Ava
Finding out my father sold me off to a sadistic Mafia Don to save himself was not how I expected my twenty-first birthday to go. But alas. Here, I am. “Are you okay?” My father asks, his voice layered with concern. I turn to observe him, my eyes roaming up and down his slouched shoulders. He was dressed in a black tuxedo one of the men who had brought us in had given him shortly after we arrived at the church. His hair was pushed back, the result of countless hand motions through the balding strands in order to appear much younger than he actually was. It doesn't work. “Ava… Please talk to me” I let out a breath, then pressed my lips together forming a thin line. How exactly did he expect me to answer that? Oh, of course, Dad, I’m fine; it’s great that you sold me to a literal mafia boss to save your life; I totally understand and forgive you. My lips twist downward at the thought. My father had sold me to one of the most ruthless men in all of Chicago in order to save his neck and waited until my wedding, which just so happens to be my birthday day, to tell me about it. Can you believe that? He waited until the day of my literal wedding day, despite knowing for months, to tell me what he had done. Two of Antonio's men had stormed into my bedroom and forced me and my father into a car before driving us to the chapel where my soon-to-be father-in-law and husband-to-be were waiting. We were currently in the dressing room, and while my father was doing a terrible job at calming me down, I had resorted to giving him the silent treatment. My gaze wandered to the mirror, admiring how the ivory fabric of the wedding dress I was given minutes ago hugged my body. I always imagined wearing my mother’s wedding dress on my wedding day, but the delicate lace clinging to my curves was nothing like the once-white satin dress buried away along with the rest of my mother’s things in the attic. “You can’t remain silent forever. Sooner or later, you’re going to have to talk to me.” his voice cut through my thoughts, but I couldn’t bring myself to reply to him. Instead, I continue to fix my gaze on my dress in the mirror, pretending to be oblivious to his persistence. His voice rang again, softly this time, “I know this whole arrangement may seem a little… unexpected but you have to understand, this was the only thing he wanted. You were the only thing he wanted.” Il Mercante di Morte. Merchant of death. It was what the Italian mafia called men like my father. Men who sold weapons to the mafia in exchange for temporary power, and were too blind to see the inevitable consequences their actions would cause. My father believed he could outsmart men who built their empires on the blood of their enemies and the loyalty of their partners and that was the beginning of his and my downfall. The Moretti Family was one of the three crime families that operated in Chicago. The families were of Italian, Russian and Irish descent but the Morettis were the most ruthless of them all. Their Leader, Alessandro Moretti, was a man known for his precision and unwavering authority. He ran his business like a well-oiled machine and left no room for screw-ups. Two months ago, my father made the mistake of selling faulty guns to the Moretti Mafia. His actions resulted in the death of three of Alessandro's men. One of which was his nephew. As you would expect Alessandro wasn’t too pleased to find out that the cause of his nephew's death was my father. A life for a life was the number one rule of the mafia and Alessandro was determined to make my father pay with his. Until he saw me. Well a picture of me. On my father's table. He took one look at that picture and decided that I would be the perfect fit for his son. As his bride. As twisted as it sounded, Alessandro Moretti believed that forcing my father to give up his only daughter to his son would be punishment enough for my father. “You sold me.” the words fell from my lips before I could stop them. My nails bite into the flesh of my palm as I stare at him through glassy eyes. He tipped his head back, briefly closing his eyes, “Ava, it isn’t like that. Alessandro… this was all he wanted. For you to marry his son. If I hadn't agreed to this he would've killed the both of us. I didn't have a choice.” “You had a choice. You could’ve chosen not to sell off your only daughter to a monster. But you didn’t.” He ran his fingers through his thinning hair, finally meeting my gaze. “Antonio will be good to you. His father will make sure of it.” I almost laughed at how convinced he sounded that Alessandro, a man who was notoriously known for going back on his words, would ensure that his son would treat me well. As the next in line for his father's role as the head of the Moretti family, Antonio Moretti was as ruthless and vile as they came. I had heard rumours about my future husband. About