We rode home in silence. I hated it because it made me nervous, and gave me time to think of what was waiting once we arrived. The wedding consummation. I had never even touched a man before, father made sure of that, and now I would... I shook my head. You're scaring yourself, I scolded myself. Maybe he would spare me tonight if he had someone else to be with.
"Your Highness?" "Yes?" "Do you have another wife, Your Highness?" I asked. I shouldn't have. It was none of my business. Mother had told me to be careful not to ask a prince such questions, but I didn't care. I needed to know what was waiting for me once we reached home. He turned his gaze to me and narrowed his eyes. Did he get angry? "No, I don't." He answered slowly. I was surprised that I felt relieved when I shouldn't have. This would only mean that I would have to spend the night with him. I shivered at the thought. "But I have many mistresses." He finished. Oh, of course. Why didn't I think about it? He was an attractive man and a prince. I wanted to curse, but he suddenly laughed. "You don't seem to like that," He drawled. Why would I? But I couldn't say that, indeed. "It's not for me to like or dislike, Your Highness," I stated simply. He didn't say anything to that. I wondered what his name would be. "Your Highness?" "You may call me Lucian when we are alone". Lucian. I repeated the name in my head. I liked the sound of it. After a while, the carriage stopped, and then a guard informed us that we had arrived. Lucian stepped out of the carriage and offered me his hand. I took it, and he helped me down. The castle was grand and the garden even more luxurious, with green bushes and colorful flowers. The castle was made of ivory walls and several tall, square towers. The towers were connected by large bridges and small windows covered its walls along with gaps for archery and artillery. There was a big fountain in the middle of the garden surrounded by grass and bushed in all kinds of shapes. Different range of flowers were symmetrically scattered across the garden. It was truly a beautiful sight. "Lucian?" someone called and I turned my head to see who. Four men in royal robes approached us from a distance. "We came to welcome you and your bride," One of them spoke as they neared. "Is that so?" Lucian asked. "Of course, we are brothers after all!" The other behind him smirked. Brothers? "Why don't you and your bride join us for dinner?" He suggested. "We would like take a closer look at your bride," and then he shot me a glance. Lucian walked up to his brother, standing only a few inches away from him. It looked like he was trying to intimidate him which clearly worked because suddenly his brother's guards grabbed their weapons as if ready to attack. Lucians guards reached for their weapons as well and there was suddenly tension in the air. What was happening? I thought they were brothers or did I hear wrong? "Thank you brother, but I must decline," Lucian said in a polite tone, that didn't match the menacing look in his eyes. Turning his back to his brother, he took my hand, gripping it hard he dragged me through the halls of the castle. He was angry. "Won't we greet your parents, Your Highness?" I asked. Lucian came to a halt and his grip on my hand loosened. "My mother is dead," he said his voice void of any emotion, "and the King, do not worry about him, he does not matter," he added then started walking again, only this time he didn't drag me. As we strode through the halls with Lucian still holding my hand two maids appeared in front of us. "Your Highness," they greeted with a bow. "With your permission, we would like to prepare Her Highness." They inquired. Prepare me for what? Preparing is what I have been doing my entire life. At first, Lucian didn't let go of my hand, but when the maids gave him a pleading look he released me and left without a word. The maids motioned for me to follow them and led me to a dressing room where they helped me get out of my wedding dress and slip into a beautiful white nightgown with its matching robe, both made of silk. They took out the pins in my hair and let it fall in waves. After putting some scents onto my skin, they served me tea. "What's this?" I asked. "It's a herb tea that will help you relax and decrease the pain, Your Highness." "What pain?" I said, but then realized what they were talking about. They must have seen the horror on my face because I could see pity on theirs. Why did they pity me? Was he going to be rough with me? Well, he didn't seem like the gentle type from the way he gripped my wrist earlier. It was as if his hand was made of steel. "I don't need it," I said and stood up straight. "Just take me to the chamber". They hesitated but then followed my orders and led me to our private chamber where they sat me down on the bed. Adjusting my hair and gown they took one last look to see if everything was perfect. "We will inform His Highness that you are ready," they informed and left. The worst scenarios appeared in my head and my heart pounded so hard in my chest that it was getting difficult to breathe. My hands started to sweat and my head began to spin. I waited for what seemed like hours but was likely just minutes. After the long wait, the door finally opened and Lucian stepped inside. Closing the door