when warm produced from his breathing.
“Mr Young?..” I called out and shook him a little but to no avail he fell asleep in the hallways.
I dragged his heavy body across his living room and towards his bedroom, his sheets and pillow smelled of fresh soap and conditioner, I swoon mentally.
I took his socks off and tucked him to his bed, and stared at his flawless skin and unkempt hair that covers his closed eyes. His pink lips glistened under the soft light of the lampstand, My lips itchy to touch,feel and get a taste of his plump lips.
But before I let my urge win over me, I stroked his hair and left him, carrying Bibi with me so that I could sleep with him instead of my hot teacher.
Chapter 5“Mr Young, How are you feeling? You were so wasted last night” Breakfast was rather awkward with Mr Young constantly sighing and by all means trying to avoid having eye contact with me.“Bibi,Why is daddy ignoring us?” He choked on his soup and stared at me wide-eyed.“Oh my God, Are you Okay?” I passed him the tissues which he took from my outstretched hand and wiped the mess he created.My attention shifted back to Bibi who was trying to sneak a toast from my plate.“Bibi table manners!” I exclaimed in horror.“Here, have some water” I passed the glass full of water to Mr Young whose face is red like a tomato.“I think you should stop drinking, Whiskey is not good for your health Mr young”&ldq
Chapter 6“Hey, Are you free tonight?” I grunted a response and chewed on the fresh slice of apple from the bowl.“Is that a yes or no?” Ethan asked from the other side of the end.“I think I am busy tonight,” I said with a sigh . I heard him scoff and a sigh of irritation.“Please tell me you have friends, What are you doing the whole weekend except sleep and read!?” He asked, sounding incredulous like sleeping was a bad thing.“What’s so bad about staying in my comfort zone? I like my life the way it is” I argued hoping he would stop asking me to spend my
Chapter 7The worst part of being an orphan is when you suddenly feel sick and there would be nobody to take care of you, no one to nurse you, check your temperature and make you soup. Thirteen years of being an orphan, and I should get used to this type of circumstances but as I walked up to the receptionist, grimacing because the movement worsened the pain on my lower right abdomen, I felt so lost and envied the people who had a family to take care of them.Twenty minutes passed, The nausea returned but I took a breath and waited for Dr Michael to call me. Ethan's text distracted me from my distressed condition, I rolled my eyes at his dramatic text asking me Why I wasn't at school and another ping of a mochi with an arrow in the heart.“Miss Green? Dr Mi
Chapter 8“Is She awake? How long does it take for a normal human to wake up after a surgery?”“Mr Young, it is only three hours.Why don't you rest and maybe sleep a bit? Please stop asking me the same question every ten minutes.”“But What if she stop breathing while she is-”“I’ll see you later.” With that, I heard a door slamming followed by Mr Young's cursing.Silence engulfed the air after Dr Michael left the room, I groaned and peek my eyes open. Mr Young's worried face is the first thing that came into my view, his iron shirt has creased all over and for once his hair is no
Chapter 9Mr Young walked ahead of me carrying the bags of groceries and medicine bags that we brought on our way earlier. My twenty-five years old landlord greeted our cat and rubbed his fur gently, which is a sight to behold. Mr Young and my beloved son together was something I didn't want to change. I knew whatever we had right was nothing permanent but I could allow myself to enjoy the moment which was what I always did.“Meet your mama, Bibi.” Mr Young announced. I chortled and moseyed my way towards them taking Bibi from him.“I was planning to murder you if he went dissapearing.” I teased with a serious face.
Chapter 10I walked into detention that following afternoon. While Mr Young might have been unhappy with me for disrupting his classes, Why was I the only one who got detention and not Ethan who was the main culprit?It wasn't fair, My first detention had to be given by my favourite teacher!I settled on the farthest corner of the classroom because Lord knows Mr Young's close proximity is something I couldn't handle. He appeared three minutes later after I had settled on the chair comfortably.I put on my earphones and pretended to get lost in the music and started doing my homework, failing miserably. I could feel his eyes on me and I looked up.“Why are you sitting there? It’s just the two of
Chapter 11Come morning, the humiliation I felt was still fresh and I cringed every time I recalled how rudely I was rejected by Mr Young. Literature class is just a step away and with a last minute decision, I texted Ethan and pivoted my heels towards the opposite direction of the literature class. I knew I was being a coward, an oddball but getting rejected does that to you. Don't try this at home.Ethan appeared five minutes later, he was grinning with mischief like cutting classes were the most adventurous thing I had ever done.“Wow! Miss Green cutting classes!?” he exclaimed mockingly.“Don’t make me regret this. I
Chapter 12My breath caught in my throat with Mr Young's words, the way he was staring into my soul like we were feeling and experiencing the same emotions making my knees buckled and my resolve weakening, I was sure that he felt the same thing until some emotions crossed over his face and then he step back, putting a decent distance between us.And I knew that whatever moment we had a few seconds ago was buried under his pretense of nothingness, like he hadn't just told me that I made him crazy. But crazy in what sense? He's making me crazy too.“Get back to your class” he dismisses, without looking at me.“Mr Young” He looked up, the look on his face showed despair and anger. It made me
