“How about that guy?”
“Ew! No! He looks old enough to be my grandpa.”
“That’s a gross exaggeration. Besides, you said you just wanted someone to lose your virginity to.”
Becka and I had gone to the bar to celebrate my being accepted into the same college Becka attended. We’d been inseparable ever since she spat on a boy who had pushed me on the playground in pre-school. We went to the same middle school, high school and now, college.
The bar was full of people since it was peak hours. I had told my mum I would be sleeping over at her place so we could both prepare for the new session.
I hadn’t lied. This was us preparing for college. We were looking for a guy who would be willing to have a one night stand with me. I’d missed out on everything fun when I was involved in accident that claimed my dad and left me with a huge scar across my chest where I had been operated and a 2 year long coma.Luckily, my face was spared. There were other lacerations along my body but they were quite faint.
I had a terrible coping mechanism and that was diving head first into anything I considered dangerous just so I could bury my feelings. Therapists had tried and failed to fix me but to no avail. I knew my mum hated me silently for the death of her husband and I couldn’t blame her. I hated myself too but tonight was about a dude and me. A night I could forget about everything and everyone for once.I rolled my eyes at Becka.
“Yeah.. Someone. Not just anyone.”“How about him? He’s been staring at you all night.”
I looked subtly at the direction she pointed at. My eyes widened at the sight of the man. He looked quite young even though I knew he couldn’t be as young as I was.
“Yeah..Him.” I said, my voice barely above a whisper.
He took a swig of his beer and stared at me with a smoldering look. I blushed and quickly averted my eyes back to Becka.
“That was hot.” I nodded in agreement. He was hot and dangerous. A shiver ran down my spine as I licked my lips.
“How do I do this?” I glanced at Becka nervously. She was the expert. I wasn’t. I hadn’t even had my first kiss yet.
I know. I didn’t even crawl. I just wanted to fly, at least for this night.
My eyes trailed his lips and then over his face. He wasn’t bad to look at. He was clean shaved with a sharp jawline. I looked at his forearms and saw the veins that snaked across his skin. A very strange urge to lick them filled my head as I continued to stare.“Stop eye fucking him and go meet him.” I smacked Becka hard as people turned to look at us. I was such a hypocrite.
I didn’t look my age, even in high-school. I was 21 and I looked 25 because of my body. I had matured early, earning curves in the right places and in ways that fit my body. It wasn’t something I liked to point out much but surely, it would help me tonight.
Having no idea where the boldness came from, maybe from Becka hyping me up, I went over to the guy across the bar from us and hopped on the stool beside him.“Hey.” He didn’t reply. My brows creased in confusion. I’d thought he wanted me. Well, at least Becka thought so.
I looked back at Becka who was watching us intently. She shrugged, not also having a clue as to what he was thinking. He took another swig of his beer, placed his money beneath the bottle and then left, leaving me embarrassed where I sat. My mouth squeezed as though I’d tasted a lime. I walked back to Becka who had a sad look on her face.
“He’s such a jerk.” My face tinged with pink as I sat in my former spot. The first time I’d ever been bold towards a man and I got stood up, quite literally.
“It’s his loss. There are lots of guys in college who’d be willing to sleep with you.” That sentence didn’t provide me any comfort. Instead, it just made me sound like a slut.
‘Was I a slut?’ I asked myself.“Trust me, I know.” My nose scrunched up in disgust.
“It was him I wanted though.” I told her as I finished my first bottle of beer. I didn’t even like beer. I only drank it because movies made them look appealing. It wasn’t. It tasted terrible. I probably wouldn’t touch it again.
Becka took out her pack of cigarettes from her purse along with her lighter. She always had one with her even though she well knew the consequences of smoking.“I don’t even smoke that much.” She was on her fifth stick when she’d said that. I’d stopped throwing them away whenever I saw that she’d get so pissed and break stuff. I had to be careful around her sometimes when she was in fits of rage.
Becka had always had anger issues and I knew what ticked her so, I avoided them as much as I could.“Hey… Didn’t you read the sign? It says no smoking in here.” The bartender tapped at the no-smoking sign, scowling at Becka when she tried to light her cigarette.
