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MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Pretends.
It's been close to a week now and Arabella was still trying to accept herself and her mistakes. Like any other day, she was busy with work at the office while hoping the day runs off in a blink of an eye.But as it turns out, the day was against her wishes and hopes but she didn't let it get to her as she forces herself to work till there is no more strength left.It was around three in the afternoon when she decided to visit Jack, it has been a normal thing for her.She grabs her bag and carries herself out of the company, enters her car and quickly drives away.Her car slows down before a large building, and she steps out and walks in. There wasn't a doubt in her identity as she was quickly led to the elevator leading directly to the fifth floor where Jack's office is.She steps out of the elevator as soon as it stops, walks through the corridor and only stops when she is before his office door.She takes in a deep breath, calming her worried and anxious mind. There is no way she c
Last Updated : 2023-06-19MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Letting go!
Evie sits on the table not far from the door as her gaze stays fixed at the door. "You've been sitting there all day, why not take a break?" Amanda questions walking to the table."I don't want to" Evie denies, "she promised to be here today" she adds.Amanda sighs, taking the seat next to her, "what if she's tied up with something important? She can't just rush to you because of a mere promise" she explains.Evie didn't respond, her gaze never left the entrance. Zoe promised to come over and treat her to lunch and it's almost time she hasn't shown up yet." She's gonna make it" Evie grumbles in her stomach, not willing to accept something that might be so important to keep Zoe from fulfilling her promise." So positive "Amanda chuckles." Hmm, she will come," Evie repeats, with an optimistic face.Amanda stares at her for a long time before saying, "Why not try finding out what's keeping her rather than waiting? I'm so done with that face you have on" she grumbles and leaves.Evie
Last Updated : 2023-06-19MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you My Arabella
The truth is always hard to accept, and difficult to come to terms with.Zoe thought she could make herself come to terms with the idea of wanting to move on but it turns out feelings are not just something one can erase.Realizing she can't live without her one true love, she decides to go for it, it's her last chance anyways.If she gets accepted, it'd be a miracle and if she gets rejected, it'll be no surprise though she will be hurt.On the other hand, Arabella lay back on the couch staring at the white ceiling above all lost in thought.Nothing had ever been the same ever since she left Zoe's apartment. She's lost everything, her fiance whom she thought loved her until it turned out the opposite and her best friend whom she has always ignored her love until things start streaming from within bringing weird feelings she's never thought she had.A knock came at the door pulling her off her thoughts, she frowned wondering who it might be.Deciding to see who it is, she carries her t
Last Updated : 2023-06-19MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Apologies
"I'm sorry for hurting you all these years, for judging you and leaving you when you needed me most" Arabella cries in pity."You did nothing wrong" Zoe tries to coax but Arabella is way too out of the league."No, I'm a bad person. I ignored your love for another, I bluntly hurt your feelings saying there will never be an Us. I caused you pain for years yet you never curse or judge me. I walk away from your life but you always stood by me and never made me feel less of the person I've always been to you" she explains in tears."You were doing just fine without me, so I was until I saw you after years of distance looking so happy with Evie. I didn't know why but I felt jealous, I felt hurt. Maybe I'm just selfish, maybe I just want everything for me" she cries."I never realized until I saw you two, just then I understood how egoist I am. Seeing you two made me feel things I've never felt before, not even for Rowan or Jack. I couldn't stand you two, that's why I left when you were sin
Last Updated : 2023-06-19MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Goodbyes
"Why did you lie to her and make her believe she was the one you loved? Why did you do all those things only to let her down at the tail end? Why Zoe? " She yells, demanding an answer." I'm sorry aunt," Zoe said, tears running down her cheeks. She understands all that it means, the feeling of being lied to and she is more than sorry."I honestly thought I could keep her, that we could be something more but then, I realized I am not deserving of her love. " Zoe explains, "It was never my intention to hurt her, I swear, aunt, there has never been a thought in my head other than protecting her and taking care of her" she said with all honesty." Is that so? Why then did you hurt her this much? " Amanda demands furiously."The heart doesn't lie, you can be the judge of that yourself. I can't choose whom to love and neither can I tell my heart whom to beat for. I sincerely apologize for everything, most especially for toiling with your trust and love. I know how important Evie is to you,
Last Updated : 2023-06-19MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you I LOVE YOU.
"what are you thinking?" Zoe asked, walking out of the bath with a hand towel as she wiped on her hair."Nothing" Arabella denies, running her hands through her hair. She stood up and walked to the cupboard by the side, pulling out the hair dryer."Let me," Zoe offers, takes the hand dryer and starts to blow dry her hair."There is nothing to worry about, everything has been taken care of" Zoe assures.Silent engulfed the room for a few seconds before Arabella demanded, "Did Ms Amanda understand the situation?" She is worried they might be offended by their relationship."Hmmm, she is always understanding," Zoe explains.Arabella nodded but didn't say anything even though she so much wanted to.Zoe could tell from her look that something is eating her up, she spines the chair over making her face her completely."She is understanding as well, but not as forgiven as her aunt. I don't blame her, I'm pretty sure everyone in her shoes would do the same." Zoe starts."I hurt her, Zoe. " Ar
Last Updated : 2023-06-19MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you What is love?
