The party was brilliant, even seeing Colin, John and Simon wasn't enough to ruin the evening.
I can't believe I actually asked Luke to teach me how to do stuff, I must have had a rush of bravery or something, because I didn't even feel embarrassed about it. Except when I remembered what Colin used to say about me, but I already feel like I'm improving and with Luke's previous experiences, I should be in good hands.
He's apparently busy this morning, but asked me to come to his for my next lesson around five tonight, then afterwards we're meeting everyone at the cinema and I'm so excited, for both activities actually.
I can't believe I've only known them a week and they're already including me as though I'm one of them. It really is so different from my last school. I've not heard from any of my supposed best friends
"Darling, you're here." My mother's voice has changed since she's been with Trevor and I hate it, she used to be so normal, but now she puts on this voice as if she's trying to speak like the queen.It's just not her and I don't think she should have to pretend to be someone else just because the bloke's got a lot of money."Hi, Mum." She grabs me into a cuddle and holds me for a few seconds before tugging me towards the living room where Trevor is sitting with Cally and her brother Stephen, all of them sitting upright as if they can't allow themselves to be comfortable, even at home."Luke." Trevor stands to shake my hand, trying to hide the fact that we both know he can't stand me.I'm not sure if it's just that I'm a living reminder that my mum had a life
"Sweetheart, how much longer are you doing? I'm making breakfast." My mum raises her voice so it gets to me through the water, so I swim to the edge of the pool and check the clock on the wall."Um… half an hour ok?" I pant to get my breath back, but as soon as she nods, I set off again, trying to shave seconds off my freestyle laps."Do you think you'll be ready for Sunday?" My dad asks, although he already knows the answer, I'm always ready, swimming is like breathing to me."Yeah, I think I've got a good chance at winning." I say and I truly believe it, my times have never been faster. With the shorter school days at this new school, I've been able to get longer training done in the morning, as well as each night before bed and I've never felt stronger.
Cleo arrives at mine at ten, it only took one look at her to know my mother would love her on sight. She's dressed like she's going to a posh day out. White trousers with a sharp crease up the centre, loose blue blouse and some wedge heels that bring her up much closer to my 6 foot 4 inches.She grins at me from beneath some ridiculously oversized sunglasses that my mother would die for and a thin silver chain with God knows how many diamonds glints around her neck."Fuck me, you look like you're off for a day out with the Queen." I say and she pushes her glasses down her nose to peer over them at me."That's the idea, darling." She follows the posh voice with a saucy wink that has my face splitting into a massive grin, then opens her palm so her car keys dangle from her middle finger. As I go to take them fro
"You are a crazy good actress." Luke says as soon as we're in the car and driving back to his. "And you weren't kidding when you said you could make them love you, I swear they were ready to adopt you or marry us off.""Oh no, you've discovered my secret plan to trap you into an arranged marriage." I laugh, holding my hands above my head to catch the wind as he drives. "Seriously though, they're nowhere near as bad as I was expecting, your mum's lovely.""Yeah, maybe." He smiles across at me and I return it happily. I've quite enjoyed myself today, despite the worry beforehand, they were surprisingly understanding about the whole Colin situation. "How did you know all that art stuff though? You just happen to guess Trevor was an art buff and cram last night or something?""No, that was all true, did you not notice t
Shane let's himself in my house at the crack of dawn, in actuality it's like eight in the morning, but I didn't get a lot of sleep last night. I was so horny after Cleo left that I ended up having a wank in the shower, twice and still images of her licking my semen off her hands had me hard as rock as soon as I tried to get to sleep. I need to get laid soon. "Mate, cover yourself up." Shane laughs, chucking a cushion at me, shielding his eyes from my naked body as soon as I peel the quilt back. "Worried I'll turn you on." I wink at him. "You'd be lucky. Hurry up, Rory's outside in a text fest with the others about how today is going to play out. Apparently even the girls are going to be scary Branston High scum when
