Lyra
As I run back home with tears streaming down my eyes, the image I just saw won’t leave my mind. I knew this was happening. That’s the worst part. Deep down, I knew that Eli was cheating on me. I just ignored all the damn signs.
It’s hope. Hope that made me believe that Eli loved me. Hope that we will have a beautiful future. Hope that my life will be filled with joy. Hope is what blinded me to the reality of what was really happening.
I’m humiliated. If I could see it, then surely the entire pack knows! My mind goes through the list of my friends and I wonder how many of them knew as I storm into our home. How many people knew that my mate has been sleeping with my best friend?
“Lyra! Stop!” Eli shouts, but I don’t want to listen to a word he has to say. I’m done being told that I am imagining things. I’m done thinking that I’m going crazy. I felt that something was wrong and went to talk to the person I thought was my friend, only to find my husband between her legs!
“LYRA!” Eli growls and I whip around. Any hold he had over me up to that point has completely disappeared. I see fear in his eyes as I stare him down for a moment.
“There is no way in hell you are going to convince me that it was not what it looked like!” I shout before whipping right back around and storming up the stairs. I lock the bedroom door and pace back and forth trying to figure out what I’m going to do.
I’m nauseous. I’m physically ill as I think about all the years that I actually shared my husband with someone else! I think about those first days when I first met him and how head over heels in love I was. It doesn’t stop the nausea! He was seeing her way back then, and they never stopped!
I’ve spent the past four years living a lie. I’ve done everything possible to fit into a world that I was never really a part of. It is shocking to realize that I convinced myself that Eli loved me. It’s earth-shattering to realize that he introduced me to the woman I believed was my best friend.
The very same woman who is his mistress! I stop pacing and sit down on the edge of our bed. I don’t have anywhere else to go. Where do I go? If I leave Eli … How do I even begin to start over? How do I live a normal human life now that I know that werewolves are real?
I see the little black number almost winking at me from my closet. I bought it almost a year ago and never had the guts to wear it. As I pull it from my cupboard, I decide the time has finally come. I miss the girl I was just four short years ago.
I know I will never be able to capture my youth or whatever, but I’m definitely going to capture something tonight. I need to get away from our home. I need to get away from this world, and I need to just let loose for the first time in a long time.
Most importantly, I want to just drown out everything that now made such horrific sense! I put on the dress after a quick shower and make sure my make-up and hair are perfect before I make my way down the stairs. Eli looks shocked the moment he sees me and I have to fight the smile that threatens to form.
“Where the hell are you going dressed like that?” Eli growls, and I see the jealousy burn in his eyes. Where the hell was that jealousy while he was f@cking another woman?!
“Out!” I glare at him. I turned into a prude the moment we got married because he was so damn jealous. I freely admit that, but it is because he used to just growl for no reason when we were first going out. I changed into a prude for him. I did that because I was young and stupid and thought that I was making his life easier.
“Lyra, we have to talk.” He grips my arm just as I slide into the back of the black SUV and I glare at him for a moment before he removes his hand. Eli has never harmed me physically. He might have broken my heart, but he has never hurt me physically.
“There is nothing left to talk about. You can’t tell me that it’s not what I think it is because she already said that you two have been seeing each other right from the start.” I spit the words at him and am a little surprised when he cringes away.
He moves back far enough for just long enough that I can close the door right in his face and I tell the driver to leave. I can see he is uncomfortable with the order, but he drives off while I dab away the tears that are threatening to fall.
After we drive around the human town for a while, I ask him to pull over, and I get out in front of one of the many stores on the main street. The human town isn’t a big city. Honestly, I’m not even sure why I got all dressed up for the club when there is no club around.
As I walk down the sidewalk, I notice Eli’s guards just a few steps behind me, and I know people are going to notice. The human town is the only neutral territory in our region. It is the only place where werewolves have to behave.
Under the circumstances … Where else am I going to go? I notice the pub at the end of the block and decide that I need a drink. As soon as I walk in, all eyes turn on me, and I’m slightly glad that I have my guards.
I haven’t been in the human town on my own for a while and I don’t feel like I’m really one of them anymore. I find a seat and a young waitress appears to take my order. After my fourth drink, one of the guards appears beside me to tell me that it’s time to go home, but my look forces him to step back.