Epilogue 5 years later I made my way towards the big flat where my best friend lives with his many girlfriends. I am almost scared of walking into his expensive suite because I haven't had any good experience before since Ethan is a manwhore. At twenty three, he slept with several girls every week and often made them run away crying when he refused to see them for the second time. Today, though it felt different, there were no girls, instead the whole band was present. Blissful music with Ethan, Oliver, Jack, Brandy and Sebastian are now one of the most famous boy bands in the city. I hardly see them because they are always on tour. The only person who always called me daily is Ethan because he liked to annoy me. &n
Chapter 34Sebastian and I had the best dinner. Our date first started off with good food which was quite satisfying. He's one of the best guys from our school. Proper and polite, never saying things that would offend someone. He's the best boyfriend one could ever wish for but he's not for me. Here's why: The moment he drives away from my apartment, all I want to do is run back and cancel our date, Mr Young solely the reason. I kept on picturing his sad, teary face. I couldn't focus on the date.“I had a great time tonight Sebastian. Thanks for taking me out” I unbuckled my seatbelt, and opened the car door.“My pleasure. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I do” he says.&ldq
Chapter 33“You look gorgeous Chloe. Sebastian won't be able to take his eyes off you” I blush at the compliment. Grace is in my apartment and she's helping me get ready for my date with Sebastian. Turns out that Grace is a fun person to hang out with. She's a cat person like me, she loves reading and thinks Mr Young is hot. We have a lot in common.“It feels weird though. I mean Sebastian is my friend” I told her honestly.“He’s not asking you to be his girlfriend. It's just a date, Chloe. If you think that you can't like him after today, you can just end it”“Can I ask you something?” I asked, turning fully towards her. Her brown eyes lit up i
Chapter 32“Chloe.. ” It is like that one word breaks the trance that I’m in . He stood up from his sitting position.I run towards him, feeling as if he would disappear if I don't feel him. He stumbled back from the force, I buried my face into his chest. I don't care that he loves Alessa, he can't just forget me.“Chloe, I am sorry”“Do you remember me now?” I asked, tilting my head to see his face. He looked down at me with the sadness expression. My lungs are so heavy, It felt as though I couldn't breathe.“I never forgot you,” I laughed, happy that he remembered m
Chapter 31”Ethan! Slow down” I begged,my breath coming out in a heavy gasp. He rolled his eyes but did what I said.“Move faster lady. We need to get there before your boyfriend runs off with his girlfriend to the countryside” I glared at the back of his head. For some reason, Ethan thought that running in the morning would do me good, mentally but so far he's not right. I don't feel any better.Also he Says that I should start seducing Mr Young, which I find it to be ridiculous but he's adamant. He even made me wear mascara and lipstick and forced me to style my hair. I was secretly glad that he's being such a good friend by helping me out.When I reached my place, I took a cold shower and threw myself on the bed. Since it's the weekend I decided to work on the lyrics that I've been writing since last week. I opened my laptop and found a new email on
Chapter 30There was a loud knock on my door but I ignored it. I couldn't recall how long I've been locked away in the confines of my room nor did I care. My stomach grumbles with hunger almost to the point of hurting but I welcome it. The pain on my stomach is nothing compared to pain in my chest, Damien might as well tear my heart into bits with his bare hands. What went wrong with us? Why is he not talking with me!? The more I think about it, the more I’m mad at him for treating me this way. The least he could do is explain what happened.I sat up feeling mad and hungry, I knew I would regret it later but my fingers are already stroking the keyboard, typing out my frustrations and the words that I've been meaning to write ever since I woke up. I typed out all the crappy lyrics pouring out of my soul and crying oc
Chapter 29I couldn't stop the shaking no matter how hard I tried not to, so I stood up abruptly making every head snap up to me. I cringed.“May I use the restroom?” I asked, looking down at my feet.“Raise your head up if you are talking to a teacher. It's disrespectful to look down” Came his hard, all too familiar voice. I may have look so weird with my behavior, I wished I had looked up on the internet and Google on 'how to behave in front of your ex-boyfriend who came back after he disappeared for two months' His voice held no emotion or any indication that he missed me, Of course, I’m crazy for even thinking about this.“You may go” he says fina
Chapter 28“Aunt, I'll be fine. Just be safe on your way back” I reassured her the upmteenth time this morning. Aunt Shirley refuses to let me live alone and as much I love being taken care of, I missed living by myself. And as for Mark, he left last week because he needed to go back home. I smiled thinking of how close we had gotten this past few months. I had returned to school just two weeks ago and people who I didn't even talk to before started talking, wishing me happiness and good wishes as if I had come back from the dead. It's exactly a month and fifteen days after the accident, but my mind is still on that day with him.“Honey, I'll be coming back if you don't pick up my calls” I laughed and pulled her into a warm hug not wanting to depart yet. If the accident taught me one thing, it's th
Chapter 27Beep. Beep. Beep.Monday morning is always the worst day to wake up. I hate that I have school in thirty minutes yet I can't seem to find the energy and the will to wake up and make breakfast for myself.I felt like I could hear Bibi meowing beside me but then when I listened to it more closely, it seemed to be sniffing and hiccuping. I wanted to open my eyes but I found that opening my eyes requires a lot of effort and energy. So, I settled comfortably on my pillow and decided to head back to sleep.It is a lovely dream. I saw my parents and I, playing around the park with my small puppy which my daddy brought me for my birthday. We were so happy, with dad and mom laughing while they wa