To my lovely readers I went through this book and fixed a lot of errors and spelling mistakes. I'm sorry I didn't do this sooner and I hope you reread this book. This is one of my favorites so I hope it reads better now.I appreciate all reads and comments so much. Please reread this book and enjoy it. I loved writing it and I hope it is better the second time around for everyone. I hope you continue to support me in my writing adventures and read this book again. To get the fixed version just unfollow in your library and follow again i$ you want to read it.Thanks again lovely readers and I am grateful for all votes and comments. The support is incredible and greatly appreciated.
Amanda povMy name is Amanda Dawn and I am part of the lightshade pack. Every year our alpha throws a finding your mate party and all unmated she wolfs must attend. Males from all over come to see if they can find their mate. I hate this cause ever since sixteen I haven't found my mate. I have in fact given up cause now I'm nineteen and still alone. This is so fucking boring but I comply with my mom who orders I go with her cause if not she makes my life hell. "Get ready now Mandy",my mom said harshly. I just rolled my eyes as I yanked out my gown and heels. "But mom, I whined, I won't find him, I never will. Every year is the same crap all the others find their mates and I'm left with no one",I said sighing as I styled my hair and applied my makeup. She just rolled her eyes and left my room. Funny how she acts all doting but I know deep down she wants me gone so it's her and dad alone. I wanted to move out after high school but she begged me to stay . "Mandy come on!! ",my mom yell
Amanda pov As we are driving Mason starts his rules and regulations with me. Fucking giving rules to your mate your other half is a dick move. "First I really don't want you as my mate. Second, I have April and I love her. Third, I need you around so my wolf won't weaken. You will have the eastwing of my house and that is where you will stay. I will not leave April for you so you can forget that idea". I'm absolutely flabbergasted by this. He won't leave a human whore for his destined mate. What actually don't adjust your television shit is this I think as he drives on.I scoff as he keeps driving. He is stupid if he thinks I am being locked away so he can continue fucking that human bitch. I hope she dies or better yet gets a disease and suffers. "No, I am not take me back now, I don't need a mate. This is bullshit",I growled. Fuck him I didn't want his ass either. He pulls over as I open the door and get out. I am pissed as he gets out and glares at me. I'm beyond pissed and my w
Amanda povI gave up after five hours and went to shower and go to sleep. I unpacked my cell and laptop my only sources to the outside world. My mom sent me texts and a couple voice mails but I ignored them. Beth texted that her mate was an alpha and they were so in love. I was still in denial as I fell asleep but got woken quick as sharp pains hit. I screamed loud as they snaked through me. He was fucking that bitch. He knew this would hurt me and he did it anyway. My screams intensified as it kept going and I realized I hate him. My wolf tried to ease it but she was screaming too.I heard the pack doctor come in and he injected me with something and I passed out. Let just say my denial didn't last long cause soon I hit bargaining. I pleaded and bargained with anyone that came in to help me escape but they all ignored me. Some pack members he had I was suppose to be their luna but he was keeping me locked away from his precious human bitch. I kept asking Sam and the doctor to please h
Amanda povTwo years laterNothing has changed I am still being kept as a prisoner while my mate fucks his human whore. I am now in the anger stage of grief and I destroyed the whole east side. I was like a feral wolf as I broke, hit and threw stuff all over. I screamed at the top of my lungs while I broke shit. Mason wouldn't accept my rejection or stop in to see me. My wolf was a mess in my mind and I could feel her shutting me out. She was getting weaker and so was I. Food my absolute favorite thing to do sickened me. The thought of eating anything made me dry heave at times. I was throwing up more then I was putting in.I stopped talking to anyone and I took to sitting in the window seat staring at the world outside. I was only allowed to shift if he was there and I could only go outside if he approved. I barely notice anyone come or go. Most of all I stopped answering my phone and texts. My mother was a constant reminder that I was and would always be alone. Beth goddess love her
Amanda PovTwo more years passed and I am extremely weak as he decided to stay with her. I have a feeling she is lying to him but I just gave up caring now. I am at the last stage and to me that is the way out of this. I am gonna kill myself to be free. I already wrote letters years ago and I'm surprised I held on for two more years like I did but I did I sit most days staring out the window from my window seat. Mason visits but I don't speak to him or acknowledge his existence anymore. I sit staring as he talks but I can't register what he is saying. I just go into my mind to escape. "Mandy did you hear me? ",he said standing up and walking closer to me. I don't acknowledge him one bit. Most days when he shows up I don't even look his direction. The doctor is an everyday visitor to give me nourishment through intravenous methods cause I barely keep food down. I'm thinner then I ever been my whole life."huh? ",I said watching kids play. He stands right beside me and talks again but