Lyra“Is that guy bothering you?” A very sexy manly man appears in front of me with an incredibly sexy voice and a dreamy smile. Damn! My hormones are going to get me into trouble! I take in his look. His very tight black t-shirt that leaves very little to the imagination and his washed-out jeans.“No. I can handle him.” I flash him my sexiest smile and instantly regret it. Having to remind myself that I’m married. But am I? Really? I mean, Eli has been schtupping my fake best friend from before we were married!“May I join you? He isn’t your husband or boyfriend or anything, is he?” The Greek god sits down and doesn’t wait for me to answer. He just oozes sex appeal, and it is almost as if it is something I’ve been needing, and I never even realized.“So? What is a beautiful girl like you doing in a dump like this?” He smiles before taking a sip of his beer while I study him for a moment.“Does that line ever work?” I burst out laughing and see a smile I haven’t seen from a guy in man
Lyra“I’m not leaving. Your little temper tantrum has gone far enough, and we are going to sort this out.” Eli grips my upper arm and almost drags me to our room. He opens the shower without letting go of me and shoves me under the cold water without giving me the opportunity to get undressed.I’m honestly too tired to fight him. The water warms up, and I slowly strip out of my soaked dress while he stands beside the shower growling and shifting from one foot to the other. I know why he just did what he did. His wolf senses are far stronger than my human ones.He can smell what I did. If his guards didn’t tell him, he could smell it from the moment I got out of the car. That was the intention. Once I’m done, I get out and he hands me a towel. I glare at him as I move around our room and get dressed.Only when I’m completely dressed, do I turn to glare at him. With my arms crossed tightly over my chest, I push down the guilt that I feel for what I’ve done. I might have had a one-night
LyraSadly, faking it until we make it situation doesn’t work and, after two weeks of being completely disgusted, whenever Eli tries to touch me and my mind continuously reminds me that another man touched me with more love than I have ever felt, I snap.I tried to work things out, but my guilt is overwhelming. Eli had an affair the entire time we were together. I keep wondering if she satisfied him more than I did. I keep wondering if they tried the things we have been doing or if they were more adventurous.I also think about those hands that slipped over my skin and touched me in ways I never imagined possible. I don’t even know his name, but it doesn’t matter. He showed me something. He showed me more truth than Eli ever gave me.He showed me what love should look like, even if it was just a one-night stand. He showed me what making love should feel like. After yet another failure in trying to be intimate with Eli, I can’t help myself and bring up the marriage contract.“I can’t d
LyraIt feels weird to be back in my human world. After the life I’ve led with the werewolves, it’s almost impossible to imagine living a normal human life now. I make my way down the main street and look for any possible signs that someone might have a job for me.I have lived the high life thanks to Eli, but after what he did, I am willing to take anything just to start my new life with. I see a “Help wanted” sign in an antique store and almost rush inside. A bell rings the moment I open the door.“Oh, hello, dear. Just let me know if there is anything you might be interested in.” A friendly old woman smiles from behind a counter.“I actually want to ask about the help wanted sign.” My voice waivers as I fight back the tears. There are a lot of things I didn’t think about when I decided to leave Eli. Those very same things are now completely overwhelming me.“Oh, yes! Do you want to apply?” She gets up and starts to look through a huge pile of papers on a desk behind her.“Yes, plea
Lyra“Lyra.” I struggle to find my voice as I take his hand and shake it. I fully expect him to disappear, but he isn’t moving. “I have to get back to work.” I push past him and rush away. There is just too much to think about. I don’t take his number, which is stupid.“What did the doctor say?” Mrs. Duncan smiles when I walk into the store and shock runs through my body. How on earth am I going to raise this baby on my own?! Tears instantly start to run as I rush into the back.I hear the bell from the door ring and almost breathe a sigh of relief. Mrs. Duncan will be busy with the customer and I will have just a moment to recover. I try to wipe my eyes, but the tears just keep coming.“Lyra, dear. There is someone here to see you.” Her voice is filled with amusement and I nearly jump at the sound of it. I whip around, and my eyes meet his. Silas. How did he … He must have followed me.“You didn’t look good, and you nearly fell, so I thought I would just come and check if you were ok
LyraAfter work, I decide to risk it and take a walk in the forest. The air is so crisp and clear, and it feels as if the colours are brighter. It has to be the hormones! It feels so good to be right there in the thick of nature. It feels right. It feels like home.I sigh. The forest was never really my home. I only feel this way because I spent so many years with the werewolves. Now I’m pregnant with a human child from a man that doesn’t even know and doesn’t look like he might want the responsibility.I told Mrs. Duncan that I was pregnant when I returned to work earlier. She was shocked, but she was really kind about it. Thankfully, she said that my job would be safe. I can’t see myself raising this baby without having a job.For the first time in a long time, I’m grateful I don’t have one of those high executive jobs in the city. In our small-town, things move slower, and I can give my baby what he or she needs. Financially and emotionally. At least, that is the hope.My thoughts
SilasI have never fallen for anyone. Never! Not this fast and this hard. She is absolutely mesmerizing, and I’ve only seen her twice. We aren’t destined mates or anything, but there is something … I could have sworn I heard … I shake my head as we drive out of the human town.I have tried to get some information about her, but it’s difficult to make inquiries about humans these days. Thanks to the world now believing in werewolves, we have to be more careful than ever. Fictional stories have given humans some idea of what and who we are, but also a lot of them are just make-believe.Some of them want to be us, and others want to dissect us. My mind drifts to the most beautiful woman in the world, and as I play our conversation through my mind, I realize something that makes me want to just protect her the way a wolf would protect their destined mate.Something in her look told me something deep inside of her is broken. I can only assume that her soon-to-be ex is the one who broke it.
