"When we are together, I can't catch my breath and I feel like I'm drowning" I say wiping the tears on my cheeks. Why the hell am I crying?
I lick my lips "You consume me and I don't understand these feelings, these sensations that you make me feel and I’m so confused. It's like nothing makes sense and it makes so much sense at the same time. Is it- is it supposed to feel like this?
You know I've never being with another before you and I like what we do, a lot, maybe too much. Is that even” I paused to catch my breath “is it supposed to be like this? All this time, I just try to go with the flow. And follow your lead. But I'm scar
The mafia rules.... Mafia rules... I tsked under my breath Eva mentioned the book not quite long ago I also remember Niko saying it contained the rules and regulations, roles, responsibilities and obligations of everyone single member of the family. For now, I think it's time I get acquainted with it. After that night three days ago when Niko allowed me to call the shots in our bed. I've being floating on cloud nine. Whenever Niko is around I'd feel him Looking at me. His gaze reminds me of a nature documentary I once watched about a lion stalking a gazelle. I felt stalked. But not cornered.
A soft thud sounds as a servant drops some books on the table just a few inches away from the computer which I was working on. Without looking up, I pull my laptop to the side away from her and continued my work. Scrolling through New York's lists of restaurants, diner and hotels. Anywhere a couple can go to have a good time. Niko seemed to find the idea of going of a date weird which leads me to believe he’s maybe never been on one. Yeah, I know I’m telling myself things but I want to go with that for now. Either way, it’s the first date for Niko and I as a couple, it still means a lot. It's not long before I come up with a list of places that I think will do perfectly.
It's being a week since our supposed date. Niko has only slept in our bed two times since then. How do I know this? I've being keeping count. Even went as far as to examine his bedside to see it if looked like someone slept on it, it didn’t, no lingering warmth, or crease on the sheets. After he left me that evening, he didn't come home that night. I was calm when I woke up that morning. Sleeping had made me see things with clearer eyes. Back then in Niko's study the men looked like they were planning to go on a mission or something. It could have had to do with life and death so he probably needed to go. I understood that. It's not like he blew me off to go have a drink with the guys. So like every other morning that day, I showered after my morning swim and had breakfast. Maria informed me on the recent activities in the family though
I slept in today. I don't exactly wake up at any exact time but today it's a quarter past eleven a.m when I drag my body from my bed. After taking quick shower I blow dry my hair and allow it to fall down my back in its natural form which is a wild wave on a good day. Other times it's mostly a wild mess. For some unknown reason today seem to be a good hair day so... I'm thankful. I walk to the closet after putting on light makeup. Eyeliner, some mascara and lip gloss then pinched my cheeks to give my face a healthy flush. Picking out a pair of jeans and a red cashmere sweater, I dress up quickly, finally zipping up my flat boots and leave my room. "Shit I forgot my phone!" I paused as I got closer to the stairs. But I'm so freaking hungry. "hu! I'll just get it later, it's not like anyone ever calls me" I shake my head and continued down the stairs.
I step out to see a pretty silver sports car sitting in the driveway with Tommy now wearing a black leather jacket over his T-shirt and a pair of sunglasses perched on his nose standing beside it and looking at the watch on his wrist. "Saved by five seconds, I was really hoping you'd miss me" he doesn’t even hide his disappointment. "Sorry" I said smiling like crazy. "Who is guarding you today?" "Either Miguel or Danilo but I haven't seen either of them today" I tell him when I come to stand in front of him. "You're not allowed to leave the house without them" how did he know that? "But I have you. And you're a made man aren't you? You can guard me today" "Why do I feel like this is a bad idea?" "I already informed Niko. It's cool as long as we don't do anything dangerous" more like I left him a note but I don't think I should be telling Tommy that. Tommy e
It was Sunday morning and Eva had just invited me to join her for mass, I declined. I didn't feel like praying or socializing right now which is what I know will occur after the church service. Picking up my phone I face timed my mother. She answered on the third ring. "Lola?" "Hello mother" I greet. When her image becomes clear on my phone screen. "I imagined you'll be in church now." she paused. "you look like you just got out of bed" I looked down at my nightie and robe then at my mother's pale pink dress, pearls lining her neck delicately. Her hair swept into an elegant French twist. I know her feet will be in nothing less than four inch heels as we speak. Mama never misses a day of church. She even makes time for weekly services sometimes. Unlike me. I often found reasons to get out of going. Today wa
"What the hell do you think you're doing" he growled. And I just know what he's referring to. "I don't know. You're the one holding me down against my will" "You are my wife. You're will isMYwill. So, do you want to explain your behavior this last week while I'm still a
I look like a million bucks, and I mean that quite literally, diamond chandelier ear rings hanging from my lobes, a pretty diamond bracelet on my wrist sparkling whenever it catches any light, the rose diamond necklace Niko gifted me and my ring? Yep, definitely millions. Maria and I spent all day getting me ready for tonight. I almost felt like I was preparing for my wedding day again, except this time I was a happy participant. First, I had a long soak to relax my nerves. I've being feeling very hyperactive. I need today to go well, to be nothing less than perfect.