“Motherfucker. It’s a bar. I should be able to smoke here.”
“Becka…” I warned. We were already banned from most of the clubs in our area. This was the only one we had managed to find almost on the outskirts of town.
“If you want to smoke, go outside.” His patience was running thin and it would only be a matter of seconds before he bounced us out.
“Let’s go.” I dragged her by the elbow as we went outside.
“You can smoke now.” I said to her but she threw the pack away in anger instead and puffed out air exasperatedly.
“Should’ve sucker-punched that motherfucker in the face for talking to me like that.”I kept quiet. It was best to leave Becka alone when she was seething till she cooled it out.
She reached for her bag and brought out another pack of cigarettes. I should’ve known.She took a deep drag and sighed.“You okay?”
“Yeah. Let’s get out of here.”
We made a move to go when a car revved to our side. The silhouette of a man left his car and approached us. The bar light provided a neon glow to see his face.
It was the guy from earlier. I should’ve run for the hills when he came out of the dark. I should’ve done what any other girl would do. I should’ve felt danger instead, excitement shook my core.I shared a knowing look with Becka who just smirked.‘He came back. Why did he come back?’ I thought to myself.
“Hey.” He spoke, his voice a deep baritone that vibrated through my core.
“Wanna get out of here?”
I looked at Becka who just smiled and nodded her head eagerly. “Don’t worry about me. I have adventures of my own.”She whispered in my ears as she read the look in my eyes. I was worried she’d be pissed that I left her alone to follow some dude I’d never met.Most people judged Becka because she was loud, moody, sometimes very inappropriate and a bad influence on me like my mother insinuated but I thought she was the realest person I knew who didn’t sugarcoat things or thought the world was full of rainbows at every corner.She was as real as life got.She was vocal, where I was timid, strong where I was weak and we fit like two halves of a burnt puzzle.I nodded at her and smiled at the man.“Sure.” Becka waved at me while she went in the opposite direction of her house, going to heavens knows where. I was nervous as fuck as he drove us to his place. I knew the rules of the game. No names exchanged. No questions asked. He’d wear protection and I would pepper spray him and kick hi
Funeral processions had gone by quickly since she was still quite young. Very few people came by as she didn’t have a lot of friends or family.I couldn’t stay in the house after what I had seen and Becka’s parents had gladly housed me even though I had woken them up every night since that day.I’d made them promise not to tell Becka. I just couldn’t bring myself to tell any other person who hadn’t seen it happen.“Say hi to Becka for me and tell her to call home often. We haven’t seen her or heard from her in a while.”David, Becka’s dad, hugged me as they called passengers for boarding.I nodded at him and smiled at her mum. They waved me bye as I went towards the boarding area. I didn’t look back because I knew the emotions I’d read in their eyes and I didn’t want to see them.Despite their tasking jobs, they’d driven me up to the airport and waited till I got called in. I would forever be grateful for them.I took a deep breath As I boarded the plane, wondering how long it’d take
Snickers emanated all around me as his eyes narrowed and water continued to spill. “Are you just going to sit there and watch it spill over?” His tone hard and directed at me. It bounced me out of my stupefied state.I left the class to find a janitor who could direct me to the cleaning supplies room. Luckily, I found one with a mop stick. I had somehow managed to make a fool of myself in front of the entire class and also delayed the class by extra 20 minutes.By the time I had returned the mop and gotten back to my seat, he’d scribbled his name across the board and introduced himself. “My name is Jared. I will be your ECON101 lecturer for the semester. My door is always open to receive you should you have any questions.” How on earth had I managed to have the worst luck in the world? Ohio to California was as far away as far away got so, the chances that my one night stand stood in front of me as my Econs lecturer was already the world playing a huge joke on me. If at all fate