LyraIt takes the old lady in the library a couple of minutes and some moving about, but after half an hour, she confirms it. The file is indeed mine. Or my information. She wasn’t very happy to find out that I took it out of the library.She is, however, kind enough to make me a copy and as I make my way back to the store, I feel lost. I have found out the one thing that has always been bugging me, but I feel more lost than I have ever felt before.The librarian was sure that the letter in the folder was from my mother, but after all the disappointment in my life, I’m still not sure if I should believe it. I tell Mrs. Duncan everything I found out in the hope that it would make it feel more real, but it doesn’t.For the next four days, I go back and forth on whether it is true and finally, I settle on that it is. I also believe that it is because of this that Eli never told me. He probably thought he was protecting me. Eli wasn’t a bad husband.He was always kind and loving. Well, mo
LyraIt takes the old lady in the library a couple of minutes and some moving about, but after half an hour, she confirms it. The file is indeed mine. Or my information. She wasn’t very happy to find out that I took it out of the library.She is, however, kind enough to make me a copy and as I make my way back to the store, I feel lost. I have found out the one thing that has always been bugging me, but I feel more lost than I have ever felt before.The librarian was sure that the letter in the folder was from my mother, but after all the disappointment in my life, I’m still not sure if I should believe it. I tell Mrs. Duncan everything I found out in the hope that it would make it feel more real, but it doesn’t.For the next four days, I go back and forth on whether it is true and finally, I settle on that it is. I also believe that it is because of this that Eli never told me. He probably thought he was protecting me. Eli wasn’t a bad husband.He was always kind and loving. Well, mo
SilasI have never fallen for anyone. Never! Not this fast and this hard. She is absolutely mesmerizing, and I’ve only seen her twice. We aren’t destined mates or anything, but there is something … I could have sworn I heard … I shake my head as we drive out of the human town.I have tried to get some information about her, but it’s difficult to make inquiries about humans these days. Thanks to the world now believing in werewolves, we have to be more careful than ever. Fictional stories have given humans some idea of what and who we are, but also a lot of them are just make-believe.Some of them want to be us, and others want to dissect us. My mind drifts to the most beautiful woman in the world, and as I play our conversation through my mind, I realize something that makes me want to just protect her the way a wolf would protect their destined mate.Something in her look told me something deep inside of her is broken. I can only assume that her soon-to-be ex is the one who broke it.