My uncle was right, everything will change from now on, the Grecos, Mendoza, and the Oriente arms of the New York Families are no more. Though we weren't particularly friendly with the other two, it wasn't required for the business. The Greco’s however have always been closely allied with the Salvatores, it wasn’t because of that friendship that Julio was my father's right hand and his father before him, as capo it was my decision to choose my right hand, but for decades, that honor belonged to the Greco’s, until Julio fucked it up. With them gone, there is a gap, in the prominent families, and someone needs to take over for the business to run smoothly. As things settled, I just wanted some peace to be with my family, my children, I already missed so much. It was something I would never retreat, I kept them safe. I did what had to be done, even though it hadn't been my Knife in their throat or my orders. My actions lead to their deaths. And their deaths created a power vacuum, one
**“We have to leave here, get to another safe house we don’t know who else- this place has been compromised” Arms wrapped under my arms trying to pull me away. I was staring blankly at the Man I'd grown so close with. I didn't know what to do.“We can’t leave him here” Tears spilled down my cheeks. “You think I want to leave him? He was like a father to me, but I have to protect you, he would want you to get to safety”“Miguel…”“Now Lola, Now." he shook me "We have to-“ a phone ringing cuts off the rest of his words. Miguel bends down and searches through Matteo’s jacket to retrieve his phone. I crawl back to him lifting his head into my lap, spatches of blood stained my jeans as I run my fingers through his hair. “Please Matteo open your eyes,” I begged softly.He couldn’t be gone. He felt warm despite the blood pooled on the ground beneath him, he couldn’t be gone. He couldn’t...“It’s Matteo…” I hear Miguel say to the other person on the phone “He’s gone” is all Miguel says
I straightened at the sound of a car pulling closer. I know it isn’t Miguel as he’s in the next room, slowly tiptoeing to one of the windows and pushing back the curtains, “Lola don’t do that-“ “It’s Matteo” I gasped in recognition at the dark hair and family face of the man that exists the drive's seat. “It’s Matteo” I repeated “He’s here!” I announced as my heart began to race in my chest. “Stay here, stay down” Miguel ordered, as he headed to the door a gun in hand. I remained at the window, clutching my rounded belly with a shaky hand, the other fisted around the thick curtains as I tried to listen to their exchange. It went on for about half a minute but it was too long and then Miguel crossed back to the porch, he disappeared from my line of sight, and I moved to the door. The bottom of my oversized jeans dragged on the floor over my bare feet as I had left the zipper undone to accommodate my large bump. I’m standing behind the door when it opens and Miguel says “It’
“That puta was whoring around dirtying the family line-“ she gurgles, choking as red spills from a thin line across her throat. A hand flew to her neck eyes wide in shock. No one was allowed to speak of that, I took pains in ensuring it remained that way. The consequences would be devastating. I look at the blade in my hand then swipe the napkin beside her tea set to wipe the little blood at the end. I turned around and came to a stop at the dark figure at the entrance. Fuck. “Is it true what she said?” I observe his stance, the pistol hanging loosely at his side, my brows furrowed as I tried to figure out how long he’s been standing there, how much he heard, I let out a sigh, “Tommy…” He sucked in a deep breath, his empty hand clenching into a shaky fist. “Did you know?” Tommy asked calmly. I grit my teeth and wipe the blade once more, then I return it to the sheath strapped to my wrist, soothing down my sleeves to keep it hidden. I turned to my brother fully and asked “Wh
Bang! Bang! Bang!!! Gunshots sound as I make my way down the hall of an Italian-styled penthouse. The enemy tries to return fire, but they are quickly overwhelmed by my men. Martino Greco led me to Valentina's hideout like a mouse to the cheese. Pained grunts and shocked yells followed by the thuds of bodies heating the ground, and then quiet. Hmm. I walk in smooth strides past pools of blood, bodies littering the polished wooden floors noting the soldiers Valentina called from her mansion in Italy, I frown at the sight of a falcon tatted on one of the fallen men’s forearms, seems she hired some mercenaries also. Splendid. Last night Valentina sent her men to Mendoza and Orinete households while they slept and took them out in one swell move. It is why I can break in with little to no resistance, half of her man power is gone. Danilo inclined his chin at me then motioned up silently a gun in hand, corked and still at the ready. Chase and Emilio stand beside him each o
