Flower catalogs scattered the floor as I searched for Nolan's phone which buzzed on repeat for the last hour. Papers fluttered the floor as I searched, to please stop this horrid sound. His briefcase contents was sprawled on the ground as I finally found the ringing, bastard of a phone. my eyes twitched in response to the shining sun, and I picked up the phone having a pretty good idea of who it was, only one person would call us at 5:30 a.m. "Hello", I said steadily trying to hide the fact that I had just woken up. The phone on the other line sounded startled as I wiped my eyes in agony. "Darling did you just wake up, you can't be serious", the stingy british voice repeated as I wished I wouldv't just let it ring. Miss Celine was a wedding planner, Alison had hired to make sure it was absolutely perfect. Miss Celene made sure everything was perfect and if it wasn't she would fix it. "We don't have a meeting until 3 right?", I asked as I checked my wedding planner I got from a gift
The whole night I had been tossing and turning, I couldn't sleep right, couldn't sleep straight, everything was tossing through my mind and I felt that pinch of guilt seep through my heart. I lied to him, told him everything was fine, when it wasn't when I was in pain in fear, he wanted to be there for me, but I couldn't risk it. Nolan had crept out of bed early in the morning and so here I was sitting alone with my horrid thoughts. I knew he had questions dating back to the start of our relationship to even further. Could he ever trust me again? My mind was racing around the thought of him never being able to trust me again, to thinking that our whole relationship was a lie. He didn't deserve this, no one did. Last night was new for him, he had every right to be angry. I hadn't told him what was happening I had left him out of something so big he chose to defend me, without even knowing what happened. My legs felt cold and numb as I began to stretch my legs to face the thunder
Days had gone by, a full week had gone by and his touch, voice and scent drifted through my mind. I was too proud to beg for him back, when he had hurt me more than he realized, he stood there as I begged him to tell me he wanted me. But his silence scarred me more than his words could ever. "Smoothie?", Avery asked as she handed me a mango smoothie, the color of yellow reminding me of how I felt when I was with him, happy. "Have you heard anything?", I asked her as she had just gotten off a call from Tyler. She shook her head as my expression fell yet again. I asked myself at night why I didn't go home, leave my stubbornness here and say that I didn't care, I didn't care if he hated me, if I was too much for him, because I just needed to feel his touch again, his lips again. But I never could, and the end of the day I spent alone, in a large bed on an exotic and romantic island. "I was thinking we should go out tonight", Avery suggested as I looked down at my butterfly fuzzy pants
The rain pattered down heavily as his shadow stood still, and I heard not a single word flow from his mouth, only silence, the silence that once hurt me. "What are you here for, Nolan?", I cried out letting the rain and tears mix together as they ran down my cheek. "To humiliate me, to remind me that you left, what are you here for". "You told her, of all people her. My father ruined my life repeatedly, but you hurt me worse, because I thought you could never hurt me, you could never make me feel the way he used to make me feel", I wiped my cheeks as he stood there silent and frozen "Boy was I wrong", I shouted across the rain. "And when I told you I needed you to talk to me, we needed to talk, you ran, you left me crying on the floor", I whimpered loudly as his silence didn't reassure me anymore than him coming here did. "So if you've come here to humiliate me and play a little game with me, don't waste your time", I breezed by him as I walked fast back to the beach house. "I l
That weekend was magical, filled of love, dancing and just spending time with each other. That weekend was dear to us, but that was a far time away and I urned for another break. But as we came back to the city, we were both busy, with my midterms coming up, Nolan's work and a wedding to plan we had found few moments of relief to hold us together. The wedding was nearing and luckily everything was set, guests from overseas had bought their tickets, rooms were being booked for our special day and the venue was all ready to go. "Just, a little bit left today, that's all", he rubbed my back as he laid next to me letting our alarm ring. I rolled over to see his beautiful face as I leaned up and kissed him. "I'm excited", I whispered as he nodded, he leaned above me as he played with my hair taking out pieces. " I am more excited about our honeymoon", he said joyfully in a playful tone as I knew exactly why he said that, and I couldn't lie I was excited about that too. I laughed sligh
"How'd you know I was here?", I asked him as I played with the black cord on the phone."Why are you there?", he asked me as I stretched my arm out and I seemed to not know the answer. He asked me a question with a question and yet I felt I already knew the answer to the first one."He's the only one who knows where she is, she's the only family I have", I told him over the phone. I had been so excited when we first started looking, the foster system is messy especially that she's never been adopted. The fact that it had been a month and still nothing angered me to pieces. I had learned that maybe the most reasonable ways aren't the most ethically safe, but I wanted her to be there and as the wedding neared it feared me everyday where she was and if she knew that there was someone out there in this big, bad world that cared about her."Hey, you have me and we can start our own family, we can get some dogs and in a couple of years we can have our own little family", he comforted me
A special kiss, some people worry about. A special moment some try to create. A special flame some urn for but can never find it. But he was the one who made it special it had never dawned on me that that magical feeling that rushed through my body was all thanks to him.I was back to that day, the first time I saw him, his dashing yet sincere glares and that childish smirk he does. That special flame I had found and everything felt right since then, something I hadn't felt until I saw that goofy grin as I walked down the aisle.He had made me feel alive and yet so loved, something I had thought I was too damaged too broken to feel, but somehow he made it work, we made it work and to this day I could vow that I loved him with every fiber, every part that tingled in my rushing body.His actions never deemed to surprise me, even after all we had been through, he was the one who kept my world spinning.The view didn't seem to disappoint me either, well far from disappointment. He was
His lips dragged across my neck, his hands roamed under my tight black dress, and his eyes never left my face as he pinned me against the bathroom stall of the beach we had visited. I grabbed for his tie as he devoured my lips."Let's get a room", he whispered so gently against my lips and I nodded feeling that urging in my stomach. He redid his tie and dragged my hand along to the front desk."Mr. Clementé I'll show you to the room", the worker said as she smirked and winked at him, he pulled me alongside him as I leaned against his shoulder."That won't be necessary", he took the room key and we dashed off to the room. He slammed me against the room as he fumbled with the key and tried to place it into the holder and just as it opened, I saw the room. There were rose petals leading up to the bed and a large bottle of champagne and fruit left on the tray."This is-", I began talking as Nolan's lips interfered, he kissed me passionately as I began to unbutton his shirt, he worked