behind him he just stood there for a while, studying me with those odd eyes of his before approaching me slowly. "Aren't you tired?" he asked standing a few steps away. "I am, Your Highness." "Lucian," he corrected. "Lucian," I repeated, in barely a whisper. "Then we should go to sleep," he said and lay down on the bed next to where I sat. "I am tired too." ****** Lucian looked at the woman in front of him. She looked so frightened. He wondered if she was scared for the obvious reasons, or if she was scared because she had heard the rumors about him. Either way, he didn't blame her. Most people feared him, even his own father. He never dared to look his son in the eyes. Lucian always wondered what he had done to make his father fear him. He always knew that he was different. He had even scared himself when he was a little boy, when he had discovered what he could do. When he, for the first time, moved an object with just a thought, or when he had wished his brother could burn, and then suddenly his brothers' clothes were on fire. Everyone rushing to help him get out of the flaming clothes. That day he had been him; he would just scare him even more, and his mother was dead. He wondered how she would react. His brothers used to play with him at first, but then when they got older and started their training, they noticed he was faster, stronger and a better fighter. He was also a very skilled swordsman; his teachers always praised him. But his brothers, they mocked him, telling him to stop cheating. ′Cheating is what the Devil does,′ they would say. The maids had mixed feelings about him. They were as attracted to him as they were scared. Some of them liked the thrill, the danger. The young ones would give him seductive glances, but the older maids would warn them. 'Be careful,' they would say, 'tempting people and making them sin is what he does.' Some would listen some wouldn't. The only people who didn't fear him or hate him were his men. His soldiers. They were tough men who didn't believe in rumors. They respected him. Still, they weren't his family; he could only talk business with them. Lucian looked at the woman now laying beside him. The woman who was his family now. She was laying so far out on the edge he was afraid she would fall from the bed. She didn't even move, she was so stiff. Even though he told her to sleep, he could still hear her heart beating wildly inside her chest. She had surprised him earlier with her bold questions. He liked her so far; she amused him. Lucian remembered the look on her face when he told her that he had mistresses. She was probably the jealous type. I guess I like jealous, he thought, smiling to himself. And when she played the flute, and when she had whispered his name. Now she was as timid as a rabbit. That, he didn't like. He didn't like a timid person, she seems like a timorous and scary type and he didn't like that. He wanted someone strong,brave and bold, someone who could accept his status. He kept staring at her, she was so beautiful. Though he wasn't seeing his face but he knew she was frightened with the way she shrank her body. He signed slightly and lay down his head on his bed. ************ I woke up with a knock on the door. I stirred and slowly sat on the bed. I turned to the direction where Lucian lay last night but I couldn't find him. He had probably left. I yawn quietly and slowly glance at the chamber. The chamber was so beautiful and was smelling of rich. Everything was designed with golden stones, clothes, chairs and bed. He closet was made with a silver brainstorm. It was enchanting. Then the knock came again. "My lady!! Should I come in." "Yes!" I said almost to myself wondering if she could hear it but she did. The door was opened and two maids stepped in, I glanced at them curiously. "We are here to dress you up my Lady." They said with a bow. I glanced at them. "Don't worry I can help myself with that." I smiled, not that I can. I haven't bath nor dress up by myself before. I just feel uncomfortable because it wasn't Helen and Isla, they are the only people that I can allow to bath nor dress me up. I'd rather do them myself. "But my lady.!! Prince Lucian will get angry. He will punish us if we didn't." One of the lady who I later figured out her name as Klara said with a quivering lips. "Do you see Lucian..ohh I mean your majesty out there ??." I asked and the wagged their head. "Okay so go prepare the bath." I smiled, they bowed slightly and walked out towards the bathroom.Now everywhere was intensed as we sat on the family dining table for a family meal. I was already feeling uncomfortable by the awkward silent. Lucian was eating along side with his brothers and wives with the king. I took a porch of meal in my mouth as I chew it voidly. Then I started feeling hot, my body was burning, my dress was wet. I felt my leg trembled under the table. Lucian noticed this because he was sitting next to me, still gazing at his meal, he slowly reach for my hand under the table and squeezed it carefully. I stared at him, he was indeed enchanting. Once you look at him, it's quite difficult to avert your gaze. I smiled as I gazed at his eyes, it gave me a little hope. It made me feel better. "So little brother. How was it" One of the prince winked at him. He was the second son "She's beautiful, how were you able to find such a beautiful damsel. She's too beautiful to be your wife. I believe she's too good on the bed" The first prince, Xender laughed giving me
