Especially Nolan's crib in the corner it blew my mind that we were two people that had come from two different worlds and yet here we are, having a baby together."Just wait and see", I whispered into his ear, as I pulled him through the door."So it's better than expanding the garage?", he asked and I released his hands from mine. My hands were on the scarf, pulling at the sides. I held onto the scarf for one second."Way better". I let the scarf fall to the ground and I felt the relief and the anticipation to see his yearning face.He turned around, and starred into my eyes with a single tear falling from his eye. He held my hand and looked down at the ground, but then he brought his eyes back to mine and looked at me to know if it was true, if the thing we had been wanting all this time, was here."We're having a baby", I said breathless, as I felt his hands swarm me in a hug. His arms wrapped around me and I felt the overwhelming feeling of happiness and
1 month later"As much as you don't like it, I am perfectly capable of taking care of myself", I reassured Nolan, which was something I did very regularly, ever since the news of the baby had been let out. I had attempted at going to the office multiple times this week, yet he wouldn't let me.Nolan became an overprotective person, even more than he already was. I was scared he was going to start me on a health cleanse.His newest activity was working from home, he sat by me every morning working from his bed. Every morning. As much as I loved the man, he sure knew how to annoy me, with his constant and persistent meetings that he wouldn't even leave the room for.He had made it his role to watch me, every moment and he had started reading articles and he gave my doctor updates about me every week. He was becoming more worried about this than I was."I know you are", he said tapping away on his laptop, and I rolled my eyes efficiently."I'm going to the
I held his hand, as it squeezed mine profoundly, I wanted to leave and so did he. The doctor shooed the worried mothers out of the room as we waited for the news. I couldn't look at his face, something told me he was disappointed.I didn't want to hear the words I had feared of hearing, I had lost the baby again. I knew Nolan would never say it out loud, but he would be disappointed in me. Disappointed and dissatisfied with the fact that I couldn't produce and create his dream, he wanted a family. And in this moment, I felt like I couldn't give it to him, like my body was against the idea."Do you want the bad news first or the good?", she said softly, studying the scans in front of her eyes. She looked at both Nolan and I's face, he said it for us."Bad news first", he said sternly as he gripped onto my hands, I didn't want to disappoint him. He was my world, my heart and me losing this baby again would be the nightmare that would ruin us. We couldn't survive another
2 months later from last chapter and a very early morning "Nolan", I pushed him a bit as he sleepily moved from his side further away. I pushed his body again and he quickly perked up. His eyes fought to stay awake as he looked directly at me and then looked at the clock. "The babies are awake", I pointed to my stomach as he scooted in closer to try to register what I had just said. He moved in closer as I took his hand and he stopped and got up for a second. His cold hand rested on my stomach through my shirt and I felt the little but visible kicks against his hand. They were there. It was dark, dark as night in the room, but I could tell there was a large smile on his face. We had been through the worlds worst curses and feeling a sign of strength from the twins, or any sign of life from them was the best thing in the world. Feeling it was real, feeling it was something like finally coming to terms with the world around us, and it was beautiful. He pulled
"When the babies are born, I won't have to move or leave right?", she asked, nervously. I knew the life of loneliness and never having a stable home, came with a lifetime of insecurities and issues with trust. I had these same feelings as I got closer to Nolan, wondering about when it was time to leave. "This is your home of course it may be a little busy here when the babies come but that doesn't mean you need to go, we want you here and believe me I will be needing major help, but I couldn't think of anyone better that I would want to have be by my side", she seemed relieved and smiled happily at my words. I knew who had caused these insecurities within her, and it angered me how the marks he had made on her were forever there and wouldn't fade with him being gone."I just thought... I don't know what I was thinking", she said trying to justify her thoughts as I pulled her closer. I nodded my head, letting her know no more words needed to be said. I knew why she couldn'
He didn't either, his words caught him off guard, the intensity caught us both off guard. I looked down first, and he quickly let go of my hand. Readjusting himself securely into the seat on his side.The rest of the car ride was silent as Natalie and Paris snickered and talked about the lost time. I couldn't look at Dallas, I was right this car ride would be too awkward for the both of us.Luckily school came into view, where I could finally shake him off and I would hand him the dreaded pack of cigarettes that smelled of smoke.I grabbed for my bag, hoping to leave the car faster than it took for me to rush away from his side at the house."Love you melly have a good day at school", Natalie's cute but dreadful goodbye message, would now be used as a pun to bully me further. I waved to her and said bye, quickly as I saw that Paris got down as well.She was checking Dallas, behind the car so no one could see, except for me. I had front row tickets to an emba
Natalie's POVThe office was the same as how I'd left it, still small, but I felt like a new person, someone entirely different. The last time I had been here was, well I had seen it through a virtual tour, as I was not permitted to enter the building, and the orders came from my overprotective husband who thankfully let me be on my own.As much as I love the man, him being next to me all the time stresses me and the babies out. I appreciated the sentiment, he knew I would run the second he left me alone. And it's sweet he wants to protect the twins from my eager need to take on more than I can manage. But he really must trust me to take care of myself, even though now I'm going against his orders and the doctors, I'm letting myself go to an extent. I'll know when I'm tired.He was sweet and I knew to be thankful for someone who looked out for me, and for someone at all to lean on, my mother she didn't have anyone when she was pregnant with Melody. she was all
She had liked Dallas since he had given her a cigarette in freshman year."I didn't, I promis-", I tried explaining to her, as more students came from behind the doors, tears strung down her face and she looked at me so hurt."It's okay if you did, it's a free world, you know I mean I've liked him forever and no- you can sleep with him, I understand you just got dumped by Zeke. But it's not nice to use people", she spat out, words I would never think would ever premiere out of the corner of the box where we keep the thoughts we don't say out loud. She had now broken this box and was letting her mouth speak freely, with no filter.Phones were being drawn from each corner, and I stood their frozen as people yelled and shouted in defense of the girl suddenly nobody liked, I was just the slutty girl who slept with her friend's crush."Listen I didn't have sex with Dallas", I tried telling her but she just nodded her head and brushed off the people that tried to assis