LyraAfter work, I decide to risk it and take a walk in the forest. The air is so crisp and clear, and it feels as if the colours are brighter. It has to be the hormones! It feels so good to be right there in the thick of nature. It feels right. It feels like home.I sigh. The forest was never really my home. I only feel this way because I spent so many years with the werewolves. Now I’m pregnant with a human child from a man that doesn’t even know and doesn’t look like he might want the responsibility.I told Mrs. Duncan that I was pregnant when I returned to work earlier. She was shocked, but she was really kind about it. Thankfully, she said that my job would be safe. I can’t see myself raising this baby without having a job.For the first time in a long time, I’m grateful I don’t have one of those high executive jobs in the city. In our small-town, things move slower, and I can give my baby what he or she needs. Financially and emotionally. At least, that is the hope.My thoughts
Lyra“Lyra.” I struggle to find my voice as I take his hand and shake it. I fully expect him to disappear, but he isn’t moving. “I have to get back to work.” I push past him and rush away. There is just too much to think about. I don’t take his number, which is stupid.“What did the doctor say?” Mrs. Duncan smiles when I walk into the store and shock runs through my body. How on earth am I going to raise this baby on my own?! Tears instantly start to run as I rush into the back.I hear the bell from the door ring and almost breathe a sigh of relief. Mrs. Duncan will be busy with the customer and I will have just a moment to recover. I try to wipe my eyes, but the tears just keep coming.“Lyra, dear. There is someone here to see you.” Her voice is filled with amusement and I nearly jump at the sound of it. I whip around, and my eyes meet his. Silas. How did he … He must have followed me.“You didn’t look good, and you nearly fell, so I thought I would just come and check if you were ok
LyraIt feels weird to be back in my human world. After the life I’ve led with the werewolves, it’s almost impossible to imagine living a normal human life now. I make my way down the main street and look for any possible signs that someone might have a job for me.I have lived the high life thanks to Eli, but after what he did, I am willing to take anything just to start my new life with. I see a “Help wanted” sign in an antique store and almost rush inside. A bell rings the moment I open the door.“Oh, hello, dear. Just let me know if there is anything you might be interested in.” A friendly old woman smiles from behind a counter.“I actually want to ask about the help wanted sign.” My voice waivers as I fight back the tears. There are a lot of things I didn’t think about when I decided to leave Eli. Those very same things are now completely overwhelming me.“Oh, yes! Do you want to apply?” She gets up and starts to look through a huge pile of papers on a desk behind her.“Yes, plea
LyraSadly, faking it until we make it situation doesn’t work and, after two weeks of being completely disgusted, whenever Eli tries to touch me and my mind continuously reminds me that another man touched me with more love than I have ever felt, I snap.I tried to work things out, but my guilt is overwhelming. Eli had an affair the entire time we were together. I keep wondering if she satisfied him more than I did. I keep wondering if they tried the things we have been doing or if they were more adventurous.I also think about those hands that slipped over my skin and touched me in ways I never imagined possible. I don’t even know his name, but it doesn’t matter. He showed me something. He showed me more truth than Eli ever gave me.He showed me what love should look like, even if it was just a one-night stand. He showed me what making love should feel like. After yet another failure in trying to be intimate with Eli, I can’t help myself and bring up the marriage contract.“I can’t d
Lyra“I’m not leaving. Your little temper tantrum has gone far enough, and we are going to sort this out.” Eli grips my upper arm and almost drags me to our room. He opens the shower without letting go of me and shoves me under the cold water without giving me the opportunity to get undressed.I’m honestly too tired to fight him. The water warms up, and I slowly strip out of my soaked dress while he stands beside the shower growling and shifting from one foot to the other. I know why he just did what he did. His wolf senses are far stronger than my human ones.He can smell what I did. If his guards didn’t tell him, he could smell it from the moment I got out of the car. That was the intention. Once I’m done, I get out and he hands me a towel. I glare at him as I move around our room and get dressed.Only when I’m completely dressed, do I turn to glare at him. With my arms crossed tightly over my chest, I push down the guilt that I feel for what I’ve done. I might have had a one-night
Lyra“Is that guy bothering you?” A very sexy manly man appears in front of me with an incredibly sexy voice and a dreamy smile. Damn! My hormones are going to get me into trouble! I take in his look. His very tight black t-shirt that leaves very little to the imagination and his washed-out jeans.“No. I can handle him.” I flash him my sexiest smile and instantly regret it. Having to remind myself that I’m married. But am I? Really? I mean, Eli has been schtupping my fake best friend from before we were married!“May I join you? He isn’t your husband or boyfriend or anything, is he?” The Greek god sits down and doesn’t wait for me to answer. He just oozes sex appeal, and it is almost as if it is something I’ve been needing, and I never even realized.“So? What is a beautiful girl like you doing in a dump like this?” He smiles before taking a sip of his beer while I study him for a moment.“Does that line ever work?” I burst out laughing and see a smile I haven’t seen from a guy in man
LyraAs I run back home with tears streaming down my eyes, the image I just saw won’t leave my mind. I knew this was happening. That’s the worst part. Deep down, I knew that Eli was cheating on me. I just ignored all the damn signs.It’s hope. Hope that made me believe that Eli loved me. Hope that we will have a beautiful future. Hope that my life will be filled with joy. Hope is what blinded me to the reality of what was really happening.I’m humiliated. If I could see it, then surely the entire pack knows! My mind goes through the list of my friends and I wonder how many of them knew as I storm into our home. How many people knew that my mate has been sleeping with my best friend?“Lyra! Stop!” Eli shouts, but I don’t want to listen to a word he has to say. I’m done being told that I am imagining things. I’m done thinking that I’m going crazy. I felt that something was wrong and went to talk to the person I thought was my friend, only to find my husband between her legs!“LYRA!” Eli