ALEISTERPush her away. That’s what I was thinking. When I thought she didn’t trust me or was using me, and when I thought her goal was to hurt me and get revenge by humiliating me in front of my people…A voice said inside my head.Push her away.Or else, I might just let her do everything she wanted. If only it meant she would accept me—the man and the monster, with the inability to bear the thought of falling in love or staying in love, with all my flaws and my tainted past. Push her away. That was the answer.Now, that I have done it…I can’t carry the weight of my decision.When it came to the matters of heart, I have always been a coward. The fact remains the same.But, the guilt has amassed.People say you can’t feel for anyone even if you suffer the same pain. But what if you are put in the place of that person, to experience their emotions, see the world from their eyes, and just trade places for once? It was brutal. I felt what she did. When everyone she knew abandoned
AVERYI wished for him to suffer the same way I did. I must have wanted him to kneel. Lose face. Lose pride. Lose…himself. The world seems to come to a halt. The men ahead of me are suddenly kneeling. All of them. I turn around, my heartbeat slowing down and almost coming to a halt.Aleister is kneeling. For me. A Lycan King never does that. Not for family, not for mates, not even for himself. I have never felt something like this. It feels like…my heart is filled with serenity, so full that it’s about to burst. All my life, all I ever wanted was for someone to choose me. Choosing me over a person would have been fine. Choosing me over the sense of duty would have been fine too.But I never thought someone—someone like him would choose me over himself, over everything he stands for. I had only ever asked for a drop of hope to keep going, but he is right here…trying to give me a whole sea of it. His eyes, those beautiful grey eyes are void of guilt for the first time. The darkne
AVERY It’s awkward. Why is that hard thing poking my thigh again?I choke on my breath, “ Are you still… ”In heat? “ I mean, are you still uncomfortable Aleister? ” I mumble, squirming to get out of his arms.I almost fell asleep. But then I felt him getting hard. Now, I can’t sleep.“ No. ” He denies it and tightens his arms around me.I sigh, “ You are still in heat. Don’t lie. ”He releases a warm breath over my neck and refuses to let go. I listen to his quick heartbeats and silently wait for him to get enough of the embrace.A few minutes pass…But he shows no signs of moving away. “ Staying like this will only make it worse for you. ” I tell him honestly.“ I will be fine after a cold shower. ” Aleister says quietly.“ You should go for that cold shower now. ” I mumble. He is as warm as a thick blanket in the summer heat. I don’t want to get burned just yet.“ You are right, Princess. ” He nods.I loosen my arms around his biceps, allowing him to leave but he still shows no
AVERY“ What are you doing, Princess? ” Aleister’s throat bobs as he swallows.“ I am… ” I drop the dress over the floor. “ taking my clothes off. ”His brows lift, his eyes darken and then, he is in front of me. My back hits the door as Aleister steps closer, his breaths labored.“ You know, Princess… ” His gaze lowers to my lips before he shakes his head and shifts his attention to my eyes. “ I am not a saint. There is a limit to what I can control inside me. ”My stomach flips. I exhale a shuddery breath and clench my fists.Aleister takes another step close. His naked, wet body is so close to mine. If I take one breath my chest might become one with his heated skin. “ You—You are in heat. ” I utter, my heart beginning to change its rhythm to a dangerous tune again. “ You can’t possibly feel fine after taking a cold shower. I just want to help. ”He places his palms atop my head and leans in. “ what are you suggesting, Princess? ”His breath, his voice, the proximity of his huge b
AVERY“ I…want you inside, Aleister. ” My breath stutters. His hands comply with my demand, ripping my panties apart instead of sliding them down my legs. The primal urge to reach for pleasure can’t be restrained any longer.“ Alei—Aleister… ” My core clenches. He releases my nipple with a hard suck before meeting my blurred vision with his hooded eyes.“ I hurt you last time. ” Aleister whispers, his grip tightening on my thighs. “ If you want me inside you again, you have to do it, Princess. Take me in that sweet pussy and use me like you want. ”My heart misses a beat as my hands shake around his shoulders. “ I—I don’t… ”“ Fuck, it hurts, Princess. ” He bucks his hips, his length sliding between my folds just slightly.But it’s enough to send my mind into a downward spiral again. I am going insane with the heat, and the cold that underlies it. “ Take me inside, please. ” His head leans against the wall behind him, his eyes half closed.My toes curl as I slide down on him. His l
AVERYThe surface under me is so warm and hard. It’s him. I am sleeping on top of him, something that I thought I would never do again in this life. I yawn, rubbing my forehead against his skin. His fingers caress my lower back, hinting that he is wide awake unlike me who is still feeling groggy.After waking up, I keep my eyes closed and stay there, just feeling his electric warmth and his gentle touch over my skin. This feels peaceful. “ Were you staying with Nellie all this time? ” Aleister asks.My muscles stiffen. Amidst my struggle to save Aleister and what came afterward, I completely forgot about everything else.I put my chin over the back of my hand and look up at him. As usual, he already has his eyes on me but his gaze is still soft.“ What are you planning on doing with the villagers? ” I whisper, my voice hoarse because of all the screaming from before.“ If I follow in the footsteps of my ancestors, they will be dead by tomorrow. There will be no one left to tell the