Lucian stare blankly at Ava. They were sitting in the garden. He was surprised again, this woman never ceased to amaze him. He still couldn't believe she stood that horrifying scene. His inner demon has been disturbing him lately, he needs blood and he needed to feed him before it gets out of hand. Ava was the first person that wasn't afraid of him. He hated the fact that everyone was afraid of him. Immediately Ava gaze met him, he quickly averted his pretending to be staring beside her. "Why didn't you run away?" He asked cozily. Slowly turning to stare at her "Huh!?????...erm, nothing. Why would I run away." Ava stuttered quickly averting her gaze from him. "I shouldn't have allowed you see that, don't stay close next time ." Lucian said lightly "See Lucian, you are my husband. There's nothing both of us can do about it. So, I don't see any reason why I should be far from you. Of course I was scared but you are my husband so I have to stick to that and
That night I had a dream. I was running, terrified. I was running for my life, and something was chasing me. Something dark. Something with intent to kill. I couldn't see it but I could feel its presence. It wanted me. It was hungry and angry and it wouldn't stop hunting me until it caught me. I ran so fast that I stumbled on my own feet and fell. It was close now; it would catch me. A dark figure slowly appeared from the shadows. It had red eyes and horns. Black horns, curling like the devils. It stretched its hands toward me. I could see its nails that looked more like claws. They were coming closer. I shrieked a high, panicked sound. It had caught me, and now it was shaking me. "My Lady! My Lady!" a gentle voice urged. I shot my eyes open with a gasp and found Lucian looming over me. "You're ok," He assured, brushing something away from my face. "It was just a dream."I was panting and sweat dripped down my face. I was scared and confused. Lucian pulled me to his chest. He held
Once they arrived at their chamber Lucian noticed that Hazel had a frown on her face."Is everything alright?" He asked."Yes," She said her gaze slowly turning to the window. "Can I go outside to thegarden?"Lucian noticed that she liked being outside, so he decided to take her not only outsidethe room but outside the castle. Her eyes twinkled when he told her about it.In the courtyard stood the stables, and he led her inside to show her his own horse, abeautiful chestnut with a white star on his yank."Can you ride?" He asked her."No" she replied, embarrassed."Then you should ride with me." He suggested.Hazel nodded.Lucian helped her up and she sat behind him on the horse. "Hold on."She seemed to hesitate, but then ever so slowly she put her arms around his waist andheld him lightly, almost not touching. But as soon as they started riding, her griptightened, pressing her soft and warm body against his back."Is it too fast?""No," she replied but her tight hold around his
His voice, his scent, the warmth of his body, all filled my senses and made me unable to think clearly. Before I knew he was carrying me to our chamber, and then laid me down on the bed. Bed? Wait, no!He lay down next to me and when I tried to get up, he put an arm around my shoulders and held me down."Lay still and let me hold you," he said, taking his arm away from my shoulders and putting them around my waist instead."Why?""Because I like holding you and you like it when I do that" he replied."And how would you know?" I said, a teasing lilt to my voice."What? You don't like it?" I was afraid that if I said I liked it he would want to take it to the next level, but I didn't want to lie either."It's... alright" I said cautiously, a shy smile making its way to my face. He grabbed my chin and made me turn around to face him."Is my touch just alright?"He let go of my chin and traced with his fingers down my neck and up my shoulder, removing my robe from one side. My pulse quick
"You are not the only one who wants to treat someone well," I said, ignoring the pain his grip caused. He looked at me for a while. The flames in his eyes slowly dying and their color becoming golden again. He let go of my neck and looked down as if regretting what he had just done. "You should... take your shirt off," I said. Walking back to the bed, he ripped his shirt open, showing a perfectly toned stomach and chest. The muscles in his arm twitched as he lay down on the bed. "Are you just going to stare?" he asked. Embarrassed I hurried to the bed, sat down, and started cleaning his wounds. This was horrible. The wounds seemed deep and they would probably leave scars on his back. It must have hurt a lot. Was his family always so cruel to him? And I had thought my family were too cruel. I wondered what his childhood was like. Was he always like this? Rejected by his family, bullied and punished? He must have been so lonely. "Why are you crying?" A tear fell down my cheek. Am I