how he killed without a second thought and how he was willing to do anything and everything to get what he wanted. He was a murderer and a rapist who spent most of his nights visiting clubs, surrounded by women, alcohol and drugs. Although his father had spent most of his life preparing him to become the perfect successor, Antonio had fallen short in his path to being the next head of the Moretti Mafia. It was one of the reasons Antonio's father was desperate to get him married. Alessandro was getting old and Antonio had shown no interest in settling down. The mafia needed heirs to survive, and since neither of Alessandro's children was interested in marriage, he was forced to play the role of matchmaker in their lives. A soft knock echoes through the room and I drag my gaze towards the door where it's coming from. “Two minutes until the ceremony.” A voice says. My shoulder stiffens. I wait until the footsteps fade away before turning to my father once more. My heart sinks. I turn to my father, my tone desperate as I beg, “Please don’t make me do this.” He had to see that this was wrong. That he was making a mistake. My father looks away, shoulders slumped as he stands there, defeated. His unspoken reply simmers in the silence. It’s already been done. My heart hammers against my rib cage as the heavy oak doors of the chapel fall open. Silence falls over the guests as they stand and turn around to witness my entrance. Breathe, I remind myself because it appears that I have forgotten. The grand cathedral, adorned with white roses and soft lighting looks like something out of a dream. White rose petals lay scattered across a narrow crimson aisle that ran from the grand entrance down to the altar where my future husband stood. The sight would’ve been breathtaking if it wasn’t for the tiny knot of dread gnawing at my chest. My father bent his arm, extending his elbow for me to hold on to. With trembling fingers, I settle my right hand over the smooth fabric of his tuxedo jacket. The delicate fragrance of roses lingers in the air as my father begins our descent down the aisle. My eyes sifted through the faces that filled each pew. I had never met any of these people but yet Alessandro had deemed each of them of utmost importance to be in attendance. I wondered if they were aware of the circumstances surrounding this wedding. Did they even care that they were attending the wedding of a man who had caused suffering to hundreds? My father mumbles something under his breath, but I pay him no mind. Instead, my gaze finds the man I will soon refer to as my husband in a matter of minutes. He isn't much taller than me. His face is round and chubby and reminds me more of the weirdly shaped potato my brother Aaron found in my mother's garden when we were children. His hair is dark and noticeably thinning with bald spots at the center of his scalp. The buttons of his tux strain around his belly as they try to keep the fabric taut. He wasn't attractive by any means but I already knew this. I suppose that’s what happens when you’re in your late forties and as powerful as Antonio. You tend to let yourself go. But none of that bothers me the way his eyes do. Dark and soulless. Antonio watches me walk down the aisle with the same predatory intensity as a lion stalking its next prey. They say the eyes are the window to the soul, and when Antonio's gaze briefly collides with mine, I see his. And it makes me sick. Bile rushes up my throat but I push it down. His gaze never leaves mine, and the closer I get to the altar, the more my heart sinks. An irresistible urge to turn around and run away grows with each passing second, but I know I won't be able to take a single step before a bullet finds its way up the back of my skull. My father releases my hand once we've reached Antonio and for a moment I allow myself to believe that he has come to his senses and is letting me go but my momentary relief is soon replaced with an unnerving sense of panic as Antonio extends his big grubby palm towards me and without waiting, takes my hand from my father. The moment His fingers curl around my wrist, a jolt of revulsion shoots through me, I fight the urge to jerk away, forcing myself to accept the unwelcome weight of his touch. From the corner of my eye, I see the handle of a gun sticking out from Antonio’s best man’s pants. I swallowed and forced my eyes away from the weapon. Instead, I readjusted my gaze to the balding man in front of me. The corner of Antonio’s lips curl into a cruel, sadistic smirk and he squeezes my hand, the warning he intended clear in his grip. Try anything and you’re dead. “Smile”, comes his cruel voice “It's your wedding day.” I do as he says. Forcing a tight-lipped smile onto my lips. His smirk widens. “Better,” he says and turns to the priest, signalling him to begin the ceremony. “Dearly beloved,” the