I stared out the window on the ride back. Like the two times we’ve gone out, I remain in the car while he checks the property, when he signals all clear I open my door and move to the back to get the kids. Miguel goes around the other side and gets started on Angelo’s seat, he undoes the strap holding the child to the seat and then unhooks the chair fully so he can take it inside. “Want to tell me what happened at the clinic?” he questions as we walk. I shook my head nothing. “You don’t really expect me to believe that do you?” “What makes you think I did anything." “Excluding the fact that you looked guilty as hell when we got back, there’s a tear glued to your lashes" he pointed one end of his bottled water at me, "Why were you crying” We entered the cabin and I unstrapped the kids to let them run free. “I just needed to use the bathroom quickly” I paused helping Angelo to his feet. “I called him” I admitted. His expression remains unchanged. “You don’t seem surprised
NIKO That evening I left using one of the hidden exist. There's a car parked under the bridge, I pull up behind it, leaving the engine still running as I look out the window, moments later a male form, wearing a black oversized coat blowing the wind takes long steps in my direction as far as his short legs can carry him, the side door opens and he drops down beside me, the smell of tobacco that follows him where ever he goes fills the car. I make no effort to his my frown. Excluding the fact that it was a shitty habit that kills the liver, I imagine it would make stealth impossible if they can smell you from a mile away. And I preferred to leave no traces, unless it was a warning that is. I have half the mind to ask him to exit my vehicle before he saturates it with his unpleasant smell but I need him tonight so I decided to play nice. “How did it go?” Martino Greco smacks his lips once, “Just as you expected boss, Maxim sent another offer, I did as you said while showing some
LOLA I’ve been teaching my twins simple words and pointing out items around the house for them. I once read that kids need contact with other people and other kids to stimulate growth, and I’ve been doing what I can to fill that role. "Nana" Angel mumbled pointing at the banana when Miguel walked past eating a banana last night.It is also his favorite fruit. Micaela liked peaches.I also roped Miguel into watching some soap operas airing every evening with me so I’d have something to look forward to and someone to discuss with. Soap operas were always better when you had someone to discuss them with. He acts like he hates them but I swear he secretly enjoys them. He finds it hard to understand the motives of the main antagonists and often wonders why the ‘good guys’ give so many chances.No one is that inherently good. Miguel had said when the main female character got played for the fourth time in twenty episodes. It's plain stupidity. he added his two cents, I shook my head with
NIKO -Months later... “Who can we count on?” Tommy asked his chin on his jaw. In front of me at the other side of the desk Matteo cleared his throat and the other turned to him, “Brenadi, Orisi, Ajello, the Sances are a given" he tips his head. With Chase one of my trusted enforcers the head of the Sances family, it was a given, I trusted him to keep his house in check, the others however, "The others will need more convincing" Matteo added voicing my exact thoughts. “That’s four out of twelve” Vincent grunted unable to hide his displeasure. “How can Valentina have eight over us, the bitch has been in Italy for almost three decades," Tommy growls. “Exactly, lots of families owe her favors, she ran this family before us with an iron fist and she never fully removed her claws while my brother was capo, that’s nearly four decades of loyalty from the New York families. "Enough time to amass a fortune's worth of secrets and debts to call in, moreover, a number of the men are too sca