Intense moments, were not my thing. I had no idea how to move my hands, how to move my neck was I supposed to move my neck. I was an inexperienced virgin, and here I was married off before I could do the deed. I had crazy inhibitions, but I was waiting for the right one to sweep me off my feet and love me for the rest of my life.
"We'll be there in just a second", the driver's voice echoed in my head as he brought me back to reality. I was seated in the limo driving to our after wedding party. After the moment we had I didn't want to know the other stunts he would pull later."Smile, and act brave they like that", he said as I followed his instructions. I fixed my posture and took my finger and brushed against my ruffed hair."We're here Mr. and Mrs. Clemente", the driver spoke as he parked and Nolan opened his side and held my hand as we exited the car hand in hand. For a moment I forgot that all of this was just fake and that maybe, maybe one day I could be happy."How does it feel to be married to the most eligible, bachelor in the US", a reporter questioned."What can you say about the rumors of you and Lauren Garnier, VS Model hooking up", another reporter said as the jumble of words mixed up my mindset.The guards pushed them away as we walked into a beautiful barn filled with cake, people and more cake. The barn was decorated with chandlers and elegant ribbon flowing from the ceiling top. The dance floor was shimmering and I saw tables and tables worth of appetizers and food. Nolan guided my hand towards his parents as I smiled at the happy crowd."Nolan, Natalie glad you made it we were all getting a little worried for a second there", his mother squealed in excitement to see us. As she wrapped her arms around the both of keeping us close."We made a pit stop", he said as he tucked his hands in his pockets as he leaned back."I see, My My My Natalie you look stunning this is definitely not the dress I picked out for you", I immediately felt bad my mother-in-law had picked me out an outfit and I choose not to wear it."I'm so sorry Mrs. Clemente, I can change into it if you-", as she immediately interrupted my rant of guilt."Nonsense, this dress is beautiful and please it's Allison dear", she said making me feel better as Nolan started looking uncomfortable."If you'll excuse us mom and dad I was going to introduce Natalie to my friends and maybe even Avery", he said as I wondered who Avery was."Okay be careful she gets a little excited sometimes", Mr. Clemente said as his wife giggled as he wrapped his arms around her in a loving way. A relationship like that would make my world spin. They looked truly in love and weren't taking any of it like this heck of a marriage.Nolan dragged me away slowly as he gripped my hand harder, keeping me close I felt protected, a feeling I hadn't felt in a while."Everyone this is Natalie", he introduced me as I waved shyly. His friends seemed nice, they seemed well I can't say I know them well enough to judge them.A peppy girl hiding behind them jumped in front of me and gave me a hug as if we had known each other."I'm Avery, my brother is a lucky man", she said as she rubbed his hair a bit and he brushed it back. Avery, the sister I didn't even know he had a sister, I guess we really don't know each other well enough to get married, but was I aloud to say that absolutely not.All the rest of the guys just waved as Avery stood next to me avoiding all the awkwardness."Well this is Tyler, Alec, Tally, and Wesley", He said as Avery announced she was dragging me away.We took off walking as she waved behind"I'm sorry I'm just so happy that my brother is married", she squealed as we walked along the corridor."So tell me everything", she said as if I was supposed to start."Where should I start?", I joked as she took me outside."How about how you met my brother, I've only heard about you for the last year but I never got to meet you. He would go on and on saying my Natalie is beautiful", she went on and on as I adjusted my face as if we had been together for a year. How did Nolan know about me, maybe he was a part of it, no he wouldn't want to be tied down to me, would he? Had he called me beautiful?"Come, there having the first dance", a lady came and opened the door for us as we walked in and I saw Nolan waiting for me, looking at me like I had gone outside for a smoke.He got closer and closer as the music started to play and I joined him on the dance floor. An inch or two apart was all I needed to feel as if my hands should go against his handsome toned muscular body.His hands rose as mine followed, he whispered in my ear "You know how to dance right", he asked as I followed his steps and made sure to perfect them.After that little snarky comment of his, I stepped on his foot as I quickly apologized"Oops sorry", I said as he made a groan and stopped dancing."Remind me not to dance with you again", he whispered as I giggled. The crowd swooned as we looked like we belonged together. We did a damn good job of performing this entourage."Well