Somewhere in New Zealand in a small town named Hamilton, sat a little girl on a couch, watching TV..." mama, mama" she called out to her mum as she ran to where her mother was sitting..." Yes, honey...what is it?" The mother asked in a soft and pleasing tone..."make love, what does it mean?" Little Zoe asked Innocently and the mother was stunned at her questions..."Where did you hear that from?" Her mother questioned and little Zoe was very pleased to tell her..." From the movie playing on the TV screen, that lady told the other lady that they should make love?" Little Zoe explained and her mother could only shake her heart..." Only people that are in love make love" Her mother explains and little Zoe frowned a bit, she seemed to be thinking about something..." What is love, mama?" Little Zoe's question..." Love is when you find yourself wanting to be close to someone, all the time..." She explains..."just like how I want to be close to you?" Little Zoe asked and her mother n
Last Updated : 2023-02-26MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you I'm sorry, Rabella.
"Rabella?" Zoe calls out to her friend..." Yes, Zoe, "Arabella replied as she turned to her friend with a cute smile on her face..." Let's go to the field...it will be much more fun playing there" Zoe proposes and Arabella agrees by taking her hands and pulling her in the direction of the field... Zoe follows her patiently with her gaze never leaving Arabella, they walk and sit on the field, gazing at the bright sky..."Do you like spending time with me?" Zoe asked her friend and she nodded her head smiling..." why?" She asked again..." Because you are my best friend, you understand me more than my mum and dad...and I love spending time with you" Arabella explains and a smile creeps on little Zoe's jaw... Arabella hardly spends time with her mum and dad because they are always working, not like they don't care about her but that always makes her feel bad thinking they don't love her..." Does your heart always beat faster when you are around me?" Zoe questions again but this time
Last Updated : 2023-02-26
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MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you I LOVE YOU.
"what are you thinking?" Zoe asked, walking out of the bath with a hand towel as she wiped on her hair."Nothing" Arabella denies, running her hands through her hair. She stood up and walked to the cupboard by the side, pulling out the hair dryer."Let me," Zoe offers, takes the hand dryer and starts to blow dry her hair."There is nothing to worry about, everything has been taken care of" Zoe assures.Silent engulfed the room for a few seconds before Arabella demanded, "Did Ms Amanda understand the situation?" She is worried they might be offended by their relationship."Hmmm, she is always understanding," Zoe explains.Arabella nodded but didn't say anything even though she so much wanted to.Zoe could tell from her look that something is eating her up, she spines the chair over making her face her completely."She is understanding as well, but not as forgiven as her aunt. I don't blame her, I'm pretty sure everyone in her shoes would do the same." Zoe starts."I hurt her, Zoe. " Ar
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Goodbyes
"Why did you lie to her and make her believe she was the one you loved? Why did you do all those things only to let her down at the tail end? Why Zoe? " She yells, demanding an answer." I'm sorry aunt," Zoe said, tears running down her cheeks. She understands all that it means, the feeling of being lied to and she is more than sorry."I honestly thought I could keep her, that we could be something more but then, I realized I am not deserving of her love. " Zoe explains, "It was never my intention to hurt her, I swear, aunt, there has never been a thought in my head other than protecting her and taking care of her" she said with all honesty." Is that so? Why then did you hurt her this much? " Amanda demands furiously."The heart doesn't lie, you can be the judge of that yourself. I can't choose whom to love and neither can I tell my heart whom to beat for. I sincerely apologize for everything, most especially for toiling with your trust and love. I know how important Evie is to you,
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Apologies
"I'm sorry for hurting you all these years, for judging you and leaving you when you needed me most" Arabella cries in pity."You did nothing wrong" Zoe tries to coax but Arabella is way too out of the league."No, I'm a bad person. I ignored your love for another, I bluntly hurt your feelings saying there will never be an Us. I caused you pain for years yet you never curse or judge me. I walk away from your life but you always stood by me and never made me feel less of the person I've always been to you" she explains in tears."You were doing just fine without me, so I was until I saw you after years of distance looking so happy with Evie. I didn't know why but I felt jealous, I felt hurt. Maybe I'm just selfish, maybe I just want everything for me" she cries."I never realized until I saw you two, just then I understood how egoist I am. Seeing you two made me feel things I've never felt before, not even for Rowan or Jack. I couldn't stand you two, that's why I left when you were sin
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you My Arabella
The truth is always hard to accept, and difficult to come to terms with.Zoe thought she could make herself come to terms with the idea of wanting to move on but it turns out feelings are not just something one can erase.Realizing she can't live without her one true love, she decides to go for it, it's her last chance anyways.If she gets accepted, it'd be a miracle and if she gets rejected, it'll be no surprise though she will be hurt.On the other hand, Arabella lay back on the couch staring at the white ceiling above all lost in thought.Nothing had ever been the same ever since she left Zoe's apartment. She's lost everything, her fiance whom she thought loved her until it turned out the opposite and her best friend whom she has always ignored her love until things start streaming from within bringing weird feelings she's never thought she had.A knock came at the door pulling her off her thoughts, she frowned wondering who it might be.Deciding to see who it is, she carries her t
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Letting go!