AVERY“ What did you do with Draven? ” I mumble, standing beside Aleister.He is sitting on the wing chair in the living room of the little cottage while we wait for the warriors to bring Nellie, Sara, and Marco, the village head. “ For now… ” Aleister glances at the door. “ Nothing. ”I shoot him a side glance before following his line of sight. Nellie and Sara are being dragged inside by the warriors with Marco following shortly after. They don’t fight to break free. Instead, they have this proud look on their faces, one that is void of any guilt or fear—It’s a symbol of their self-confidence, a belief that whatever they did is right. Most of the rebels always have this look on their faces. People don’t risk their lives for a cause they don’t believe in, not when they are going against a Lycan King, a ruler chosen by the Moon Goddess herself.“ Did you forgive him? ” Nellie turns to me.“ I thought you hated the King, Avery. ” Sara mumbles under her breath. “ you were scared when
AVERY“ Noelle is the one who made sure we didn’t end up without food. But you Lycans claimed all the production too.” Noelle scoffs.Aleister narrows his eyes. “ Why do you think I would claim the production? What do I gain from it?”Noelle frowns, sharing a confused look with Marco and Sara. I purse my lips. I can sense something is not sitting right here.“ Your men...they come and take everything, then they divide ration among villages. The food they send us is not enough. That’s why we have to starve. We work double hard to make things work but in the end, they still take everything. Why are you acting like you are not aware of it? ” Marco asks, his tone changing into a much lighter one.“ Who does that? ” Aleister inquires. The temperature in the room drops, sending a shudder down my back. .“ Your men...do, My King? ” Sara doesn’t sound sure anymore.“ Is that what these men said specifically? ” Aleister rises. Shadows sneak up the wall, slowly darkening the living room again
AVERYLife is unpredictable, they say.I caress the cheek of the newborn, my finger trembling softly. I am awed and reduced to a teary-eyed, half-conscious woman with nothing more meaningful in life than the bundle lying on the bed beside me. So, I believe now…Life is unpredictable. If someone had told me that I will give birth to a beautiful girl, with glassy grey eyes and a sharp cry…I would have told them that I didn’t need them to fool me into believing things that would never happen.But it has happened.“ You have the right. ” Aleister lays on the other side, watching the girl lying between us with similar expressions. He looks dazed as if he is in a dream and scared of touching this beautiful creature.“ We decided on that. You will get to name her if it’s a girl. ” I pull my knees to my chest, trying hard to forget the pain I felt during labor yesterday. People say something else too—they say giving birth is no easy feat. It’s like dying and coming back to life after seei
AVERY“ Was this really as necessary as you make it out to be? ” I ask, moving across his room, smoothening down the non-existent creases in the dress.It’s the same gown that I wore to the festival. Back then, Aleister sent me away without even looking at me but he carried this dress with him wherever he went when I left him.Now, he wants me to wear it on my initiation. I told him it’s unnecessary, but he insists that I must wear this.“ I can get you a new dress if you want, my Princess. ” Aleister says, stepping out of the dressing room and pulling me into his arms immediately. I notice the dark suit he is wearing, the material fitting every bulging muscle and making him appear bigger than he already is. Our eyes meet and warmth spreads in my insides—It’s instant and soothing. “ How do I look? ” I whisper, reaching up to press my lips to his mouth gently.“ Like my Princess. ” Aleister tilts his head, connecting our lips again. “ Like the greatest star in the sky or the beautif
AVERYIt was not as bad as I imagined it. Aleister did stick out from the others, but no matter how wary they were, they couldn’t say anything about it or him anymore.We had breakfast together, and then I showed Aleister around. As expected, Dustin gave us a side eye whenever we stumbled across him but he couldn’t do anything about it which left me giddy.For the first time in my life, I have my own team. Aleister and I are together, and I don’t care if the whole world is on the other side. He is enough for me.But I like that my former friends and acquaintances have accepted him as my mate.“ You have been smiling from the morning. ” Aleister mumbles, pressing a kiss to my neck from behind.“ Do you not like it when I smile? ” I inquire playfully.“ Of course, I love it, Princess. ” He trails a path of kisses up my neck as his hand rests on my stomach, caressing it softly. “ I want you to keep smiling like this forever. Will you do that for me? ”“ If you don’t make me mad, I will. ”
