PHOENIX I’m not as excited as I usually am when I know Ezra will be back in a few minutes. I’m more anxious and nervous than excited. I know everything that Kiara said is true but there is still a delusional part of me that wants him to deny all of it and say it is just what it is, a rumor. He is an hour late which of course doesn’t help with how I am feeling and when I finally feel my heart jump—that happens when he is near—I hope he would stay out a bit longer so I can wallow in this dream that is so perfect but I have always known would not end in a happily ever after. The thought is both sad and depressing and I need a break from all of this. I wish I could find a place to escape to where there won’t be. Real life or a fantasy. I’ll take nothingness and bleakness over this anxious energy that threatens to suffocate me. I take in a deep breath the same time the door opens, Prince Ezra’s eyes find me the moment he steps into the room and when I exhale, it comes out as a small sig
EZRA I was able to convince Phoenix I’ll fix everything and then she wouldn’t have to leave, she wouldn’t sacrifice herself, sacrifice me and us for the country. I know this sounds terrible coming from me seeing as I’m going to lead these people someday, but it is for the good of them that I’ll do this. Phoenix has a good heart and she may not see it but she meant to be a queen. Everything about her is that of a queen, I’ll make sure she sees that. How easily she wanted to put the country and people before herself made me see just how good of a queen she would be. She is not just a robotic human who grew up listening to the same set of rules, do this and don’t do that. No, she has a mind of her own and I know she has great ideas that will birth a better werewolf community. Something I’ve been dreaming of since I understood what being the future lycan king meant. It is too much pressure to put on someone who didn’t know about this until just a few months ago. The rational voice in m
PHOENIX“Everything okay?” I ask Prince Ezra, leaning into his touch. His arms come to wrap around me and I rest my head on his shoulder.Sitting with him like this feels like the most natural thing and I don’t want him to move. How did I ever think I could leave him?I’ve only known him a few weeks but just the thought of not being with him like this scares the shit out of me. Is that normal or have I really lost my mind?Aren’t people in love mad? I shake that thought off, denying to myself that I am in love with him. I know I like him, I like like even, but love? I’m not so sure about that.Or maybe you’re too scared to admit that to yourself?“Everything is fine,” I gave him a look. I know he is not telling the truth and the way he averts his gaze confirms that.“No, it is not,” I sigh and move away, putting a little distance between us so I am able to look at his face while we speak.“Phoenix,” I shake my head, cutting him off.“No, Ezra. You can’t bottle up and keep things from
PHOENIX Prince Ezra was better before he left, and I enjoyed the day with him outside. I saw a different part of him, minus the guards obviously keeping an eye on us. I feel a little awkward about that because I feel like they were looking out for him, from me. if that even makes sense but he was smiling and the dark look in his eyes was gone by the time he said he had to go back to work. Sadly I didn’t get anything from him regarding his brother because he’d brushed it off after I asked what he meant by Prince Zanders has a dark side. Of course I didn’t let it go so he promised he would tell me. Just that it had to wait till in the evening when we were alone in the privacy of his room and I’m looking forward to that. After he left, I didn’t want to go back inside and just went to the servant quarters to meet with Kiara, to surprise her. She was elated, and she’d said she was on her way to see me when I got there. Apparently, Princess wannabe—yes, she is still calling her that—has g
EZRAI hated that I had to cut my lunch date with Phoenix short but Jerry said they’d finally gotten a response from Nate, that was enough for me to get my ass up and return to my office.“What does it say? What did he say?” I ask in a rush, heading to the living area instead of my desk.Jerry drops the envelope on the table before me then moves back to stand in his place. I open it up, my hands almost shaking from the energy running through me.It is just an empty envelope and when I unfold it, I realize it is the letter. In Nate’s normal neat handwriting, only one word is written. A time.10:30pm.What the hell does that mean?! I turn back and give Jerry a look, he is already watching me but from his expression I know he doesn’t have anything for me.“Who brought this?” I ask, holding the paper up.“How he usually does sir,” I don’t know how he usually does but I don't ask.Nate knows how important it is for him to be back. We need to figure this out soon if my father and Alejandro
EZRA“He killed him?” I ask, disgust and disbelief coating my tone.“I’m sure the king thought he was doing the right thing.” I shake my head before she can even finish, that does not excuse anything.“He was barely an adult and he just witnessed his entire family get killed, that is not losing control. It is reacting!” I don’t realize I’m yelling until she flinches. I sit back and run my hand through my hair. I exhale a breath through my mouth and try to slow my breathing, when I feel the anger simmer down, I sigh and look up. “I’m sorry.”“It is alright,” she tries to smile but it falters. “And I’m not very sure about that, it is said that it is not easy to kill a wolf with dark powers because they live on. He may have been imprisoned, that is what some of the other books say.”I massage my temples again, trying to not think of my great grandfather killing an innocent child because he thought he was too powerful. I have heard of the despicable things they have done, I’m not stupid a