priest began, “We are gathered here today to join your daughter Ava Blackwood and your son Antonio Moretti in holy Matrimony…” From the corner of my eye, I find Antonio's eyes locked onto the swell of my breast. He darts his tongue out, licking his bottom lip and disgust knots around my stomach. The hall is silent when the priests ask if there are any objections. Nobody says a word. Please, God, save me. Please, God… The priest turns to me. “Do you, Ava Blackwood, take Antonio Moretti to be your lawfully wedded husband as long as you both shall live?” I swipe my tongue over my bottom lip and open my mouth to say the words I know will seal my fate forever, when a voice erupts from the back of the room, stopping me. “Well, Well, Well, isn’t this lovely?” The intruder starts, each word accompanied by a deliberate slow clap. His voice is smooth and deep, sending a shiver through me. Each word is laced with a faint Russian accent, tangling around each syllable that leaves his lips. Murmurs break out from the audience while I turn around narrowing my eyes, trying to find the cause of the disruption. My breath catches in my throat when my gaze collides with a pair of deep green eyes. There, at the back of the room, stood the most devastatingly handsome man I had ever seen, leaning against the door frame of the exit. A dim light flickered above him and I watched as the intruder made his way towards us. Something about his presence changed the atmosphere in the room. It consumed me. How easily his presence changed the room. There was something about him that went beyond his height and the impressive bulk of his frame. Power. Pretty quickly I concluded that he was one of them. Except he shouldn’t be here. He wasn't invited. Yet, there he was. My lips parted in a gasp as my eyes swept over his features. He was striking, in a dangerously unsettling way. His sharp jawline and neatly trimmed beard gave him an air of calculated refinement, but there was nothing soft about him. He was dressed in a plain white shirt that showed off the planes of his broad shoulders. The fabric clung to his frame and the first two buttons were undone, exposing the patterns of dark ink etched in his skin from the side of his neck to the center of his chest and lower. An unexpected image of me tracing the curves of the design inscribed in his skin with my finger suddenly flashed through my mind, startling me. I've never been one to fawn over tattoos but on him the ink only added to the allure. “What is the meaning of this?” Alessandro roared, rising to his feet, his face flushed with rage. A thick vein bulged the side of his neck, pulsing with his anger. I barely have time to register Antonio's grip on my wrist before he yanks me to his side, his fingers pressing into my skin as he turns to face the stranger. "Do you have any idea what you’ve just done.” he growled, his voice thick with barely contained rage. The intruder pauses mid stride. His Green eyes find mine in the midst of the chaos and I freeze. Those eyes. I've seen them before. But where? I frown, urging my brain to recall where I’d seen him and instead come up blank. “You” it's my father's voice that slices through the tension. His eyes are wide like he's just seen a ghost, except he's looking directly at the intruder, “It can’t be… you’re supposed to be dead.” Dead? Did my father know this man? Uneasiness crept through me. There was something about my father's reaction that told me I was missing something. A maniacal grin curled at the corner of the intruder's lips, a flicker of amusement dancing in his eyes. “I got better” “Enough!” Alessandro roars, settling his angry gaze on my father, “Do you know this man Marcus?” My father doesn't respond. “Allow me to introduce myself.” the stranger began, his voice low and dripping with menace.“My name is Nikolai Volkov and I believe you have something that belongs to me.”AVA I believe you have something that belongs to me. His words linger in the air for only a second before gasps erupt from the audience. My heart hammered against my ribs, and I blinked at the intruder in disbelief. His? What was he talking about? My gaze finds my father. He stands frozen, his lips slightly parted and eyes wide with shock as he looks at the man who called himself Nikolai. “What is going on Marcus!” Alessandro roared, his rage-filled gaze fixed on my father. His face filled with rage. A smile peaked at the corner of the intruder’s lips as he shoved his hands into his pocket. “It’s quite simple, Alessandro. You’ve been played.” Played? As if snapped from a trance My father looked up, his gaze finding mine amid the chaos. Remorse clouded his features. “Forgive me, Ava.” my father says, giving me an apologetic look. My brows knitted together as a slow wave of dread settled at the pit of my stomach, “What have you done?” “It was a long time ago.”