DUSTIN“ What are you thinking now? ” Lenora asks curiously.“ That’s not the right question, Lenora. ” I tell her and place my palm over the edge of the window. The sea appears calm today, or maybe, it’s just me. I am calm, inside out. There is no noise inside my head right now. After seeing Avi genuinely happy, I think I will be better for some time. “ Did you always know that King is her mate? ” She inquires and stands beside me.“ Does it matter? ” I wonder. Why does everyone make a fuss about it? If I know, so what? Does it change anything?The loser thinking makes me want to roll my eyes. If you jump into the ditch after knowing that it’s not deep or you jump without knowing it’s not deep…it’s all the same. In the end, you still have to jump in the ditch. “ How did you know? ” She turns her head and studies me curiously.“ Moon Goddess told me. ” I vowed to not lie to Lenora before, so she gets all the honest answers.She snickers. “ I am serious, Dustin. ”It’s another thi
ALEISTER“ Levian…can tell when someone is lying. If you had stayed back, he would have found out about your child. You don’t realize how brutal he can be when it comes to getting what he wants. And right now, it’s not the time for the war. It’s time to hide that you are pregnant, Avi. ” Dustin explains to her.“ You want to hide my child? ” She huffs. “ that’s not happening. ”“ That’s why I didn’t tell you before. Now that your mate here has told Levian that you are not pregnant and that he is not allied with the other three Kingdoms, Levian is not desperate to snatch your child. He will wait. Because he believes we are weak when we are not united as the four Kingdoms. ” He says and wipes the dried blood from under his nose again. “ He will wait for you to find your mate. ” I conclude neutrally.“ He will wait for me to break and join him. Or he will wait for a mate to come to break me and get me to lose my mind like the rest of you. ” Dustin replies, and smirks. “ but that’s never
ALEISTERI have a hunch that Dustin Landric—the twat let me hit him intentionally. I would have preferred if he fought back. I don’t enjoy hitting those who want to get hit.“ Aleister. ” My Princess nuzzles into my neck, and peer at me with her puppy eyes.My throat feels heavy as I stare into those eyes. I came here to be mad at her. Her friend sent me a letter and informed me that my Princess hadn’t left me and it was all her brother’s plot. He drugged her and kidnapped her.But she could have let me know about it.And she didn’t.I was mad, but what do I feel right now? The heaviness in my throat increases. She loves me, she is carrying my child and she is showing me that she cares about me without giving a fuck about the watching eyes.It’s like I am in a dream. Maybe, I lost my mind back in the South and this is a part of a beautiful imagination.If it’s that…I slide her stray hair behind her ear and watch as she smiles at me brightly. Her blue eyes are moist, and they still l
AVERY“ Once we are done, do you want me to give you a visit to the Wolveshire Citadel? ” I wonder, clinging to Aleister’s arm.He glances at my eyes, slowly looks down at my arm wrapped around his bicep, blinks, then looks away. From where I walk beside him, I can see his neck turning slightly red.“ I don’t think your brother would like that. ” Aleister grumbles under his breath as we step into the sitting area.“ I think the same. ” I nod quickly. “ but I don’t mind. He can be broody about it and go sulk in his room. ” My eyes wander off to my brother who is standing in front of the window, his back to us. “ Ava. ” Nora squeaks, grabbing my attention.I look to my right and find the rest of them standing beside the couches stiffly. Their wary glares filter towards Aleister, making me frown.Subtly, Tyson pushes Amelia behind him and stands in front of her protectively while the girl looks as horrified as a dying fish. Nora and King Striker are beside them, all in their defensive s
AVERYI fake a gasp and roll on the bed. Instantly, Aleister halts and turns to me worriedly.“ What happened? ” He asks, approaching me hurriedly.I clutch my head until he is standing in front of me. When he leans in, I grab his shoulder and sit him on the bed again.My eyes narrow. “ I liked what we did but I don’t want anyone to see this view. ”I point towards his abdomen before rolling out of the bed and grabbing his pants to throw them at him.“ You faked it? ” He rolls his eyes.“ I know what works with you. I just used that information. ” I shrug, searching for my dress. The look of disbelief comes back on his face. He leans back, dropping the pants on the floor again.“ I am not wearing them. You wanted to fuck me in your room. Now you can’t hide me, Princess. ” He chuckles, balancing himself on his palms.“ First of all, we didn’t do what you said we did. We— ”“ Made love? That’s the same as fucking. My cock goes in and out your— ” A knock silences him. Gasping, I drop t
AVERYI am getting worried now. Aleister hasn’t said anything for like an hour after what I told him.I am comfortably lying on top of him now, and I am so tired that I want to sleep. But the hundred different emotions that keep surging back and forth in my mind keep me wide awake.I yawn, snuggling into his neck. “ say something. This silence is irritating me now. ”Silence meets me as a reply again.I huff and draw my face out of his neck just to glare at him. But he looks lost and his eyes see right through me.“ Are you that shocked? Did you not want— ”“ You said…it’s not possible. ” Aleister finally mumbles, his heart beating like a loud drum under my palm.My gaze meets his wide eyes as I sigh. “ Well, my Mom lied about that. I am perfectly fine. I confirmed with a Healer. ”“ What? ” Aleister whispers, his eyes still holding disbelief.“ Yes, Mom lied and made me believe I couldn’t get pregnant. ” I shrug, dropping my head back. “ but who knew…her lie would get me pregnant mor