"Atone?" He questioned mockingly at the word I had used.I ran my hands through my hair as I yanked it into a doughnut. Ramanov took three long breaths through his nose, his mouth still clamped together in anger, he forced his jaw to relax and rubbed his tongue against the roof of his mouth trying to remind himself how he felt when he was at the pathetic look of his life, begging and seeking retribution. His soul yearned for it, it was a deep burn."Just go home and let me be," I said in a low tone. I felt Andrea's rejection in my very bones. I felt a particular kind of pain enter me and crept around my heart and as hatred flooded my body and clouded my eyes I made my decision not to succumb to anything needless.I did not comment, my gaze darted through the half-opened door inside only to see Lola who did not comment and pretended to be sleeping."Didn't you hear me!" "You will freeze to death, come with me, Lucia.""Now see who is caring," I let out a disgusting smirk, "where does
We bragged about the sex, initially, I almost lost hope and decided it was a boy as we were viewing the abdomen but then moving down to the genitals we saw a small opening, it wasn't anything long that looked like a penis, it was then a wide grin formed on my face, "You see I told you it's a girl." Excitement filled the room like we were on a merry. It wouldn't have bothered any of us, as Lola said children are gifts from God and it doesn't matter the gender; boy or girl."The mother already knows the gender so why waste the ultrasound?" She sounded defeated although she was happy, she had agreed with Ramanov because she fancies him if not under normal circumstances she prefers a girl. A girl; would arrange her hair with beads and decorate her room in all pink like the universe.Even though I was about to become a single mum, Jade was busy branching into every doll shop and supermarket getting all the attention she could seek, while I sat on the bench along the walkway with my heavy
Two years had passed and I was living life through thought, but Ramanov had ventured his direction with the Sunju pack, his influence had helped me suffice thus far although I was hollow, "Mummy, where are we going?" I would call her Moon because she brightened the dark shade in my life. After I gave birth to her, Jade was more than happy, it was almost a complicated childbearing because I had starved and deprived myself of vitamins and certain aerobics due to my wallowing in the pain, lost a lot of vitals that we're considered a miracle as I woke after several days.She ran to me, I spent a few minutes throwing her up in the air and making a zoom sound for her, Jade stood there gawking at the both of us, by the time I set him down I was tired and breathing heavily to catch my breath.I looked through the bag for her toy but instead, I picked up a book, Jade let out a loud laugh, it wasn't easy raising the child, first it was the sleepless first there month night with all the crying
"Do we have to?" Ramanov pinched the bridge of his nose. A futile attempt to drive away his looming headache."Yes we do darling," she patted his hand in a motherly fashion before moving out of the packhouse.The incident of me having treated him like a stranger and keeping the truth from him left him broken; my mate, I thought it was easy to spurn a mate bond.He looked through the thick crowd, his hopes vanished fast, the further down the thick pile he went.The locks clicked as she began to scream, shouting my name, I found myself hurrying towards her with all my wits."What happened here?" I asked as I perked around. The pain that swarmed my soul was worse than the physical pain I had experienced consuming every facet of myself until the memories and traits that made me began to drop like water.A second passed and I stood in front of her, she had never felt vulnerable, not that I know.With the slightest nod of my head, the doors were flung open from the stretching that was hamme
"I was at the Greystone house." He said similarly."Did you say Graystone?" I asked almost petrified to my bones starting at jade who was completely clueless as a mull. Gray stone house was close to Moon kindergarten there was no how he would be there without checking up on her."Yes, I said that." He affirmed his jaw let down in awe. When the last thing she thought was to get herself treated we were ahead of her; Jade.Alpha Ramanov want to act, even though there was nothing that could be done. For some reason, Jade raised a hand and waved it off in the air."You shouldn't waste time, let's get off and head out," I said hurriedly.Ramanov splintered but before Jade could catch up with us we were already out of the door.Specks of blame guilt and fear danced within my eyes, I could akin to the both of them only unrelenting fear, I couldn't accept the fact, He smiles pressing his lips together to hide his blood-stained teeth, and the tensed aura we were in."I don't know what to do if
"Hey, I think you guys should come home.""Why are you giving up or you've seen Moon?""The latter." I let out."That's great, we are on our ways but Ramanov just left here angrily, I don't know where he is going but I don't have a good energy about it.""You should call him, he might have gone after him."***"I'm not sure if I would be happy seeing him or not." I let out as I set the table for dinner."It's only natural to fidget but viewing it, Lucia, I know you still love him. Why deny it? I'm a total stranger, little ideas of what you have gone through but the truth can't hide." Jade said patiently in her monotone voice it helped calmed the restlessness, I was agitated and restless today, but no amount of coddling with my pillow could sooth instead I wallow in the kitchen making different delicacies thinking it would help, my store and the way I held the spoons show I was an exhaust fume."Yea, you're right, but he hits me, I don't want my emotions to be toyed with." I was scar
"So what do you plan, now that your mate is here?" Romanov inquired as he held the bowl in his hands sitting on the sofa and staring through it as he fetched from the bowl, his voice cold."I don't know, maybe I would—" Hooked in my throat I became speechless."You can't deny yourself." It was obvious that I was in denial. Everyone around me was aware of the decisions that I would make, but I accepted my denial and chose to live by it, even if it cost me the one thing I felt deep inside, my mate's affection."He shouldn't be able to come near me, he rejected me not once but twice,""But that was because of the schism between us,""That is it, I was on the brink of death and just when the truth unravelled he let me die not minding what we had shared." The memories of that time made me high on adrenaline."I told you, Andrea is a coward, denial is something he had en route, and I expect no such from you, you're different." But not a snake and not bring straight forward like him."Yes I
I felt a hush fall over the cold night, you could hear a pin drop; it felt that silent and I was suddenly too scared to even breathe loudly.Their scent wafted to me, my mouth inducing metallic taste as at their intoxicating scent.Was I sure of this, the idea of meeting up with him just so he knows I have not in the slightest missed him or desire to be in his arms all this while, that was a fallacy, it wasn't true and I know it?'Please, please don't do this.' I begged my wolf tears rolling down my eyes I dropped to the ground at my very feet clutching tight, I was grateful Moon wasn't there to witness me breaking down earlier as we came along the elevator I stopped by on the floor that leads to Jade apartment and begged her, even though there were fidgety in her voice she couldn't possibly reject me and she knows I was being earnest enough with her."Fine, just two hours, I have to get my gas refilled." She said with a disgruntled glare."Sure, I promised I won't chop into your prec