Mason povMy wolf is yelling at me as I sit to eat with April. Something is very wrong right now and he won't shut up so I get up and head to check on Amanda. I head downstairs and see the pack doctor carrying an unconscious Amanda in his arms. Blood is running from her wrists which is cut wide open and she looks dead. I listen in and hear her heart beating very faintly. What the fuck happened? I know she has been beyond quiet lately and stares outside everyday,all day. She won't acknowledge me or anyone else. I tried to talk to her everyday cause my wolf won't shut up. The last two years he changed towards April he blocks me completely when I fuck her. He won't come back till we are done and he won't speak to me.I growled loud but he is still running for our pack hospital. Amanda is going to die if she isn't treated soon. I run after them totally ignoring April asking me what happened. Mandy is not dying I can't lose my mate like this. Oh god I was so horrible for years to her. Apri
Amanda povWhere am I? I've been walking around for hours. The last thing I remember is cutting my...holy shit I'm dead. I look around the warmth I am in and there is my wolf we were together sitting here but I was swept away and stuck walking around . I step closer and its Jasmine my and she glares at me before speaking. "you dumbass where did you go I was looking everywhere"I shrug innocently and she frowns at me. "I don't know I was here with you then I felt a pull and I was swept away. I thought I lost you. I was afraid I would never see you again",I said feeling guilty now. She growled at me and laid down with a heavy sigh. We sat together with sigh and listened in to the douchebag. Smirking she stood up. "our mate kicked out that human bitch. I say we make him suffer for a couple weeks. I say longer it would serve him right if we stayed here for fucking months. He deserves to feel pain and heartache".I chuckle as we listen in on Mason begging us to come back to him. His wol
To my lovely readers I went through this book and fixed a lot of errors and spelling mistakes. I'm sorry I didn't do this sooner and I hope you reread this book. This is one of my favorites so I hope it reads better now.I appreciate all reads and comments so much. Please reread this book and enjoy it. I loved writing it and I hope it is better the second time around for everyone. I hope you continue to support me in my writing adventures and read this book again. To get the fixed version just unfollow in your library and follow again i$ you want to read it.Thanks again lovely readers and I am grateful for all votes and comments. The support is incredible and greatly appreciated.
Ethan povWe finished four houses by the time the time Mel was due. Debra and Lily was scheduled for c sections tomorrow and both were nervous wrecks Debra more than Lily. Lily had one pup before and did well. Mel is scared because she heard labor was horrible and all she has done when she thinks I don't hear is cry in fear."how you feeling baby?",I know she is worried but she will be fine I will be right there the whole time."I'm okay just nervous ",she hasn't been able to eat much the last few weeks and I worry for her. She has baked like crazy which is her stress relief. I came home to a basic bakery in our kitchen and some of the warriors were helping her package the treats. Mel had looked like she cried some and I sighed softly taking in her features. "hey baby,I kissed her head, hey guys thanks for helping her. Baby aren't you suppose to take it easy your almost due",I watched her lip quiver and tears fill her eyes before she started crying."I can't just sit here",she sobbed
Ethan povThe next few days we had clean up and it was extensive and draining. We had dead bodies everywhere and alpha decided burning them would be better then trying to bury them. We took an hour break after gathering hundreds of dead rogues , hunters and human body parts then putting them in huge pits to burn. Good thing we lived in the middle of nowhere. "fuck I'm wiped",Adam mumbled as Debra sat in a wheelchair handing out drinks. Mel was beside her and both had bellies now."yes me too but I'm also starving",I look at Mel smiling. She smiled back and handed treats to warriors who lined up fast to get them. My girl could cook and bake I felt more than lucky."so are you guys ready to become dads?",Grant asked kissing Lily who was by him holding their son as he rubbed her belly. She was tiny as hell and this baby was bigger so a c section was scheduled for her but our girls were going natural unless a complication happened which I pray doesn't. I watch her give out her baked goods
Ethan povAfter killing Ron our border alarms sounded and rogue wolves poured out everywhere. The other alpha came up hoping around obviously happy to be in a fight."let's get these bitches boys...Attack!!!!",he charged and his warriors went after him."stay in a tight formation take no prisoners",Alpha charged forward the rest of us following fighting, killing and throwing the bodies to the side as we went."haha bitches you fuck with the wrong mother fuckers!! ",the alpha yelled and I shook my head. I was beside alpha Mason as we fought and I noticed he was bleeding worse as he fought more. We shifted and we tore through the rogues like they were nothing. When the fighting kept going I was exhausted and I could tell alpha was as well."stay tight",Alpha hissed through the mind link. We tightened the line and kept going. Punching, kicking and claws is what sounded in the area. Growls, yelps and whimpers were loud as the fighting intensified. The rogues kept coming when another neigh
