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Drive me home? Is he serious? Why would he do that?It's probably guilt. Or he pities me because of what happened. Well, almost happened. Maybe he feels guilty for what his father tried to do.I don't expect him to, but, apparently this guy feels the need to make it up to me one way or another. "You... No. You don't have to." I look away from Dominico and check my phone.No new calls. No new messages. Nothing. Ugh. Pathetic."Angelx30" is still offline. The guy must be tied up with work. Or vacationing somewhere remote. Somewhere I've never been. Hopefully not with his girlfriend. Or wife?Yikes. I hope I'm not ruining someone's marriage or anything.Dominico reclines and swallows the pasta in his mouth. "You don't want me to make sure my father's not lurking around?" He looks at me with his expressive green eyes squinting a little, his tone denoting some concern.A humorless grin follows his question as hesitation grips my thoughts. "No. No need. But, thanks. I can manage.""You're taking the bus home?""No. I'll talk to Alina." I get up from my seat with my phone in my hand. "She's here, too." I don't know where exactly, but I have a feeling she's somewhere I don't wanna be.She's told me once that she used to be an escort before she applied for a job at the country club. "A high-class call girl," was her description.Not that I'm judging her. Not at all. I'm an internet whore now. I know better than to judge others for their life choices."Who's Alina?""I work with her, at the country club," I explain with a feigned smile while Dominico frowns. "Thanks for offering, but I can't just leave. I still have work to do.""Fine." With a sigh, Dominico refills his glass and gets up from his chair. "Just keep your head down. Call me if he tries to do anything."•••[ D O M I N I C O ]I just met my new pretend girlfriend.No. "Girlfriend" doesn't sound right.My new... Fake fuck buddy? I'm not familiar with the newer slangs the millennials and Gen Zs have coined.I'm not talking about my ex. Not by a long shot. I've learned the hard way, and I sure as fuck won't be backsliding to that toxic cycle again. No thanks.But Enzo wasn't exaggerating. Seraphine and Lizbeth do share some similarities:Same physique. Same height. Slim with nice curves. Same long, silky dark hair. A small, delicate face with soft features. Curious and secretive pretty eyes that have seen a lot...I just met Seraphine, but I'm sure she's a nice, responsible, hardworking girl from a decent middle class family from the South. Her dad's an immigrant from Asia, if my hunch is right.My parents will say she's quite young for me, but I really don't give a shit. What concerns me is her safety. Getting her out of here alive and unharmed.At least in the physical sense. I've already gauged how much damage my philandering father has inflicted. Seen the telltale signs with my own eyes.She's anxious and terrified, although she tries hard to look the opposite. Seraphine was crying in this bathroom for ten minutes straight before she went to bed. She probably thinks I didn't hear any of it.The girl's trying her best to seem fine. But I know deep in my gut that she's far from okay. She's gonna need at least a few counseling sessions to help her process what my father just did. Then a few more to help her get over it.I don't know if she's seeing a therapist, or if she plans to seek some professional help. One thing I know for sure: that girl's not gonna survive another week without me being a buffer between her and my power-tripping, chronically abusive father.If I manage to convince him she's my new motivation and much-needed distraction, he just might keep his hands off her and move on to his next victim. A much more willing victim, I hope.I'm sure she didn't tell anyone yet. I bet she thinks she has to keep it all a secret because of her job. Because she badly needs money and my family's got a lot of it.She's heard too much, but she won't admit it for some reason. Do I seem the type to beat up snitches and bury them alive? Or she lied to me because she thinks I can't be trusted at all.Yeah. "Obviously."She won't even give me her number.Not that I blame her. If my ex were here, she'd say I look like a creepy homeless hobo. I smell and feel like one, too. Or it could just be another side effect of the pills.Before she left, Seraphine said I've taken more than enough pain medication and one too many sleeping pills. Perhaps even a fatal dose.But I'm not trying to die—yet. I'm just sick of the sleepless nights and the restless mornings.I pinch the warm flesh between my brows and let out a heavy sigh. My eyes sting. I need more sleep and a cold shower.I'll deal with Ottavio and my fake girlfriend later.