Happiness and contentment had similar meanings for me. They all started with family.It's so hard to find happiness. I've been looking for happiness for the last four years.But today, I can say I found it.The smiling faces in front of me made me believe in this theory. It made me think that the universe has a plan, if it snatches something from you, it is bound to return to you in some or the other way."What do you think, my child?", Mama asked me and I couldn't help but laugh mentally at how cute all of them were."You're not wrong, Mama.", I shook my head, as much as I wanted to stay with them more. The medicines were taking the best of me. I needed sleep but I wanted to stay here and talk to them."Come on, everyone. Out, now.", my sleepy eyes shot open when I saw Nicolas kicking Aiden and Evans out. Both of them looked at each other and then whispered something to him who in return punched their shoulders pushing them out.I wanted to stop them but they already left smirking al
I never thought I'd say something like that but today I can't help myself but say, Nicolas Arnold was the most thoughtful and understanding person I'd ever met in my life.After that little conversation we had in my bathroom, he told me to freshen up and come outside and when I did, I was left stunned. He and Kia were cooking something."... our Ari is a little upset today, we need to lighten her mood.", I heard him say when I stepped near the kitchen.Our?I don't know but that single world made me grow all warm.I glanced at him who had an apron on over his clothes, his eyes fixed on the stove as if he looked away for even a second, he'll screw up the whole food. Kia was troubling him by putting ingredients here and there or on his face.And in return, he'd just scowl at her. He never shouted at her."Isn't my Nicky uncle a perfect hubby material, Ari?", Kia's words rang in my ears and I couldn't help but agree with it.He was indeed perfect in every possible sense.As if he knew so
Have you ever lost something? If you have, you know what it's like, the hollowness, the constant reminder of not having that particular thing.But what if someday you find it again, there'd be the rush of joy, and the thrill of an ending, and relief that it was all over.Nicolas and his family made me go through that rush of joy and thrill of happiness.I can swear on my life, after Mumma left, this week was the best week of my life. I felt like I was the only one. Nicolas treated me like I was a queen and Mama as if I was a princess. It felt so strange, I was not her daughter, hell she hardly knew me then too she made me feel like I was one of the most important part of her life.I had the time of my life, during the daytime I'd enjoy myself with Mama. Shops, parks, movies with Mama, all of that. But at night I'd be waiting for him. In the middle of the night, he'd come and I'd get the thrill of my life like I knew it was going to happen ever since I was a little kid.I changed my di
The next morning when I woke up I felt light as if a lot of weight had been lifted off my shoulders, I could not describe the feeling I experienced when I saw his head resting against the headboard just like last time but this time my head was in his lap. My hand was still in his hand and his fingers were still on my hair. I felt so cosy as if all my fears evaporated right then and there.I cautiously got up from my bed and went to the bathroom. I washed my face and brushed my teeth with a careful hand. I did not want to wake him up, I'd once again spoiled his night. He was too generous to be real.As I made my way to the kitchen, the balloons made me remember last night and Kia's hurt face. I sighed as I sat at my dinner table with my head down. The next moment I felt a hand on my head. I was about to jump up from my seat when I saw it was Mama. She gently took my hand pulling me towards the couch."Come sit with me, dear." I felt so safe with her. Just being with her made me feel c
Every year since that night, I dreaded my birthday. For the past four birthdays, all I did was cry on being alive for one more year. Her screams, how my ex-best friend shoved her down the stairs, how I held her lifeless body in my arms were the only things that would revolve in my brain.My Mumma always told me whatever I wish for on my birthday would come true, and every f*cking birthday I wished for death. I had been waiting for death for the past four birthdays. Her screams haunted me every time I closed my eyes and I just wanted to bring all this misery to end.But for the first time, I didn't wish for death. Rather I thanked God.I thanked God for not fulfilling my wish for the past years. I thanked God for keeping me going, for keeping me alive.And for sending Nicolas in my screwed up life.He was the first person who didn't question me but stood by my side without any condition or expectation. The first person who made his way into my life without making me a prisoner. The fi
I never thought my twenty-fifth birthday would be so beautiful. I felt like God had showered all the happiness on me within a single day. I just couldn't stop smiling. My smile never stopped, even as I went to sleep.After we came from the orphanage, I couldn't stop smiling and ranting about how those precious kids made me feel. During the whole ride, I kept on speaking and appreciating their gestures and my lips always curl in a smile whenever I think of how Nicolas without saying a word kept on listening to me for the whole journey.To be frank, If I were in his shoes, I'd have snapped at myself but bless the man, he didn't stop me even for a second.When we reached his penthouse, I, first of all, apologized to Kia and everyone. But again, bless their precious souls they hugged me without a word.Once again I couldn't help but thank God for sending such people into my life.And I'd be lying if I say I've not been keeping happy since that day.Actually, more than I should.Every day
Valentine's was one of the biggest events in NYC.Love is in the air wasn't a figurative statement. It was a literal one when it came to NYC.The air had a sweet smell and a hint of romance. People were celebrating love in every way.And seeing all these people so happy and in love, made my feelings for a specific man go out of control. Nicolas Arnold, curse that man, he was making it more difficult. He'd been avoiding me a lot for the last two days and that was really irritating me but again I didn't confront him.I loved him, he had feelings for me but damn us, we both were scared to confess. The longer we avoided the truth, the more restlessness my mind and heart felt.I looked at Evans and Tara, the couple of the house, their smile and happiness made my heart sing. Evans was beaming, apparently, he had asked Tara for her hand in marriage in the morning and she said yes.I was genuinely happy for them. The way Evans looked at Tara was enough to make it clear how much he loved her.
My head felt like it'd burst with the pain I was experiencing when I woke up the next morning. I tried to remember what I'd done last night and when I remembered it, my head spun again."Yes, you scoundrel, I have fallen for you too and as much as I want to kiss you, I don't know how to."What the hell did I say? Someone tell me, I didn't say that. I didn't say any thing! Oh Bloody hell! What did I f*cking do?I held my head in my hands trying to think what the hell actually happened. I couldn't think, no matter how hard I tried.I'm f*cking dying, aren't I?Oh, God! Did I really confess my feelings to him? God! What must he think of me now? I bet he is horrified!No. No. No. Think more, Ari!I strained my brain as hard as I could, trying to think of something that I hadn't screwed up! I couldn't think of anything. I felt like I was going to faint.All my brain could muster up was how Sienna made me drink, then we cheered and then... blank, every-f*cking-thing blank followed by the se