Chapter 4

YSABELLE

“What the fuck are you doing here?!” Ronan firmly shouted at me.

I was slightly surprised when he shouted, but still, my smile didn't disappear from my lips.

Good thing there aren't too many people around. If there are, it's pretty far from where we are.

“I came here just to bring you the invitation,” I answered calmly and showed him the invitation card I was carrying all along. “I thought… I thought you can't come in without it.”

His jaw clenched in rage. “Really? Is that really your reason? Don't make me a fool, Belle!” I saw how his veins almost erupted from his neck as his gaze darkened at me. “I'm not an idiot like you to believe your lame reasons! You came here to embarrass me!!”

My fingers tightly grasp the card as I'm trying to hold back the tears. I was nothing but a burden and a pest in his life.

I tried to reach his hand but he moved it away. “N-No, Ronan, it isn't like that–”

He suddenly grabbed my arm and took me to the corner where no one could see us or hear us. The way he grips his fingers tightly on my skin makes me wince in pain but I didn't complain.

“I have told you before and I will tell you again,” He said with gritted teeth. “I don't have any plans to shout to the whole world that you are my wife. I do not see you that way, Belle. I don't see you as my wife, so stop being delusional!” He scowled, and then he violently let go of my arm.

That line made my heart torn in pieces again.

How many times does my heart have to be broken before it gets tired? How many more times does my heart have to be torn into pieces before I realize that he won't love me back?

I don't know the answer to my own question. All I know is that my heart was in pain again because of Ronan.

He turned his back on me and was about to leave but I called him.

“Ronan…” He didn't look at me but he stopped in his trance. “I don't wish to be known by the whole world as your wife,” I took a step closer to him as I gazed at his broadened back. “I-I'm just wishing that you could recognize me as your wife. E-Even just a little, Ronan. Just a little.”

My hand trembled as I tried to reach his hand again but he slapped my hand away from his. I winced in pain as tears welled up in my eyes.

“Stop dreaming, Belle. It won't happen.”

He left without looking at me and went back to the blond woman. But this time, he's now wearing his smile while gazing at her.

I bit my lower lip as tears streamed down my face. It's so good to see him happy but sadly, I'm not the reason for his smile.

My tears won't back up even when I reach home and stare at the food and the gift I worked so hard to prepare today. My efforts are useless again. But I didn't regret that my efforts were wasted.

When I looked at the clock, I just cried out in pain. Ronan's birthday has passed, but sadly, it's my birthday. I couldn't feel anything but just pain on my special day.

But maybe… he will celebrate my birthday with me later.

I chuckled at my delusion as I brushed off the tears on my face. I really looked desperate and was still hoping that there was still a chance for both of us.

Ronan was right, I'm really delusional.

I covered the food on the table and put the rest in the fridge. I'll just heat it up later so it doesn't go to waste. So that all my efforts do not go to waste.

I hope Ronan remembers my birthday. It's alright if he didn't prepare any gift, I'm satisfied if he remembers my special day.

I hid in my room and didn't notice falling asleep on the couch, crying within my soul.

***

I woke up when I felt my stomach growl. I saw the sun glowing with the blue sky, while the clouds were so calm.

I shut my eyes and lean back on the couch. I don't have the energy to start my day. It's as if all of my energy was drained first thing in the morning. I couldn't even properly open my eyes.

I heard something loudly drop on the floor in Ronan's room.

Is he back? At least he came home.

With the hope that he would come home because he remembered my birthday, I rushed to his room with a little hope in my heart.

But my world shattered to see Ronan and the blond woman on his bed, naked.