Expect Nothing But Pain

There was a tension in the air that was thick enough to be sliced through with a kitchen knife. Clary was very uncomfortable and embarrassed. She just really wanted to leave so she could get back to the festival, but no, she was stuck in the ballroom. 

Clary had already had a life of pain and drama, all she wanted was something different. She wanted a happily ever after. She felt like she at least deserved that; like she at least deserved a break from her hard life of misery and darkness. 

But there she was, in a situation where her mate had to be a married man! And not just any married man, but the Alpha of the pack! Fate was playing a very sick game that was not fair at all. 

And now that the Luna knew, it was all way too complicated. All Clary wanted to do was what she did the best: run. She was itching to just run away from all this. 

“Should I take your silence as a yes?” Selena asked Ace in a hard tone. She did not even want to take a look at Clary, she felt insulted that her husband would even consider the omega his mate. It was like a statement, saying that he had a bad choice in women. 

“I’m not rejecting her,” Ace replied to her, standing by his word. “And I am certainly not changing my mind. So you know what, Selena, do your worse. Make a scene for all I care,” He challenged her. 

It was something that he barely did because, to be honest, he was a bit scared of her. 

Selena nodded and swallowed. She chuckled without humor and touched the tips of her hair before speaking, “Alight. But first, let’s ask the omega. I want to know her thoughts.” She turned her attention to Clary and stared at her in mild disgust. 

“I just want to go back to the festival,” Clary said in a shy voice. She was no longer crying but her heart felt heavy. “I don’t care about whatever mate bond that Ace may think that we have. I just want to leave this room.” 

Selena was pleasantly taken aback. She did not expect that from the omega. She had had to deal with a lot of women and girls who were obsessed with Ace, but Clary was truly different. She could tell that the omega liked her husband, but she was pushing aside her emotions. 

She turned to Ace. “You see? Let the poor girl leave. She only wants to enjoy the festival.” She chuckled lightly. 

“Clary, what are you doing?” Ace asked in a sad tone. “You feel what I feel. You know that we’re mates. So why are you resisting?” 

Clary felt a tug on her heart but she did not want any more drama. She had enough of her own in her ordinary life. “May I leave, please?” She asked as she peeled her eyes off the Alpha. 

Her wolf was still dormant even though she was eighteen. But she could sometimes hear him or even feel what he was feeling at times. She had named him Silence, because, since she became of age, he was mostly silent. 

She could feel great sadness in her and her wolf was fighting against her decision to leave. But still, it barely spoke to her. 

“Clary…” Ace stepped in her direction but Selena was not going to let that happen. 

“Come on, darling. In fact, I will take you out.” She walked past her husband and gestured for Clary to take her hand. 

Clary was tentative but she did. She took Selena’s hand and was led out of the ballroom, down the hall, and to the back of the house. Then they came to a stop. 

“Thank you for helping me in there,” Clary extended her gratitude but was soon put in her place. 

The Luna laughed in her face and asked, “You really think that I would help you? A girl that wants to steal my man? Girl, bye!” She scoffed rudely before rolling her ocean-blue eyes. 

“I was not trying to steal…” Clary was not even given the opportunity to complete her sentence. 

“Blah, blah, blah. That’s what they all say. Now, get out of here. The guard would take you straight out of the compound.” Selena gestured to the buff guy that soon appeared. 

“But–but the Moon Festival. I still want to attend it,” Clary said as she glanced at the buff guard and back at Selena. 

“No, darling. You messed up that opportunity when you decided to make a move on my husband.” She then looked at the guard and ordered him, “Get her out of my compound. And if she comes back, have her arrested.” 

Clary was shocked. 

She had always looked up to Selena. She saw her as the perfect Luna. She saw her as someone that she aspired to be. So it was like she was hit in the face with a bag of bricks when she saw what Selena was really like. 

“Let’s get going, pretty lady,” The guard grabbed Clary’s arm and started to push her away. 

“Okay, okay, I’m walking. Let me go,” She said in a pinched tone at the guard. As she walked away towards the exit at the back of the compound, she glanced back and saw Selena watching with a look of satisfaction on her face.

“Come on, keep walking,” The guard said in a hard tone as he pushed the omega once more. 

Clary felt a knot in her throat and tears threatened to spill from her eyes. But she refused to cry. It was her fault that she had hope. It was her fault that she did not expect to be disappointed. It was her fault that she did not expect pain.

It was her fault that she thought that she could be like the other girls that had perfect lives. 

When she walked out of the compound, the cold air of the night was the first to greet her. She had never felt so alone. She had literally missed the opportunity to change her life. 

Now she had to wait another year to even try again. It sucked but what sucked, even more, was the fact that she had to go back home to her drunk dad who wanted to kill her.