PHOENIXMy breath catches in my throat as Prince Ezra utters those words. I can’t explain what exactly I’m feeling, I’m elated that he loves me. I mean he LOVES me! I’m losing my mind right now.At the same time, I’m scared, frightened out of my wits because he LOVES me, does that even make sense? Maybe I am going crazy and I probably made up the words in my head.Or I’m hallucinating, yes that seems more plausible.I should check, touch him to see if he is really here. I moved forward, our foreheads were already joined and this way, I felt his breath more. No, I feel that he is real. This is real, what just happened. All of it is real.Prince Ezra loves me!His soft, beautiful, enchanting voice breaks through my crazy thoughts and I blink before focusing on him, his eyes are closed, his lips moving, his breath fanning my face and I’m in heaven.“You don’t have to say it back, I understand that you need some time to get used to all of this craziness—“I cut him off, joining our lips be
EZRAIt has been five days with no word from Nate and safe to say, I have conjured up uncountable bad scenarios of what must have happened. At some point I even thought he’d died though I did not feel our connection break, which leaves me with maybe he was abducted and held hostage. I can never be too sure and now I’m very close to sending out a search party to God knows where when I have zero idea where he might be.The past few days haven’t been easy on me. The only respite I have is Phoenix who has been supportive, I realize now just how much better having her in my life is. She so easily takes my worries away.She didn’t ask where or what he might be looking for that is making me so worried about him not coming back. She understood that someone very close to me might be in danger and she has been by my side, shutting off every negative thought that I have.I have to meet with parliament and my father today. It is not going to be good for my mood but I have to. My father has reques
PHOENIX It felt like I had been sleeping for years on end, and when I finally woke up, my entire body felt fatigued. Too heavy for me to lift even a finger. Ezra was beside me, he was wide awake and he was just watching me. I was aware of his presence, even in my unconscious state and that just made me realize how extremely lucky I am to have him in my life. “Hi,” he whispers, moving closer and pulling my body to his. I sigh when I feel his warmth surround me. He felt like peace, like home. “Hey,” my voice was weak from lack of use so I cleared my throat and tried again. it wasn’t any better not that he seemed to mind. “I feel like I have been sleeping for years.” I mutter, stretch and yawn as my bones make satisfactory pops all around. I felt slightly better after that stretch. “Three days,” Ezra says, his voice gentle and calm. I knew something was wrong from the way he sounded. Pushing back the heaviness I was feeling and the voice in my head telling me this was going to b
EZRA We have Alejandro and Hank in custody now, with audio and video proof of them admitting to all the things they had done.Yesterday had taken multiple unexpected turns but it turned out perfectly well if you asked me. I just had one thing to cross off my list before I can finally be at peace.I’m careful as I get out of bed. Phoenix is sleeping beside me. She has been out since last night when we came back with Nate and the cars they brought with them. I refused any medical checkup and instead stayed by my mate's side until she was cleared.The doctor, who thankfully knew what was happening, had stepped in for their actual doctor. They couldn’t deal with her face to face beforehand since they didn’t want their identity to be known, which made it easier for that to happen. A little overhaul and show of power by Nate had the actual doctor spilling, which allowed them to bring our doctor in.I was only able to alert Nate of what was happening but the second they drugged me, our conn
PHOENIX Alejandro is your typical bad guy, who would sit for hours and tell you how he came up with his perfect plans, the steps he followed, the moves you made that made it easy for him to win.I think I fell asleep five times during his anecdote, and each time I woke up, I prayed he would be done but my prayers weren't answered. We were all exhausted. In fact, he was the only one that didn’t seem tired of hearing himself.I started to feel sorry for him, because he clearly had issues. I couldn’t pinpoint where it stemmed from but he was more than due for therapy. And thanks to his torture, we all might too.“Enough.” Alpha Hank growls, getting off the wall he’d been resting on during his brother’s long history lesson.I have to admit, that is the one twist to the story I didn’t see coming. And though it doesn’t seem that significant, something tells me we need to be careful. I still have those dreams I’m not sure I translated well.At least, I feel better knowing Ezra is going to b