Luke gets up and answers the door. A girl's voice floats through to us, then footsteps run upstairs and Luke reappears, sitting down beside me and spinning the bottle like nothing has happened.No one looks at all surprised by this even though we can still hear footsteps above our heads.He's tense beside me and I'm trying to work out what's going on with him, but he keeps avoiding eye contact. Focusing on whoever is telling their story, with much more interest than he was paying before the interruption. Eventually I give up wondering, figuring I'll ask him when we're on our own.That's if we're going to, now that he has company? I'll probably end up going home instead.The realisation make me put the beer down that
I’d expected Cleo to stay the night last night, I know she’d barely touched her beer, but it was late when we got to bed and then we fucked twice, which was much needed on my side. I’ve been so preoccupied with her that I haven’t had time to go out and pull anyone else, but actually, despite her fears of it hurting and not knowing what she was doing, she was very good in bed. I was pleasantly exhausted when she got up and started getting dressed to go home. I even tried to convince her to stay, which is unusual for me, but it made sense since we’re all going paintballing today. She insisted on driving back home though, saying she didn’t have a change of clothes here and didn’t want to wear the same thing and make it obvious to everyone what had happened. I made her promise to text me when she got in and I’m trying not to take offence to that, but she did say I could drive over and pick her up after
I wake up in Luke’s car feeling much better. He must have woken before me and let me sleep while he drove the rest of the way to Alex’s farm, which was really sweet, especially since I’m not sure how much, if any, sleep he must have gotten between him stopping texting me last night and picking me up this morning. Alex and a few other people are already setting up the games when we arrive and immediately a pretty blonde girl runs over and wraps her arms around Luke. A worrying twinge of jealousy pulses through me and I try to suppress it when she turns around and smiles at me. “Cleo right? Rory told me about you. I’m Kia.” She says, but her arm is still around Luke’s waist and I can’t focus on anything but that. It’s only when Luke laughs and nudges me that I realise I’m still staring at her. “Sorry, yes, I’m Cleo
"It's morning, it's morning, it's not night time, it's morning." Luke sings at the top of his lungs as we walk down the hallway from our room. "Shut the fuck up, it's five am, you utter psychopath." Jenny pops her head out of her room and glares bleary eyed in our direction, her finger jutting angrily with each word. "You might think you're scary, but I will stab you in your sleep if you keep doing this every bloody day." "Jenny, you look upset darling, are you not getting laid?" He smirks at her, ducking when she launches a shoe at him. "I hate you so much, why the hell did I agree to live with you all?" With a frustrated growl, she slams her bedroom door and Luke wraps his arms around me, chuckling to himself. "You're so mean." I giggle, pressing a kiss to his chee
I'm so fucking happy right now, it's unbelievable. I refused to let Cleo have a moment away from me all Sunday. Ok, I did let her piss alone, but only because she made me, locking the door to keep me out and flushing the toilet before she did anything so I didn't hear her. Apparently it's a girl thing which she only admitted, with beetroot coloured cheeks, because I had an inkling about what she'd done and teased her about why she had to flush twice. But other than going to the toilet, I kept her right beside me the entire day, jumping into the shower with her in the morning and standing right beside her when we brushed our teeth. Today is going to be harder though, we've got school and I only have one lesson with her. I feel a little crazy, as though now I've finally got her, I'm terrified something's going to happen to make her realise I'm no
One more night, I can't not do one more night with Luke after that. I know it's going to hurt tomorrow but it's worth it because I've never felt as much love for anyone as I do about him right now.That song, my god, I thought his voice was enough to have me melting, but coupled with that song, it was like he was speaking directly to my heart, my soul even and it was enough to make me forget there was anyone else in the room. If it wasn't for his mum grabbing him the second he got off stage I would have been a sobbing mess, begging him to be with me forever.We don't speak as we drive back to his house. He didn't ask if I was ok with going there and I didn't object. Maybe he wants me as much as I want him right now, I'd like it if that was true. Regardless, I'm a little scared to speak in case I break the spell we both seem to be under.