•••[ S E R A P H I N E ]It's seven in the evening.It's raining hard, and I'm buckled up in his passenger seat with my bag and dusty old boots. My last shift just ended, and now I reek of yeasty malt and whiskey.But he doesn't seem to mind. A man of his word, too. The type of guy who doesn't like breaking promises.I don't know whether I should be impressed or start panicking again. When he said he would drive me home, I didn't really expect Dominico would sit by the bar for four hours straight and wait for me to finish working.All morning, I didn't think he'd show up at the bar at all. Especially after I heard from Alina that his father's in a meeting on the top deck with his new business partners. I just assumed Dominico would be part of it, too.Apparently not. Thankfully, I haven't run into Mr. Tomassini the entire afternoon. Nearly bumped into him around lunch while he drank champagne with some guests, but of course I made a beeline for the busy kitchen to avoid having to talk to him again.I haven't seen Ignazio on the lower decks after that. Not sure if his son keeping close to me all day has something to do with it. Maybe. I should thank the guy sitting beside me.But I don't really have the energy for another tense and awkward conversation about that yacht party, with me sitting right next to him in this sports car.It's a Maserati, and it looks brand new. Not that I'm surprised. “Nice wheels.” I put on a smile and glance at his profile.Wearing a loose shirt and dark jeans while he smells of minty cologne, Dominico barely moves and speeds up, the soft hum of the engine quite relaxing. “It's my friend's.”“Oh.” I nod and make guesses in my head, the thuds in my chest only getting louder by the second. Not because I can see the butt of his gun sticking out from under his leather belt. I'm far more worried about what Alina will be feeding the rumor mill at work after she saw me get off the yacht with Dominico right behind me. “You borrowed it for the weekend?”“Nah.” A red light makes him stop the car. But not for long. The speedometer's back at 100 before I can think of a relevant topic to chat about. “He owes me,” Dominico mumbles with a meaningful grin.Money? Or some other favor? “I see.” I grab my phone and hold my breath.No new messages from "Angelx30". Tsk.Where is he? I'm hoping he'll send me a selfie tonight. Or something more revealing. But I don't think he will.Not even a single text? I rub my arm and massage my throbbing temple. Is he ghosting me?Why? Have I said something that turned him off? The guy probably thinks I'm too boring to sext with.Ugh. Whatever. I just wanna talk to him about the money he sent. About why he sent me another 500 bucks this afternoon.Is it payment for chatting with him yesterday? Just because I replied to his private messages?Wow. That guy's too generous to a complete stranger whose real face he hasn't even seen.“You cold?” Dominico stops at a busy intersection and flings a look of concern my way.“A little.” I press my thighs together, close to shivering, goosebumps already dotting my arms. To match my cropped cardigan, I'm wearing a high-waist skort and an old white bikini underneath. And nothing else.“There. It's off.”A different kind of unease tightens my insides when his hand stops touching the controls. Did he really just turn off the A/C? I don't want him to start sweating in his nice, pricey clothes just 'cause I stupidly forgot my coat in that room. In that cabin on the top deck. “Thanks. But you don't have to turn it off.”“I'm good,” he mutters as he stoically drives past a long line of cars.The unpleasant feeling in my stomach only worsens when we both fall silent. I'm not sure why he's driving me back to the country club himself. To make sure his father's not stalking me?Why would Mr. Tomassini do that? I'm a nobody. I'm just a tiny blip on his 'potential new mistresses' radar. I didn't even think he's into Asian girls.So why's his son here with me? Because he thinks my nosiness got me into a huge mess I can't get out of? Does Ignazio believe I heard too much? That I know too much now?Crap. Now I can't breathe. I can't even feel my hands and feet. It's not just the physical exhaustion. I'm having a hard time psyching myself that I might lose my job this week, even though I'm well aware it's just one of the consequences I have to pay for being at the wrong place at the wrong time.Dominico must be thinking the same, hence his warnings this morning.Classic rock music softly plays through the speakers and fills the dim space between us, our silence painting grisly images in my mind. “Are you still looking for that guy?”“What guy?” Facing the wet road, he wrinkles his dark brows, his forearm resting on the black steering wheel. He slows down as we approach heavy traffic.“The one with the blond hair and tattoos.”“Yeah.”Okay. So, that blond dude's "Ottavio"? Who is he to Mr. Tomassini? Does Ignazio still want to kill that guy? “Why? I mean, why you?” I squint at Dominico.