I snapped my head up.Had I heard right?Matt came in before I could confirm if he actually remembered me or not. He continued to list of requirements and rules for us without a mention of the previous incident and I forgot about it.If he was going to pretend he didn’t remember me, then I didn’t either. Why I felt disappointed, I couldn’t fathom.“...like one of those cool teachers.”“Hmm?” I had zoned out as Matt continued to drone off. Matt was cute in every sense. He looked like he played football in high school and was the probably the star player. I had a thing for shaggy blonde haired boys with baby blue eyes.“I said Jared is quite young. He’s so cool.” So guys also worshipped the ground where he walked. I rolled my eyes and snorted.“You don’t think so.” He said as a matter-of-fact.“I mean, I think it’s amazing that he’s got degrees so young. I just don’t see the hype.” He looked at me disbelievingly.“What? He’s overrated.” I lied through my teeth.“Yeah right.”We continue
“The demand affects the supply and that is why…” Jared droned off. Since 9am that I’d been in the class, the ladies behind me wouldn’t shut up and I could barely hear a word he’d been saying. “I think he just looked at me.” One of them giggled. “I think so too.” I looked to the back and set a glare on both of them. “Can you guys please keep quiet?” Their faces turned menacing. “What is going on?” I cringed in embarrassment as Jared’s voice reached my ears. “Nothing.” I muttered. His eyes narrowed at me. “You can’t disturb my class and not explain why.” My face tinged red in anger. I wanted to chuck something at his head. The girls behind me snickered in derision. “I’m sorry sir.” He paid me no mind as we continued the class. Every single second I spent in Jared’s class only made me hate him more. He was as difficult as he looked. I was stupid for thinking just because we’d met before, he’d be lenient with me. “I fucking hate him.” Matt chuckled beside me as we returned from hi
I decided against going into the class as I stood in front of the door.“God… I cannot face this man today.” I muttered to myself.“Are you going into my class or are you leaving? Which is it?” A voice that haunted my dreams reverberated behind me. I closed my eyes and counted to 5 in my head before I faced him. Feeling the contact irritate my eyes, I struggled to resist the urge to rub them.Why did he have to be so good-looking? I wanted so much to bash his head in so I didn’t have to be reminded everyday of how handsome he looked. I forced a smile on my face and batted my lashes at him, trying to see if he’d cave.“Sorry Mr Jared. Your classes are on of my best ones here on campus. I wouldn’t miss it for a thing.”If he knew that I was mocking him, he didn’t show it. Instead he brushed past me and muttered something I never thought he would under his breath.“And I’m the asshole.”I could swear his eyes found mine every minute and narrowed imperceptibly at me. Just when I thought I
“I swear, anyone who chucks a ball of paper at me again will…”“What will you do? Hmm?” Someone from the back yelled. I’d had enough of the insults, sneers, derisive comments and physical attacks. I stood up to address the issue when Jared walked in.“Everyone settled down.” Jared’s deep voice interrupted me, calming the atmosphere with his presence.I bit my tongue and swallowed whatever I was going to utter.“Sir, the assignment was not our fault. If anything, it’s water bottle girl’s assignment that shouldn’t be accepted.” I’d decided to name the girls always behind me, for God knows what reason, GG (gossip girl) 1 and 2. I wasn’t interested in learning their names. GG1 had spoken.“I think the whole class agrees on the fact that we don’t want her as our representative anymore.” Her voice seeping with vitriol. I had cost them part of their CA and I wasn’t surprised they’d wanted that. I understood how they felt and I would accept that. What I couldn’t take was the constant assault.
Jared lifted me up and let go of my body as if it burned him to stay in close proximity with me.“Are you okay?” Alyssa’s panicked tone sliced through the awkward air.“Yeah.” My voice sounded mangled and I cleared my throat, avoiding Jared’s eyes. I adjusted my shirt where it had ridden up and my skin felt warm to touch. I hoped it wasn’t obvious how tensed and embarrassed I felt.“I’ll see you around.” Jared finally spoke up, facing Alyssa. She blushed in return as he left, leaving just Alyssa and me in the hallway.“Now that is some cake.” I turned to look at her, shock marring my features.She giggled, covering her mouth in what? Embarrassment? She probably had forgotten that I was there with her.“I cannot believe you.” I shook my head and walked beside her as we exited the building.She wasn’t wrong though. Jared had it and my ears burned with the knowledge that I’d just checked his ass out.I would be lying if I said I hadn’t felt shivers all over. My skin still burned from his