Cleo's avoiding me. I thought we were getting somewhere when she invited me around Monday night, even if she quickly rescinded that invite. I'm so ready to tell her I love her and want her to be my girlfriend but I can't get a single minute with her alone. At all.All week at school she's made excuses about having to work on this stupid project and then she's supposedly had to train straight after school each night, she doesn't answer the phone and I've been half expecting her to back out of my mum's engagement party tonight. Although she'd have to actually talk to me to do that and she's not said two words to me since she hung up the phone Monday night. So I'm heading over to hers, psyching myself up to bare my soul to her, maybe in an unplanned rush in the next few minutes if she's not coming with me.I could be about to completely humiliate
I've changed my hair five times so far and I'm still not happy with it. I've put make-up on, taken it off and put it back on again and now I'm staring at my reflection annoyed that I feel so nervous about going to school this morning.It's Luke. Just Luke.But this is the first time I'm going to see him properly after ending everything. I'm not counting Friday night's episode since it was so chaotic and I don't really know what that was about. It felt like a goodbye, a real goodbye, a final end to whatever we were doing.I need to get over whatever hope is still left inside me that spurted back to life when he asked me to still come to his mum's engagement do. After re-reading the messages I realised he only wants me there to keep up the pretence for his family, he even sai
I pull up outside my mum's house Saturday evening wondering if I'm making a huge mistake. I called Trevor this morning asking for his help and he seemed far too excited, but it's done now, I have to do this.Blowing out my breath, I take my hands through my hair and step out of the car. I'm fifteen minutes early, but he's doing me a favour, so I thought I'd start off on the right foot, except, by the sex noises coming from upstairs, I'm fairly confident he's not home.Or at least I hope that's not him and mum!The thought makes me shudder as images I definitely don't want to be seeing plant themselves at the forefront of my brain."Oh yes, yes, right there." Cally's voice echoes from above.
Elias doesn’t speak for a long time once we’re back at the table, just plays with his food while one side of his jaw steadily moves from red to black.“I’m so sorry.” I say eventually. He lifts an eyebrow, looking at me for further explanation. “I didn’t know Luke would be here, I’ll talk to him. He can’t go around punching people for no reason.”“This. I don’t blame you or even him really. I’d do the same if I saw Millie out on a Friday night with some guy.” He laughs, shaking his head at me and running his hand over his jaw.“That’s different, she’s your girlfriend and I’m pretty sure you’d find out what was going on before swinging your fists.” I sink into my chair, mortified about t
I'm existing, that's the only word to describe my life at the moment. Acting. That's another good one. Emily insisted I stay with them for the majority of this week, but she did allow me to skip school.Aurora came over the first night and questioned me like she's Judge fucking Judy, asking me multiple times about what happened with Cleo and getting frustrated with my reluctance to discuss it.She doesn't understand though, how could she? There's no doubt that her and Shane love one another completely and Shane's a great guy, he's got his shit together now. They've got plans to go off to uni together, then they'll get married, probably move back here somewhere and pop out a couple kids. Even when they fight, they know they love each other and so everything will be ok.I sound jealous and fuck it, I am. C
"Cleo honey, Aurora's here for you." My mum comes downstairs to the swimming pool with Aurora following closely behind her. "Sit down here, I'll get you some drinks and Cleo needs to get out of the pool anyway, she's done more than enough training."She directs the last comment in my direction, a lifted brow enough to let me know shes worried I'm overdoing it, but it's the only place I can seem to shut my mind off.Aurora watches me without saying a word while I climb out of the pool and wrap myself in a towel, perching on the chair opposite hers."Hi." I say, squeezing water from my hair to avoid her studious gaze."You going to explain what happened? Because we thought you were skiving and then it turns out you're just avoiding us and Luke's in an absolute state.