“Because the big boss says so.”Seriously? Ignazio really wants him to find the guy by himself? “Your dad's actually your boss?”“Always been.”I hold my breath, waiting for Dominico to say more. But all I hear is another sigh.Fine. He has his secrets, and I have mine. Like where I live. He doesn't know my address because I haven't told him.No way. I don't want him to know that much about me. Not because I live in a terrible neighborhood. I just love my privacy.Also, I don't want him to drive for another two hours in this weather. Or make him think I'm interested in him romantically and have no issues with him driving me home.It's just a crush. A silly little crush. He seems good-natured and grounded despite his family background. But I don't want anything to do with him.Having him as a friend won't do me any good in the long run. And vice versa. We're worlds apart. I don't know why someone like him would like hanging out with someone like me.“You tired?”“I'm always tired,” I sigh, clasping the strap of my bag while raindrops blur the windshield.“Yeah? Same,” he murmurs with a tight smile.I bite on my lip and take a deep breath, unable to sit still. The dark tint blurs my view of the damp road and the signs, but it's a good thing in case we pass by someone who knows me. “You didn't have to wait for me.”“Told you I'll drive you home.”“Yeah, but, you really don't have to.”“I can't, 'cause you won't tell me where you live,” he says with a crooked smile.Not sure if it's amusement or just something to make me feel less uncomfortable. Maybe a little bit of both. “I told you: it's too far.”Dominico smirks and gives a slight nod. “If you say so.”“I'm not lying.” I rub my itchy eyes and recline beside him, covering my smile with my cold hand. I don't wanna keep looking at his face. I can tell he already suspects I'm into him.Then again, who isn't? This guy's a walking hunk of testosterone. Effortlessly handsome. Manly in every way. Reserved and mysterious, but actually kind and generous.Now that I've spent almost an entire day with him, I'm confident he's got a line of swooning admirers just patiently waiting for his attention everywhere he went.But I don't really care. It's none of my concern. I have much bigger problems to lose sleep over.Since the country club is still an hour away, I face the window and rest my eyes. I need a nap, and this passenger seat feels warm and really comfy.I'll be fine...This guy's not gonna kidnap me. Dominico knows we're broke as shit.•[ S E R A P H I N E ]My nap is cut short when my phone buzzes between my thighs. I sit up and hastily fix my hair, the grogginess replacing the dizziness I've been ignoring all day. I sigh at the useless notification on my screen. Just another spammy email. "Ugh." I unbuckle my seat belt and stretch my back. The rain has stopped, and we're finally somewhere familiar. We're here in the spacious parking lot of my workplace. Dominico steps out of the car after parking the Maserati in the dimmer corner, just across the lobby. When I step outside, the evening air nips at my bare skin, and the place looks quiet. Typical on weeknights. There are several vehicles around us, but I think they're mostly my coworkers'. Dominico leans against the driver's window and doesn't look up from his phone even after I step in front of him. “Good nap?” I put on a smile despite the soreness in my legs and feet. My entire back needs a good crack, but I don't really have the time or money for regular appo
[ S E R A P H I N E ] My mind won't stop racing. All this overthinking is making me dizzy again. The dim glow of my night lamp doesn't help much. I need four more hours of sleep, but my brain won't give it a rest now that I'm all alone again. I'm back here in my quiet apartment, my body tired as ever, but my swirling thoughts are too loud to shut off. “Ugh.” I don't think I'll make it through this week in good health and sane. I wanna blame Dominico...even though it's not really his fault. The guy's just trying to help. My conscience keeps reminding me to thank him again for keeping his pervy father away from me and for escorting me off that yacht, and then driving me back to the country club.But is it all an act? Does he have ulterior motives? Or he's just a decent human being I luckily bumped into? The latter seems true, but my gut still says it's a bit of both. I can't think of a particular reason why Dominico thinks being my protector (and fake boyfriend?) will do him any fav