PHOENIX“Are you okay?” the doctor asks, looking over her shoulder in fear.“Do I look okay to you?” I mutter drily. I know I sound like a bitch but I couldn’t care less what she thought of me right now.She heaves a sigh and comes to stand in front me, she rethinks and immediately steps back, putting a little space between us. I only rolled my eyes because if I wanted to get to her, I would have since when Alpha Hank and Sibel’s dad were here. I’m not scared of them, even in the slightest bit.I’m biding my time because if I let whatever I’m feeling crackling under my skin take over, then I would rather it be worth it. I have a feeling there will be no going back from there.“You’re right, that is not the right question.” She huffs out a breath.I watched her, trying to look past the anger I’m feeling at her betrayal, to try and give her the benefit of the doubt but it doesn’t work. Maya just wants to tear her apart and it is taking everything I have in me to stop her from acting on
EZRAJax is losing his mind not knowing where Phoenix is or how she is managing.I’m calm for some reason, because I know she is alright. I don’t know how I know it, but I just di=o.‘Calm down, she is fine.’ I reply in a calming way, hoping it would help him relax but he just growls at me too. I sigh and throw my head back then almost immediately regret it when the wood dug into the back of my neck.They could have at least gotten comfortable chairs if they wanted to kidnap me. The chair is the most uncomfortable I have ever sat in.‘How can you be calm at a time like this?!’‘I trust Phoenix, if she was in danger she would have reached out to me by now.’ He just grunts. Not believing what I’m saying, or more accurately it wasn’t enough to make him calm down.‘And how can you be of help? Last I checked, you’re tied up.’‘I have you,’ I say with a small laugh. ‘I’m kidding.’ I immediately add before he does something dumb like try and hit me. Which is impossible but annoyance is a gre
PHOENIX I was tied up. It was the first thing I noticed when I woke up.I panicked immediately and tried to fight against the restraints but it was pointless. I didn’t even think to check to see if the person that has me tied up is still here. I just knew I needed to get out of here, I didn’t know how but I’ll be damned if I stay here for any moment longer.Ezra! The realization makes me stop struggling. I look around the room frantically, trying to see if I can see him but I’m alone.Everywhere is dark, if not for my wolf vision, I wouldn’t have been able to even make out anything.I’m on a wooden chair that is not comfortable in the least and my hands are tied behind me, so tightly that I fear that if I move the wrong way, I will pull them right out of their sockets.I couldn’t believe Jake’s dad was doing this. I didn’t even understand what he meant by the power I had was his. I never wanted it, but now that he so obviously wants it so he could hurt more people. He would have to k
PHOENIXI thought I was hearing things when I heard my old alpha’s voice. Jake’s dad. But when I turned, almost completely confident that I would find a different person, I saw him and my blood immediately went cold.Ezra’s hands tighten around me like he could feel the same negative energy I feel rolling off the man in waves.For the entire time I dated Jake, I wouldn’t say we were particularly close with his dad. I stayed away from him as much as I could because he just had this scary aura I didn’t like. Now, I’m seeing it as a different thing, especially as he bares his teeth in what I assume was supposed to be a smile.“What are you doing here?” I ask, my voice shaking slightly.He looks down at me, literally, and his lips turn down in distaste. He never really liked me but he never openly hated me. He just made it clear that he didn’t care what his son did with me. He looked like he wanted to slit my throat right now.“Shu—”“I would be careful how I finished that sentence if I w
EZRA Multiple times, I almost stopped Phoenix so I could kiss her and many more things. I managed to get my wolf to shut the hell up. This is extremely important for her—for both of us and our life. Our future.“Do you know where you’re going?” I ask her, circling my arm around her waist and pulling her to my side. She stretches and covers her mouth with her hand, yawning loudly.“I think I do,” she rests her head on my shoulder. I kiss the top of her head and hum in response.“I should have let you sleep more,” I murmured, steering her away from a tree root she hadn’t noticed.“I’m fine.” I only hum in response.She is stubborn but I loved her determination. I don’t know how she is doing it but i commend her hard work and efforts.Dealing with uncertainty and not knowing what to do or what is going to happen sucks. I’m unable to focus on anything, my mind is constantly running, thinking of things that could go wrong or another threat toward her.We have gone far from the main buildi
PHOENIX “Are you okay?” Ezra asks, his voice shaky as he holds both my shoulders. He wraps his arms around me, looks over my body, he is touching every part of me like he doesn’t even know where to check or where to stop.I’m not looking at him, instead I’m staring at his back, right at the large imposing building I have never seen before. We are not at the palace, this place looked unfamiliar but I feel like I have been here before. I feel the same feeling of déjà vu and I shake my head.“Phoenix?” I look back at Ezra, his amber eyes are filled with worry and he is panicking. I can read it in his body language.“I’m fine.” I’m surprised by how steady my voice sounds. “What happened?”I move out of his hold, a pained look crosses over his eyes but he doesn’t reach out for me, instead he stood to his feet when I did the same. Still standing at a safe distance, he reaches for my hand which I don’t offer.The way he looked like a scorned child made me feel bad but I don’t let that emoti