Ava I was married. Married. I still couldn't believe it. I was married to a man who crashed my wedding ceremony, declaring that my father had sold me to him when I was only seven. That couldn't have been legal. Oh, and that’s not even the crazy part. Far from it actually. Not only was I married to this crazy person, but apparently, this man was the long-lost heir of the Russian Mafia who was supposed to be dead. And they say weddings aren't fun. I drag my gaze towards the man seated in the driver's seat just a few inches away from me. He sits there composed and unruffled, an effortless control radiating off him like he hadn't just hurled me on his shoulder and out of the church like a caveman seconds ago. There was no denying the fact that the man beside me was the most painstakingly gorgeous man I had ever seen. His chiselled jaw, sharp cheekbones and tousled dark hair framed a face that belonged on the statue of a Greek god. But that still didn't give him the r
Nikolai Volkov “Papa” Kira's excited squeal hits me before I see her. She runs up to me, wrapping her tiny arms around my leg like a vine. It's a habit she's developed recently and one I planned on breaking - eventually. Her small, chubby face beams up at me, and her eyes sparkle with the kind of joy that I've become immune to. I let out a breath, resting my head on her curls. “What are you doing here Kira? You're supposed to be with Lydia” Kira giggles, clearly missing the annoyance in my tone. She's made a habit of escaping her nanny at every little opportunity since we got back from Russia. It was a habit that was becoming increasingly worrisome, considering she was a five-year-old child who thought that every opportunity should be seized to play hide and seek. Shaking her head, she grins up at me, revealing a missing tooth that was still intact when I left this morning. I make a mental note to put a hundred-dollar bill under her pillow tonight because the last thi
Ava I hardly get any sleep throughout the night. Each time my eyes fluttered shut, Nikolai’s face would emerge from the darkness, just inches from mine, the words he said yesterday lingering in the space between our barely touching lips. I had spent the majority of the night reminiscing about the events of my botched birthday turned wedding day trying to make sense of my current situation. Letting out a disgruntled groan, I turn away from the harsh rays of sunlight streaming in from my windows. Everything was so confusing. My entire life had changed. Everything I knew had been ripped out from under my feet and without an anchor, I had come crashing down into a pile of confusion and uncertainty. Nothing about my life felt real anymore. In the last twenty-four hours, I had gone from birthday girl to wife-to-be, and now I was married to a man whom I barely knew anything about and trapped in his house. Could my life get any worse? The low rumble of my stomach forces me out o
Ava The walls of Nikolai's office are cloaked in a deep charcoal that blends seamlessly into the dark wood design, creating an intense atmosphere. The shelves are filled with all kinds of books, new and old, all turned to the spine. The books are arranged in such precise colour coordination that they look a bit too perfect. The space is much bigger than I expected it to be and I'm almost consumed by its vastness. A large mahogany desk stands at the centre of it all, polished to a gleam with neatly stacked papers arranged on each side, and not a single paper document out of place. A sleek black leather chair stands just behind the desk, its high back giving off an air of authority against the soft glow of the crystal chandelier above the room. Nikolai occupies the chair, matte-framed glasses perched on the bridge of his nose as his pen moves frantically over a document, his brows furrowing in concentration. In the last twenty minutes I've been seated opposite this man
Ava "No" The word tumbles out of my mouth in a rapid fit. I shoot out from my chair, instinctively stepping away from him. A wave of disgust trickles up my spine before sinking its claws around my throat. "No?" Nikolai’s voice is deceptively soft, but his eyes flash with a dangerous intensity as he leans back against his desk. You would think he had never heard the word before with the way he was looking at me. "No" I repeat, firmer this time. "I will not help you kill my father. My God, what is wrong with you? I mean, I knew you were insane, but this? This is a whole new level, even for the likes of you." He leans back against his desk, watching me. He remains annoyingly calm, unfazed by my reaction. "Your father isn't the man you think he is.", My brows furrow as I try to read his expression"What's that supposed to mean?" He steps closer and runs a hand along his jaw, "Your father has blood on his hands, Solnishko, Russian blood to be exact." My shoulders stiffen,