[ D O M I N I C O ]“You found Ottavio?”“Not yet.” I look away from the cloudy sky and glance at Enzo.He just got back from New York. After another meeting with his top executives this morning, he picked me up just so he won't have lunch alone with his bodyguards. Like most weekdays. Today he looks like the suited up FOH manager who overspends on his clothes, while I'm dressed like the head chef who goes out to smoke halfway through service. Not like anyone in this place cares. Unless I'm at a big corporate event, I usually don't give a shit about how I look when I'm not at work. I'm getting old, turning 30 soon, and this generation's obsession with impressing other people they don't even know is getting fuckin' ridiculous. “But I'm sure his ex knows where he's hiding.” “You found Freja's new address?” Enzo mutters as his left hand distractedly fixes his gray suit jacket. It almost matches the checkered tablecloth, but he's still the best-dressed among this hour's customers. “On
[ S E R A P H I N E ] It's been a few days since that yacht party. I hope he's not pissed that I'm showing up an hour late. Where is he? Why does he want us to meet here? This looks like a high-end jewelry shop. The gilded doors alone look like they cost more than everything I own. I stand outside the shop, the late afternoon sun bathing the quaint store in a warm glow. I'm waiting for my phone to ring while peeking at the sparkling displays of gemstones and metals. Maybe he chose this place since it's near the country club. It doesn't look crowded inside. Only four people are browsing the impressive selection of bespoke jewelry, but I still don't want to go inside by myself. I can't seem to get rid of the tension inside me. Can't just walk it off or sit it out like a random tummy ache. I hold my breath when my phone dings with a new message from Dominico, asking me if I'm nearby. I reply with a short text: [ I'm outside the store. White shirt. ] Clasping my satchel, I watch
[ S E R A P H I N E ] Long shadows dim our path as we exit the store, the sun dipping lower in the sky. The warmth of the evening feels nice, unlike the terrifying reality his suspicions are forcing me to wrap my head around. We walk away from the picturesque sidewalk with Dominico glancing over his shoulder. Before we reach the Maserati, he looks behind one more time and puts his arm around my back. Like he's waiting for some sketchy guys to pop up out of nowhere and kidnap me. Just thinking it could happen makes my insides churn. My legs and feet are overworked after that ten-hour shift, but my brain can't seem to process most of the pain. I just know I need a quiet, private space where I can regroup my thoughts before we go anywhere else. “Hey. I-I really don't mind taking the bus. You don't have to drive me to the...” “Stay close.” “Why?” I almost glare at my “date” and stand beside his ride. Should I give him gas money now? Or just let him escort me all evening like a hire
[ S E R A P H I N E ]“Are you home?”“Just got home.”“Oh. Okay.” So his house is only an hour away from here. Is he still alone? Parking the Maserati in his garage? How many cars does he own? A trust fund kid like him probably has a few luxury cars at the very least. “D'you need something?” His voice sounds slightly hoarse, his tone laced with concern.“A whole day just for sleeping. A two-week paid vacation.”“Why're you still up? I told you to rest.”Lying on my back with the lights off, I smile at the concern behind his short semi-rant. I'm already in my room, all showered and about to doze off. Yet I can't stop thinking about him and the things we've talked about. “I'm trying.”Dominico sighs on the other end, as if he's getting annoyed that I called him too soon. “Get off the phone. Turn it off and sleep.” “You're startin' to sound like my dad.” “We're meeting up tomorrow. Can't have you cranky and hating me all day.”Hating him? “Tomorrow? Why?” Are we going on another "dat
[ S E R A P H I N E ]I have 39 minutes left. Where the heck is he? Does he think I have a two-hour lunch break? Maybe a CFO like him does. “Must be nice,” I mutter under my breath. If he doesn't show up in five minutes, I'm heading back to the staff lounge. I don't really want to, but at least it's safer there. Too crowded in case his father tries to corner me and harass me again. Too many witnesses. Too many mouths to silence. The creep might just have second thoughts about trying to cop a feel again.I cringe at the memory. I still remember every second. Some nights, my brain loves to replay those horrible ten seconds as if to remind me that I still have feelings. That I've been wronged. Mistreated. Humiliated. Victimized.But, no. I refuse to feel like a victim. Nope. Not now. Our one and only family business is in the red. About to go bankrupt, in fact, if we don't do something drastic soon. I don't have the luxury of taking a couple days off. To recover. To recharge. To do s