Evie sits on the table not far from the door as her gaze stays fixed at the door. "You've been sitting there all day, why not take a break?" Amanda questions walking to the table."I don't want to" Evie denies, "she promised to be here today" she adds.Amanda sighs, taking the seat next to her, "what if she's tied up with something important? She can't just rush to you because of a mere promise" she explains.Evie didn't respond, her gaze never left the entrance. Zoe promised to come over and treat her to lunch and it's almost time she hasn't shown up yet." She's gonna make it" Evie grumbles in her stomach, not willing to accept something that might be so important to keep Zoe from fulfilling her promise." So positive "Amanda chuckles." Hmm, she will come," Evie repeats, with an optimistic face.Amanda stares at her for a long time before saying, "Why not try finding out what's keeping her rather than waiting? I'm so done with that face you have on" she grumbles and leaves.Evie
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Pretends.
It's been close to a week now and Arabella was still trying to accept herself and her mistakes. Like any other day, she was busy with work at the office while hoping the day runs off in a blink of an eye.But as it turns out, the day was against her wishes and hopes but she didn't let it get to her as she forces herself to work till there is no more strength left.It was around three in the afternoon when she decided to visit Jack, it has been a normal thing for her.She grabs her bag and carries herself out of the company, enters her car and quickly drives away.Her car slows down before a large building, and she steps out and walks in. There wasn't a doubt in her identity as she was quickly led to the elevator leading directly to the fifth floor where Jack's office is.She steps out of the elevator as soon as it stops, walks through the corridor and only stops when she is before his office door.She takes in a deep breath, calming her worried and anxious mind. There is no way she c
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Why do I choke on your joy?
Can you let go and see me instead? Can I be the one you see and want to be there with all the time? Can I?" Evie asked in tears, staring at the frozen Zoe."Of course, it's a no. I've known long enough and I wonder why it hurts" She turns and starts walking away."Why me? I can't be all you want" Zoe cries out, staring at Evie's excited back."I've never wanted you to be enough or perfect 'cause I neither am... I just want you to see me, accept me and love me... Is that too much to ask for?" Evie retorts."What if it doesn't work? What if we never get an Us in this?" Zoe wasn't sure of her feelings and desires and she was scared of hurting her.Evie turns around and takes counting strides toward Zoe. "Why not try and see if we are good or not? You never know what awaits us" Zoe had always known Evie to be an optimist but never would she have thought she would willingly throw herself for an experiment they both ain't sure of the end product." But it's ok, I get it... You don't wish t
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you you never see it, do you?
The entire room was engulfed in total silence, everyone staring, waiting for Zoe to start.Zoe glanced at Arabella before she locked gaze with Evie, the smile on Evie's face was enough to bring a simple and genuine smile to her lips.She turns her attention to the crowd, "hi" she speaks out unsure of what to say. "I-i am honored to be given a chance to sing to y'all, hope you enjoy the song".With that, she walks to where the piano lay, her long slender fingers dancing on the keys immersing the room with the sound of a beautiful melody as she sings.It was the song titled " Falling " by Harry Styles.It's been like forever since Arabella heard her best and childhood friend sing and hearing her now made her realize just how distant they've become.Without realizing it, tears rolled down her cheeks, she stayed glued to the girl on the stage. Her heart aches for unknown reasons and she can swear she never thought she'd feel this hurt.Usually, Zoe always stares at her while singing but i
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you not a baby.
"more like Zoe" Arabella mutters under her breath, eyes glued to where Zoe stood."I guess your closeness is more than just a friend" Evie blurt without thinking."Excuse me!!" Arabella was taken aback by her questions.Evie clears her throat at the realization of what she might be thinking, "not like that, what I mean is, you guys look more like sisters than besties" she explains."Oh!" Arabella exclaimed with a sigh of relief, "You can say that our years of friendship define our bond." She gave a sweet smile.Evie returns the smile, "Right"."Here is your drink" Zoe spoke out, handing Evie a soft cocktail drink. "Simple non-alcoholic drink for a softy" she teased.Evie couldn't hold her blush, "I'm not that soft you know, " she complains."Says a baby" Zoe chuckles and sips down her drink.Arabella on the other hand silently watched them talk with an expression that couldn't be described."I'm not a baby!" Evie pouts and hits lightly on Zoe's arms feeling embarrassed."Sure?" Zoe ra