"Hazel! Hazel!" Lucian called, his voice filled with pain and agony. Was he in pain? No, he couldn't be. I couldn't be hearing this, but I heard my name again "Hazel". Maybe all this wasn't in my head, maybe he was calling for me. I climbed down from the bed, put my robe on, and stalked out of the room. "Where is His Highness?" I asked two guards walking through the hall. "I am sorry Your Highness, but we can't tell you. He doesn't want to be disturbed." Disturbed? So I would disturb him? Of course, he was having fun with his mistress, and here I am worried about him for nothing. I decided not to worry or care anymore and went back to bed. Opening my eyes with a yawn I scanned my surroundings. Lucian was sitting in front of the mirror and a maid was combing his hair. Her fingers caressed his cheek and neck when she tried to gather some strands of his hair. I could see that she didn't touch him accidentally, she was doing it on purpose. Disturbed by her action I climbed down from
A shiver went down my spine. The way he said it and the look in his eyes told me he was serious. "Why are you shocked? If I can beat you and kill you then why not burn you?" My throat went dry and I couldn't bring myself to say something. Sighing, he stood up and left without a word. I didn't see him for the rest of the day. He didn't come for breakfast or lunch and when it was time for dinner I asked one of the guards where he was. "His Highness went on a business journey, he won't return until tomorrow," He explained. Even if he was angry, he should have told me. Yet another night I slept alone, but instead of feeling relieved, I felt lonely. When I woke up in the morning the first thing that came to my mind was Lucian. Was he still on his journey or had he already arrived? "Has his highness come yet?" I asked the maid while she combed my hair. "No your highness" I sighed in disappointment. What if he was still angry and decided not to come? A knock on the d
I laid in the bathtub filled with hot water, thinking about what the guards had said about me. I shouldn’t have slapped Lucian in front of his men. It was disrespectful, and still he hadn’t got angry with me. He was asleep when I came back to the room, so I asked a maid to prepare a hot bath for me. The hot water was soothing, relaxing my tense muscles until it felt like a massage and in a moment it made fall into a deep sleep.I woke up shifting in the bed. The soft satin sheets rubbed against my skin and I realized I was not wearing much. I quickly sat up on the bed and lifted the sheet up. I was only wearing a towel, my shoulders, legs and thighs were bare. It took me a moment to remember that I was taking a bath earlier and fell asleep and now I was here. How?A sound made me look to my left. Lucian was sitting in a chair, a glass of wine in his hands as he studied me with those extraordinary eyes. He was the only one who could have brought me here, which meant that he had seen me
Klara kept glancing Lucian's way as we ate our breakfast, while the King and Lucian spoke informally with each other, which surprised me. The King was willing to help Lucian as they were already speaking of how to win this war. I only feared he would ask for something in exchange. Something bad."You should stay here until the King dies, then we will take action," the King said. As if waiting for someone's death was a daily occurrence. "Rasmus? can you stop acting like a King at least until we eat our breakfast?" Klara asked.Rasmus, Klara, Astrid: their names sounded northern. "Of course" Rasmus smiled at his sister. "We have a party tonight. I hope you can attend after you have rested," he then said to me and Lucian. "Of course" Lucian replied. "Astrid, why don't you take them to a nice room. I am sure they would like to rest."I was so tired, but as I laid on the bed next to Lucian all I could do was ask questions. "You seem to know Rasmus pretty well," I began. "Yes," was a
We rode swiftly through the woods, leaving my father behind—disappointed that he had failed to make me stay."Are you sure you want to come with me?" Lucian had asked before we left. "Your life will be in danger."I had already made up my mind. I would rather live in danger than feel like a dead person. But that wasn’t the only reason I refused to stay—I wanted to be with Lucian.Now, as we slowed down, Lucian turned to me. "Feeling alright?""Yes, I’m fine. I think I’m getting used to it," I replied, feeling slightly exhilarated from the ride. "Where are we going?""To Gatrish," he said.I stiffened. Gatrish—a kingdom known for its wars, slavery, and prostitution. Its king was infamous, a cruel man with an insatiable thirst for blood and an even greater appetite for women. It was said he took a new wife and concubine every day, that liquor, parties, and debauchery were as much a part of his routine as breathing."Are you sure it’s a good idea to go there?" I asked, wary."I know thei
"Ah, the wounds? They healed," he said simply, pulling the robe over his shoulders."That's impossible! They can't heal that fast, and even if they did, they would leave scars," I argued, still trying to make sense of it all."Well, they healed, and they didn’t leave scars," he replied dismissively. "Now, your father is waiting. I need to get going."I stared at him as he walked into the bathroom, my mind racing. Not possible. That was all my brain kept telling me.After bathing, dressing up, and getting my hair done with the help of the maids, I made my way to the dining room. Lucian had already left—probably not wanting to keep my father waiting.As I opened the door and stepped inside, a heavy tension filled the room. Father sat at the head of the table, while Mother and Lucian sat across from each other along the sides.No one was eating.Lucian’s hands were clenched under the table, his jaw tight. Father's expression was stone-cold, filled with displeasure. Neither of them even n