[ S E R A P H I N E ]This ring is gorgeous. Subtle but elegant. Marquise cut. At least one carat, I'm guessing.No doubt it's a real diamond. I've told him to just buy something cheap. Obviously he doesn't want me to wear a fake.I don't know how he actually knows my size. I didn't try any of the rings in that store. Nor do I remember him asking.Shoot. This is actually happening. We're engaged now. Engaged! Jeez... What's gotten into him? A bouquet and a fake proposal in broad daylight? In front of all these people?Is he drunk? No, he can't be. He doesn't look or smell intoxicated. Maybe it's some kind of PTSD or paranoia? Or is he going off the rails? We stare at each other, putting on our best happy-new-couple smiles, ignoring the noise around us while he gets up to stand in front of me again. Dominico steps closer, his gaze unwavering. Almost unnerving. I don't back away or get rid of my smile. I want to, but I can't cry on cue, so... This will have to do. “I can't believe yo
[ S E R A P H I N E ] “One last sheet. One last,” I sigh to myself, stretching my aching back as I recline. Looks like I'm still alone out here. I'm sitting by the pool, enjoying the gorgeous pink-orange sunset while waiting for Dominico to finish working. I stare at my laptop screen. I'm almost done with my work for the day, but my focus is split, already dwindling. Some mornings, I don't even feel like checking my emails. But I can't just quit now. I don't wanna feel like a freeloader or look for another job. Dominico can take care of me and provide our baby's needs. I know. But I don't want him to think I'm getting too comfortable. He's still upstairs, probably not done with their virtual meeting. “Emergency board meeting,” he told me an hour ago. Dom's been working from home all week. The new virus is still wreaking havoc all over the country. It's starting to scare me and Mamma, actually. Dominico agreed to stay home because he doesn't want to risk it. Our health and our b
[ D O M I N I C O ] “Look, Freja. It's my own money. And this isn't a loan. You don't have to pay me back. Okay?” Do I sound like an arrogant douche? I hope not. I sit back and buckle up, dying to get home. Freja’s tear-streaked face stays on the edge of the screen. The gray skies outside her window match the somber look in her eyes. She dabs at her pinkish cheeks, trying to put the waterworks on pause. It's not that she's been blindsided by her ex-husband's death. The sudden loss and grief. She knew what she was getting into the moment she agreed to be his wife. But it's not really her fault that she can't give her child a better life right now. I can't undo any of my father's actions or rewrite the past. But I could at least make sure that she and her kid won't struggle for another couple of years. “I just wired you the money.” “Thank you,” she murmurs with weak nods. I glance at the damp road. “Should cover tuition and some bills. If you need more, just call or text
[ S E R A P H I N E ] “We were gonna tell you. I-I just…” Just what? Forgot that I exist? That I have feelings, too? That I'm her best friend and they should've told me they're... Sheesh! I don't even wanna imagine what they've been up to. “Just what? It just slipped your mind?” Pierre glances at me, still can't look me in the eye. Like he knows how hurt I am. He should. This is like... It's betrayal. Right? I'm their best friend! I have the right to feel this way. “You just conveniently forgot?” My voice wavers. The odd numbness in my core spreads down my legs. Shucks. Breathing feels like a chore now. “Was it that hard to send me a text? Pick up the phone and just give me a call?”I probably sound hysterical. Overdramatic. I really don't care. I glare at Pierre, trying to dismiss the shock and hide the barely repressed anger. But I'm sure it looks like I'm failing miserably at it. Pierre sighs briefly, his hands on his hips. He's staring at the ground. Like he can't be bother
[ S E R A P H I N E ] “Hey. Alfeo looks more buff. Like, he looks bigger than you now.” Must be because Alfeo isn't taller and often wears clothes that flaunt his broad shoulders. I sit up on the bed, ogling my hot baby daddy as he walks out of the bathroom. “Is he taking anything? Steroids, or...” Dom snickers, glancing at me while he dries his hair with a black towel. After locking the door, he grabs a few clothes from his closet. “Why? Couldn't ask him yourself?” I scratch the back of my head. I don't know what his best friend's been up to lately. I haven't seen Alfeo in months. But I'm glad that he's not too busy to hang out with us. Maybe he's bulking up to impress a girl. Or girls? Not that it bothers me. He's always gonna be welcome here. Dominico still trusts him with his life. And no matter what his family thinks, Alfeo is still his most loyal friend. “Is he dating someone?” Dom scoffs and scrunches up his nose. It's straight, but the tip is a little bulbous, not too f