aren't we getting to know each other", I spoke softly, as a slight frown appeared upon his face.The music finally stopped and Nolan dove to leave as if he was on instinct. His parents came and congratulated me, more like comforted me."Nolan's gone", I heard a gasp from a group over, I searched the room to find Nolan and no Nolan here. It wasn't my place to jump to conclusions, but why would he leave.After hours and hours everyone started leaving one by one, the party started draining until it was me and Avery left. Turns out she was my ride home since Nolan insensitively left without my knowledge, it's not like I cared about where he went it's just that this was our wedding night. I have no idea why I care so much.I started crying as I took off the tablecloth and handed it to the cleaners, this was supposed to be a magical night, but I only felt less connected to mom, would she ever marry a man she didn't love.Never.———————"Nat you ready" Avery groaned as I grabbed my purse and wiped my itty bitty tears away.I had a million questions pulsing through my mind as I couldn't ask any of them. After a car ride of one direction we were practically drained, we arrived at a penthouse typical Mr. Grey. Typical, Typical, Typical."Well seems like you and Nolan have stuff to work out so I best be going", she said as I wondered how I was supposed to get in."Here's the key, Nolan said you would forget it", she joked as I didn't want to lie to her amazing soul anymore. She figured we had known each other and we had loved each other, but really all he wanted for me is to make my life completely and utterly miserable."Thank you, Avery, so much for the ride and for the fun", I said as I closed the door and she waved bye.I saw her drive away and so I had to search where to go. I walked into an elevator and unlocked the key and there it was the top floor.I rode on the elevator until the 32nd floor and finally got out. The penthouse was manly but muscular, it would attract any girl's heart, well not once they realize who lives there.I went up the spiral of stairs to hear loud moans coming from the master bedroom. And that's when I realized he ditched me to have sex. What a guy?As I ventured towards the room to see his clothes lying on the floor in the hallway and a lingerie set with a slinky dress, definitely bigger than my size. I was astonished, he was an asshole to begin with but this just pushed me over the edge."Shh, I think she's here", Nolan said as I heard him creep to the door as I hid behind the bathroom."I can't believe we're sleeping together on your wedding night, I always thought it would be us", she whispered as a tear spilled down my cheek.He came out and almost saw me as his naked friend pulled him back in. I stood behind the door waiting as he closed it and at that point, I was wishing that room was sound-proof.I crept away as he got on with his night's events. I quickly closed the bathroom door and tiptoed downstairs."Mrs. Clemente it is wonderful to meet you", a voice said as I saw an old woman near me. She must've been the housekeeper. Mrs. Johnson, a gentle but loving woman from the heart."Please call me Natalie", I respond
I stretched my arms as I climbed out of my bed, Nolan's father had given us hours off of work for us just to get to know each other and now this is how he spends it.I change into some new fresh clothes and walk downstairs, ready to make my breakfast. Now I am an extraordinary person, a regular person would probably poison her food, but I've decided to learn more about her and who knows maybe even be her friend, you may say oh my goodness Natalie is delusional. but at the same time, I'm gonna make Nolan feel so uncomfortable, he won't even be able to move.I started making pancakes batter and frying on my bacon. I was kinda proud of my self that I didn't burn it, it was a job well done. Just as I was plating my masterpiece Nolan comes down in sweatpants and a bare chest. I can tell he's upset, and at me, since he's holding the clothes I washed with my lavender scent plastered all over them."What the fuck is this", he stormed down the stairs as I stare at his open chest, beautiful
"Ma'am do you need a ride", a cab driver asked as I nodded and climbed in I told him my address as he kept to himself.I wrapped my head around the fact that people would be there when I got home. When I was at my apartment I would go home and come out 3 days later.But now I had to escape the light."Ma'am you've arrived", he said as I passed him the money Massey gave me and as I was closing the door he said"It gets better".Would it get better, I live with a man who thinks I'm insane and has no feelings for me, and my father who beats me until I can barely breathe.I rung the doorbell as my key was now in my father's office hopefully Massey would grab it. I knocked again as I heard a heavy groan coming down the stairs.He swung open the door as I hid my battered wrists from his sight. I rushed in as I needed my own space. He rushed after me waiting to insult me every step of the way."What's with the coat it's 91°outside?", he chuckled as my pace grew faster trying to race