Ava. The devil is real. And he is not a little red man with horns and a fork for a tongue. No, he can be beautiful. A fact I think most people forget. Nikolai was the devil in this scenario, and much like the actual devil, he was the ruler of my personal version of hell. He consumes my thoughts as l lay in bed, tangled in the sheets, our conversation from hours ago - if you could consider it that- replay in my mind. My thoughts drift back to his request in his office and I feel a knot tighten in my stomach at the memory. It was already dark outside, the cool glow of the moon slipped in through my window, casting a dim light across my bedroom floor. I had spent the last couple of hours locked up in here, trying to rid myself of the anger that had now turned to confusion that still burned brightly within me. Nikolai was accusing my father of murdering his brother who just so happened to be Kira's biological father. He wanted revenge for the blood my father spilled and he wa
Ava “Interesting” Kat hums to herself the next day when I tell her what happened with Kira. I shoot her a questioning look and arch my left brow, “What's so interesting about it?” We were currently lazing about by the pool which is something you wouldn't expect two adults to be doing on a Monday afternoon. Kat had insisted that a pool day was what we needed to solidify our bond in best friend-in-lawhood - her words, not mine- and I was too much of a people pleaser to refuse and just sort of went with it. “What is so interesting about it is that Kira doesn't just crawl into bed with anyone after having a nightmare. She only prefers it when Nikolai consoles her and the fact that she went to your room after one is just… odd.” I kick my feet against the water as I listen to her. “There was nothing odd about it.” I tell her, “Nikolai wasn't home, and I just so happened to be the only one awake. I'm sure if she knew that you were awake too she would've gone to you and Ivan’s roo
Nikolai. "Fuck" I curse when the pan slips from my fingers, landing on the tiles with a loud clang. My daughter's head snaps towards me instantly, fixing me with a look I know all too well. "You said a bad word" I sigh, running my fingers through my hair as I bend over to retrieve the now dented frying pan. When I straighten, her tiny arms are crossed over her chest, her bottom lip jutted out and she's pinning me with a stern look. "That's three swear words today", she announces, looking every bit excited at my slip-ups. I always try my best to avoid using 'bad words' as my daughter likes to call them around her, but making breakfast at the ass crack of dawn isn't exactly something I'm built for, and it shows. "Are you keeping count now printsessa?" She nods, grinning ear to ear, "Mhm. And you owe the swear jar three dollars." Ah yes, how could I possibly have forgotten about the swear jar? No wonder she looked so excited. Kat introduced the swear jar shortly after I beca
AvaBy the time we reach the mansion, I'm shaking through my skin and can barely keep the trembling in my bones at bay.He's back.My father, the man who'd sold me not once but twice and ran away, was back. And he’d been at the hospital, watching me.A violent shudder rocked through me, nausea churning in the pit of my stomach.Did he know I was going to be there? How long has he been back? How long has he been following me? And why hadn’t I noticed until now? How long..."Your hands are shaking" The words drag me from my spiralling thoughts, and I blink, realizing the car is no longer moving."Huh?""Your hands," She nods towards the fist still clenched around my sweater in a death vice, "They're shaking"Her brows pinch together, "Are you cold?"Cold? No. Shocked? Definitely. But with everything that's going on with Kat, I can't tell her what's really happening. At least not until I'm sure myself. So I lie."Yes," I nod, then tug the sleeve of my sweater down to add to my dramatics,
AvaThere were three things Ava was slowly beginning to learn about her new 'friend' Bear.The first being that he was not just grumpy like she originally thought but actually extremely grumpy and it wasn't because he hadn't warmed up to her but because that's just who he is. She was pretty sure that she had never heard him smile like ever. Not even once.The second thing was that as much as he tried to deny it he enjoyed it whenever he heard her knock on the wall. In fact, she was again pretty sure those were the only times she ever heard him almost smile.The third and most recent thing was that he enjoyed silence. He had been quiet all day, and no matter how much she knocked, he hadn't made a single sound, and yet still, she knocked again.Silence."Bear?"More silence.Her curiosity was now slowly starting to turn into something else. Something she didn't like.Worry? Fear?She shook her head.Bear was Bear. He was strong and Ava was fairly certain that nothing could hurt him. Wel
AvaDownstairs, Kat is already dressed and waiting for me in the car.I slip into the backseat beside her, letting out a small sigh as I settle in.The ride to the hospital is mostly filled with silence as we roll into the streets of Chicago. I peek at Kat, worrying when I see her picking at the edge of her thumb with her fingernails.She seems tense for some reason and as much as I want to, I decide that it's best not to pry.Whatever is bothering her I'm sure she'll tell me when she's ready. We arrive at the hospital twenty minutes later and Kat is out of the car before the driver even comes to a full stop in the parking lot. I follow after her, struggling to keep up with her pace.Inside the hospital smells of antiseptic, the stench hitting me the moment I step in along with the smell of iodine and latex, making my stomach churn. We make our way to the receptionist's desk, where a blonde woman in light blue scrubs, probably in her late twenties or early thirties, greets us with a
