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The whole night I had been tossing and turning, I couldn't sleep right, couldn't sleep straight, everything was tossing through my mind and I felt that pinch of guilt seep through my heart.

I lied to him, told him everything was fine, when it wasn't when I was in pain in fear, he wanted to be there for me, but I couldn't risk it.

Nolan had crept out of bed early in the morning and so here I was sitting alone with my horrid thoughts.

I knew he had questions dating back to the start of our relationship to even further. Could he ever trust me again?

My mind was racing around the thought of him never being able to trust me again, to thinking that our whole relationship was a lie. He didn't deserve this, no one did.

Last night was new for him, he had every right to be angry. I hadn't told him what was happening I had left him out of something so big he chose to defend me, without even knowing what happened.

My legs felt cold and numb as I began to stretch my legs to face the thunder