Ethan povRon and his bitches were surrounded and looked terrified as they drew their weapons. Fear hit as even though we could stand getting shot it did hurt and we do bleed. If the bullets are silver or laced with a wolf poisons we could die."I want my daughter now",Ron barked out but got met with growls. The guards on the ground were doing hand signals to alpha. I watched as they did a countdown and all hell broke loose. Loud screams as the wolfs leaped and attacked. Shots were fired and I heard yelps but the fighting continued. "alpha I can help",I begged it was brutal. Ron fired but missed then he turned and fired at our door the locks gave and with a evil smirk he entered. I know he wouldn't be able to find the panic room those were hidden in plan sight."come out you little bitch and let daddy fuck you!",he bellowed and Mel who woke at the gunshots flinched and whimpered. Tears filled her eyes as fear filled the room this mother fucker would pay for scaring my mate."Alpha, I
Ethan povWe made more brownies because I ate most of them and I wanted more. Mel giggled as I licked the pan and my plate these things were incredible she needed to open a bakery."damn baby you should be a baker",I paced waiting for the timer to go off."Ethan you ate twelve if you keep going your going to get fat", she wiped her fingers and I turned looking at her."seriously Mel?",her face dropped as tears filled her eyes and she backed away shocking me I was messing with her."I'm sorry",the tears fell and I rushed to hold her but she flinched back thinking I was going to hit her."baby, I was horrified at her reaction, I'm sorry I was playing baby I would never hit you",I pull a crying Mel in my arms letting her cry in my chest. She whimpered sadly as I rubbed her back. I swear these pregnancy hormones were driving me crazy. One minute she okay and the next she burst into tears. I kissed her lips as I wiped her tears away. She was a mess but a fucking cute one."I'm sorry Ethan m
Ethan povAfter a day filled with me fucking my beautiful mate we fell asleep only to wake to alpha needing us in his office so we headed there after breakfast. Knocking we get a come in so we enter and alpha smiles as he looks up at us."I got news Mel please take a seat" , he points to chairs so we sit and Mel fidgets nervously as alpha watches her. She was worried since we got the call. "is it about my dad?",she was hopeful but still thought he was dead."yes sweetie we found the facility and your dad was there so we took him. Ron showed up but just missed us he threw a fit but couldn't do anything. Your dad is in our hospital and doc is going to slowly bring him off the drugs. We still have to worry about Ron because after the hospital he disappeared and we can't find him. The guards you both have will stay and I got council coming for your mother she broke many pack laws. Do you care if she is executed?",Mel sighed and shook her head sadly. "I know she is my mother but I don't
Ethan povI found my mate eating with Debra which surprised me and I watched Debra pack the food away. Mel looked relaxed and happy as they ate so me interrupting made Debra jump. She looked guilty eating so much and wanted to pay we both refused Mel to her and me to Adam. He was injured but fought like a man poessesd. Alpha took her away and she waved as she left I couldn't get over how frail she looked but fuck can she eat.After finishing our food we headed home and once inside I flick on the lights to a surprise. A balloon floated there saying I'm pregnant and I picked up my mate thrilled. "baby are you serious?",I was so fucking happy I kissed her and reached back locking our door while we both cried and kissed."yes I found out today doc did a pregnancy test before an injection because the regular one is dangerous to pregnant she wolves. When he told me I was hoping you would be happy plus I got a pregnancy safe injection ",she was fucking cute. I pushed my hard cock into her th
Debra povI've been in here for goddess knows how long waiting for Adam. He hasn't come back yet and I'm terrified he might of died."come on Adam please come back I'm scared",I whimpered. Adam povI ran to help with the hunter invasion and I wanted to kill Mark for the years I had to stay away from my mate. The first hunter I come in contact with is a pain in my ass as he tries to dodge my hits."what's up doggy?",he is trying to distract me so I fuck up. As we square off more warriors show up and so do other fighters. Alpha is there within seconds and we fight brutally. Mark walks up and stands there watching as his men are taken out. "little bitch",is all I say as I punch him hard knocking him down. He jumps back up and tries to stab me but misses and I end it. I snap his neck and throw him at Mark and they both fall to the ground hard. I see him struggling under the dead hunter and I laugh."fuck you bitch!!",he yelled finally shoving the dead body off him and getting up. "give