AvaThree days.That's how long it's been since my brother contacted me. Three days is also how long it's been since I lied to Nikolai by telling him that I got lost in the art store when I got home and found him looking like he had lost his mind without me. Two days is how long it takes for me to try my brother's phone again. It goes straight to voicemail.I still haven't fully been able to wrap my head around everything Aaron told me. Learning that we no longer shared the same father, and we apparently never did, to begin with, felt like a missile launched in the middle of the desert, unexpected and unpredictable. And as if that wasn't enough, his biological father was none other than Raicán O'Sullivan, the former head of the Irish mafia who wanted Aaron to take his place, and what's worse is that my brother was actually considering joining the Irish mafia as their new leader.It all felt so... jarring. Growing up with Aaron I'd never once considered that he was unhappy with his l
Ava"She was pregnant Ava"Pregnant. Pregnant. Pregnant. Pregnant.The word repeats, over and over again in my brain like an endless chant.My mum...Our mum, was pregnant before she married our... no, my father.Swallowing, I straighten in the log, turning to face my brother. Of all the things I expected him to say, this did not make the top ten. Or hundred. Or thousand.I blink at him, counting down the seconds until he says, gotcha like he did when we were children, and he told me that he saw a ghost in our backyard, and I believed him. But the punchline never comes. “is this some kind of joke?" I ask. I'm surprised at how steady my voice comes out because, on the inside, my mind is racing. He has to be wrong; he just has to be because that would mean....I stare him straight in his eyes and the look I find there tells me that he won't say the words I'm so desperate for him to even if I were to kneel and beg him within an inch of my life.He wouldn't lie to me.Aaron remains comple
AvaThe Uber rolls to a stop in front of a barely standing building. The middle-aged driver glances at me through the rearview mirror, his brows pinching together. I ignore the look he gives me and shove a few bills into his hand before stepping out.The address Aaron sends me leads me to the industrial side of Chicago, where rusting metal fences and abandoned buildings line the quiet streets. Why the hell did he want to meet up in a place like this? The moment I shut the door, the Uber peels away, the roar of the engine fading into the distance, leaving me with nothing but a puff of engine smoke and dust.Coming to an abandoned building in the middle of nowhere simply because my brother preferred it over coffee in a cafe like normal people should certainly count as my top ten biggest mistakes.My gaze scans the area, and so far, it seems safe and normal.Slipping away from Benjamin had proven difficult. I'd asked him to stop at a random art store, claiming I needed to get some art
AvaMy phone buzzes in my pants as soon as I step out of my art history test on Wednesday. I reach for it, my pulse thrumming when I see the unknown number flashing across the screen. I hesitate for only a second before answering, my hand fisting the phone tightly."Hello?" "How are you, Ava?"That voice. I knew that voice. I grew up with that voice."Aaron?""The one and only"It's meant to come off as playful but there's a restrained edge to it. He sounds tired somehow and nothing like the boy I grew up with.Whereas that voice was lighter and always playful, this voice sounded older, wearier—like life had taken its toll on him in ways I would never understand.Why was he calling me? Now of all times. He abandoned me and now he's calling me like everything is just peachy between us when it's not. He knows it's not.I open my mouth to tell him he's an asshole for ignoring me for months and then trying to joke it off like nothing happene
Ava"I want to show you something," Nikolai tells me when I step into the house after a very long day of classes. I'm tired and my feet ache from shuffling between one lecture hall to the other in hopes of learning something relating to the path I chose to walk in life but am now violently cursing myself from doing.Kira throws me a toothy grin from over her shoulder as she's escorted back to her room by Lydia, her nanny, a grey-haired Russian woman with manners as stiff as a stick. She smiles at me politely as she ushers the little girl who'd tumbled into my legs the moment she saw me walk through the door, her tiny fists clutching the fabric of my skirt tightly like she couldn't let go.It took a while for her to notice me when I first came in, but when she did, she smiled at me so brightly from her father's lap that my heart stopped right there in my chest. Is this what it feels like to be missed?I lift a brow at Nikolai clearly confused at what he needs to show me. Today he's dr