[ D O M I N I C O ] Are they downsizing? Or my dad's running out of payola? What even is this room? This is much smaller than the well-guarded room they let us use before. Smells like dried piss and sweat, too. Unlike the last time I was here, the prison guard stands behind the door. Just one. No weapon in sight, but I bet my left kidney he's carrying at least two. I sit down in front of the divider, surprised that the only prisoner I'm visiting agreed to see me today. I know he's still pissed that I didn't come by much sooner. That I didn't show up the last time he told me to be here. He wanted me to deliver more hush money, and of course more cash for his protection. And he's probably more pissed that I didn't help Ricchar Falco find his missing uncle. Stefano. The disgraced shipping mogul. The big-time swindler who ran off with the redhead. Daddy Dearest's former number one whore. Only because the bitch impressed him in and out of the sack. Glancing at the tall, dusty walls,
[ S E R A P H I N E ]What if Leandro found out about everything we did, all the sleuthing I tried, and the heap of evidence we contributed to the investigation, and then he got furious enough that he...Any way you look at it, my theory isn't farfetched. The guy's got motive. I don't wanna be the one to dwell on these negative thoughts. But we should consider the possibility. My privacy, my career, and my family's safety might be compromised.I'm pretty sure he's not here in Florence. Yet the feeling that he's somewhere near won't leave my head. Even now. Here in Dominico's house, a well-guarded private property in a gated neighborhood. I feel exposed. A little vulnerable. Even though I'm so much safer here with Dominico and Mamma keeping an eye on me. Plus the security staff guarding the property 24/7."Okay. I'll talk to Enzo again," Dom mumbles before reaching for my hand, giving it a light squeeze before he lets out a breath. Regrets and some frustration replace the pent-up anger
[ S E R A P H I N E ] I step out of the bathroom, my skin still warm from the shower. I took a quick one just to help me relax. To help me fall back to sleep. I'm not sure if it will. The rain outside taps lightly against his windows, an almost soothing rhythm that contrasts the weight of my thoughts. Although I'm wearing a robe, I feel the chill in the air as I walk towards his bed, my footsteps quiet. Dom's still wide awake like I guessed. He's sitting on the wrinkled covers, his attention fixed on his phone. As I approach him, he sets his phone down, and his heavy-lidded gaze shifts to my face. I sit close to him and try to ignore the tension in the air. It's not the same awkwardness I felt right after I tried to kiss him for the first time. It's something else. Can't quite put my finger on it. But it's nothing we can't address. I'm sure. “Hey.” “Feel better?” “A little.” I put on a smile. I hold onto his forearm when he goes back to reading some emails. ”Babe, that ema
[ D O M I N I C O ] Shit. I almost tore the label off. Cracked and nearly broke the cap into pieces, too. It's not clumsiness, though. I'm too distracted. Tired. Impatient. Frustrated. With caution, I press down a strip of tape over the torn label, running my thumb across it to smooth out the small creases. I can't just look up the right dosage on the internet. This label is practically the only thing helping me keep track of the proper dosage. I reach for the roll of tape again. I tear about an inch off the roll. Right after I put the bottle away, soft shuffling noises behind me interrupt me before I can get rid of the clutter on the counter. I look up and stare at my reflection in the mirror. Seraphine is standing at the bathroom door, just a couple of steps away, her eyes wide and unfocused. She's wearing the blue shirt I gave her before she went to sleep. There's some tension in her posture. Why is she out of bed? I turn to face her and put down the roll of tape near
[ D O M I N I C O ] “Cara, dico solo che...” [Dear, I’m just saying...] “Sì?” [Yes?] I tilt my wine glass, sitting back and interrupting my stepmother again. I don't have to keep my mouth shut. I already know how uncomfortable Seraphine feels. Trying to sit still beside me, she takes a small bite of bread and stares at Mamma, who's seated across from us and not really minding the food on her plate. Rain still patters on the windows. But it shouldn't turn into something worse. This should be a calm, quick, easy dinner. Unless Mamma brings up what happened last night. If that happens, Seraphine will probably... “Sephie, è più prudente se tu rimani qui ora.” [It's safer if you stay here for now.] My stepmother is talking a bit slower now, dragging her vowels. She drops her delicate smile, then sets down her fork with a soft clink. “Non preoccuparti, Mamma. Porto sempre una mascherina extra nel caso mi dimenticassi di indossarne una,” Seraphine replies with a polite smile, her vo