We sat leaning against a tree after Lucian told his men that we should rest for a while. I knew he was doing it for me. "Where are we going?" I asked. "To Maebeth. To your family." He was going to ask my father to help in this war between brothers. "Will you really kill your brothers?" I asked carefully. "Yes" he said without hesitation. I shivered at the thought. "Even your nephews?" he clenched his jaw and closed his eyes, then opened them again."I won't have to kill them because my brothers will." Why? They are just kids. Why kill your family for the throne? That's something I could never understand. Standing up "we should continue" he said. We continued our journey, and I was thankful that Maebeth wasn't far away from Decresh, so we reached there at night, after riding the whole day. My three brothers were the ones to welcome us. They spoke mostly to Lucian, ignoring me totally. I wasn't expecting more; we were never close. Our family always separated men and women. While m
Lucian gazed down at Hazel as she blushed, and he couldn't help but bring his hand up and caress her pink cheek with his thumb. Heavens knew how much he wanted to lean down and kiss her. She was tempting him with this red dress and her bare neck and shoulders. He had been surprised and relieved that he hadn't forced himself on her last night when his demon was in control. Seems that his demon craves Hazel as much as he does the only difference is that his demon doesn't care about Hazel's feelings while Lucian does. "Are you alright? I heard that the king is unwell" she asked worried. He had almost forgotten the big problem he had to deal with when he saw her. "Hazel, I want you to pack some clothes, we will leave the castle". He didn't want for Hazel to stay another minute here. The king could die anytime and he knew that he would be the one to be attacked first, since his brothers hated him. Hazel looked confused at him "I will explain everything on the way" he said "now hurry!".O
I lay in the bathtub as Helen washed my hair after Lucian had left to let me sleep some more. I knew she wanted to ask something but didn't know if she should, so she was silent. "He kissed me," I said. Her eyes sparkled. "Really? Finally!" she said, "How did it feel?" "It felt..." I remembered when our lips touched the warmth that spread through my body and when our lips separated the emptiness and coldness that came with it. I wanted more, "It felt good," I said."But you just kissed nothing more?" she asked. "No," "Don't worry there will be more," she said. "Helen?" "Yes, my lady," "How does the first time feel?" I asked. She sensed that I was worried it would hurt and that I wouldn't like it. Just the thought of being naked in front of a man made my cheeks burn. "Don't worry. I am sure his highness will be gentle since he seems to care for you" she said reassuring me "trust me, no man would have waited so long for the woman to agree. He would have taken you whether you li
What just happened? Only a taste of her lips and he could feel his demon wanting to come out. He only felt like that when he was really angry, then his demon would come out to punish whoever enraged him. As time went he had learned to control his anger and keep the demon in check. It has been a long time since his demon wanted to come out so why now?Take her! She is yours. She belongs to you. The voice inside his head commanded. "Is something wrong?" Hazel asked confused as she walked closer to him."Don't come close!" he almost yelled wrapping his arms around his body. He could see hurt in her eyes but he didn't want to hurt her like the time he set his brother on fire. Everytime his demon wanted out he did bad things.Hazel turned around and started to walk away. She was probably angry which he could understand but how could he explain. He couldn't even go after her he needed to calm his demon down first.*******Tears filled my eyes as I walked away. It was my first kiss and he w
I sat on the bed waiting for Lucian to come after eating dinner without him yet another night. There were a lot of things we needed to talk about but I didn't want to fight with him again.Because that's what you think about me. You think I am a beast who beats and kills people then you would think that I can burn them as well right?His voice echoed in my head. I never thought of him as a beast I just thought that he was different. He looked hurt before walking out of the dining room as if he didn't want to see me again and I wondered if he really wouldn't come. Would I have to sleep alone again? I didn't even get the chance to thank him for bringing Helen and Isla.I decided not to sleep alone and go look for him. I looked everywhere but couldn't find him. Where could he be? "Do you know where I can find his highness?" I asked a guard. "He is in the barn, Your highness." I made my way to the barn where I found Lucian feeding his horse. It was dark inside and the only light came f