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I held his hand, as it squeezed mine profoundly, I wanted to leave and so did he. The doctor shooed the worried mothers out of the room as we waited for the news. I couldn't look at his face, something told me he was disappointed.

I didn't want to hear the words I had feared of hearing, I had lost the baby again. I knew Nolan would never say it out loud, but he would be disappointed in me. Disappointed and dissatisfied with the fact that I couldn't produce and create his dream, he wanted a family. And in this moment, I felt like I couldn't give it to him, like my body was against the idea.

"Do you want the bad news first or the good?", she said softly, studying the scans in front of her eyes. She looked at both Nolan and I's face, he said it for us.

"Bad news first", he said sternly as he gripped onto my hands, I didn't want to disappoint him. He was my world, my heart and me losing this baby again would be the nightmare that would ruin us. We couldn't survive another