Natalie"I meant I can handle myself thank you", I said as I waited for him to leave me to be alone with my thoughts. I heard the door open as I waited to get up, he entered back in with a bowl of noodles in his hand. Comfort food."I can feed you", he said looking confused. I chuckled as if I couldn't care for myself. A sharp pain came to my side as I made eye contact with him as he saw me hold my side."We need a doctor", he said as I screamed at him. If my father found out I would be dead and so would she. He came running back as I knew I needed to tell him."Please don't tell my father", I said as he looked confused."It'll just worry him", I said as he understood it. He nodded as I bit into the noodle tasting each flavor of such a simple, but comforting meal. He took a seat on the chair as he stared at me with his piercing hazel eyes."What, Do I have something on my face", I laughed as I wiped my chin."No it's not that, you are just so beautiful", He said as my cheeks we
Natalie's POV"Who did this to you?", a slight whisper came from Nolan. My body stretched against the cold sofa and I suddenly felt his presence leave the room. I wanted to say a name, but I knew the rules, and I knew that 'my father', Daniel wasn't afraid of showing me that I needed to follow them. He loved his power over me and everyone who walked this damned earth.I cuddled up against the pillow next to mine, and I knew he was right, it wasn't just the mattress. That intoxicating smell was comforting and as much as I despised the man wearing it, the scent brought me safety and security. Something about this total stranger told me that he wouldn't hurt me, like Daniel did."You love my pillow", Nolan gawked as I quickly opened my eyes to the bright sun and the shadow of the man. I quickly released the pillow into his hands and he climbed into bed under the million of weighted layers."No wonder the Ice Princess's room is like an icebox", he commented and I began to push him out
(Chats with Avery)Avery Hey, just wondering how everything's going?NatalieIt's goingAveryNolan warmed up to you, yet?NatalieI thought we were getting somewhere, but he just left.AveryI'm coming over.She texted as I started freaking out my body was scarred and bandaged. When I was in my apartment I never had to worry if people were coming over it was just me. I couldn't stop her, maybe I could cover it up. I didn't want to lie or tell her a phony truth.I got up out of the warm bed and hoped that if I took a shower it would cause the scars to fade. I was wishing for a miracle. I stripped my clothes off and turned the faucet on as I checked the temperature making sure it wouldn't scorch my body. I found myself in the mirror above the sink, I saw my trashed body, my extremely red stomach, my arms had gashes in them with old blood surrounding them. I was disgusted by my body it made me feel gross. I was gross, the water ran as a tear escaped my eye. Leaving me vuln
Natalie's POV"I really must be going", Avery spoke as she started lacing her shoes back on and Nolan leaned against the stairway of the beige stairs."Don't go we're having fun", I said and I leaned against her and gave her a side hug. After what happened the last few hours, Nolan and I couldn't stop exchanging awkward glances, on my end they were awkward, but on his he saw his stares as a way to make me feel so undermined and controlled. I found him controlling and intimidating a side he used to keep me in check. I didn't want to be alone with him, knowing next time maybe I wouldn't be able to put my hormones to the side and have my brain act. I looked at Avery with pleading eyes."I have to, I have work in the morning, speaking of work you have to come you'd be a perfect model, you definitely have the looks", she grinned at her brother, and she looked back at me. She definitely wanted to ignite a flame between Nolan and I and then she'd want to hear all about it tomorrow."I'll
Natalie "Your such a badass, my brother doesn't deserve you", Avery ranted on and on as I zoned her out looking out at the clouds wanting an explanation, of why he was like this. I didn't feel like a badass, I felt like I want to know more about this new surfaced behavior from him."I love this song", she said as she started singing and I sang with her to the lyrics. My goal was to forget about everything that happened tonight and just lose my head. After thirty minutes of restless singing and dancing, we arrived at the glowing bar."You ready", she said as we hopped the line as she showed her I.D and pulled me along with her. The line outside of the bar was filled with people and paparazzi, snapping pictures on cameras or telephones.The atmosphere was so lively, I smudged my lipstick as Avery pulled me along passing drinks and drinks lining the bar. She pulled me down to a couple of empty barstools as a bartender came close to us waiting for our drink order."Two shots of tequ